Unsent messages to J
From: ABC
To: J
Date: November 9, 2020, 10:05 pm UTC
Please keep lighting every room you walk in. You make me feel like nobody else does. I’ll love you forever.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: November 9, 2020, 6:15 pm UTC
I think I’ll never love anyone like you ever again. I just want to be near you for the rest of my life.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: November 9, 2020, 6:01 pm UTC
You will forever be stuck in my head and I hate that because I've made so many sacrifices just to make sure you were happy but when met with the same choices, you didn't think about me once.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: November 9, 2020, 4:57 pm UTC
I’ve been screaming that I want to go and leave me alone for well over a few months now. LEAVE ME ALONE JON YOU LOOK LIKE A FUCKING WOMBAT
From: ABC
To: J
Date: November 9, 2020, 3:14 pm UTC
Todavia recuerdo el dia en que te conoci fuiste mi primer amor aunque la verdad nunca tuve el valor de escribirte me gustabas siempre espere que llegaras y me dijeras que me amabas pero nunca fue asi
From: ABC
To: J
Date: November 9, 2020, 12:10 pm UTC
i thought it wld be easier by now. i rly wonder if i ever cross your mind because i swear you live in mine.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: November 9, 2020, 7:58 am UTC
You were right. I did find someone better for me. I wish you the best & hope you find true love as well. Thank you for teaching me what I didn’t want in a relationship.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: November 9, 2020, 4:34 am UTC
I think I like you a lot. I think you do too. But we can’t be together because it would ruin everything.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: November 9, 2020, 3:24 am UTC
Porque en ese momento te importaba más el que dirán, la cagaste conmigo sabiendo que me querĂas más de lo normal. y asĂ me perdiste
From: ABC
To: J
Date: November 9, 2020, 2:48 am UTC
hi j, i know it’s been a while since we’ve talked but i just wanted you to know that there’s not a day that goes by that i don’t think about you. i have so much to thank you for and i owe so much to you. i see so much of myself in you and i’m realizing that because i am trying to let you go but now it feels like letting go of you is letting go of part of myself. i have so much more to say but all i want to type is that i think i loved you.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: November 9, 2020, 2:08 am UTC
Siempre sentĂ más de la cuenta con vos, y nunca me sincere como me imagine mil noches en mi cuarto pensando en vos. Tantas noches soñando que estábamos juntos y que lo nuestro era real, que a vos te pasaban cosas pero que te costaba expresarte...resulta que a la Ăşnica que le costaba expresar algo era a mi porque vos no necesitabas expresar nada porque simplemente no sentĂas nada. Espero que estĂ©s bien y ahora ya sĂ© que tu nombre marca una lĂnea en mi biografĂa. Agradezco que me hayas inspirado tantas ganas de escribir.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: November 9, 2020, 2:00 am UTC
Its been months, and I used to feel so guilty about ending things with you, but I've learned to realize that I did what was best for me, for us.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: November 8, 2020, 11:51 pm UTC
I stopped looking like your ideal girl for me not to have any chances anymore, but in some way I wished you'd still love me that way.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: November 8, 2020, 6:12 pm UTC
Sometimes I wonder if I could of given you a person to live for. I’m sorry we stopped talking. I’m sorry you felt so alone
From: ABC
To: J
Date: November 8, 2020, 4:29 pm UTC
Em pregunto si algun dia sabràs el que vaig sentir, i em pregunto si algun dia jo sabré el que vas sentir.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: November 8, 2020, 3:13 pm UTC
I know things will never be like that summer again. But I also know that I will love you all my life and even if we are not going to be together I want you to be very happy because you deserve it.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: November 8, 2020, 12:44 am UTC
im sorry for screwing up things with you. im sorry for being the person i was, and for ever hurting you. i don't think of you anymore, but i hope that next time we meet, everything will be okay.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: November 7, 2020, 6:18 pm UTC
you always said that we are meant for each other. I love you but you are not there anymore. please come back. L
From: ABC
To: J
Date: November 7, 2020, 4:33 pm UTC
thank you for reminding me what’s it’s like to still be young while still letting me grow, even apart
From: ABC
To: J
Date: November 7, 2020, 7:56 am UTC
Me enamore denuevo, muchĂsimo dirĂa yo. Aveces en las noches lloro porque no creo que alguien tan increĂble llegĂł a mi vida, es lo que siempre espere de alguien. Me da paz. Pero el amor nunca es igual y nunca podrĂa llegar a sentir ese tipo de amor que sentĂ contigo
From: ABC
To: J
Date: November 7, 2020, 7:01 am UTC
i am so in love with you. i’ve known you for a year and learned so much about you. you are the most beautiful boy i have met. you are my best friend. so much so i believe u are meant for me, i hope i am meant for you. every song reminds me of you. every happy thing reminds me of you. every sunset, every boy i meet. i truly believe the universe meant for us to meet. we have such a strong connection i haven’t felt with anyone else. i can be myself with you and i love that so much. everything and everyone tells me it’s you. you have my heart j, forever and always. words can’t describe how much love i hold for you.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: November 7, 2020, 4:51 am UTC
Been wondering why I haven’t liked someone in a long time. But i know deep down, you’re still the one.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: November 6, 2020, 10:29 pm UTC
Sometimes I wonder how I still cared no matter how much shit you put me through. I guess I loved you more...
