Unsent messages to J
From: ABC
To: J
Date: January 6, 2021, 11:16 pm UTC
when you told me you didn't think what you felt with me was love, my heart shattered into a million pieces.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: January 6, 2021, 9:53 pm UTC
It’s so clear to me now that I made the right decision then. It’s also clear that we really did love each other. Thank you.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: January 6, 2021, 9:41 pm UTC
it still confuses me how i wasnt enough when i was the one to answer your 3am calls when she was asleep
From: ABC
To: J
Date: January 6, 2021, 8:14 pm UTC
From the first time we met, i knew that we were going to be friends for the longest time. I didn’t know that I would end up falling for you.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: January 6, 2021, 6:55 pm UTC
i feel like i’m starting to let you go. 5 months ago i would’ve never even thought this was possible.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: January 6, 2021, 6:35 pm UTC
I wanted to be your best friend but you already had one. And you couldn’t see you left no room for me.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: January 6, 2021, 5:53 pm UTC
I liked you for two years and never even talked to you but my heart stopped every time I passed you in the halls
From: ABC
To: J
Date: January 6, 2021, 5:15 pm UTC
i always wonder why you left me. we were so close. you just vanished. did you even really care about me?
From: ABC
To: J
Date: January 6, 2021, 4:39 pm UTC
Dicen que las personas siguen sufriendo porque no pueden decir lo que sintieron en ese momento, bueno pues asĂ estoy yo
From: ABC
To: J
Date: January 6, 2021, 3:08 pm UTC
Once I told you why I had a bad memory of that day and you asked me if I could give you a chance to make a good memory out of it. Once you told me you don’t remember the last time you cried so I shared my last time with you. You helped me get over it. Once you told me you couldn’t sleep so we talked till 5 am. You helped me understand the world better. I don’t know where you are right now I just hope you are having the time of your life. You deserve the world. Thanks for being the best person I’ve ever met.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: January 6, 2021, 9:30 am UTC
something about you deciding i wasn’t good enough for you made me realize my own worth. thanks, for that.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: January 6, 2021, 7:57 am UTC
you may have broken me to pieces but I thank you for teaching me that love is beautiful yet so fragile.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: January 6, 2021, 5:17 am UTC
you always loved her, i sat back and watched you fall in love with her. i never told you this but i loved you.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: January 6, 2021, 5:17 am UTC
you always loved her, i sat back and watched you fall in love with her. i never told you this but i loved you.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: January 6, 2021, 5:04 am UTC
I thought that night in your car meant something to you. Only for us to not speak not even a week later.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: January 5, 2021, 10:37 pm UTC
you always made me feel like i wasn’t good enough, the way it ended proved that, but also showed me that it was because i was more than enough.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: January 5, 2021, 10:35 pm UTC
you and her together hurts more than the initial blow of you leaving, knowing she’s the reason why is another kind of pain.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: January 5, 2021, 5:04 pm UTC
i wait for you to message me and tell me that you don’t want to lose me but you never do and i’m losing hope
From: ABC
To: J
Date: January 5, 2021, 10:15 am UTC
I’ve moved on. At least that’s what i like to tell myself. Everything reminds me of you. The time we had... and what we could’ve been. You were the best one out of all of them, my first love. Oh I knew you were too good to be true, but I got carried away. Being with you was like walking on cloud nine. I thought about how we would have a love that’s patient, slow but sure, a love that’s worth it. But, I don’t belong in that genre. You know in movies where... the main male protagonist have this undying love for a certain girl, where he would do anything to be with her and she doesn’t even have to do anything. Well, that’s not me, and i’m used to that. But you made me feel like that girl. I knew it wasn’t real. I knew it the moment I saw you look at her as if she’s the only girl in the world, the way you talk about her as if she’s all you think about.. and all I could do was let it happen, what could I do anyways? Tell you about what I felt? and If I did, would you have listened? You wouldn’t. Because I wasn’t important to you— not as much as her. I was a background character in your life. A childhood friend. Nothing more than that. All I did was listen, listen, and listen to you talk about her and during those times I was imagining a future with you. She is so beautiful, and so strong that it feels wrong to hate her. I was stupid, wasn’t I? Yeah, haha.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: January 5, 2021, 6:28 am UTC
When my thoughts get to heavy and I get lost in my own head, I write down everything I wish I could say aloud... I think that I’ll love you forever, this pain in my heart, knowing I can never have you, hurts me every day. To think I could’ve loved you and you could’ve loved me will always be a regret of mine. I wonder if in another universe or space or time, we’re together. We could be two crazy kids in love or the old couple you see in the park. I like to believe that somewhere, our souls are connected. When I think like this, the pain in my heart hurts a little less.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: January 5, 2021, 1:42 am UTC
you tore me apart, but even after 3 months i still miss you everyday and i know you don’t feel the same.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: January 5, 2021, 1:02 am UTC
i broke my heart in the process of breaking yours, now i’m breaking mine again without you even knowing.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: January 5, 2021, 12:20 am UTC
we look at each other and i know you don’t think twice when you look at me but my whole day shifts into wanting you.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: January 4, 2021, 11:17 pm UTC
You’ll never know how much I needed you when you came into my life. Thank you for giving me purpose. I love you.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: January 4, 2021, 11:07 pm UTC
I trusted you. It would be too easy to fall in love again, even after everything you did to me. It makes me sick sometimes.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: January 4, 2021, 10:44 pm UTC
It's funny how my darkest and brightest memories involve you. I hope you've found someone who looks after you like I did for so long. I'll never stop worrying about you
From: ABC
To: J
Date: January 4, 2021, 9:05 pm UTC
i wish we could talk about how i feel when i was with u but i know u with her right now why u did this to me ?
