Unsent messages to J

you werent my first love, but you were the first person to make me feel loved. every day you remind me of my worth, my strength and my capacity to get better, even on days where i want to hide away from the world. i love you endlessly

I wish I could cuddle with you in a warm house with a fireplace in it forever. This will never happen

you looked so happy i couldn’t bare to look
not because i was sad but that’s all i ever wanted for you

I really like you and you’ll probably never know, but it just sucks you’re all the way on the other side of the world

I wish we could be together. The chemistry is there, it just isn't the right time. My best friend forever.

i think it’s unfair your footprints are still on my heart and you don’t even walk this earth anymore.

Te acuerdas que una vez que me dijiste te amo y no te conteste,bueno me arrepiento mucho,porque en verdad te amo y mucho y ahora es tarde como para decirte ya que,ya eres feliz con alguien más

We hid our love in fear it would never be accepted. If only I could show you now how wrong we were. Miss you always.

i love you so much. i know you probably dont like me. i wish we would've dated. i wish i wouldve hung out with you. i just want another chance. i will always have a special place in my heart for you and i will always always go back to you no matter how bad you hurt me. i miss our facetime calls, falling asleep on facetime, funny conversations, everything about you. i know we didnt even date, but i still loved you. i miss your cute laugh and smile. everyone says we arent good for eachother; i dont care what they say. love you so much?

i dont know what happened to us. but if you ever change your mind, no matter what i will always come back to you?

I wish thing were easier, I wish we could look into each other’s eyes without fear and say all we feel, say how much we’ve missed each other. I wish this dream could become reality some day...

Why did you leave me when I needed you the most. You said you didn’t want to be labeled as a hypocrite but yet what u told me was a complete lie.

I like you a lot. I’m scared tho. Because I don’t want to like you. I’m scared because I do. And I think I’m falling in love. Maybe you feel the same. But I hope you don’t because I ruin everything. I’m sorry. Maybe we could give it a try but I never planned on liking you. I actually hated you at first. But now your my bestfriend. I’m scared for what’s going to happen. But if anything bad does happen. I love you idiot.

I realized how much I actually do miss you. We weren’t together for very long , but I wish we could fix us.

Sometimes I'll think of you at random moments of the day. I wonder if you still think of me the way I think of you. I feel as if I should hold hatred for you, but I can't. I tell myself, don't text back, he's only talking to you for school anyways, yet I can't prevent myself from doing so. I don't know if what we had can be considered love, I don't know what love is, but I know it wasn't nothing. I grew from it, I learned from it, and now I know. I know what to do and what not to. I want to thank you. I want you to know that you'll always have a special place in my heart. I can't ask that you think of me, or that we repair what was before, but please don't forget me. That's all I ask, because I know I'll never forget you.

why cant i be good enough for u? i try so hard but it’s always another girl. you might think i don’t notice but i do. u call me late at night at we stay up until 5, you tell me you love me, i’m always there for you. why cant i be enough

My heart aches at the thought of you. My throat tightens at the thought of what you did. I loved you. I trusted you. You betrayed me in the worst way possible. I gave you my entire heart. You squeezed the life out of it. You used me.

You were my soulmate. Everyday a piece of my heart breaks and i hope it goes to you. i want you to be happy. that’s all i want

I kind of hate you but can’t get over you. Sorry if this hurt your feelings but I don’t care anymore lol

i dont know why i held onto you for so long. i never wanted to lose our connection but you hurt me more than i ever imagined you could.

i miss you,hey it’s yun I hope you’re doing okay.it’s hard knowing we won’t cross paths but I love you. maybe in another life we’ll meet.

I’m so sorry for any pain I caused you. It hurt me to do what I did, but now I hope you can see why. I started becoming an awful person. I think about my bday often and how I wish you would have said something, but I’m glad that was our last time together bc it proved I was right. I hope you are well, and that you forgive me. I really am sorry, but I couldn’t let you keep hurting me when I loved you and you knew it.

Maybe it was not what you wanted, but you took a part of me that I can never get back. Come to me, please

i know how much you hurt me. i can’t trust you. but every time i’m with you i forget everything because i’m in love with you and i shouldn’t be.

