Unsent messages to J
From: ABC
To: J
Date: October 7, 2020, 12:06 pm UTC
i know i ended things first but i was dumb and i didn’t realise how much you meant to me until you were gone
From: ABC
To: J
Date: October 7, 2020, 1:42 am UTC
you were the light i needed. the light i craved. but u left bc i was too hard to deal with. because i was too much. because i didn’t love myself. yah i know we were young but, if only u knew that i was starting to grow and love myself for u. but now there’s nothing. and u think it’s funny.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: October 6, 2020, 3:56 pm UTC
I like you a lot and I know you’ll never feel the same. But it’s you it’s always been you. It sucks to know one day you’ll find that someone who is isn’t me.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: October 6, 2020, 3:42 pm UTC
i kinda miss how you used me. i still miss your touch, your voice, simply your presence in my life. you broke me.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: October 6, 2020, 11:30 am UTC
why did you lead me on when behind my back facetiming my sister every night and asking to hook up with her in my face. You knew i liked you but you took it as an advantage
From: ABC
To: J
Date: October 6, 2020, 8:09 am UTC
It was one sided love, but it was also a love that shattered my heart and broke me. I'll never see the world or anyone the same. So thankyou for breaking my heart and not having the decency to telling me why i wasnt enough.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: October 6, 2020, 7:27 am UTC
I’m sorry I was too afraid to be your friend. I’m sorry I couldn’t tell you didn’t like me much. I’m not sorry I loved you.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: October 6, 2020, 6:19 am UTC
You never wanted me you wanted me for my looks i wanted you for more i wanted to hold you to be w you to have your back no matter what but you didn’t even give me the chance to show you how down i was for you i can never tell you this because i don’t even think you would respond i didn’t love you but i cared about more that you even cared to know thank you for making me feel beautiful and showing me what i don’t want i can’t keep doing this cat and mouse game i’m constantly the one that gets hurt lol i’m done
From: ABC
To: J
Date: October 5, 2020, 7:48 pm UTC
why did you pretend to care when in reality I wasn't what you wanted... I still really care for you tho
From: ABC
To: J
Date: October 5, 2020, 4:44 am UTC
i wish we never stopped talking, ik nithing was ever gonna happen between us but it felt like we had smith
From: ABC
To: J
Date: October 4, 2020, 10:55 am UTC
I want you to know I will always be here for you even though you broke me. You always choose her over me. You said you would pay more attention but in the end you lost your bestfriend.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: October 3, 2020, 6:27 pm UTC
i hate that i still love you as much as i try to tell my self i don’t i still do. i hate my self for letting me love you. i know how it was going to end out i just held on more n that was my mistake.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: October 3, 2020, 10:11 am UTC
i didnt just want to be friends but i knew u lost feelings so i saved me self from that by telling you we should be friends but u moved on so it’s okay
From: ABC
To: J
Date: October 3, 2020, 9:32 am UTC
I feel as if I moved on but at the same time something feels wrong. Almost two years in January but I guess we met at the wrong time. Pathetic of me to still think of you. I’m sorry for everything. We had so much potential bubby. We really did ♥️
From: ABC
To: J
Date: October 2, 2020, 10:30 pm UTC
Was hast du dir über mich gedacht? was war das zws uns? hast du über mich auch mal nachgedacht oder war das nur von meiner seite aus? wieso hast du die Johanna angerufen? und warum hat das Treffen und alles so komisch geendet?
