Unsent messages to J
From: ABC
To: J
Date: January 10, 2021, 5:22 am UTC
Why did u say “ I love u” when u didn’t mean it and broke up with me a week a later and stopped saying it a couple days laters. Did I ever mean anything to u
From: ABC
To: J
Date: January 10, 2021, 5:20 am UTC
Why did u tell me we were gonna be together forever if u were planning on breaking up with me a couple weeks later
From: ABC
To: J
Date: January 10, 2021, 2:41 am UTC
ppl say I’m better than her but idc, it’s the fact you was my first love and she was my best friend. i loved u deeply.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: January 10, 2021, 2:16 am UTC
I never meant to drive you so far away. I did it so that you would let go of an idea that was going to hurt you.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: January 10, 2021, 2:10 am UTC
Fuck you, actually fuck you for messing with my feelings for ditching me for the girl you said not to worry about but hurts the most is the fact you didn’t even try to keep our friendship not only were we all friends but you chose to ignore me to let our friendship fall to pieces and the fact I made a simple mistake you were so quick to turn on me and go straight to siding with her and watch her manipulate everysingle one of my friends to thinking I was an awful person. Fuck you because I’m not an awful person I was a broken girl and you just shattered her like it was nothing so fuck you I hate you
From: ABC
To: J
Date: January 10, 2021, 1:58 am UTC
I love you, ever since the moment I met you. You said you’d marry me someday, I will (always) wait for you.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: January 10, 2021, 1:33 am UTC
i’m so sorry i wasn’t good enough for you. i hope she is good to you, cause i clearly wasn’t after what you’ve said to me. i will always love you, j.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: January 10, 2021, 12:46 am UTC
congratulations on being clean of s.h for a year my love :). i love you so much and i’m so proud of you.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: January 9, 2021, 7:56 pm UTC
It’s always been you; it hurts knowing that for myself that you can’t be though.
I wish you the best, maybe in another lifetime where we both have our shit figured out. A piece of me is always gonna love you, even if we never speak again.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: January 9, 2021, 4:49 pm UTC
my first silly childhood crush, thank u for making me do ridiculous things that my old friends can always joke about
From: ABC
To: J
Date: January 9, 2021, 3:32 pm UTC
the way you look in through the lab door, i always catch you looking ,it's been 3 years since i hurt you, do u want to talk to me? simply wanna see what i'm doing with my life? still like me? hate my guts which i give you no fault for ? i smiled and waved but you didnt care and stared in shock. you still wave at my mum when i'm not there, i'm trying to understand your wishes rn
From: ABC
To: J
Date: January 9, 2021, 8:36 am UTC
i would've given you the world. i know that in another universe, you would've given it to me too - i just wish it was this one.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: January 9, 2021, 5:19 am UTC
i still think you’re so beautiful, but i can hardly remember how you sound or how you laugh. i don’t know if i could resist you if you decided to come back. i don’t know that i’m strong enough. i don’t know that i miss you. i don’t know that i love you. but you’re you, and that’s enough.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: January 9, 2021, 2:27 am UTC
not having nicknames for each other ever really sucks. you always kept me at a distance and every time I tried to get closer you just pushed me away.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: January 9, 2021, 12:25 am UTC
You had the ability to take me to both my lowest and highest point for that you always have a hold on me • A
From: ABC
To: J
Date: January 9, 2021, 12:21 am UTC
It’s time for me to let you go. You make me feel so good yet you’re so bad for me. I’ll love you always. Maybe it’s meant to be in another lifetime
From: ABC
To: J
Date: January 8, 2021, 11:54 pm UTC
I’m still waiting for an apology I know I’ll never get but ... it’s still you.
if you expressed your love you KNOW I would drop everything for you. sad reality.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: January 8, 2021, 11:07 pm UTC
I left little parts of me in everything we did. You have a piece of my heart in your pocket, please, be gentle with it.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: January 8, 2021, 9:23 pm UTC
why would you lie? im not sure why you have such a hateful heart, just accept people, you don’t have to be mean about anything. its better to keep your mouth shut sometimes, i tried to tell you but you just love arguments. what’s the point though? it’s so dumb.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: January 8, 2021, 9:21 pm UTC
why would you lie? im not sure why you have such a hateful heart, just accept people, you don’t have to be mean about anything. its better to keep your mouth shut sometimes, i tried to tell you but you just love arguments. what’s the point though? it’s so dumb.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: January 8, 2021, 8:41 pm UTC
maybe if you knew I was strong enough to walk away you wouldn’t have treated me like an option. i deserve more than that.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: January 8, 2021, 6:24 pm UTC
but if only you could have loved me the way i had once loved you. maybe in another lifetime sweet boy
From: ABC
To: J
Date: January 8, 2021, 2:45 pm UTC
We’re a good match. But I don’t like that you’re intimidated by how much I care. So you’ll never get to see it again.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: January 8, 2021, 2:39 pm UTC
We picked out our future house, I was sure we were soulmates, I’ll always be here if you ever change your mind
From: ABC
To: J
Date: January 8, 2021, 2:19 pm UTC
Is there anything that I could’ve done differently to keep you in my life? I still don’t know why you left...
