Unsent messages to J
From: ABC
To: J
Date: November 21, 2020, 5:25 am UTC
the amount of love i have for you is out of this world. you are my everything. i never want to lose you
From: ABC
To: J
Date: November 21, 2020, 5:05 am UTC
haha fuck you for treating me like an item. you didn't even realize it, and neither did i until after we broke up
From: ABC
To: J
Date: November 21, 2020, 4:11 am UTC
i love you forever and ever and i wish you knew how much i actually care about and think about you all the time you make me happy and you don’t even know how much that means to me.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: November 21, 2020, 3:38 am UTC
you will never find this and therefore, you will never know but I love you. I know we're best friends but I love you. Plain and simple. I love you so much it hurts. I want to run my fingers through your hair and let you hold me. I want to fall asleep in your arms. But i can't ever tell you. I was too scared to even put your full name. Fuck.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: November 21, 2020, 3:15 am UTC
No sentĂas cuando nos mirábamos, estabamos hechos para estar juntos? a pesar de no hablar y no vernos, se sentĂa siempre de la misma
From: ABC
To: J
Date: November 21, 2020, 1:17 am UTC
the pain never stopped since you left. but i found better people and found myself. i wish you the best.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: November 20, 2020, 11:08 pm UTC
i know i just saw u last night but i miss u. come pick me up so we can listen to radiohead and make out
From: ABC
To: J
Date: November 20, 2020, 9:56 pm UTC
i really can't tell if what i feel for you is romantic or platonic, but what i know for sure is that you make me feel safe, like home. you make me want to live.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: November 20, 2020, 9:56 pm UTC
i hope you’re doing well :) our time was short but i enjoyed it!! i really miss you but we had to say goodbye at some point
From: ABC
To: J
Date: November 20, 2020, 9:48 pm UTC
i liked you a lot but you broke up with me 2 weeks before our 1 year and i’ll always hate you for that
From: ABC
To: J
Date: November 20, 2020, 5:21 pm UTC
hey I wish you all the best
hope we could meet later on in life and date because now im scared to tell you how I actually feel
From: ABC
To: J
Date: November 20, 2020, 5:15 pm UTC
I want to spend the rest of my life with you. My biggest regret is that I met you now and not later on in life when things could be different.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: November 20, 2020, 5:10 pm UTC
I really miss you and I don’t know where I went wrong because you just left. I didn’t even get to say goodbye but even though you hurt me I still want you. Come back please.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: November 20, 2020, 4:36 pm UTC
I somehow don’t even like you but I’m still so addicted omfg please leave it’ll only hurt more I’m so confused.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: November 20, 2020, 3:23 pm UTC
when i look up at the moon i can't help to think that the same moon is looking down on you, long distance is hard, but that's the one thing that keeps me going. the good mornings while i fall asleep and the missed calls at 4am will all be worth it one day, my love.
happy 11 months to the boy i want to spend 11+ eternities with, my moon
From: ABC
To: J
Date: November 20, 2020, 1:38 pm UTC
You put me in a place that I pulled you out of but I have no hate toward you and just wish you the best
From: ABC
To: J
Date: November 20, 2020, 12:14 pm UTC
no se que me hacĂas sentir si era amor puede ser tal vez ,esos dĂas con esas noches son testigos de ese amor que naciĂł y muriĂł en el silencio de lo pudimos haber sido, por ti hubiera conquistado el mundo si me lo hubieras pedido, pero no se si por que no estábamos preparados o por que el destino azaroso nos lo prohibiĂł, por que te marchaste a Londres, por que me dejaste llorando, por que aun a dĂa de hoy te recuerdo cada otoño, por que, no puedo avanzar, por que no fui valiente, por que no puedo sentir lo que sentĂ contigo con nadie ,llenaste mi corazĂłn y ahora ese corazĂłn esta vacĂo y muerto
From: ABC
To: J
Date: November 20, 2020, 11:36 am UTC
I think about you when I'm down, you're my happiness but I feel you slipping away, please give me a chance, I promise I'll make it work, you're the one for me, I know it.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: November 20, 2020, 11:21 am UTC
