Unsent messages to J
From: ABC
To: J
I've never avoided you I've only loved you so much that sometimes I'd forget to talk when I'm with you
From: ABC
To: J
how can you make me feel so much after many years? how have you grown up into everything i need? i love you, i love you, i love i love you. promise.
From: ABC
To: J
everytime you said i love you to me after i found out about you and her, it always hurt more than healed.
From: ABC
To: J
congratulations on being clean of s.h for a year my love :). i love you so much and i’m so proud of you.
From: ABC
To: J
I can’t believe how fast you changed. You used to ask if it was okay to hold my hand, then you did that to me. Fuck you.
From: ABC
To: J
And you left me for what? i stayed up for you, i cared for you, i cried for you, i learnt how to trust for YOU, you became all the things that i ranted to you about, you became a stranger.
From: ABC
To: J
i know i probably don’t mean much to you, but you’ve helped me more than you know so when you leave i know it’s gonna hurt like hell
From: ABC
To: J
I realized how much I actually do miss you. We weren’t together for very long , but I wish we could fix us.
From: ABC
To: J
although my time with you didn’t last very long but, out of 7 billion people i’m so happy that you walked into it.
From: ABC
To: J
i’m so sorry i wasn’t good enough for you. i hope she is good to you, cause i clearly wasn’t after what you’ve said to me. i will always love you, j.
From: ABC
To: J
I like you a lot. I’m scared tho. Because I don’t want to like you. I’m scared because I do. And I think I’m falling in love. Maybe you feel the same. But I hope you don’t because I ruin everything. I’m sorry. Maybe we could give it a try but I never planned on liking you. I actually hated you at first. But now your my bestfriend. I’m scared for what’s going to happen. But if anything bad does happen. I love you idiot.
From: ABC
To: J
I wish there were more pictures. Not so I will know it was real , because it was. But so I can look back at how we looked driving in your car , hand out the window , breeze in our hair. I remember the first time I really looked into your eyes and the way the sun was hitting them I saw the whole ocean in your iris. I wish there were more pictures like that something that captured this movie in my head playing the scenes of our life. my life started with you I just didn't realize it might not end with you as well. It's just different sometimes to have things on paper , something I could hold in my hands when I'm sad about us and trying to grasp onto what I have left. I don't ever want to forget what we looked like then , or your smile , the shine on your hair in the sunlight , bed head or the way we slept under the covers even the tossing and turning nights. Will enough time go by that you'll forget my face. Do you want to?
From: ABC
To: J
Did you ever mean anything you said to me? Or was it all a game to get into bed with me? Are you satisfied?
From: ABC
To: J
The worst part about this is that I know you’re my soul mate. I wish you’d just give me the chance to show you that I’m yours.
From: ABC
To: J
you are my person. I feel so safe when you're with me. I just wish you would stop being so cold and distant. I wish it was more than it is. I hope you see that it could be.
From: ABC
To: J
there are songs that ill listen to every once and awhile. sometimes there songs that used to be ours or new ones that remind me of what ive lost. and I try and sing them but theres songs that I can never get through without my voice shuttering, I still try and finish them anyways. im listening to one of those songs right now. ever here the one about it being the happiest year(s) of their life. yeah. thats the one.
From: ABC
To: J
Why did you leave me when I needed you the most. You said you didn’t want to be labeled as a hypocrite but yet what u told me was a complete lie.
From: ABC
To: J
Fuck you, actually fuck you for messing with my feelings for ditching me for the girl you said not to worry about but hurts the most is the fact you didn’t even try to keep our friendship not only were we all friends but you chose to ignore me to let our friendship fall to pieces and the fact I made a simple mistake you were so quick to turn on me and go straight to siding with her and watch her manipulate everysingle one of my friends to thinking I was an awful person. Fuck you because I’m not an awful person I was a broken girl and you just shattered her like it was nothing so fuck you I hate you
From: ABC
To: J
I never meant to drive you so far away. I did it so that you would let go of an idea that was going to hurt you.
From: ABC
To: J
I felt like you were too good for me, and when I could screw up every opportunity, I regretted it every day.
From: ABC
To: J
ppl say I’m better than her but idc, it’s the fact you was my first love and she was my best friend. i loved u deeply.
From: ABC
To: J
I wish you never came back into my life. I love you still but you’ve broken what I worked so hard on fixing.
From: ABC
To: J
I regret for let you touch my lips.
I hate you as much as I miss you.
You didn't write me again, even when It's my birthday.
From: ABC
To: J
i’m falling for you so fast and i’m so scared. I hate you for making me feel weak and vulnerable. Please don’t make me regret it.
I adore you dickhead
From: ABC
To: J
Since we met theres not a day that goes by where i don't think of you. I hope your memories of me are as fond as mine are of you.