From: ABC
To: J
Date: January 4, 2021, 6:27 pm UTC
I specifically remember the last time I told you loved you. I guess you didn’t hear or didn’t think I would leave, but now I’m doing well moving on because at least I told you and know I tried
From: ABC
To: J
Date: January 4, 2021, 3:30 pm UTC
fuck you for letting me sleep in the same bed as you while you text him all night knowing i was in love with you but you werent in love with me.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: January 4, 2021, 9:29 am UTC
It's been a year and you're still on my mind. I think you feel the same but I'll never text you first.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: January 4, 2021, 8:51 am UTC
I don't love you anymore but if you were to text me I would still blush and most likely respond back I am thankful for the way you made me feel you brought so much joy and hope into my life in a time I was lacking and you didn't even know so I will forever be thankful
From: ABC
To: J
Date: January 4, 2021, 8:49 am UTC
I just am so mad at how much time and energy I put into you I preyed about you and begged for you to be happy and you choose her over me I was there when your mom was in the hospital I even helped you write songs she didn't even care about you she broke up with you I would have never treated you like that
From: ABC
To: J
Date: January 4, 2021, 7:06 am UTC
dont really know how to feel but i live you :) and i dont care how you take that i just want to be with you
From: ABC
To: J
Date: January 4, 2021, 6:20 am UTC
I'm sorry things couldn't work out the way you wanted them be, but I'm here with open arms. Just give me a text and I'll reply back. Much care for you
From: ABC
To: J
Date: January 4, 2021, 4:12 am UTC
You broke me in ways I didn't think was possible. But I've repaired myself and you no longer get to hurt me. I hope you don't hurt her like you hurt me.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: January 4, 2021, 1:47 am UTC
I hate you. I tried to be your friend but instead you went behind my back and said horrible things. Even after that, I tried to fix it. I'm tired of trying to fix things. I'm glad we don't talk anymore.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: January 4, 2021, 12:14 am UTC
im sorry i ruined us, i think about you all the time. i'll always care about you. i hope you come back one to me one day, i'll be waiting. goodbye
From: ABC
To: J
Date: January 3, 2021, 6:49 pm UTC
I still remember that u said “after every smile of me is a sad and lonely boy” and it still breaks my heart
From: ABC
To: J
Date: January 3, 2021, 5:25 pm UTC
es difĂcil para mi decir lo que siento, pero si ese dĂa te hubiera dicho cuanto te amo te habrĂas quedado?
From: ABC
To: J
Date: January 3, 2021, 4:30 pm UTC
You were the first guy that ever liked me in a romantic way. I was so obsessed with the idea someone could actually liked me I completely ignored how shit of a person you were. What you said to me wrecked me for months. I deserved better.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: January 3, 2021, 4:13 pm UTC
I fucking hate you. I’ve literally done NOTHING to you and you’re so rude to me all the time or just blatantly leave me out. You make me want to kill myself. You’re a terrible friend and you act like you don’t care about anyone if you can see someone who is struggling really obviously you never help or even just say something to them. Mark my words one day one of your friends will die and then you’ll feel sorry.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: January 3, 2021, 9:49 am UTC
I wish you fought for me till the very end. All you’ve done is taken the sunshine out of me and left me in darkness.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: January 3, 2021, 8:02 am UTC
I really liked you. I never was able to tell u that or even admit to myself. But I like you, I always have, for 4yrs now I have liked you. I only realized it when you fell in love with someone else and it was too late. I’m sorry to you and to myself for losing what could’ve been. When I see you, you’re looking at her, and all I can think is of how you used to look at me. I’m sorry I wasn’t brave enough to tell you and maybe one day I’ll be able to. This is my goodbye.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: January 3, 2021, 7:16 am UTC
I miss you. And I’ll never stop. We don’t have to be dating. I just miss the friend. I swear we could have been best friends. I remember all our old memories late night talks. Now we’re strangers and im. in. pain. I need you :(
From: ABC
To: J
Date: January 3, 2021, 4:44 am UTC
Não sei oq eu realmente sinto por vc, nunca passei por isso, só sei q vc não sai da minha mente e é muito boa a sensação de imaginar estar ao seu lado.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: January 3, 2021, 3:31 am UTC
was i too much or just not enough? i wish we’d talk more often. i miss staying up late and falling asleep on calls with you. now we hardly text. i’m sorry if i did something wrong.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: January 3, 2021, 3:28 am UTC
am i annoying you? why won’t you talk to me anymore? and i know we do text but it’s only a few dry texts in the middle of the night then your gone. did i do something wrong? please tell me what i’m doing wrong. i really want to fix it. i want to be enough for you.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: January 3, 2021, 3:22 am UTC
“I’ve watched as many romantic films as I could. To find out what love is. Instead of finding the answer, I found you in every one”
From: ABC
To: J
Date: January 3, 2021, 3:22 am UTC
“I’ve watched as many romantic films as I could. To find out what love is. Instead of finding the answer, I found you in every one”
From: ABC
To: J
Date: January 2, 2021, 9:52 pm UTC
I think I could have really loved you, if you didn't leave so soon. But I'd still do it all again, if given the chance. Goodbye.