It hurt to know that we once told each other everything and yet you didn't tell me you were leaving. It hurt even more when we didn't say goodbye. I hope you're well
From: ABC
To: J
Date: November 20, 2020, 10:12 am UTC
you fell in love with another girl right in front of me. you knew i loved you with everything i am. fuck you fuck you
From: ABC
To: J
Date: November 20, 2020, 8:51 am UTC
Maybe in another life we’ll be together, for this one I guess I’ll have to settle for friends, I’d rather you guaranteed in my life than me taking a risk that you could leave but I do know that I love you more than I love myself even if you don’t feel the same way
From: ABC
To: J
Date: November 20, 2020, 6:42 am UTC
Some nights, all I wanna do is call you and tell you how much I miss you, I just want the old times back
From: ABC
To: J
Date: November 20, 2020, 6:39 am UTC
answer please, i just want you to call me and we can talk for hours. i wanna know you and I want you to know me.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: November 20, 2020, 5:40 am UTC
I listened to you, i stayed up late for you. I made sure you were ok and that you felt as though someone was there for you. But you never once asked how I was and if I was ok. fuck you for that.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: November 20, 2020, 3:52 am UTC
im sorry im not enough. its my fault for thinking you cared and love me. this is so hard, and i need you, but i need to let you go. i love so so much and will always want the best for you.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: November 20, 2020, 3:09 am UTC
your lies were so believable and i was so dumb to fall for them. you know how much i like you that's why you continue to hurt me and only come back to me when you're bored. i wish i meant at least half as much to u as what u mean to me. everyone was right about you but i was so naive to listen to them because i was convinced you were different, but im glad i got to see your true colors and how much of a shitty heartless person you are. fuck you
From: ABC
To: J
Date: November 20, 2020, 3:05 am UTC
thankyou for making me into a better person and teaching me how to love i’m grateful, fuck you for making me feel not good enough and breaking my trust
From: ABC
To: J
Date: November 20, 2020, 2:27 am UTC
Mi primer amor, siempre te recordarĂ© con amor, gracias por haberme enseñado tanto y aunque aĂşn pienso en cĂłmo serĂa si tuviĂ©ramos ese futuro que tanto planeamos, soy feliz sabiendo que ya no nos hacemos más daño. Te deseo lo mejor mi mayorcito... tu menorcita siempre estará aquĂ.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: November 20, 2020, 2:12 am UTC
i'm scared for what's to come, because i know you'll lose interest and stop loving me, you won't look at me the same
From: ABC
To: J
Date: November 20, 2020, 1:26 am UTC
I was so obsessed with you, but looking back now its kinda funny and i stop my self now from getting to attached to other people, from experience as to how much it hurt liking you. Best part is you never knew I existed
From: ABC
To: J
Date: November 20, 2020, 12:59 am UTC
We Um Grew Up Together Since We Were Little Kids And Ive Always Liked You Just Never Knew How To Tell You But Now You Have Someone And All I Can Do Is Respect Your Relationship.......
From: ABC
To: J
Date: November 20, 2020, 12:11 am UTC
I love you too much but because of your insecurities you will never realize how much I love you ... my love
From: ABC
To: J
Date: November 19, 2020, 11:49 pm UTC
distance wasn’t on our side this time, i miss you more everyday but i cannot ever bring myself to love you any less.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: November 19, 2020, 11:27 pm UTC
te extraño y noc porque. solo fue un beso, pero para mi algo mas.
estoy segura de que no sentis lo mismo por mi. and that's ok
From: ABC
To: J
Date: November 19, 2020, 11:15 pm UTC
I hope we'll see eachother again in Japan, the place we both promised to go together after I finished school. I miss you
From: ABC
To: J
Date: November 19, 2020, 11:14 pm UTC
i'm so broken. there is never a time in my day where i'm not thinking about you. i would do anything to give you the world. you were someone i was happy with. i'm sorry that you had slowly put yourself back in a position where i couldn't even help you and it sucks. i want to cry but i can't. you're worth that wait.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: November 19, 2020, 10:54 pm UTC
I'm just so sad...you hurt me in a way nobody else could. I was always there for you, so tell me what did I do to deserve all this?
