Unsent messages to J
From: ABC
To: J
I see you reflected in my current partner and it sickens me to know this will probably end in the same way we did.
From: ABC
To: J
i liked u from the first time i saw u standing there looking with your piercing blue eyes. i have never seen anything quite like them. ur hair was longer then and it seemed quite fluffly. it was like an ocean full of brunette waves. until u got up to ask for a glue stick i never thought u were so tall. ur height remembered me of a baby giraffe. u though i was making fun of u every time i told u that but actually i like that. oh god i liked all of u. ur smile. ur voice. ur eyes. the way u played with my hair. everytime u asked to hug me i felt protected. like nothing on this planet would've hurt me in that moment. ur touch. ur humour. ur charm. ur intelligence. ur way of being with people. i never loved anyone like u before. a lot of people said that it was only butterflies but it was more than that. u were the first guy to even call me beautiful. u were the first guy to ever ask me out. u were the first guy to show me how amazing love can be. and it was all pink and rainbows until i found put the real u. cold. cheater. manipulator. toxic. substance user. anger issues.
From: ABC
To: J
i know i said i wouldn’t run back to you this time , but i was hoping you would find your way back to me
From: ABC
To: J
i know you don't care about me anymore, but do you remember drama class in sixth grade. We didn't know each other, but we both took the smallest parts in the play because we didn't like talking in front of the whole class. we just sat and talked on the side together when everyone else would be practicing their lines. that's how our story began. i'm still heartbroken that it ever ended.
From: ABC
To: J
sometimes i just wanna kiss you and take care of you as if there’s no tomorrow and sometimes i just wanna fuck you till there’s no tomorrow
From: ABC
To: J
You are the only person who's always been there for me and I'm eternally grateful. You've given up so much for me, seen me at my worse and still tell me I'm beautiful. I love you x
From: ABC
To: J
You knew I loved you so why didn’t you say anything, instead you watched me get hurt whilst you had another girl
From: ABC
To: J
Im afraid I won’t move on. You said you felt like people used you when in reality I was the one being used. Fuck You
From: ABC
To: J
What was I thinking. u watched me fall for u and then u just turned ur back on me, even after everything.
From: ABC
To: J
Words can't even describe how much i miss you right now..you were my everything and still are. You made me feel so loved and cared for, and i just wanna feel that once more..you made me feel like i was enough, like if i was actually pretty..you made me feel good about my height, you showed me love even through all my insecurities. You hurt me so much that i told you to leave..and you did. I want you back. You were my first actual love. I love you so much and i still hope for you to come back one day. Until we talk again..
From: ABC
To: J
the way you look in through the lab door, i always catch you looking ,it's been 3 years since i hurt you, do u want to talk to me? simply wanna see what i'm doing with my life? still like me? hate my guts which i give you no fault for ? i smiled and waved but you didnt care and stared in shock. you still wave at my mum when i'm not there, i'm trying to understand your wishes rn
From: ABC
To: J
You run towards a weaker female instead of sticking it out with thr one strong who won’t let u shit on her
From: ABC
To: J
why couldn’t you get over her. stop hurting others along the way in your attempt to heal. heal alone.
From: ABC
To: J
I hope the misfortune and negativity that struck me as a result of being with you, strikes you like how it did me.
From: ABC
To: J
i wish u knew how much i still loved u and how much it hurts me to know u don’t feel the same...i want to hear the little details of ur life and it’s sad to know i never will. we’re strangers.
From: ABC
To: J
my first silly childhood crush, thank u for making me do ridiculous things that my old friends can always joke about
From: ABC
To: J
~ I tried to change you, to help you but you can save or change someone who doesn’t want to be saved. I wish you good luck.
From: ABC
To: J
i wished i could’ve been more expensive towards you but you made it hard for me to do that i loved you i did but you made it hard to but i still stuck around because i loved you.
From: ABC
To: J
ainttt nobody ever tell youuu howww i feell about uuuuuuu aint nobodyy ever tell you how i love youuuu ya i wanna fck uuuu but it doesnt change the way i feeeel about youuuu
From: ABC
To: J
how can I be so conflicted towards one person. i was just going to tell you i wanted to marry you and you broke up with me. i will never forget the sadness i felt that day
From: ABC
To: J
i could never make eye contact with anyone without being consumed by anxiety, but somehow when I talked to you all I wanted to do was stare into your eyes
From: ABC
To: J
u can't imagine how hard is to hold back from sending u dumb pokemon memes at 2AM. hopefully our time will come. G
From: ABC
To: J
you lied to me for so long, but you'll always hold a part of my heart, and that makes me hate you even more
From: ABC
To: J
I somehow feel the coldness of my room now that I'm not distracted by your name popping up on my phone...
From: ABC
To: J
i hope that you change for whoever ur with in future because no one deserves to be treated how you treated me
From: ABC
To: J
thank you for all the memories, i learned alot from you. i know you dont love me anymore but i will always be here.
