Unsent messages to J
From: ABC
To: J
I sometimes read through the unsent project and hope that you’ll have written something for me.
you haven’t.
From: ABC
To: J
And I hate you, I really do. Because it’s 4 in the morning and I’m way past sober but all I can think about is when you had your hands all over me and I was screaming your name. Maybe I could do this with no strings attached. But I know that’s just the drinks speaking. I wish I could call you and you’d come over, but you’d probably hang up the phone when you realise I’m not sober.
From: ABC
To: J
i don’t understand how u can just talk about wanting me and telling people about us then the next day not wanting anything at all.
From: ABC
To: J
Desearía poder decirte todo lo que necesitaba y mas... Pero se que ya no escribirás, aunque estoy tranquila al saber que pude hablarte por ultima vez como si nada ubiera pasado.
Perdon si piensas que por mi cumpla pasaron muchas cosas, perdon por aferrarme a ti y creer que podrias amarme tanto como yo, perdon por causar que esa bella amistad de años que se convirtió en hermandad terminara por creer que podriamos ser mas, no te guando rencor tu decidiste terminarme por el que dirán, nose que te dijieron pero al día siguiente estaba enojada y le reclame a XX y
el dijo que yo sabia el error que hice y que era mi culpa y tuya por todo lo que paso y lo encare y ya ni me acuerdo que pero se fue, como tu no estabas termine caminando sola a casa y sabes que odio eso, cuando te fuiste lo único que dije de ti fue que te extrañaba y que eras Mi persona nada mas y se que tu salon me odiaba y todos lo que inventan de mi porque lose, siempre me entero auque me aga pendeja, cuando dijiste que dejáramos de hablar mi familia te odio y aun asi aqui estoy hablando contigo aunque se que se entera la que va a terminar mal soy yo lose pero sigo arriesgando todo por ti.. no me preguntes porque pero siempre lo hice, arriesge mi estabilidad emocional, mi dignidad la confianza ,Todo.. y lo volveria a hacer, rompiste mi corazón de una y mil formas, cuando básicamente era ella era tu novia, se que me cuidaste como una hermana, tus celos y proteccion eran lindos pero aunque tu hayas empesado para todos la mala sere yo, cuando la elegiste a ella, cuando te fuiste, la llamada despues de nuestro paseo, cuando prometiste quedarte a mi lado sin importar que y me diste alas y esperansa de que podrias amarme como yo lo llege a hacer por ti... Cuando te fuiste llore cada noche hasta quedarme dormida, no comia y recai de nuevo, tu eras mi salvavidas en mis momentos dificiles y ahora me dejaste sola en un mar abierto, cuando te hable fue porque necesito minimo saber un porque, todo estaba bien el dia anterior y luego me dejaste sola sin decirme por que, me culpe a mi, preguntándome que hice mal, fue mi error?, Siempre fui un pasatiempo?, Fui un juego?, Un trofeo?, Un aliento de ego?, Estube mal? Pero nunca consegui respuesta, cuando te hable y contestaste estaba temblando porque te extrañe, sabes? Lloraba y tenia miedo a la cancion i'm yours porque esa te tenia de todo y sabia que cuando esa cancion sonara eras tu y me daba tristeza y frustración escucharla despues, porque quede con ese miedo y la esperanza de que eras tu pero sabia que no, si fui yo la causa de que pasara todo en general Perdon, aunque me digan que no fue mi culpa que yo no tenia ataduras y etc Perdon, si algun dia te llege a hacer daño perdón, porque se que es llorar todas las noches a causa de alguien y lo sabes... No dudes que te amo, básica eres mi primer amor y apenas me doy cuenta.. eres la primera persona por la que arriesge tanto y que aun sigo amando con todo mi corazón, eso no cambiara... Pero se que si te sigo hablando uno va a salir lástimado, y se que sere yo, hablame cuando quieras si es que quieres, siempre contestare de alguna forma, o enviame amor cuando pienses en mi y luego sige, esta mal lo que hare perdón si lloras por mi, no quiero que llores, y si no lloras que bueno pero no lleges a odiarme, eso me devastaria, solo con saber que tu estas bien soy feliz
Siempre guardare nuestros secretos y promesas nunca lo dudes, siempre seras parte importante de mi vida
Te amo y siempre lo hare, nunca saldras de este estupido corazon con ese maldito sentimiento que llamamos amor.