From: ABC
To: J
Date: October 2, 2020, 7:28 pm UTC
idk, maybe we could have stayed together if you hadn't done that. Maybe I could have been better, too. I'm sorry
From: ABC
To: J
Date: October 2, 2020, 5:00 pm UTC
You made me really happy and that was so unknown to me that I got really scared. I wish we could meet again someday.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: October 2, 2020, 4:38 pm UTC
Tonight, one year ago, was our first kiss, you had a kanye song playing and you smiled as you leaned in to kiss me. Thank you for that. Still my favourite memory.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: October 2, 2020, 3:56 pm UTC
it hurts so bad i won't even message you back because it makes my eyes get watery and my throat close up thinking of letting you back into my mind
From: ABC
To: J
Date: October 2, 2020, 3:44 pm UTC
I hate you... I hate you the most because you lied. You told me it was only me forever and I was willing to wait for that. You just dropped me just like that when someone new came when i was the one who was always there even if it wasn't really us. But i hate you more for the reason that you're my best friend i don't know when but somehow you took his place and you became my best friend. I loved talking to you about everything and playing impostor and when you asked about my day and you helped me with my outfits and told me i was pretty and were my best friend and then someone new shows up and im abaondoned again. All over again i'm all alone which is why i hate myself more than you i let back in again. i let you weasle your way into my fragile sensitive heart and you broke it all over again which is why never again will i let you in never ever ever again will i let you come and take a piece of me for your entertainment i was building you up and you were breaking me and you will be sorry i promise you when it's time and you're all alone again i will not be there it will not be me who helps you throgh your hard times just to end up in my own, because now when i think of you my throat gets all twisty and my eyes get watery and it feels just like the first time you left and I'll never tell you how bad it hurts.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: October 2, 2020, 3:14 pm UTC
its been almost a year and a half, time goes by so fast...sometimes it feels like we just met. from the day we started talking to the day we became close friends and then this. I just want you to know that no matter what happens I'm always there for u and will be :) even if we don't end up getting married(that won't happen)...u know imma come to ur wedding dressed better than then bride haha...and even if u find someone I'm 100% sure that girl won't love u as much as I do so too bad too sad.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: October 2, 2020, 5:38 am UTC
You never valued me even after years of friendship, but instead, you valued those you dated for three months. That hurt.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: October 2, 2020, 5:05 am UTC
I think I'm finally starting to get over you, but I don't really like it. We weren't supposed to end this way. It was supposed to be me and you forever. Now all the love and hard work just went to waste...
From: ABC
To: J
Date: October 2, 2020, 3:11 am UTC
you will never understand how much i love you. hopefully one day you’ll talk to me so i can explain it
From: ABC
To: J
Date: October 2, 2020, 2:38 am UTC
im sorry i can't be perfect for you but im trying my best. im so scared one day you will get tired of me and leave
From: ABC
To: J
Date: October 1, 2020, 7:18 pm UTC
I forgive you, even though I would have liked things to end differently. It's time to move on, but I wish you the best.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: October 1, 2020, 5:06 pm UTC
I wish we had more time. You will never know how much I loved and you meant to me. Because I was always to afraid to say it. But you saved me from myself. You helped me recover from an Ed and gave me a reason to fight back from my mental illnesses. We may have lost touch now but I’m at peace knowing you came into my life for a reason and I will always love you for that. From the bottom of my heart thank you.(I chose blue because that was the colour our hearts always were )
From: ABC
To: J
Date: October 1, 2020, 4:51 pm UTC
Bruh stop being such a pain in the fkn ass.
Just slam me against a wall and make out with me, like you know you want to ;)
From: ABC
To: J
Date: October 1, 2020, 12:21 pm UTC
although my time with you didn’t last very long but, out of 7 billion people i’m so happy that you walked into it.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: October 1, 2020, 9:41 am UTC
I love your hair and the way it looks like Draco Malfoy, but I can't love you because you are someone elses.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: October 1, 2020, 2:54 am UTC
im so thankful for the new memories i will never forget but it kills me that we wont make anymore like this. i was falling in love with you. i miss you alot. i truly believed you were gonna be my forever. you know i dont think that about anyone ever. all good things come to an end. your gonna be hard to get over.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: October 1, 2020, 1:56 am UTC
You taught me what love isn’t suppose to feel like. I taught you what it truly feels like to be loved.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: October 1, 2020, 12:35 am UTC
I can't thank you enough for how much you do for me. How happy you make me feel and everything I have had the privilege to experience with you. You have helped shape me into the person today, and I wouldn't be where I am without you. You've given me so much love and happiness that no other man could have ever even began to compare to. You'll probably never see this but if you ever do... Shalom
From: ABC
To: J
Date: September 30, 2020, 11:18 pm UTC
i miss you. i dont care about our age or how toxic we were. nobody supported our relationship but you made me so happy that i didn’t care. i should’ve never let you leave but you deserved so much better, but i dont want us to end like that.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: September 30, 2020, 9:43 pm UTC
I’m sorry we lost contact and I hope eventually we find our way back to each other. You were the right person at the wrong time :)
From: ABC
To: J
Date: September 30, 2020, 9:06 pm UTC
You broke me into pieces and scattered the ones you took with you.. I wish I listened to your ex's warnings.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: September 30, 2020, 8:21 pm UTC
The first time I met you I was forever changed. I never felt that connected to someone I didn’t know. You felt like home to me. I don’t fall easily but you changed that for me. I loved you from a distance and although we were friends you never expressed any feelings for me so I hid mine. To be honest I always thought we would find our way back to each other. I always thought we would end up together. I’ve been able to move on, I think the distance helps. I don’t know if I could see you again because I fear I would fall right back in and it’s too painful to have to go through losing you again.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: September 30, 2020, 6:49 pm UTC
hi i hate u why r u so busy if u really love me sm and if u really love me more then why did u leave:(
From: ABC
To: J
Date: September 30, 2020, 5:29 pm UTC
i genuinely think that you were my person maybe i wasn't yours maybe i was but i will never know and even though i will forever question how much you actually liked me i will never go back to you even if it breaks my heart like before because i can't lose you again i've only just got back to having a conversation without realising i need you still.