From: ABC
To: J
The vibe you give off is irresistible. I know you probably don’t think about me as much as I do you but I don’t know for sure. The thought of dating you crosses my mind daily and I don’t know if it would be a good idea or not. I love the attention you bring me and for that I am very grateful. I just want you to know if you ever need me I will always be here. All I want to know if what you think and I will be complete, but I’m scared. I’m scared for the outcome the aquward feeling it will give of if something happens. All I can do now is wait. No way of seeing the future but hopefully you could be a part of it
From: ABC
To: J
I wish you could’ve loved me honestly the way I did you. Why did you have to make what you felt when we were alone nothing around everyone else? We could’ve fixed each other.
:(
From: ABC
To: J
there are times where i do think about you, wondering how you’re doing. you’re definitely happier, no doubt about it. we’ve both moved on, but i miss you sometimes. you definitely don’t miss me though. i know we never dated, i only had the biggest crush on you. but, whether you felt the same way or not, you’re my first love because i literally wanted to marry you. every single time you texted me, my stomach would get butterflies and i would freak out in my room doing a little happy dance. even though we barely saw each other, and we never facetimed, our connection was real, whether you believe it or not. i always played scenarios in my head on going my first date with you, you being my first kiss, all of it. even though you stopped talking to me first, i let my emotions get in the way and i betrayed you by telling her. i’m still so sorry. and i know you want nothing to do with me, i seriously don’t blame you. but, i have morals, i don’t defend liars. yeah it wasn’t my place but who else was she gonna find out from? you were never going to tell her. i know you, well knew you. i just wish you the best, and hopefully we cross paths again.
From: ABC
To: J
I loved you so much it completely hurt me everywhere when we stopped being friends Now I see you are happy with someone all I want is happiness for you even if that has to be without me I loved you so much that I don't ever think I will love someone the same again I feel numb when we stopped talking but I have to move on or I will forever be in the past But I want to say I am over you I am happy for you I just think the only part I miss is how much I loved someone and how I wished someone could love me the same way I loved you I wish I wasn't your second choice or your back up I wish I was your first choice
From: ABC
To: J
i could never put into words the way i feel abt u,i don’t wanna think i like u but every time u bring her up it discomforts me in way i can’t explain.though i could never tell u this now i hope one day u figure it out
From: ABC
To: J
god im so in love with you. everything about you and what you do is perfect and i hate that you will never like me
From: ABC
To: J
You taught me what love was because you didn’t love me. You hurt me, and now I know what it feels like to be truly... loved
From: ABC
To: J
It’s always been you; it hurts knowing that for myself that you can’t be though.
I wish you the best, maybe in another lifetime where we both have our shit figured out. A piece of me is always gonna love you, even if we never speak again.
From: ABC
To: J
You taught me what love was, cuz you didn’t actually love me. Now I know what it feels like to be truly... loved
From: ABC
To: J
I wish you liked me back I would always have little imaginations and we would hang out and when we kiss there are fireworks and we would spoil each other with I love you’s while laying down in a flower field admiring life but …you’re with her and I don’t think we’ll get a chance to live in my imaginations in real life…?
From: ABC
To: J
i think i don’t know how to let go because when i stared into your brown eyes, on either side of your littler freckled nose, i saw a forever. and now everything else seems like a temporary mess.
From: ABC
To: J
i miss you and will forever but i know that there is nothing left for us. i wish you never cheated:( i wish i could rewind time.
From: ABC
To: J
I really do wonder what you told your friends about me. They used to love me but I've noticed a shift since I called things off. Hmmm. You prideful fuck.
From: ABC
To: J
I deleted the playlist you made me. I saw you deleted mine too. I’m sorry that I changed my mind about staying friends after the breakup.
From: ABC
To: J
i said no. i just wanted to go back to the group. fuck you for doing that to me. not a day goes by without thinking about what you did to me.
From: ABC
To: J
Que no te gustaba verme llorar? si cuando terminaste ni me miraste a la cara, solo te fuiste de la ciudad y nada mas ojala nunca te hubiera conocido
From: ABC
To: J
I don’t think I’ll ever be able to erase you from me. I want the part of me you have back. I want me back
From: ABC
To: J
Es que no te entiendo, te molestaba verme llorar, y al final tu eras el que mas me lastimaba y no comprendo que hice mal, para que me ignores por completo pasaban dĂas, meses y no decĂas nada y pensĂ© que no valĂa nada, gracias por hacerme ver que ya no debo amar a nadie mas :)
From: ABC
To: J
Es que no entiendo como estuvimos, estamos mejor ahora que somos amigos, no das como novio, simplemente lastimas sin saber, no te importa nada, y yo ilusionada de ti no puedo creer lo que me lastimaste
From: ABC
To: J
the thought of me telling you my feelings just to be embarrassed hurts. why can’t feelings ever be reciprocated?
From: ABC
To: J
i feel we will end up back together. someday, when the time is right. i’ll be waiting with open arms.
From: ABC
To: J
Although and I’m really tired but I’m gonna say this anyway but a lot of the time when I think of you I get turned on
From: ABC
To: J
Sometimes I lay in bed thinking about what we could of had if we had just waited. Right person wrong time.
From: ABC
To: J
it’s been two years and five months. we liked each other but nothing happened. life and people got in the way. we don’t talk anymore, but deep down i still love you for some reason.
