Unsent messages to J
From: ABC
To: J
Date: December 13, 2020, 6:19 am UTC
Why did you do it? You knew how i felt and you used it against me. I just wanted you and now i have to hate you. I just dont understand
From: ABC
To: J
Date: December 13, 2020, 5:11 am UTC
My heart sank and shattered when you told me you didn't feel the same about us anymore. You told me you would never fall out of love. That I was your forever. What happened?
From: ABC
To: J
Date: December 13, 2020, 12:16 am UTC
The way my name rolled off your tongue gave me butterflies and I'm afraid that I'll never feel those again.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: December 13, 2020, 12:08 am UTC
I've never been religious, ever. But you were the first person i prayed for, i prayed for ur happiness. And u never knew that. Instead u moved on.
But i hope that at least my prayers were heard and that you will find eternal happiness like u've always deserved it. I hope u find someone who will make u as happy as i've always wished u would be.
Meet u in a next life, maybe.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: December 12, 2020, 9:38 pm UTC
The way you held me and danced with me under that tree on that rainy day, yeah I’ve never forgotten that and I hope I never do
From: ABC
To: J
Date: December 12, 2020, 9:35 pm UTC
I think I will never fully get over you. you will always be there in the back of mind and never leave.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: December 12, 2020, 9:34 pm UTC
It took me 3 years to understand it was never really love. but you knew that and let the silence eat us.
but in a way I needed it to happen.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: December 12, 2020, 9:13 pm UTC
The worst thing I probably did was attach a song to you. Now every time I listen to it I drown in regret.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: December 12, 2020, 8:21 pm UTC
i had just managed to drag myself out of the seamlessly never ending dark place i was once in, then you came along and pushed me even further than before
From: ABC
To: J
Date: December 12, 2020, 7:32 pm UTC
Sometimes I lay in bed thinking about what we could of had if we had just waited. Right person wrong time.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: December 12, 2020, 5:47 pm UTC
I wish you could’ve loved me honestly the way I did you. Why did you have to make what you felt when we were alone nothing around everyone else? We could’ve fixed each other.
:(
From: ABC
To: J
Date: December 12, 2020, 5:44 pm UTC
i hope that you change for whoever ur with in future because no one deserves to be treated how you treated me
From: ABC
To: J
Date: December 12, 2020, 5:40 pm UTC
you lied to me for so long, but you'll always hold a part of my heart, and that makes me hate you even more
From: ABC
To: J
Date: December 12, 2020, 5:20 pm UTC
~ I tried to change you, to help you but you can save or change someone who doesn’t want to be saved. I wish you good luck.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: December 12, 2020, 5:00 pm UTC
What was I thinking. u watched me fall for u and then u just turned ur back on me, even after everything.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: December 12, 2020, 4:54 pm UTC
You knew I loved you so why didn’t you say anything, instead you watched me get hurt whilst you had another girl
From: ABC
To: J
Date: December 12, 2020, 4:28 pm UTC
i liked u from the first time i saw u standing there looking with your piercing blue eyes. i have never seen anything quite like them. ur hair was longer then and it seemed quite fluffly. it was like an ocean full of brunette waves. until u got up to ask for a glue stick i never thought u were so tall. ur height remembered me of a baby giraffe. u though i was making fun of u every time i told u that but actually i like that. oh god i liked all of u. ur smile. ur voice. ur eyes. the way u played with my hair. everytime u asked to hug me i felt protected. like nothing on this planet would've hurt me in that moment. ur touch. ur humour. ur charm. ur intelligence. ur way of being with people. i never loved anyone like u before. a lot of people said that it was only butterflies but it was more than that. u were the first guy to even call me beautiful. u were the first guy to ever ask me out. u were the first guy to show me how amazing love can be. and it was all pink and rainbows until i found put the real u. cold. cheater. manipulator. toxic. substance user. anger issues.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: December 12, 2020, 3:30 pm UTC
know that even when everythings falling apart, and it feels like the world is against you, ill always be right here.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: December 12, 2020, 3:04 am UTC
i hate you for leading me on and using me for my body.You shouldn’t only come back to me when your bored and pretend you like me. But i still want you and idk why.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: December 12, 2020, 2:07 am UTC
If I knew that was the last time I would of ever spoken to you, I would’ve told you how much I loved you.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: December 12, 2020, 12:33 am UTC
I hope in another universe we're sitting on your bed and discussing about films, just like we used in this one
From: ABC
To: J
Date: December 11, 2020, 9:50 pm UTC
You picked me up so I didn’t get sand in my sandals and I knew from that moment it would hurt to breath when you left. It did and it still does
From: ABC
To: J
Date: December 11, 2020, 5:40 pm UTC
I love you, but it hurts to not receive the same amount of love back. I’m tired of the arguments, I wish you would just listen to me.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: December 11, 2020, 1:01 pm UTC
You left your ex for me, (certain circumstance no one got hurt) but when you and I broke up and promised to talk to each other I was quickly jealous of how much you still talked to her when you guys broke up. It just came to me tho, you talk to her because it doesn’t hurt you to, it hurts you to talk to me so you’re doing what you always do and pushing away who cares about you the most and that right there I guess is my false sense of hope that we will be together in the end
From: ABC
To: J
Date: December 11, 2020, 7:22 am UTC
i'm sorry even though i'm not the one who should be saying that. but i am. for everything i put you through too
From: ABC
To: J
Date: December 11, 2020, 6:14 am UTC
I know you're scared of being gay, but there will always be a room for you in my heart. Call me any time. Please.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: December 11, 2020, 5:26 am UTC
i work so hard to get over you, but then every time i run into you i see your beautiful eyes and i’m lured back in.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: December 11, 2020, 5:23 am UTC
i know things got complicated when other people got involved, but that’s why you should’ve focused on me instead.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: December 11, 2020, 5:06 am UTC
your always there for me but i wish you saw me cry. i wish you were able to understand im not as strong as you think
From: ABC
To: J
Date: December 11, 2020, 3:52 am UTC
i cant stop thinking about u and everything we’ve been through. i still have hope for us but i’m slowly realizing that i’m not what you want anymore. it hurts. i know that you were just tired of me and wanted something new. i just want you to know that i will always care about you and you mean so much to me. i miss you more than anything.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: December 11, 2020, 12:48 am UTC
Finding out you were already in a relationship broke me. I heard how much you loved her and it hurt. I guess all those endless night thinking about us was pointless. You’ll never know how i felt, and i guess that’s my fault, but it’s too late now. I wish i made it clear but i guess my past experiences scared me. Wish you the best
From: ABC
To: J
Date: December 10, 2020, 11:14 pm UTC
I tried keeping it in but I can’t. I like you. I really do. Guess I’m too late now though. I’m sorry for the things I did. Be happy,okay?
