fuck you for letting me sleep in the same bed as you while you text him all night knowing i was in love with you but you werent in love with me.

I hardly ever stop thinking about you. I don't know why or how you became such a big part of my life. I haven't seen you for more than a month and i have only less than 2 days. It's weird becouse i don't know what's going to happen with my feelings when i see you. Are they real, do i really like you? Or have i just created a unexistant version of you by daydreaming about you, us every fucking day. Why won't you leave my head? I have so many questions and no where to look for answers. I feel like i think about you less and less every day and i don?t know if that is a good thing. I mean i don't really even know you, right? I wonder how i will feel about you after i talk to you, i hope i get the courage to walk up to you in the hallway. Even hi i just say hi and walk away. I always get mad at myself when i think about you too much. YOu once told me that i shouldn't run away from feelings and turn something beautiful in to something bad just becouse i am afraid of being hurt. You were right. Until next time...

You loved me before I loved myself and for that I can’t thank you enough. But you have to stop loving me.

Me hubiera gustado saber que hice mal, tus razones, y también como se miente con los ojos, como se hace para convencer a alguien de que le quieres...

Still don't know what I wanted
I'll be honest, I'm not ready to let you go. If i could turn back time. :(

Sabes yo nunca quise irme pero me demostraste que no querías que me quedara
Ahora ya estás con alguien más, pero te deseo lo mejor siempre .
Te perdono :)

Espanish*

Hace tiempo quiero sácame esto enserio lo siento lo siento mucho ese día no debí haber dicho nada no sabía lo que sentía d fui un estupido no supe valorar la linda relación que teníamos enserio quiero devolver el tiempo y hacer que todo cambie volver a sentir tus abrazos tus risas los regalos las charlas las caricias … todo era tan lindo junto a ti cuando pasabas por mi lado y me acariciabas la espalda y yo a ti cuando los abrazamos de una amnera que DIOS fue lo mejor de Estevez lindo quisiera que todo fuera como antes poder volver a abrazarte así y no sé simples desconocidos quiero todo como antes porfavor no entiendes lo mucho que te extraño al menos seamos amigos como antes las miradas …

Espanish*

Hace tiempo quiero sácame esto enserio lo siento lo siento mucho ese día no debí haber dicho nada no sabía lo que sentía d fui un estupido no supe valorar la linda relación que teníamos enserio quiero devolver el tiempo y hacer que todo cambie volver a sentir tus abrazos tus risas los regalos las charlas las caricias … todo era tan lindo junto a ti cuando pasabas por mi lado y me acariciabas la espalda y yo a ti cuando los abrazamos de una amnera que DIOS fue lo mejor de Estevez lindo quisiera que todo fuera como antes poder volver a abrazarte así y no sé simples desconocidos quiero todo como antes porfavor no entiendes lo mucho que te extraño al menos seamos amigos como antes las miradas …

Sometimes when I think of you I wonder if we ever really happened, because it all feels like a dream now

I specifically remember the last time I told you loved you. I guess you didn’t hear or didn’t think I would leave, but now I’m doing well moving on because at least I told you and know I tried

i really wanted to text you and tell you i am sorry for anything i ever did to hurt you and i never sent it because i thought you wouldn’t care now we’ll never know. i really want me and you to have that story where we tell our kids we knew each other since elementary but life goes on maybe that wasn’t our story. i hope one day we talk again because i don’t wanna go 3 more years without talking to you, it’s been 4 already i don’t hate you or anything just wished things were different. take care i love you

I hope you find happiness. Without me, as that's clearly what you want. I don't know what i did but fuck you you massive fucking cunt, i dont fucking deserve this

Quiero que seas feliz. Si no puedes serlo conmigo espero que encuentres a alguien que si pueda hacerte feliz. Te quiero, nunca vas a imaginarte cuanto. Necesito que vivas una vida plena y llena de felicidad, porque verte sonreír me hará feliz a mi.

You’re probably the one who I actually want. All the other guys who I’ve dated never felt real, it’s been 1 day and I already miss you, your scent, hugs and your hands. I am just so obsessed with you honestly. I am honestly in love with you but I can’t admit it, it’s too hard to. I don’t want to be like all the other girls who you date and go, I want to last more than your last one.

(not a first love)
u started the convo first and told me u liked me first. u acted interested for 2 months, then the convo started to get dry and u left me on seen for a while. this went on and on. what did i do wrong?

