Unsent messages to J
From: ABC
To: J
Date: September 16, 2020, 8:08 pm UTC
i was scrolling through these and saw a message with my name from your initial. and i know you don't know what this is, but i desperately hope it was from you and for me. it was my favorite color too. aria.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: September 16, 2020, 7:30 pm UTC
you’re the reason i believe in love again. it’s crazy to think that we were just friends a little bit ago. you are the most special person to me, i love you
From: ABC
To: J
Date: September 16, 2020, 4:20 pm UTC
you were my home for so long. i could move away and get another address, but i’ll always remember my old house...
From: ABC
To: J
Date: September 16, 2020, 1:07 am UTC
I tell myself another lie and pretend that you were never enough. But you were always enough. You were almost too much.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: September 15, 2020, 9:46 am UTC
we had our kids names planned out, plans to move to long beach together, go on more picnic dates, and i just miss you. i love you.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: September 15, 2020, 7:28 am UTC
i always wonder what would've happened if i hadn't pushed you off me when we kissed in your room because he was texting you and now you're engaged to him.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: September 14, 2020, 11:10 pm UTC
You failed me in so many ways. I'm not sure I'll ever trust another again. You'll always miss me. I miss who I was.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: September 14, 2020, 7:26 am UTC
you loved me for 3 years. I was so scared of losing you that I never accepted the love long enough to give it a chance.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: September 14, 2020, 4:29 am UTC
i was thinking about doing something bad the night we played that game. thank you for messaging me first - ?
From: ABC
To: J
Date: September 13, 2020, 8:51 pm UTC
I still miss you and I often find myself thinking about you... I just want some closure. I know where I went wrong but I didn't know if you liked me back. I just want to talk and sort the unfinished. You've probably moved on but my heart still wanders alone :(
From: ABC
To: J
Date: September 13, 2020, 2:39 pm UTC
It makes me really sad you couldn’t see my worth. I knew it all along, I just thought that eventually you would too. That eventually you would see one day I might be gone and I might find new love. I created all those feelings. You can’t find them somewhere else. When that never came I had to leave. My brain can’t be treated less than it deserves.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: September 13, 2020, 11:23 am UTC
I was right, you were falling out of love again. You left me alone again. Because of u I feel like I don't deserve love.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: September 13, 2020, 2:22 am UTC
I thought I wouldn’t be able to live w out you .. damn look at me now I’m so happy I walked away I realized my self worth and it feels good knowing I hurt you b/c not even a fraction of pain you feel will ever make up for the agonizing pain you put me through.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: September 12, 2020, 9:57 pm UTC
my first love, i want to hate you and i do, but deep down theres still a part of me that loves you so much, your love consumed me, made me feel alive, safe, protected, loved, but then you left. you left me with nothing but our memories, that i still hold onto to this day. how happy i was, how loved i felt, how special you made me feel, like i was the only girl in the world. ill love you forever, thats the problem.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: September 12, 2020, 7:57 pm UTC
how could you leave me when i needed you most you were my best fucking friend but then you left like the rest of them did
From: ABC
To: J
Date: September 12, 2020, 7:15 pm UTC
Sometimes I wonder If u ever think of me when you walk around your city and think of all the places you would take me If I was there.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: September 12, 2020, 5:20 pm UTC
i tried my hardest to get you to like me and when you did you wanted me for things i didn’t want to do
From: ABC
To: J
Date: September 12, 2020, 2:15 am UTC
no matter how hard i try and convince myself otherwise, i loved you, and even though we weren't meant to be, a part of me wishes we would have worked
From: ABC
To: J
Date: September 12, 2020, 2:15 am UTC
i wish you liked me back the way i thought you did. i wish i didn’t have to say it was all a drunken mistake after i told you i liked you :/
From: ABC
To: J
Date: September 12, 2020, 2:12 am UTC
i know i told you that you leaving was the best thing that ever happened to me, but i really wish that you had stayed
From: ABC
To: J
Date: September 11, 2020, 11:33 pm UTC
the thing i regret the most is looking you with love after you slapped my face, instead of fucking punching you back
From: ABC
To: J
Date: September 11, 2020, 9:47 pm UTC
we both disliked this colour, maybe that was the only thing we actually had in common. I hope you're ok.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: September 11, 2020, 9:13 pm UTC
If I could go back that night, trust me I would do it all differently. Now you won't even look me in the eye.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: September 11, 2020, 8:16 pm UTC
you broke my friggin heart man.. you used me. for 3 years. you said you loved me and slept with other girls. fuck u man.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: September 11, 2020, 2:36 pm UTC
its hard to find someone like u,sometimes I wish u were here for me,still love u even now when u dont evem remember me
From: ABC
To: J
Date: September 11, 2020, 8:32 am UTC
hi i really like you but i’m too scared to tell you. i don’t want to ruin what we have and we aren’t that close but still. i feel like you’re my soulmate and i can’t see myself with anyone else. i haven’t really told anyone about how i truly feel about you. i do want to tell you soon before it’s too late. i love u
