Unsent messages to A
From: ABC
To: A
Date: November 20, 2020, 8:24 pm UTC
Fuiste la primera persona que me llego a gustar de verdad, nunca te lo dije porque no era correspondida y soy muy insegura. Todo paso hace un año y aun te sigo pensando, sal de mi mente, gracias.
From: ABC
To: A
Date: November 20, 2020, 6:58 pm UTC
Ok glup si jer me nikada zaista nisi primjecivao. Iako sam te stalno krisom gledala na casu ti to naravno nisi vidio. Nekad pozelim da i mene gledas onako kako nju gledas. A mogli smo imati real love story al nista od toga.
From: ABC
To: A
Date: November 20, 2020, 6:42 pm UTC
Nikad me iskreno nisi baš primjetio ali eto šta se tu može... vjerovatno sam trebala probati nešto više ali nisam. Pomalo tužno što nikad nisi primijetio sve one poglede koje sam ti krišom davala na časovima ili kako sam bila slomljena kad god si gledao E onim pogledom kakvim ja tebe gledam. Šta je tu je.
From: ABC
To: A
Date: November 20, 2020, 6:28 pm UTC
From stranger to friend, from friend to bestfriend, from bestfriend to more than that, from more than that to chaos, from chaos to hate, from hate to friend, from friend to stranger
From: ABC
To: A
Date: November 20, 2020, 5:53 pm UTC
After knowing how you broke me and left me in pieces the first time...why would you do it to me all over again? You knew how much I loved you... you knew how much I would've done for you...and what did you do? You took advantage of that...and broke me once again. But this time hurt even more because I LET you in again... I ignored all the signs because I didn't want to lose you... look what happened in the end...
From: ABC
To: A
Date: November 20, 2020, 4:08 pm UTC
I like you so much. I think about you day n night. I jus wanna be with u right now. I can’t get u out of my mind
From: ABC
To: A
Date: November 20, 2020, 3:38 pm UTC
I HATE THAT I LOVE U!! I hate that even when I don't want to think of u I do. I hate that u will never feel the same. I HATE THAT I LOVE U SOOO MUCH. I HATE THAT I CANT EXPLAIN WHY I DO! I HATE THAT MY EVERY CONSUMING THOUGHT IS ABT U. I HATE THAT U CAN CHANGE MY MOOD. I HATE THAT U CAN MAKE MY DAY SIMPLY BY TEXTING. I HATE THAT U CAN DESTROY MY DAY BY NOT REPLYING. I HATE THAT I CANT GET OVER U. I HATE THAT I CANT JUST FORGET ABT U. I HATE THAT U DONT CARE ABT ME. I HATE THAT UR ALWAYS SALTY. I HATE THAT EVEN WITH ALL THE MESSED UP SHIT U DO TO ME, I STILL LOVE U. WTF IS WRONG WITH ME. I WANNA HATE U. I WANT TO FORGET U. I WANT TO BE ABLE TO SAY ..... "WHO IS HE? IDK WHO THAT IS? OH YEAH, HIM AND I WERE FRIENDS IG" BUT GUESS WHAT?! I CANT!!!! I CANT!! WHYYYY? TELL ME WHY U DID THIS! WHY DO ALWAYS LIE TO ME!! IM TIRED! IM SO TIRED OF THIS CONSTANT FEELING! I WANNA BE DONE WITH THIS! BUT IDK HOW TO ;(
From: ABC
To: A
Date: November 20, 2020, 3:21 pm UTC
I wish I could explain how I feel about u. All the pain and happiness it comes with. I wish u would love me the way I love u. I wish u could see how much I care about u. And yet even after all this u still love her, she's ur everything and im just here waiting for u to notice me.
From: ABC
To: A
Date: November 20, 2020, 2:18 pm UTC
You are so toxic!!!!! Go to fucking therapy Jesus Christ. Your friends don’t wanna be around you because they can feel your negative energy, and the show you put on is so easy to see through. GROW UP and stop making other peoples lives worse. help yourself before you hurt more people
From: ABC
To: A
Date: November 20, 2020, 2:04 pm UTC
i didn't even realize when i started to really like you. the way u look at me is making me think my feelings are mutual. you care so much about me just like i care about you. i like you so much.
From: ABC
To: A
Date: November 20, 2020, 10:52 am UTC
I wish you stayed a little longer. You would be so proud. I miss you. But I know this is what’s best.