I keep coming back to you because, even though you give me nothing, I know there’s something deep down there I want so badly

our story was supposed to end different. but i guess you had something else in mind. hope it was worth it.

you really showed your true colours didn't you. just know i would never do what you did to me. thanks

Im on facetime with my friends and cant stop thinking about you. They keep asking me whats wrong. You. You're my fucking problem.

i wish we could talk about how i feel when i was with u but i know u with her right now why u did this to me ?

Have you moved on? Are you still thinking about me? Did you find someone else? I wish you the best but i also wish that anyone who talks to you with romantic intentions gets hurt, jk.

I still think about you, 2 years later. Even though you aren't even that cute i really wish i could've gotten to know you more. I don't think you realize how much i miss you. please come back.

if you loved me like you said, you could put your pride aside and grow some balls to reach out to me :)

Thank you for always making me smile n laugh during times I thought I couldn't. I hope we can stay like this forever.

i still look through the old chats from when you loved me on your account that i still haven’t unadded.

It's funny how my darkest and brightest memories involve you. I hope you've found someone who looks after you like I did for so long. I'll never stop worrying about you

I know you like me and I know I like you but I dunno what to say to you because I don’t want to ruin what we have right now

I trusted you. It would be too easy to fall in love again, even after everything you did to me. It makes me sick sometimes.

I don’t reach out to you anymore but I still think of you all the time. I pretend I don’t care bc one day I hope I won’t.

You’ll never know how much I needed you when you came into my life. Thank you for giving me purpose. I love you.

I like to think you were truly the right person but the wrong time. i miss u tons and youll forever be in my heart.

did you really care about me? or was it only the attention that interested you? because now that you found someone new, im nothing but a stranger.

we look at each other and i know you don’t think twice when you look at me but my whole day shifts into wanting you.

i broke my heart in the process of breaking yours, now i’m breaking mine again without you even knowing.

I don't know what to say to you anymore. I can't even look at your face. I can't even mention your name because it would hurt me. You and me against the world, that's all I wanted. You don't even have to be my boyfriend. I just want to be beside you, I wanted to get to know you, I wanted to let you know that I care about you and that I love you. I love you so much it scared me. I have never loved anyone as much as I loved you. It's gonna take me a while to recover, I highly doubt I will, but I will remember you. I will never forget the happy days that included you. The blushes, that feeling of being on cloud nine every time you call my name, that anxious feeling every time I go to school because I was so excited to see you, hoping you'd get the same classes as me. Do you remember me? Would you remember me or am I just gonna be a mere memory?... I'll never forget you. Sorry for being like this. I love you. I always will. Oh, how I wish we met at the right time. Think about what we could've been. I love you and I miss you every single day. You never leave my mind. I hope the best for you. I love you and you deserve everything good. Damn it, of course I'm crying while writing this.

you tore me apart, but even after 3 months i still miss you everyday and i know you don’t feel the same.

I'm happy that your happy I truthfully am, but I will always love you, and I'm sorry for everything that happened between us.

Para la persona que me lastimo:

Me lastimaste demasiado, me rompiste de una manera que jamás pensé que me ibas a lastimar. Nunca creí que me ibas a ser infiel, nunca creí que tus promesas eran mentira, pero te estoy superando, aprendí demasiado, pero no era manera de tratarme con mentiras y ocultándome cosas, olvidando que también siento, olvidando que también me equivoco y que todos los días me estaba deconstruyendo y tratando ser mejor persona. Nunca pensé que me ibas a lastimar así, y lo triste es que nunca ibas a voltear hacia mi por que ya te estabas sosteniendo de alguien más, me demostraste que no eras el amor de mi vida y que nunca fui el tuyo, solo me engañaste todo el tiempo y nunca me dijiste la verdad. estaba tan cegada en "nuestro amor" que no me di cuenta que amabas a alguien más, que al terminar ya estabas con esa persona.
gracias por irte y no regresar ya que nunca fui nada para ti.
gracias por romperme por que ahora me valoro a mi misma, un amor propio que no tienes una idea y que mi lealtad y fidelidad y lo que te decía era totalmente genuino
Ojala nunca nos volvamos a ver y a esa persona que tienes le cumplas todas las promesas que haces y no le mientas y ocultes cosas como a mi me lo hacías, pensé que como éramos mejores amigos no me ibas a traicionar y si lo hiciste.
Lo que si se es que voy a salir de esta pero no contigo y aun que me cueste tiempo en que salgas de mi mente saldré de esta, por que estoy viendo que verdaderamente valgo y que no es justo que la relación solo sea de una persona y que una persona cargue con todo.
gracias por hacer esto ya que estoy sanando mis heridas del pasado y me di cuenta que como pude sola en secundaria puedo sola ahorita ya vi que nunca estuviste cuando más te necesite y yo aunque estuviera en tu vida nunca me incluiste.
gracias por que vi que perdí el tiempo con una persona que no me amaba y me necesitaba solo estaba llenando un vacío y utilizo todo lo que era para romperlo más fuerte.
No vuelvas nunca, estoy mejor sin ti por que soy valiente y fuerte y que no necesito a alguien mentiroso en mi vida.
y que ahorita quizá nadie este conmigo como novio y alguien que este a mi lado como tu ya tienes a alguien más, pero llegara alguien a mi vida que me dará todo lo que yo siempre te pedía, todo lo que yo pedía llorando y rogando y no me mentira y me va a amar como se debe.
gracias por irte ya que lo mejor que me pudo haber pasado es estar soltera, hasta nunca y no pediré disculpas de como arreglo las cosas que tu rompiste y no te diste cuenta, que aun terminando mentías y odio a las personas mentirosas, si te amaba, pero ahorita me amo a mi como no tienes una idea.
universo ayudame en algo y no me regreses a este wey en mi vida.

