Unsent messages to J
From: ABC
To: J
I still love you, I should have moved on like you have, I know but... a part of me still belongs to you
From: ABC
To: J
I know I better off not hearing from you at all but part of me is hoping I’ll get the 2am drunk text saying you miss me
From: ABC
To: J
I think the reason I lost feelings was because you never really tried. and even though you don’t care I still try. I still have hope for us. And at this point I don’t even know why. I want to stop feeling the way I feel for you but it never goes away.
From: ABC
To: J
you told me you liked me and i lied and said i didn't feel the same way because she likes you. i wish you liked her back, not me.
From: ABC
To: J
I wanted to tell you how I really felt when you visited me at work on Christmas Eve, but I was scared.
From: ABC
To: J
Hi ugly, I miss you but you hurt me multiple times and I let it happen. I will always have love for you but not trust... maybe we can try again in the future. Maybe.
From: ABC
To: J
your got to move on like normal, but every time I close my eyes im trapped in the backseat of that car again.
From: ABC
To: J
you had my whole heart. all of it. but u fucked it up, i still cant rlly get over you, i tell myself i have but i really havnt. it was good while it lasted but everyone else got to you. thankyou tho. have fun
From: ABC
To: J
I know I left alone because I was driving myself crazy like we were still together but I miss you a lot .. I don’t even feel the same without anymore. It’s sucks I wish I would’ve handle things way different. The last thing I wanted to do is lose you and that’s what I did. I’m not trying rush things but knowing how you feel about me would mean a lot right now... wish I could see you
From: ABC
To: J
i had just managed to drag myself out of the seamlessly never ending dark place i was once in, then you came along and pushed me even further than before
From: ABC
To: J
I miss you so much and all I want to know is how you’re doing. But I know I’ll only be breaking my own heart asking bc I know you’ve been better off since you left
From: ABC
To: J
you felt like a pretty sunset in the middle of summer . but like all sunsets , all your left with after is darkness
From: ABC
To: J
I feel like its obvious i like you. I guess if you felt the same you wouldve done something by now. I believed that we would be well together. we enjoy the same things and have the same friends. I was hoping we wouldve figured this out before the winter. I wouldve loved to spend the christmas time with you because i know how much you love it and if only you knew that i love it just as much maybe youd realize im here. But the winters only weeks away so i guess our time has passed. I was holding on really expecting us to be something by now but hey who knows? maybe one day.
From: ABC
To: J
we would never really ever talk to each other but when we did there was definitely something between us. some days the thought of you, the thought of us would just pop in my head even thought I knew nothing could ever happen between us because I felt like you didn't like me and even if you did I know we couldn't be something because all I would think about is how you aren't like me at all we have too many differences but I still love you even if you don't love me.
From: ABC
To: J
I love you, ever since the moment I met you. You said you’d marry me someday, I will (always) wait for you.
From: ABC
To: J
The worst thing I probably did was attach a song to you. Now every time I listen to it I drown in regret.
From: ABC
To: J
i know we both didn’t say it but the energy was there. we both felt it and we were too scared so we ran in the opposite direction. i still love you
From: ABC
To: J
you were the first person I let my self be vulnerable with. wish it didn't end with you leaving me alone downstairs that night.
From: ABC
To: J
just one of those nights i miss your smile, miss your voice, miss your presence and your touch a lil more. just one of those nights i miss you a lil more.
From: ABC
To: J
you were the first person I let my self be vulnerable with. wish it didn't end with you leaving me alone downstairs that night.
From: ABC
To: J
i hate how much you're on my mind. i just want to tell you how i feel, but i know that would ruin everything. and i would rather keep my feelings a secret than ruin something small with you. i think i love you. but i know you will never love me back.
From: ABC
To: J
you were the first person I let my self be vulnerable with. wish it didn't end with you leaving me alone downstairs that night.
From: ABC
To: J
It still hurts to see you, even though we said we could be just friends. But I just want you to hold me again
From: ABC
To: J
you were the first person I let myself be vulnerable with. wish you didn't leave me alone downstairs that night.
From: ABC
To: J
your personality made me fall so hard. You were so funny and kind and goofy and charming. There was something about you, but we liked each other at different times. I don't like you anymore but sometimes I want to go back in time to experience being with you again. ?
From: ABC
To: J
I felt as if my world had shattered when I saw you with her.. left me feeling as if I was only used to fill that void of emptiness you had for her. Making me fall in love with you for nothing but heartbreak and become strangers as if we have never met. my love for you will last lifetimes. i love you..
From: ABC
To: J
Hey uh... Not exactly sure if you even remember me.. or at least in the way that you remember. I know its been about 5 years since we talked. I remember that one birthday party by the beach in the saltwater pool, and I remember walking back together. And math class when I laughed so hard I got thrown out and we both had to wait in the rain for her to let us back in. Anyway I wasn't sure you remembered me at all I mean it's been forever. You didnt't even know that I liked you, we were only friends because my friends pretending to hate you. I really tried to hate you. But then we went to different schools, and I was pretty sure you wouldnt even remember my face.