From: ABC
To: J
Date: September 11, 2020, 8:27 am UTC
hi i should’ve told you earlier but i really like you. i don’t want our friendship to be ruined but i really do imagine spending the rest of my life with you. i really don’t know how you feel but i’m too scared to tell you. i really hope i get the courage to tell you soon because i don’t want to wait before it’s too late.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: September 11, 2020, 3:19 am UTC
always them damn J’s. Anyways I always felt like we had something so good and special and for the first time I felt like someone actually cared and wasn’t using me. You ended things out of no where and it hurt me so so much.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: September 11, 2020, 2:30 am UTC
you made me feel like i wasn’t enough i wanted to be myself again but it was so hard because i knew about the other prettier girls in your life. i cant get upset bc i was never yours but i still wish i was and i wish i hadn’t let myself stop eating and sleeping because of you
From: ABC
To: J
Date: September 10, 2020, 11:42 pm UTC
Why did you go on that trip. Why didn’t you stay near josh. Just come home and we can have a huge party to celebrate. We need you back man
From: ABC
To: J
Date: September 10, 2020, 11:18 pm UTC
I've been in love with you since I first saw u. it's been a year and u moved. and I still think about you.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: September 10, 2020, 10:14 pm UTC
your voice never leaves my mind. i read almost everything as if you were saying it out loud. please never let me forget the way you sound.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: September 10, 2020, 9:48 pm UTC
blue, your eye colour, whenever i asked you to choose a colour it would always be blue, you said it was to remind me of you- blue is no longer my favourite colour
From: ABC
To: J
Date: September 10, 2020, 9:36 pm UTC
hey, i know it was neither any of our faults but i’m sorry i couldn't do more for you. i took your love for granted. you needed someone to help you and i wasn’t enough. i think you’ll always be in the back of my mind. i miss what we had and the comforting, loving feeling you gave me. i hope you’ve moved on to better things, better people. i truly hope your life is blessed with amazing things as you really do deserve the most.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: September 10, 2020, 8:58 pm UTC
i really wish it could’ve worked but you messed me up so bad and messed with my head but i miss you so much
From: ABC
To: J
Date: September 10, 2020, 7:52 pm UTC
It’s almost been two years and the thought of you hurts, I hope you’re happy, and that she loves you even more than I did
From: ABC
To: J
Date: September 10, 2020, 5:45 pm UTC
you were the one to keep me alive when i felt like I had nothing to live for anymore. i didn't realise what I felt for you until after we drifted. I miss you and our FaceTime calls in the middle of the night. it hurts when i see you with her at school. but i hope things turn out better for you and her than they did for you and i.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: September 10, 2020, 5:15 pm UTC
i know we both love each other. i just wish it was easier. i’ve been in love with you for 5 years already.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: September 10, 2020, 4:27 pm UTC
Even though you’re not ready right now, i will wait for you. No matter how long it takes because you’re worth it.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: September 10, 2020, 9:26 am UTC
I know you’re not in a good place, I just wanted to be there for you. Why’d you have to cut me out like that? We were so good together.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: September 10, 2020, 3:23 am UTC
lie to me. say you still love me even if you don’t mean to. you said you didn’t and i need you to take it back.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: September 10, 2020, 1:55 am UTC
you really aren’t the person i fell in love with anymore, you’re so angry and mean. i love you. but it’s time to let you go
From: ABC
To: J
Date: September 10, 2020, 1:55 am UTC
you really aren’t the person i fell in love with anymore, you’re so angry and mean. i love you. but it’s time to let you go
From: ABC
To: J
Date: September 10, 2020, 1:49 am UTC
Im sorry that I messed up, I apologized. I needed to tell you that. Now I feel better but I know you are not looking at me the same way. Im sorry. I want to be the last person in your love life, I want to get married, I want to raise our children, Just Please, forgive me and pretend that nothing happened.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: September 10, 2020, 1:41 am UTC
I love you for showing me my new favourite song by neutral milk hotel (in the aeroplane over the sea) I'll always think of you when I hear it
From: ABC
To: J
Date: September 9, 2020, 10:52 pm UTC
I miss you but you’re a bed person and I hate myself because I still care about you and just want the old you back or the you I thought I knew, you were the only man I ever loved and the only one I ever trusted fully but we will never speak or see each other again and a part of me is still hurting but the rest is thriving but you’re always and will always be on my mind
From: ABC
To: J
Date: September 9, 2020, 9:38 pm UTC
I've convinced myself that I'm not interested anymore. I've let go. But you will always, in the very corner of my heart that is locked away, be the girl I want. I love you.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: September 9, 2020, 2:02 pm UTC
most nights i just lay in bed thinking of the things we would be doing right now if i never left. i’m sorry.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: September 9, 2020, 1:09 pm UTC
i just know you don't think about me. you've changed and so have i. but sometimes i wanna go back to what we were.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: September 9, 2020, 11:15 am UTC
When you said “I think it’s best we take a step back” I realized why hurricanes are named after people.