From: ABC
To: J
Since we met theres not a day that goes by where i don't think of you. I hope your memories of me are as fond as mine are of you.
From: ABC
To: J
Since we met theres not a day that goes by where i don't think of you. I hope your memories of me are as fond as mine are of you.
From: ABC
To: J
i don’t know why you still text me but our math teacher asked about you... why do you always come back when i think i’ve moved on
From: ABC
To: J
thank you for teaching me how to love myself for who I am. u hurt me but i was able to pick up myself and learn I don’t need u in the long run.
From: ABC
To: J
Bruh stop being such a pain in the fkn ass.
Just slam me against a wall and make out with me, like you know you want to ;)
From: ABC
To: J
I wish we had more time. You will never know how much I loved and you meant to me. Because I was always to afraid to say it. But you saved me from myself. You helped me recover from an Ed and gave me a reason to fight back from my mental illnesses. We may have lost touch now but I’m at peace knowing you came into my life for a reason and I will always love you for that. From the bottom of my heart thank you.(I chose blue because that was the colour our hearts always were )
From: ABC
To: J
you cheated on me and never admitted to it, and i don’t have shade or hate, but the truth could have kept us together. your lies ruined me, and now that ive built myself back up you are starting to see what you lost: that’s why i was so crazy, once i am over it and done i won’t go back so i guess im sorry you never knew that
From: ABC
To: J
U will never see this but that's ok. I will always have love for you bc once u love someone u don't stop. I want the best for u tho and I know eventually u will figure out what that means for u.
From: ABC
To: J
i was really happy.. and you just left me. by myself in my room. thinking about the times we shared together
From: ABC
To: J
i love you, i hope our really trying for me , i have so much faith in us things are getting better , i love you everything will be okay
From: ABC
To: J
I forgive you, even though I would have liked things to end differently. It's time to move on, but I wish you the best.
From: ABC
To: J
Why did u tell me we were gonna be together forever if u were planning on breaking up with me a couple weeks later
From: ABC
To: J
Why did u say “ I love u” when u didn’t mean it and broke up with me a week a later and stopped saying it a couple days laters. Did I ever mean anything to u
From: ABC
To: J
i miss you everyday and it’s been years of on and off and i can’t get over it. i literally carved u into being the male me and now i believe there’s no ones as perfect for me as u were and it just sucks that i love u so much and u don’t even love me half of what i do and it’s all. a game to u
From: ABC
To: J
you always told me everything going on in your life, which is probably why i kept your account, so i could still see whats going on with your life. So i could still feel us being close as we once were
From: ABC
To: J
I don't wanna hurt your feelings, and I know how you feel about me. idk how to tell you that I don't feel the same way. I'm really sorry. I still love you.. I just wish we can be friends and only that yk.
From: ABC
To: J
i told you i'd always support you. and ima keep that promise. no matter if we're, strangers, friends, or something more ima support you until my very last breath.
From: ABC
To: J
I couldn’t imagine my life without u but it’s over now I’m so scared of commitment. Being in a relationship with u again hurt me to the point I knew u we’re gonna break up with me I was just enjoying it while it lasted, while I could still call u officially mine. If I had the choice I’d say no to u bcuz it was so toxic for me I couldn’t grow, but I get jealous and I’m so used to ur touch.
From: ABC
To: J
i'm not really sad about the situation anymore what happened, happened. it was not a healthy mindset to think i can "change someone". they have to want to change just as much and i've accepted that i don't want to have to change him, but help him. i also don't necessarily want to "change" him. i want to love him exactly the way he is and watch him transform into the greatest, truest version of himself and maybe if he came to me saying he'll be a better person not only for me but for himself then i would still welcome him with open arms, but i don't think that's because of the influence he had on me, more because that's just the type of person i am.
From: ABC
To: J
i miss you everyday thank you, thank you for making me stay.
i still love you and will always
and i know you don't care about me but you don't know what i would do to talk to you again and say i love you and sorry and thank you.
From: ABC
To: J
i defended you & talked you up so much when they all warned me about you. i should have listened to them.
From: ABC
To: J
i defended you & talked you up so much when they all warned me about you. i should have listened to them.
From: ABC
To: J
You hurt me and you treat me like shit. When we went out you treated me like I was shit but I was still loyal to you and i cared for you deeply. While you were sending nudes and talking to lots of other girls i was wondering whether you had eaten or whether you were okay. I loved you and it hurts me that i cared for you so much but got nothing back. I hate myself for loving you so much but I did and I can't take it back. I hope one day you realise what you lost and how much my love should've been worth. I hope you never have to feel the way I felt as I would not even wish that on my worst enemy,
From: ABC
To: J
you hurt me but didn’t realize it and that hurts more than if you did because you were supposed to be the one who knew me best.
From: ABC
To: J
Today your brother told me he thought that you-today would never be able to pick up me-today in a bar even if you tried