From: ABC
To: J
Date: November 6, 2020, 10:26 pm UTC
Sometimes I wonder how I still cared no matter how much shit you put me through. I guess I loved you more...
From: ABC
To: J
Date: November 6, 2020, 4:26 pm UTC
Every song reminded me of you. You deserve the world, but I am not meant to be in it. I hope you will be happy with someone but it breaks my heart to know that someone can never be me. But I will keep on being by your side because before anything else, you're my best friend.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: November 6, 2020, 7:30 am UTC
Lo Ăşnico que hago es pensar en ti y todo lo bonito que pasamos a pesar de que tĂş ya te olvidaste y deje de importarte.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: November 6, 2020, 6:23 am UTC
DesearĂa poder decirte todo lo que necesitaba y mas... Pero se que ya no escribirás, aunque estoy tranquila al saber que pude hablarte por ultima vez como si nada ubiera pasado.
Perdon si piensas que por mi cumpla pasaron muchas cosas, perdon por aferrarme a ti y creer que podrias amarme tanto como yo, perdon por causar que esa bella amistad de años que se convirtiĂł en hermandad terminara por creer que podriamos ser mas, no te guando rencor tu decidiste terminarme por el que dirán, nose que te dijieron pero al dĂa siguiente estaba enojada y le reclame a XX y
el dijo que yo sabia el error que hice y que era mi culpa y tuya por todo lo que paso y lo encare y ya ni me acuerdo que pero se fue, como tu no estabas termine caminando sola a casa y sabes que odio eso, cuando te fuiste lo único que dije de ti fue que te extrañaba y que eras Mi persona nada mas y se que tu salon me odiaba y todos lo que inventan de mi porque lose, siempre me entero auque me aga pendeja, cuando dijiste que dejáramos de hablar mi familia te odio y aun asi aqui estoy hablando contigo aunque se que se entera la que va a terminar mal soy yo lose pero sigo arriesgando todo por ti.. no me preguntes porque pero siempre lo hice, arriesge mi estabilidad emocional, mi dignidad la confianza ,Todo.. y lo volveria a hacer, rompiste mi corazón de una y mil formas, cuando básicamente era ella era tu novia, se que me cuidaste como una hermana, tus celos y proteccion eran lindos pero aunque tu hayas empesado para todos la mala sere yo, cuando la elegiste a ella, cuando te fuiste, la llamada despues de nuestro paseo, cuando prometiste quedarte a mi lado sin importar que y me diste alas y esperansa de que podrias amarme como yo lo llege a hacer por ti... Cuando te fuiste llore cada noche hasta quedarme dormida, no comia y recai de nuevo, tu eras mi salvavidas en mis momentos dificiles y ahora me dejaste sola en un mar abierto, cuando te hable fue porque necesito minimo saber un porque, todo estaba bien el dia anterior y luego me dejaste sola sin decirme por que, me culpe a mi, preguntándome que hice mal, fue mi error?, Siempre fui un pasatiempo?, Fui un juego?, Un trofeo?, Un aliento de ego?, Estube mal? Pero nunca consegui respuesta, cuando te hable y contestaste estaba temblando porque te extrañe, sabes? Lloraba y tenia miedo a la cancion i'm yours porque esa te tenia de todo y sabia que cuando esa cancion sonara eras tu y me daba tristeza y frustración escucharla despues, porque quede con ese miedo y la esperanza de que eras tu pero sabia que no, si fui yo la causa de que pasara todo en general Perdon, aunque me digan que no fue mi culpa que yo no tenia ataduras y etc Perdon, si algun dia te llege a hacer daño perdón, porque se que es llorar todas las noches a causa de alguien y lo sabes... No dudes que te amo, básica eres mi primer amor y apenas me doy cuenta.. eres la primera persona por la que arriesge tanto y que aun sigo amando con todo mi corazón, eso no cambiara... Pero se que si te sigo hablando uno va a salir lástimado, y se que sere yo, hablame cuando quieras si es que quieres, siempre contestare de alguna forma, o enviame amor cuando pienses en mi y luego sige, esta mal lo que hare perdón si lloras por mi, no quiero que llores, y si no lloras que bueno pero no lleges a odiarme, eso me devastaria, solo con saber que tu estas bien soy feliz
Siempre guardare nuestros secretos y promesas nunca lo dudes, siempre seras parte importante de mi vida
Te amo y siempre lo hare, nunca saldras de este estupido corazon con ese maldito sentimiento que llamamos amor.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: November 5, 2020, 12:55 pm UTC
you cheated on me and never admitted to it, and i don’t have shade or hate, but the truth could have kept us together. your lies ruined me, and now that ive built myself back up you are starting to see what you lost: that’s why i was so crazy, once i am over it and done i won’t go back so i guess im sorry you never knew that
From: ABC
To: J
Date: November 5, 2020, 2:46 am UTC
Since we met theres not a day that goes by where i don't think of you. I hope your memories of me are as fond as mine are of you.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: November 5, 2020, 2:46 am UTC
Since we met theres not a day that goes by where i don't think of you. I hope your memories of me are as fond as mine are of you.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: November 5, 2020, 2:42 am UTC