From: ABC
To: J
Date: November 19, 2020, 10:50 pm UTC
I loved you,I swear I did. But you didn't even knew my name. But now you do and now I don't care aout you anymore. But every now and than I see that smile that made me fall in love in the first place.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: November 19, 2020, 10:00 pm UTC
why did you push away someone who loved you so much
don't you know they're gonna force themselves to fall out of love with you?
why couldn't you have been better?
were you really enough?
goodnights are not hidden goodbyes
you've never been good at those anyway
don't give up on him
he loves you and you know that
you love him too
but how can you love someone if you don't love yourself?
you're life can't be built off someone else
yet somehow, you've lost yourself and him
he promised you'll be okay
so you will
once you know that he is too
make more promises to yourself
you're losing yourself
From: ABC
To: J
Date: November 19, 2020, 9:28 pm UTC
idk.i just dk atp, we always have mini arguments that sometimes puts me down but i got love for you as a friend and your starting to grow on me and tbh i feel like maybe i should distance myself before i get hurt bc i've told you i liked you and haven't gotten a reply from you so atp i feel like i'm jus making a fool of myself and maybe this is gonna be all my relationships rehappening which i obvs do not want but tbh idk if i can let you go. You've grown on me and i've gotten attached but it's whatever. I jus hope you don't break my heart.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: November 19, 2020, 8:58 pm UTC
You have no idea how much I like you. Genuinely, from the time we first met I have dreamed of being with you
From: ABC
To: J
Date: November 19, 2020, 8:50 pm UTC
i hope she makes you 10x happier than i ever did. i meant it when i said i'd be there for u forever and always, ig u didn't. until then, take care & don't be stupid lol bum
From: ABC
To: J
Date: November 19, 2020, 8:36 pm UTC
I wish you never went, I've never stopped thinking about you since the day I first spoke to you. Now you tell me you loved me, now im in love with you. I wish it wasn't so complicated
From: ABC
To: J
Date: November 19, 2020, 8:27 pm UTC
i miss you a lot its been 11 months since we broke up and i am trying to get over you everyday and still can't you might not miss me but i miss you a whole lot i still remember us meeting for the first time we were just kids who didn't know what we wanted in life then started dating then became toxic but loved each other you know but i love you and still think of you everyday but i know i will have to move on sooner or later because i see you have already so i just need to move on with life but will never get over you
From: ABC
To: J
Date: November 19, 2020, 8:10 pm UTC
so thankful for the things you have learnt me but realisation hits hard now. im letting go, stay safe. It finally feels good to be getting onto the right track again.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: November 19, 2020, 7:51 pm UTC
The past 2 years and 6 months have been the happiest of my life. these past 2 months have been the hardest and i feel myself slowly distancing myself from you, not because i dont love you but i feel like the love isnt there anymore. i care for you and i dont want to hurt you but as much as it hurts me to admit it im loosing feelings amor and it hurts because ive already mentioned to you that im not happy anymore and you arent helping me keep those feeling alive, youre letting it die and im just loosing myself babe. i see you once every 2 weeks and i need more than that, i dont want to hurt you but im loosing you and it hurts me too.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: November 19, 2020, 7:50 pm UTC
I really , really loved you. I still do. I wonder - do you prefer her company to mine? I miss the butterflies I’d get when you’d text , or our movie nights :,) I really really miss you- I doubt I’ll love anyone as much as I did you... Im without you and tbh I always feel alone yet I hope you’re always happy x
From: ABC
To: J
Date: November 19, 2020, 7:27 pm UTC
I loved you so much. But I was to scared to tell you. And now your happy with someone else and it hurted me so much to see you with someone else but im happy youre happy
From: ABC
To: J
Date: November 19, 2020, 7:16 pm UTC
I miss the old you. The caring person you once were for me. Now you're just a stranger. I don't miss you anymore. The toxic person you showed to be. Now you're a person I don't like. We weren't meant to be but we could've been something meant to be. To you it meant nothing, to me you meant the world and now I just spend my days crying over a girl. I don't feel the same with anyone else, it hurts but it's something I'll deal with. I loved you, once upon a time. Now I can't look at you in the eyes without thinking of all the bad things you said. I know I lost you, I blocked you, but in my head, I still see something. Hope. I still hope for the day you wake up and feel regret. I still hope for the day you wake up and message me again. I still hope for a second chance so we can both show changed sides of ourselves and start a new chapter. Time ran out for me already, I know but so did it for you. As I move on, so do you. One day we'll meet again
From: ABC
To: J
Date: November 19, 2020, 7:05 pm UTC
Please stop playing with me like you always do, I'm just a person that gets easily attached, not a replacement.