i will forever love you
From: ABC
To: J
Date: September 30, 2020, 3:15 am UTC
remember when you said forever? you're now the reason i'm scared to let people in.
it still hurts. a lot.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: September 29, 2020, 11:31 pm UTC
You know, my friends warned me about you. They saw all the flaws that i was too blinded by your charm to see. It felt like a magnet was pulling me to you. You would pull me to you, now you pull away from me. I know you never loved me, but you were MY first love. It’s kind of funny, i would dress up everyday hoping you’d notice- you didn’t. I would give you little presents hoping you would notice- you didn’t. I made all the signs clear as 20/20 vision PRAYING you’d notice- you didn’t. Maybe i’m naive. The funny thing is that even after all the shit you put me through I’m still madly in love with you.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: September 29, 2020, 8:10 pm UTC
you shattered my heart but i’d still do anything for you. i guess i won the i love you more game after all.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: September 29, 2020, 6:05 pm UTC
I miss you but i know that you dont miss me. I wish things were different with us. You will always have a special place in my heart
From: ABC
To: J
Date: September 29, 2020, 5:19 pm UTC
if you were to text me right now i would still get butterflies even though you put me through so much pain
From: ABC
To: J
Date: September 29, 2020, 2:34 pm UTC
I wish you would just text me and tell me why you ghosted me out of nowhere. It hurt. But I would still take you back.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: September 28, 2020, 8:33 pm UTC
(not a first love)
u started the convo first and told me u liked me first. u acted interested for 2 months, then the convo started to get dry and u left me on seen for a while. this went on and on. what did i do wrong?
From: ABC
To: J
Date: September 28, 2020, 6:57 pm UTC
I hope you find happiness. Without me, as that's clearly what you want. I don't know what i did but fuck you you massive fucking cunt, i dont fucking deserve this
From: ABC
To: J
Date: September 28, 2020, 6:08 pm UTC
Sometimes when I think of you I wonder if we ever really happened, because it all feels like a dream now
From: ABC
To: J
Date: September 28, 2020, 7:13 am UTC
Still don't know what I wanted
I'll be honest, I'm not ready to let you go. If i could turn back time. :(
From: ABC
To: J
Date: September 28, 2020, 1:41 am UTC
I'm so completely in love with you. Whenever I'm with you its like we are in our own little world, everything else seems to fade away.I gave you the world and more. I always made sure you were good and I still do. You were my number 1 priority, but I dont think I could say the same for you. It was always something. You are the person im the most comfortable with, you taught me how to love myself again, with you everything is so easy, but I wasnt enough.Theres always another girl and at the end of the day everyone else will be better than me. I will never be good enough for you. No matter how much I try, I cant let go. I just cant. I make so many excuses for you. I LET YOU MEET MY FAMILY, but did that not mean anything to you? But no matter how much pain you caused me and no matter how long it takes ill always be right here waiting for you because I love you and thats not changing. Youre my person, just the wrong timing.I love you my baby,please come back home
:(