From: ABC
To: J
Date: December 10, 2020, 11:05 pm UTC
I’m so grateful to have had you in my life and I’m glad you’re doing good. I hope you don’t forget about me, cuz I’ll never forget you:)
From: ABC
To: J
Date: December 10, 2020, 11:03 pm UTC
i don’t think i was enough for you, but just know i loved you more than i’ve ever loved anyone. I hope you’re well :)
From: ABC
To: J
Date: December 10, 2020, 11:01 pm UTC
you ruined Halloween for me. I'll never forget that night and the way you made me feel. like I was nothing for you
From: ABC
To: J
Date: December 10, 2020, 8:09 pm UTC
I don't think I'll ever get over you.i love you.with my whole heart.i need you.you will always mean something to me.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: December 10, 2020, 6:04 pm UTC
I’m so proud of you. We’re so proud of you. Everyday... every single day I always think about “what if I told you about her”. What if I didn’t hide it from you? I think you would love her, you would be the proudest dad. But I’m sorry I didn’t tell you I was pregnant. I don’t have the heart to tell you cause I know you won’t continue your plans if I told you. You were so happy whenever you’re telling me about you dreams, about your plans and I know this will stop you from achieving all of that. But seeing you now makes me at least say that it was worth it. You’re doing great. You’ve achieved your dreams.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: December 10, 2020, 4:00 pm UTC
you made me think you liked me but turned it off when i didnt wanna do stuff with you, did you ever actually have feelings for me though
From: ABC
To: J
Date: December 10, 2020, 5:54 am UTC
you are the most cutest human being i have ever seen. you're my little bunny you mean everything to me. i love you with all my heart!
From: ABC
To: J
Date: December 10, 2020, 5:40 am UTC
I'm sorry for picking your sister over you multiple times. I miss you somtimes. but i understand, all good thungs had a bad ending or they come to an end. you will always hold a place in my heart.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: December 10, 2020, 3:56 am UTC
if we were to hang out rn my heart would still race as fast, and my hands would still shake as if it was the first time
From: ABC
To: J
Date: December 10, 2020, 2:34 am UTC
we had so much potential dude with a 3 year on and off crushing spree you’d think we’d last longer than 2 months right??!
From: ABC
To: J
Date: December 10, 2020, 12:14 am UTC
bro, where do i even start with you, you were literally my everything.I loved you so much it's insane, then quarantine happened and you just kinda changed over night ig, you literally became someone we used to hate and make fun of, and now you only call me when you have no one to talk to.You missed my fucking birthday so you could go with you're new friends.All the memories i had with you are slowely starting to fade away, and im replacing them with friends who actually care about me.I remember you telling me you were so scared that we weren't gonna be friends anymore, but at the end you were the one who fucking left.It was you and me against the world, right?
From: ABC
To: J
Date: December 9, 2020, 11:02 pm UTC
your ex gf was a horse and ur a pig, that’s why u were perfect for eachother, farm animals are meant to be
From: ABC
To: J
Date: December 9, 2020, 10:08 pm UTC
I feel lied to and you want me to stay and be here whenever. And its so pathetic but i'm always here. You're not even real with me and you expect me to want to care and not be mad. I should've told you how mad I was instead of being a people pleaser like usual and saying shit the make you happy.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: December 9, 2020, 5:18 pm UTC
the love i have for you is something you can’t put into words. but seeing you at that party with her made me understand you more. you hide your feelings. and distract yourself by doing things you shouldn’t do. i wasn’t upset you made out with her. what made me the most upset was watching you sit there while i knew you were going through a terrible time in your life. and i couldn’t do anything about.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: December 9, 2020, 8:14 am UTC
yup, it's me. and i miss you so much. you taught me what true happiness really is, but now i don't have you to share it with. talk soon x
From: ABC
To: J
Date: December 9, 2020, 2:53 am UTC
I hate how you are my type, my everything, my motivation. Why can’t I be yours? Why didn’t you give me a chance?
From: ABC
To: J
Date: December 9, 2020, 12:44 am UTC
I’m scared for when this ends again. You broke up w me once before and I was heartbroken and I don’t want to feel that again.
From: ABC
To: J
Date: December 8, 2020, 11:45 pm UTC
you're so cute i just wanna ncfllacsnaklaksljc, in a platonic way lmfao. Even tho we're not as close i really consider you a close friend, also you're fucking beautiful and so sweet and i loveyousomuchchchchch