From: ABC
To: A
Date: November 20, 2020, 10:47 am UTC
you were the first person to ever really see me. and for that i will always be thankful. i love you forever and always. take care because someone does love you.
From: ABC
To: A
Date: November 20, 2020, 10:43 am UTC
the little hope i have is finally starting to fade. i wish things were different but i wish you nothing but the best.
From: ABC
To: A
Date: November 20, 2020, 9:46 am UTC
You made my heart flutter. I didn’t realize I actually fell in love with you until it was too late. I hope you’re doing well, and I hope one day I’ll be able to tell you how I feel in person.
From: ABC
To: A
Date: November 20, 2020, 8:50 am UTC
We had so much to do and talk about. We could've had something beautiful if we tried. It was way too early to end things and it may have been both our faults but I miss u. I just want u in my life and fall in love all over again
From: ABC
To: A
Date: November 20, 2020, 7:17 am UTC
If you think I’m happy with myself now, well I’m not. I still don’t know my purpose for being here, I lack self awareness, the good grades I get just feel like it happened out of good luck. I don’t understand myself still, I don’t know why I’m writing this letter to you, I feel as if I’m not controlling my mind the correct way. I already know you had an obsession with me instead of actually liking me and that’s fine, it wasn’t that hard to see. Even if that’s not the case I don’t know why you were so interested in me, I don’t know why I felt the same way about you. Literally just bawled my eyes out after unknowningly being under stress all week, maybe I’m just tired idk what’s the cause of my constant sadness but I can’t fix it. I just want someone to hug me and tell me it’s going to be okay but I’ll never get that since I know I’ll never have a relationship like that. Idk what I hope for everyday, idk why you came into my life out of nowhere. I’m sorry for ghosting you but you also made dumb decisions too if you really think about it. Hopefully you matured but only for yourself. I hate people that say they changed but really they don’t and repeat the same shit over and over again. Anyway I may write another letter sometime. As you can see, you really don’t want to be with someone that has a load of problems they can’t fix. Being a broken person from a broken home isn’t something I deserve to complain about but here I am. Cya bitch, that was one hella of a long rant.
From: ABC
To: A
Date: November 19, 2020, 11:14 pm UTC
Yo was the first word you said to me, no no literally. its not een supposed to be funny. The first day a boy ever texted me. I was shaking and red the whole time. I was also crying because my secret had got out because of you. I wish you had talked to me more that day. I wish we could have talked about how the stars allign with the moon and how the sunset is as gorgeous as ur eyes. But we stopped. I couldnt sleep that day i was thinking about you. The next day i actually saw you and i was avoiding all eye contact so I wouldnt blush but you didnt even look at me. I was so sad and upset you wouldnt know or understand. I was right in front of you at one point and I had to look at you because you looked beautiful that day. so better. But you didnt even look at me. All the other boys did- but i wasnt looking at them. I dont like them, i like you and denying it was a mistake. Now you have the longest conersations with my best friend and u are popular at school with all girls. I wish i was the only girl that you looked at:(
I was trying to forget about you and move on. 6 months on i forgot. But then you texted me about school. I was crying with happiness and as soons as we were actually talking you said you needed to go and left me on read. What made you want to do that? Tell me. But I tried to moe on and kept smiling throughout the day only to find out that i wasnt special. As my friend showed me her long, long conersations with him and how hes really nice and cute. I was no longer special.
I want to forget about you
so let me thank you for making me happy for 2 years. Goodbye ily
From: ABC
To: A
Date: November 19, 2020, 10:06 pm UTC
I can't fucking live without you. I need you. I want you. You're the reason I'm still here. Everytime I look into your eyes i get the biggest butterflies. I can't look at you without smiling. I just love you so much.
From: ABC
To: A
Date: November 19, 2020, 9:56 pm UTC
I don't know how to tell you and I don't want to break your heart. I don't think I actually loved you, you rushed things a lot and i barely knew you, but you were so nice and i didn't want to mess things up. I really liked you and i love talking to you all the time but maybe we would still be together if you waited a bit and i hadn't lied.
From: ABC
To: A
Date: November 19, 2020, 8:14 pm UTC
I've never fallen in love with anyone before. I still hope you will come to feel something for me. By the way, stop appearing in my dreams.