Suerte en tu vida de mentiras y deja de romper cosas que piensas que el único lastimado eres tu y no me lastimaste aun que no te lo dijera, aun que solo me defendiera me lastimaste así que esta es la única razón por la que nunca te quiero en mi vida, por que eras la ultima persona tóxica que se necesitaba ir de mi vida, así que gracias por hacerme el favor.
Es tiempo de que te olvide y aprenda que el amor a medias no existe y las mentiras en una relación, hace que la relación sea de mentira.
adiós deja de mentir
Gracias una disculpa por tanto texto por fin me pude desahogar

you told me you started reading the horoscope because of me.
i hope it will continue remind you of me now that we are strangers.

Hey, hopefully you and your new guy are doing good. I just miss you and wish our story could've ended differently. I wish i had enough courage to text you but i don't think thats ever gonna happen...i love you to the moon and back and i always will:,)

I wish we would’ve stayed friends. I wish we never attempted to be anything more. Every precious memory I have with you is centered around that time we were growing together and discovering ourselves. Then after we tried to date it all fell into pieces. Now I can only think back on those memories because what’s left in their wake is disaster. I was hesitant to call you my first love because I felt there was so much more room to grow. But if it’s anyone I am glad it was you. I was young and foolish but I know now without a doubt that the burning in my chest was love for you. I was in love and it was wonderful. And even now that we have semi started to heal and we can talk to this day. I hold that feeling close. I cant wait for a chance to feel that feeling again. You’ll always have the honor to be the first one that ever held it. I miss us. I’m moving on. I’m growing. You are too. I am glad for the time we had.

I love you soo much,
I hope that at some point we will meet again and there we can hug you very tight

pls remember to take your meds. my alarms are still on so i can remind you because i dont want to accept the fact that you might not need me anymore

Some things are meant to be loved alone. So please if you would let me, let me love you from afar. It’s the only way we can still be best friends.

you have no idea how much you mean to me. though what we had didn’t seem special, it sure felt like it. i’ll wait for you no matter how long it takes.

I wish you would just text me and tell me why you ghosted me out of nowhere. It hurt. But I would still take you back.

i can only fall asleep at night when i imagine your hand is still in mine. please come back. i miss u

I just decided to let you go and let you be happy even without me.
I'd rather have you in my life as my friend than not have you.

Feels like everything between us is falling out of whack. Maybe it’s because i can’t do a single thing right and you always put him first. Then get pissed off when you’re not first for me? Double standards that i can’t keep up with. I don’t think you understand how much of a toll it puts on me to try and keep us a float. I don’t know how much i have left in me.

When my thoughts get to heavy and I get lost in my own head, I write down everything I wish I could say aloud... I think that I’ll love you forever, this pain in my heart, knowing I can never have you, hurts me every day. To think I could’ve loved you and you could’ve loved me will always be a regret of mine. I wonder if in another universe or space or time, we’re together. We could be two crazy kids in love or the old couple you see in the park. I like to believe that somewhere, our souls are connected. When I think like this, the pain in my heart hurts a little less.