From: ABC
To: J
Lo único que hago es pensar en ti y todo lo bonito que pasamos a pesar de que tú ya te olvidaste y deje de importarte.
From: ABC
To: J
I’m so in love with you it causes me physical pain. I miss you more than I ever thought could be possible. i hope more than anything that’s it’s you and me in the end because not having you in my life made me realize how impossible it is for me to live without you. it feels so shitty to say but i hope you chose me over her one day, because i’ve come to realize that it’s you, it’s always been you, and it’ll always be you. God i hope you feel the same.
From: ABC
To: J
you’ve been there for me when i thought i had no one. you know everything about me and i’m so happy that you’re mine. you are my bestfriend
From: ABC
To: J
what i dont understand is how you can just hurt me like that and yet go on your day without an apology or anything. There is no remorse for the effects you do on me. but I stay anyway because i love you and i feel that i cant do anything without you. but you don't know that, and I'm too scared to tell you. i need you even when i say that i don't. ill let you kill me and id still would want to come back to you and i hate it. i got too attached too quickly, which also makes me hate you. but then somewhere in me i know i fucking love you
From: ABC
To: J
did I love you or the person I thought you would be? what happened to the old you. we really grew huh..
From: ABC
To: J
yes you ruined me but thank you for opening my eyes, I am now ten times the person I was then. hope you learn to be better.
From: ABC
To: J
If I was your everything, why did you go on autopilot? Why did you get too comfortable? I deserve crazy love- not average love. I wanted to be your entire world.
From: ABC
To: J
Its funny how when we first started talking you made me feel like all my problems could be solved if I was wrapped in your arms but now the only problem I have is not being able to talk to you anymore...
From: ABC
To: J
everyone knew what you were like. but told me i was different to you. all of that only to be here missing you again
From: ABC
To: J
Every song reminded me of you. You deserve the world, but I am not meant to be in it. I hope you will be happy with someone but it breaks my heart to know that someone can never be me. But I will keep on being by your side because before anything else, you're my best friend.
From: ABC
To: J
You were one of the purest friendship loves I felt but now I wish we could go back to being strangers. I’ll still love you forever and more so in another life
From: ABC
To: J
It really hurt when I told you how you made hate myself and you continued to make the conversation about yourself.
From: ABC
To: J
I can’t watch my favourite film anymore, every minute that goes past reminds me of the way you held me that night.
From: ABC
To: J
I loved you, but not as a boyfriend, I loved you like a best friend, this is why I shouldn’t have dated you. This is why I shouldn’t have stayed with you when you gave me every reason not to. I didn’t do it because I was in love, it was just because I didn’t want to loose my best friend. Now i’m not afraid to loose you and I am so proud of myself for that.
From: ABC
To: J
im sorry i can't be perfect for you but im trying my best. im so scared one day you will get tired of me and leave
From: ABC
To: J
you will never understand how much i love you. hopefully one day you’ll talk to me so i can explain it
From: ABC
To: J
i really really liked you and convinced my parents not to move so i wouldnt be far from you...then you started asking me for tips on wooing your crush when you knew i had feelings for you. glad to know i was only the second option :)
From: ABC
To: J
i know i messed up, and i'm sorry. but I wouldn't change it for the world because look where we are now.
From: ABC
To: J
I'm so sorry you were the collateral in our relationship, that it turned out to be little more than a learning curve.
From: ABC
To: J
never understood how you could tell me that you are so in love with me ... then cheat as many time as you did.
From: ABC
To: J
Sometimes I wonder how I still cared no matter how much shit you put me through. I guess I loved you more...
From: ABC
To: J
Sometimes I wonder how I still cared no matter how much shit you put me through. I guess I loved you more...
From: ABC
To: J
I don’t know if you’re my J, if you are I know you’re not mine anyway but I did always look at you at school, and your stride was very cool. I’m sorry i was an idiot, forgive me?