From: ABC
To: A
Date: November 19, 2020, 8:12 pm UTC
Part of me believes we were meant to be together because a year’s gone by and you’re still on my mind.
From: ABC
To: A
Date: November 19, 2020, 8:01 pm UTC
I tried so hard to be over you, but I can't I'm so in love with you and you're not. Seeing you enjoying wiht other people hurts me
From: ABC
To: A
Date: November 19, 2020, 7:08 pm UTC
I love you, but I know you're not right for me. You brought so much light to my life & I'll never forget that
From: ABC
To: A
Date: November 19, 2020, 5:33 pm UTC
it hurts to see u having fun without me when we were each others everything only a couple years ago. im sorry if this is my fault. im happy for u.
From: ABC
To: A
Date: November 19, 2020, 5:26 pm UTC
dear a,
i love you.
i can never show it but i really do. i love how you remember the smallest details, even things that my own mum doesn't remember sometimes. i love how you put me first even though we aren't together yet. i love it when you hug me, i feel so safe, like everything's gone and its just me and you on earth. im sorry if i ever made you feel like you're not enough for me but you are. your all i need. i might only be 14 and we might not end up getting married but that won't ever change how i feel. please promise to never leave my side, no matter what, because i know deep down that without you i won't cope. i love you so so much. please never forget that.
love, y
From: ABC
To: A
Date: November 19, 2020, 5:10 pm UTC
i don’t know if you ever loved me but i always loved you. you were an important person in my life and even though nothing ever happened between us, you taught me a lot.
From: ABC
To: A
Date: November 19, 2020, 5:01 pm UTC
my first love, thank you for being nothing but amazing. i’m sorry i let you down, i really hope you’re doing, i miss you ! take care of yourself and i wish you nothing but the best. ❤️
From: ABC
To: A
Date: November 19, 2020, 4:29 pm UTC
hey, i'm going to let go some time but not now... how do i let go of someone who gave me a lot to remember:(?
From: ABC
To: A
Date: November 19, 2020, 4:21 pm UTC
I don’t know if I actually loved you or just loved the idea of you. Regardless, I shouldn’t care so much about you still because you aren’t a good person. I’m sorry
From: ABC
To: A
Date: November 19, 2020, 2:42 pm UTC
when you texted me about that girl i cried. because i loved you and i finally thought you were going to say you wanted me too.
From: ABC
To: A
Date: November 19, 2020, 2:41 pm UTC
when you told me about that girl, i cried. because i loved you and i finally thought you were going to say you wanted me, but you just talked about her.
From: ABC
To: A
Date: November 19, 2020, 1:56 pm UTC
i have loved you so much. you ruined everything before it was’t even started. i wish that we could go back in time and put all together again. i miss
From: ABC
To: A
Date: November 19, 2020, 1:29 pm UTC
i hate the way u picked them over me after u told me u liked me :/ u took a lot from me pls take care of it cause that was the part where i cared so much about everyone :( we could of been something but u chose the people who did u wrong. hope u feel ok with them even tho im hurt from u
From: ABC
To: A
Date: November 19, 2020, 1:05 pm UTC
My heart sinks every time I see your face, I hope you’re starting to feel better about the demons in your head and I wish they didn’t tear us apart.
From: ABC
To: A
Date: November 19, 2020, 11:44 am UTC
everyday i waited for you to atleast talk to me why did you leave me because you hated my friend you gave me butterflies everytime i saw you and you leave me like that but i still love you
From: ABC
To: A
Date: November 19, 2020, 10:40 am UTC
fuck you for reciprocating feelings back that u know ur not supposed to have for me. ur an adult i can’t believe u
From: ABC
To: A
Date: November 19, 2020, 9:55 am UTC
I miss what we used to be. You said that you loved me but that turned out to be a lie. I genuinely cared about you and hoped that what we had will work out. You made me happy something I haven't felt in a really long time. You gave me false hope that things will get better, but turns out you were faking it the whole time. Although I am happy for you, I'm still super hurt and broken from what you have done to me. I wish you the best in life.
