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i liked u from the first time i saw u standing there looking with your piercing blue eyes. i have never seen anything quite like them. ur hair was longer then and it seemed quite fluffly. it was like an ocean full of brunette waves. until u got up to ask for a glue stick i never thought u were so tall. ur height remembered me of a baby giraffe. u though i was making fun of u every time i told u that but actually i like that. oh god i liked all of u. ur smile. ur voice. ur eyes. the way u played with my hair. everytime u asked to hug me i felt protected. like nothing on this planet would've hurt me in that moment. ur touch. ur humour. ur charm. ur intelligence. ur way of being with people. i never loved anyone like u before. a lot of people said that it was only butterflies but it was more than that. u were the first guy to even call me beautiful. u were the first guy to ever ask me out. u were the first guy to show me how amazing love can be. and it was all pink and rainbows until i found put the real u. cold. cheater. manipulator. toxic. substance user. anger issues.