From: ABC
To: J
Date: November 4, 2020, 8:28 pm
I wish there were more pictures. Not so I will know it was real , because it was. But so I can look back at how we looked driving in your car , hand out the window , breeze in our hair. I remember the first time I really looked into your eyes and the way the sun was hitting them I saw the whole ocean in your iris. I wish there were more pictures like that something that captured this movie in my head playing the scenes of our life. my life started with you I just didn't realize it might not end with you as well. It's just different sometimes to have things on paper , something I could hold in my hands when I'm sad about us and trying to grasp onto what I have left. I don't ever want to forget what we looked like then , or your smile , the shine on your hair in the sunlight , bed head or the way we slept under the covers even the tossing and turning nights. Will enough time go by that you'll forget my face. Do you want to?