From: ABC
To: A
Date: November 19, 2020, 9:24 am UTC
i fell too fast for you and that lays on my shoulders. i got attached to the idea of you too fast. you understood me like no one else before, you showed me love that i have always looked for. You made me feel so heard and appreciated. i loved the connection we had luv. i miss you and your voice, i wish we could have made this work for the both of us. i will always feel like a burden for coming to you with my problems and im sorry. i knew the moment i opened up things would fail on me. i wish you understood how much it hurt to let you go. i fucking just wish you knew how much you meant to me. i wish i could actually go see you maybe if we were closer this would work out for the both of us but i don't know at this point.i miss you but i have to let you go and the idea of who you are. i will look for you and wish you the absoulte best no matter what
From: ABC
To: A
Date: November 19, 2020, 9:09 am UTC
I thought abt you every damn day since we stopped talking. My fault, I know ... it's just I fucked up. A lot. Fuck why did I ruin such a good thing all you wanted to do was talk. "You know, it really sucks when the person you want to talk to most doesn't reply back'' FUCK BRUH. It'll never be the same again
From: ABC
To: A
Date: November 19, 2020, 8:59 am UTC
honestly. you made me feel something. too bad it was all a lie. but i know whatever our souls are made off you’re n i, are the same. -PAP let’s be toxic again.
From: ABC
To: A
Date: November 19, 2020, 8:03 am UTC
Hey, it's been a rly long time since we've had a sincere conversation. Welp, here I am writing to this random website about you. God, you made me so happy and so so sad at the same time. I loved you so much and you had to leave me so soon. Everyday when I woke up, I would check my phone for you. I would make more time out of my day for you. I got in trouble for being on my phone too much because I was texting you. And now here we are again, just two random people living on this earth. It seems that you have developed some type of anger or hatred for me and I'm okay with that. I'm so so grateful that you came into my life as a lesson because now, I'm way stronger than I have ever been. You taught me what love is, you taught me what pain is, and you taught me what heartbreak was. Here I am now, completely moved on from you somehow, happy without any other guy. You played me and that made me question my worth but in the end, it all made sense. I will always have a spot for you in my heart, just not one where I cry myself almost every night because you didn't reply to my message. Now, I met someone new and someone they left me too lol..it hurts so much but these occurrences are what make me strong and confident without any validation from another guy. I hope your happy off with whatever you are doing now and I wish the best for you. You are a great guy and I hope you end up with someone that is truly meant for you. Love always, A.
From: ABC
To: A
Date: November 19, 2020, 6:10 am UTC
yeah, okay, maybe I did want to say it back, maybe I was just scared to face the fact that I really might STILL have feelings for you. so even if you dont know, i love you too, gn.
From: ABC
To: A
Date: November 19, 2020, 5:50 am UTC
Sometimes I wish we didn't end the way we did. It's hard for me to watch you live the relationship I always wanted. I think that in some alternate universe it was supposed to be us. But who knows, maybe in 10 years we'll find our way back to each other.
From: ABC
To: A
Date: November 19, 2020, 5:42 am UTC
you made me feel amazing. i figured out my sexuality through you. that’s a big accomplishment in my opinion. i loved you and will never stop. even if you don’t love me back.
From: ABC
To: A
Date: November 19, 2020, 4:43 am UTC
It's been a while since I've talked to you. I miss you so much. They say it heals with time, but it really doesn't. Your absence from my life is like a gaping hole that only grows into a greater void each day. I don't know how I'm supposed to live without you. And I love you so very, very much. I wish I could tell you how much you mean to me, and I'm sorry I never got the chance to. I hope you never stop smiling, and I'll be rooting for you no matter what happens. I love you so much.
From: ABC
To: A
Date: November 19, 2020, 4:39 am UTC
I'm sorry I cut off communication with you. I'm sorry for annoying you. I'm sorry for messaging you so much. I'm sorry for being such a bother. I'm sorry I love you so much. I'm sorry I can't stop. I'm sorry I keep saying sorry. I'm sorry for everything.
From: ABC
To: A
Date: November 19, 2020, 3:59 am UTC
I love you even tho you don’t love yourself, even tho u will never love the sight, sound, touch, and smile, of me, as much as i love yours...
From: ABC
To: A
Date: November 19, 2020, 3:33 am UTC
I think I’m a bit dramatic about the whole thing but I always felt like you cared more then you showed and it hurts more then you would think
From: ABC
To: A
Date: November 19, 2020, 3:02 am UTC
i wish i would have said yes and i think about it all the time but your happier now without me so its ok ig
From: ABC
To: A
Date: November 19, 2020, 2:28 am UTC
ghosting me was not the solution and i wish you would've talked to me instead. you had the right intentions, wrong execution.