I know it’s past time to move on, but I still hoped you would have at least tried something to prove you cared about me. Miss you I guess, really want to talk to you

I still miss you and i think i always will. I'll never Fall out of love with you. I'm still waiting for you to come back.

wow... como explicarte que sigo amándote?
digo... eres mi "mejor amigo" pero la preferiste a ella. Y te extraño mucho...

i miss everything we did. you are so special to me and there is not a day i haven’t thought about you. i really hope that wasn’t the end of it all.

Hola, a pasado tanto tiempo desde que nos vimos por ultima vez y me gustaría saber como estas? Estas bien?
Que has hecho?
Necesito hablar contigo, necesito un abrazo tuyo de esos en los que me asegura que nada malo va a pasar, te necesito a ti.
Te quiero J.

I just decided to let you go and let you be happy even without me.
I'd rather have you in my life as my friend than not have you.

Some things are meant to be loved alone. So please if you would let me, let me love you from afar. It’s the only way we can still be best friends.

I love you soo much,
I hope that at some point we will meet again and there we can hug you very tight

you told me you started reading the horoscope because of me.
i hope it will continue remind you of me now that we are strangers.

Thank you for always making me smile n laugh during times I thought I couldn't. I hope we can stay like this forever.

if you loved me like you said, you could put your pride aside and grow some balls to reach out to me :)

I still think about you, 2 years later. Even though you aren't even that cute i really wish i could've gotten to know you more. I don't think you realize how much i miss you. please come back.

Have you moved on? Are you still thinking about me? Did you find someone else? I wish you the best but i also wish that anyone who talks to you with romantic intentions gets hurt, jk.

I keep coming back to you because, even though you give me nothing, I know there’s something deep down there I want so badly

Espanish*

Hace tiempo quiero sácame esto enserio lo siento lo siento mucho ese día no debí haber dicho nada no sabía lo que sentía d fui un estupido no supe valorar la linda relación que teníamos enserio quiero devolver el tiempo y hacer que todo cambie volver a sentir tus abrazos tus risas los regalos las charlas las caricias … todo era tan lindo junto a ti cuando pasabas por mi lado y me acariciabas la espalda y yo a ti cuando los abrazamos de una amnera que DIOS fue lo mejor de Estevez lindo quisiera que todo fuera como antes poder volver a abrazarte así y no sé simples desconocidos quiero todo como antes porfavor no entiendes lo mucho que te extraño al menos seamos amigos como antes las miradas …

Espanish*

Hace tiempo quiero sácame esto enserio lo siento lo siento mucho ese día no debí haber dicho nada no sabía lo que sentía d fui un estupido no supe valorar la linda relación que teníamos enserio quiero devolver el tiempo y hacer que todo cambie volver a sentir tus abrazos tus risas los regalos las charlas las caricias … todo era tan lindo junto a ti cuando pasabas por mi lado y me acariciabas la espalda y yo a ti cuando los abrazamos de una amnera que DIOS fue lo mejor de Estevez lindo quisiera que todo fuera como antes poder volver a abrazarte así y no sé simples desconocidos quiero todo como antes porfavor no entiendes lo mucho que te extraño al menos seamos amigos como antes las miradas …

Sabes yo nunca quise irme pero me demostraste que no querías que me quedara
Ahora ya estás con alguien más, pero te deseo lo mejor siempre .
Te perdono :)

When you said bye, I took a snapshot of your face in my head. I started studying it that moment, as if I had just met you. I will never forget you

I only stopped fighting for us when I realized that you hadn't cared for months. That day it felt like you stabbed me in the heart. And no your excuse to treat me like that wasn't good enough. I know that you won't ever apologize but I'm ok with that, I just hope one day I can forgive you.

You said that we should help each other grow together, but you left me to figure everything out for myself

i think i was inlove with you this whole time. anything minor that happened between us you consumed my head and my mind. and no matter what i do i can never let go of you.

I think I really loved you. Before you, I didn’t know it was possible to think about someone all day. I know now it is.

Ojala cumplas cada uno de esos sueños y metas que me contaste que tenias, y aunque nunca lo sabras estare celebrando y orgullosa por ti.

I just really need to know what is going on inside of your head because I am exhausted! I know we are not just friends... we never were and we never will be. I know you feel it too, right? I can't be the only one...not after all this time.

i’ve never felt this way about a boy. none before you made me feel this way. come back when you’re better

i tell my friends and family I'm over you and how much I never want you back, but late at night I'm still lying in my bed crying for what we had and how badly i want to feel the way you made me feel again