That is until 9th grade picture day, when we locked eyes in the cafeteria, and I watched yours flicker with memories buried deep into time. You were definitly taller. And your hair was a littl scruffier, but it was you.
I didn't look the same at all. My hair was longer, I had braces and I was a little bit taller, and really skinny. I only saw you for a minute, but a minute was enough to remember. Then I lost you in the crowd.
And I definitely saw you ariund school that year. I only ever got the confidence to look up to see if you had seen me once. I was standing with a group of my friends outside of attendence, and you guys were by the hallway. I was starting to leave for 8th period, so I just thought what the hell you know. So I leaned into your view, only to find you gazing right back at me. I think time stopped for a second because everyone elses conversation started to die off in the distance. Then the bell rang, and the next week, school ended. I look different now. I believe one day I will see you again, hopefully if we ever go back to school. I dream to see you at prom. I will look different then too. I hope you still think about me.
From: ABC
To: J
its always you, every night... get out of my head. i never told you i was in love with you but now you text me every once in a while and i wish i’d just gotten one more chance to tell you... not even for it to have worked out, just to let you know that you were my first.
with love, cam
From: ABC
To: J
It took me 3 years to understand it was never really love. but you knew that and let the silence eat us.
but in a way I needed it to happen.
From: ABC
To: J
it took me so long to get over you that i can't believe I'm finally doing it now. it doesn't hurt like it used to, and i hope it will totally stop hurting someday all that you did to me.
From: ABC
To: J
I think I will never fully get over you. you will always be there in the back of mind and never leave.
From: ABC
To: J
The way you held me and danced with me under that tree on that rainy day, yeah I’ve never forgotten that and I hope I never do
From: ABC
To: J
I wonder if you still think about me as much as I think about you, it’s been almost a year since we last spoke and I dream about moving away with you every day since then, and I’m not sure if it’s love or just an obsession with the past
From: ABC
To: J
Sometimes I wonder if I had of just done something different, would it be a reality or still just a dream
From: ABC
To: J
Sometimes I wonder if I had of just done something different, would it be a reality or still just a dream
From: ABC
To: J
The candle you gave me is almost burnt out. I’m scared that once it’s gone, you finally will be too. I just miss you.
From: ABC
To: J
why cant u see i still love u? i miss u more than anything but ik u dont even think once about me anymore. i wish i could tell u this but u wont care.
From: ABC
To: J
yeah ik were tried the first time and i rejected you because I was scared, and you went back with your ex but i miss you .... A LOT and idk how to tell you cause were just friends and i dont want too ruin our friendship
From: ABC
To: J
You came into my life when I was hurting and felt like the whole world was against me when all I wanted was someone to hold me and tell me everything was going to be ok, and you were that person until she came back and you realized she was what you wanted all this time but I never got to ask you why you chose her so fast without even thinking twice. Was i just a girl to fill in till she came back?
From: ABC
To: J
I hate that i loved you so much that i didn't see how shitty of a person you really were. Took a while to get over you but now that i have, i feel happy again.
From: ABC
To: J
you were the first person that actually made me feel so loved, i regret saying i don't like you but the truth is i actually really do and i was scared that you'd say you didn't like me back if i admitted. i'll appreciate you always j, thank you for making me feel special.
From: ABC
To: J
why couldnt u just work it out w me instead of not thinking? im so so fucking mad at you. but, my heart belongs to u. remember that
From: ABC
To: J
Yeah I miss u but at the end of the day ik we won't work and it just won't happen so why keep waiting :/
From: ABC
To: J
Will you make my family mine again? Will you erase the trauma? Will you help me with the panic now and the shivers? Will you make me free again? Childless?No care in the world? I am who I've been my entire life when I'm asleep, before I met all these people. This is what I've been my whole life.
From: ABC
To: J
I'm sorry you weren't ready to be treated right. I'm more sorry that I wasted my time thinking we could be more.
From: ABC
To: J
its been a few months since ive heard your voice. i just really miss you and i wish things could go back to the way they used to be :(
From: ABC
To: J
I really hope you don't actually like me because I don't feel the same way but I don't want to hurt you
From: ABC
To: J
I don’t think I’ll ever get over you and it sucks. I just want a reason why you left so I can finally move on
From: ABC
To: J
you pretended to like me because she told you to, you pretended to like me because you didn't want to 'hurt' her but you know what? You not only hurt her...but also broke me but I'm still grateful because even though it was once of the darkest times in my life, I got to learn and experience many things, thank you.
From: ABC
To: J
Why did you make me have all these issues? I live with them everyday and can’t even have a happy life with my boyfriend. I don’t understand why you did all those things.