Since we met theres not a day that goes by where i don't think of you. I hope your memories of me are as fond as mine are of you.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: November 4, 2020, 9:36 pm UTC
there are songs that ill listen to every once and awhile. sometimes there songs that used to be ours or new ones that remind me of what ive lost. and I try and sing them but theres songs that I can never get through without my voice shuttering, I still try and finish them anyways. im listening to one of those songs right now. ever here the one about it being the happiest year(s) of their life. yeah. thats the one.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: November 4, 2020, 8:28 pm UTC
I wish there were more pictures. Not so I will know it was real , because it was. But so I can look back at how we looked driving in your car , hand out the window , breeze in our hair. I remember the first time I really looked into your eyes and the way the sun was hitting them I saw the whole ocean in your iris. I wish there were more pictures like that something that captured this movie in my head playing the scenes of our life. my life started with you I just didn't realize it might not end with you as well. It's just different sometimes to have things on paper , something I could hold in my hands when I'm sad about us and trying to grasp onto what I have left. I don't ever want to forget what we looked like then , or your smile , the shine on your hair in the sunlight , bed head or the way we slept under the covers even the tossing and turning nights. Will enough time go by that you'll forget my face. Do you want to?
From: ABC
To: J
Date: November 4, 2020, 2:48 pm UTC
everytime you said i love you to me after i found out about you and her, it always hurt more than healed.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: November 4, 2020, 1:39 pm UTC
I've never avoided you I've only loved you so much that sometimes I'd forget to talk when I'm with you
From: ABC
To: J
Date: November 4, 2020, 9:58 am UTC
I really do wonder what you told your friends about me. They used to love me but I've noticed a shift since I called things off. Hmmm. You prideful fuck.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: November 4, 2020, 4:52 am UTC
You taught me what love was, cuz you didn’t actually love me. Now I know what it feels like to be truly... loved
From: ABC
To: J
Date: November 4, 2020, 4:50 am UTC
You taught me what love was because you didn’t love me. You hurt me, and now I know what it feels like to be truly... loved
From: ABC
To: J
Date: November 3, 2020, 11:22 pm UTC
u can't imagine how hard is to hold back from sending u dumb pokemon memes at 2AM. hopefully our time will come. G
From: ABC
To: J
Date: November 3, 2020, 10:29 pm UTC
how can I be so conflicted towards one person. i was just going to tell you i wanted to marry you and you broke up with me. i will never forget the sadness i felt that day
From: ABC
To: J
Date: November 3, 2020, 7:49 pm UTC
You run towards a weaker female instead of sticking it out with thr one strong who won’t let u shit on her
From: ABC
To: J
Date: November 3, 2020, 5:21 pm UTC
sometimes i just wanna kiss you and take care of you as if there’s no tomorrow and sometimes i just wanna fuck you till there’s no tomorrow
From: ABC
To: J
Date: November 3, 2020, 3:27 pm UTC
I see you reflected in my current partner and it sickens me to know this will probably end in the same way we did.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: November 3, 2020, 1:42 pm UTC
do u think our paths will cross again? bc sometimes i pray they will and most times i pray they won’t
From: ABC
To: J
Date: November 3, 2020, 8:22 am UTC
since our first message to each other i know you were the one. even if the day comes you choose to love another i’ll still be here
From: ABC
To: J
Date: November 3, 2020, 5:49 am UTC
i was sober when you werent, i remember everything you said. Got my hopes up. fuck you and your robots
From: ABC
To: J
Date: November 2, 2020, 8:11 pm UTC
i want you & everyone is messing with your head. think of just me and you, like the beginning. you know who i am. let me heal you.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: November 2, 2020, 7:27 pm UTC
Do you still think about me? Do you have dreams about me? Why did you hurt me like that? Why couldn't you admit what you did after we broke up? Did we even have anything real or was it all a lie? I don't even know if you really loved me and I don't know why I think about you still. How could you text me about my dead relative and still be lying to me? I just want answers and closure. I thought I was good enough so why? Were you cheating the whole time?
From: ABC
To: J
Date: November 2, 2020, 5:31 pm UTC
i still don’t understand, if i stay you hate me if i leave you hate me. i wish you would just tell me how you feel
From: ABC
To: J
Date: November 2, 2020, 2:50 pm UTC
try and look at it from my side of things, how would you have felt if you poured your heart out to me and i treated you how you did me. i took the chance, i told you my emotions, i watched you take advantage of my love and now it’s too late to respond. i didn’t fuck you over, i slipped away in exactly how much time i told myself to wait for a response, & you tried to get with my friends as a response. i got the message loud and clear. I’m moving forward; with it without you