From: ABC
To: J
Date: January 8, 2021, 1:06 pm UTC
you came into my life like a whirlwind and swept me off my feet -- I am still waiting to come back down.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: January 8, 2021, 10:08 am UTC
I don’t believe it right person wrong time, if it was meant to be it would have been. It’s time to let go. I gave you two many chances to ever come back for another.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: January 8, 2021, 6:22 am UTC
You hurt me more than anyone ever has. But, if I were in a room with everyone I have ever loved... I would honestly run to you.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: January 8, 2021, 6:20 am UTC
Even after how you treated me... I still find myself missing you. But in reality, I am just missing what we had in the beginning.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: January 8, 2021, 5:42 am UTC
it has been 3 years since I told u I couldn’t forgive you from the incident..but I finally let go and I want you to know I fell for you. I fell so hard and i got so hurt how u hurt me but thank you for being my first guy best friend. I hope one day we reconnect but who knows. This is my closer. Good bye
From: ABC
To: J
Date: January 8, 2021, 5:22 am UTC
my heart hurts for the fact that i don't think you ever really cared about my feelings but i always considered urs.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: January 8, 2021, 3:58 am UTC
I love you. But I hate the person you have become, but for some reason I always go back to you when things get tough.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: January 8, 2021, 12:59 am UTC
i would give anything to have a conversation with you and figure out why you did what you did. maybe then i’d have a chance of moving on
From: ABC
To: J
Date: January 8, 2021, 12:28 am UTC
i liked you for longer than i want to admit, but you helped me through a lot and you’re still a close friend. i wish i could stop the drifting...
From: ABC
To: J
Date: January 7, 2021, 10:53 pm UTC
you hurt me more by leaving me than you could have ever done by staying. I don't think your intentions were ever pure . I think you ended things because you finally realised you'd led me on too far ; I had started off as a cure to your boredom and you let it escalate from there. I look like such a mug
From: ABC
To: J
Date: January 7, 2021, 10:49 pm UTC
I want to know if you ever saw me.
Even if you didn’t I saw you. I see u everyday. My heart still aches.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: January 7, 2021, 10:16 pm UTC
You were my first, my middle and now my end. I didn’t think I could live without you but the less I hear from you the more I see a future and your not in it. I hope she was worth it.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: January 7, 2021, 10:16 pm UTC
please don’t fall in love with someone else because i won’t fall in love with anyone better than you.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: January 7, 2021, 10:10 pm UTC
sometimes i think i could really love you. you offered me a lot but i think you only do it to know you can strip it away. i hate that but i don’t hate you.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: January 7, 2021, 8:39 pm UTC
you left months ago, but i still taste the flavor of your favorite energy drink and think of you kissing me at every red light i stop at.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: January 7, 2021, 8:39 pm UTC
you said we are soulmates, right?
Right person wrong time, I believe that if we're meant to be together we'll eventually find a way back together like we always did.
I'm not in love with you anymore, but I still have love for you in my heart, even if you broke me so many times. we're back to strangers again and that is for the best because you love her and I have to let you finally go and accept that ur not the person anymore that I fell in love with. thank you for everything you taught me and all the beautiful memories. i love you best friend, oh wait, ex best friend. I hope that one day you will mean what you said to me the day before. I miss u. no I miss not u.. I miss the beautiful memories that I wish I could forget about so I could finally let u go completely but I don't miss you. I miss my person you were and our connection, but I DONT MISS YOU. I don't need you to be happy. I can do that without you. I hope ur mom is good- goodbye I love you.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: January 7, 2021, 7:44 pm UTC
I have to let you go now. I'm done with all the chasing and I understand you'll never going to love me back.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: January 7, 2021, 2:39 pm UTC
I still think about the life we planned. if i had loved myself as much as you loved me, maybe we'd still be together. i never wanted to hurt you or lose our friendship, i miss my best friend. i love hearing stories about how happy you seem now, I'm proud of you.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: January 7, 2021, 2:37 pm UTC
it's been 43 days since I've seen you or we talked. somehow it feels longer than the 6yrs we spent together. I hope you're doing well, I heard she's really pretty.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: January 7, 2021, 9:46 am UTC
if i stop hating you i’ll stop feeling anything at all for you and that’s almost as scary as losing you in the first place was
From: ABC
To: J
Date: January 7, 2021, 8:53 am UTC
Whether you were just infatuation or genuine love, I'm glad you were my first relationship experience. Thank you.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: January 7, 2021, 8:09 am UTC
You’re the only person I’ve ever met who wants the exact same future as I do. I wish we’d actually had a shot.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: January 7, 2021, 3:28 am UTC
hi, i’ve thought about everything that happened a lot. there’s not one day i go without thinking about you. but what i realized is we never really knew each other. so i feel dumb for thinking we were ever going to be anything more than just friends. but it still hurt finding out about her. i hope you the best with everything. this is my actual goodbye for real this time. so goodbye bud :(
From: ABC
To: J
Date: January 7, 2021, 3:02 am UTC
Lol if you ever saw this which you won’t i’d cry. There’s no one in the world I would rather listen to music with or discuss politics and harry potter. There’s no one else who id rather split the hw with or talk shit about our teachers. I need you to know for my own sanity that I really liked you for like kind of a long time. I’m getting over it or am over it idek but there’s always that little what if in the back of my mind. What if I had just told you. what if I had just kissed you. Or what if I had done nothing, had ignored you all those years ago with the friendly flirting that you 100% saw as just friends. I don’t ever want to lose you as a friend so I’ll never speak a word of this but. I wish I could just say it cuz i wanna move on. yeah. anyways.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: January 7, 2021, 2:52 am UTC
you broke my heart more times than I could count the more times than you leave the harder it is to swallow :(
