there are songs that ill listen to every once and awhile. sometimes there songs that used to be ours or new ones that remind me of what ive lost. and I try and sing them but theres songs that I can never get through without my voice shuttering, I still try and finish them anyways. im listening to one of those songs right now. ever here the one about it being the happiest year(s) of their life. yeah. thats the one.