From: ABC
To: J
It’s been 1 year, you left, came back and left again. I’ll always let u come back..I won’t ever get over you
From: ABC
To: J
you made me doubt my self and for that i can never forgive you, the worst part is that we will go back to acting as if nothing happened and you didn't say you would never hurt me but i guess that's not true, why did i believe and open up to you even after past struggles tell my life story to you for you to throw it away and find someone else. you helped me grow and become who i am which i should be thanking you for, but strength is something i found in myself also why should your excuse be i was struggling, if so please let me in I've had experience don't lock me and put me in the same situation as you
and then find another girl immediately so i stand by the quote i was better but she was easier
From: ABC
To: J
I'm scared I only love the version of you in my head. I'm scared the one person I care for isn't good for me.
From: ABC
To: J
I think I'm finally starting to get over you, but I don't really like it. We weren't supposed to end this way. It was supposed to be me and you forever. Now all the love and hard work just went to waste...
From: ABC
To: J
i wish memories could just be erased sometimes, it'd all be so much easier. did u write that orange one w my inital on it?
From: ABC
To: J
i would always get so excited when put with you in a group at school. sorry i never told u how i felt
From: ABC
To: J
You never valued me even after years of friendship, but instead, you valued those you dated for three months. That hurt.
From: ABC
To: J
Been wondering why I haven’t liked someone in a long time. But i know deep down, you’re still the one.
From: ABC
To: J
i just wish i would’ve put in as much work as you did into the relationship. i still love you. i’m sorry
From: ABC
To: J
I wish thing were easier, I wish we could look into each other’s eyes without fear and say all we feel, say how much we’ve missed each other. I wish this dream could become reality some day...
From: ABC
To: J
i got rid of every physical reminder of you i could’ve had. it’s the mental ones that i can’t get rid of
From: ABC
To: J
i wish i could help u and make sure everythings ok but i dont want to bother u. i know youre fine without me.
From: ABC
To: J
i am so in love with you. i’ve known you for a year and learned so much about you. you are the most beautiful boy i have met. you are my best friend. so much so i believe u are meant for me, i hope i am meant for you. every song reminds me of you. every happy thing reminds me of you. every sunset, every boy i meet. i truly believe the universe meant for us to meet. we have such a strong connection i haven’t felt with anyone else. i can be myself with you and i love that so much. everything and everyone tells me it’s you. you have my heart j, forever and always. words can’t describe how much love i hold for you.
From: ABC
To: J
Me enamore denuevo, muchísimo diría yo. Aveces en las noches lloro porque no creo que alguien tan increíble llegó a mi vida, es lo que siempre espere de alguien. Me da paz. Pero el amor nunca es igual y nunca podría llegar a sentir ese tipo de amor que sentí contigo
From: ABC
To: J
I already accepted the fact na 'we' can't happen. I settled for something less, but I still want you. I agreed on the 'no-label' shit 'cause I thought na you would fall for me eventually. Turns out, ako yung naunang mahulog. You liked me first but I loved you first. U r my first love. It's been days and this still hurts like a bitch.
From: ABC
To: J
I'm sure that the girl you will love, the girl na you would be ready to have a relationship with is a very lucky girl. I can't imagine kung paano ako magseselos and kung paano ako masasaktan kasi I know na I would want to be the girl you love. Not just a girl you liked. Be happy.
From: ABC
To: J
I smile when I think of you, and hope you are doing well. You deserve someone who really loves you, I’m sorry it could never be me. All my love.
From: ABC
To: J
I loved you, and I thought you loved me back. I was wrong and knew that from the start. I set myself up for failure
From: ABC
To: J
god, i feel safe when i am with you, i feel like im in home, with you, it doesent matter where or with who if im with you...
the fact that u always says that u want to commite sucide if im not there hurts so much... you mean the worls to me...please dont leave me
From: ABC
To: J
leaving you hurt me. but after what you did, i finally decided to chose myself. it turned out to be the easiest decision i’ve ever made.
From: ABC
To: J
ur giving me all these mix signals pls tell me what it is u want from me. they'll be all these other girls around much prettier than me but I'm the one u sit next to and give attention to. what does this mean?!?!
From: ABC
To: J
I know I said I couldn’t be with you long distance but now that I’ve let you go the only thing I feel is regret
From: ABC
To: J
i feel like your drifting from me, maybe im overthinking everything but ive never had anyone like you and i dont want to lose it
