Unsent messages to A
From: ABC
To: A
Date: December 5, 2020, 10:30 pm UTC
Not a day goes by when i don’t think about you and what we could’ve had. I was too naive and didn’t realise and will forever hate myself for that.
From: ABC
To: A
Date: December 5, 2020, 9:54 pm UTC
I’m sorry that I broke your heart but why did you never say you loved me? I always loved you, always will
From: ABC
To: A
Date: December 5, 2020, 7:34 pm UTC
You promised me a picture of us holding hands. Now all I have is the memory of it. You meant so much, even if it was so short.
From: ABC
To: A
Date: December 5, 2020, 7:05 pm UTC
I love you and you don't know that and i miss you and i want you and there's nothing i can do. I hope you're happy, wherever you are.
From: ABC
To: A
Date: December 5, 2020, 5:25 pm UTC
you were a person i would never give a chance yet i did. i never believed someone could change me for better, i was the best verson of myself...the happiest. but lost everything i gained when you told me im not good enough. you toldmy best friend you never loved me and i wasnt the one for you. it hurts. a lot. all that work for nothing. at the bottom again. is it ever worth to try for someone else again?
From: ABC
To: A
Date: December 5, 2020, 5:06 pm UTC
bro we're literally soulmates, on some real shit. you really are my other half, i've never felt so comfortable and understood by someone in my whole life. i can't explain the way you make me feel, and it's confusing because we're just friends, but i feel so intensely that i get confused sometimes. are we...just friends? it feels like more, but not necessarily in a romantic sense. well, whatever's in my brain is in yours, and vice versa, so. lmk. if you feel similarly. lol.
From: ABC
To: A
Date: December 5, 2020, 1:09 pm UTC
thank you for letting me help you although it didn’t help me i do miss it. thank you for letting me find myself and for being distant which in turn helped me finally get over you. i do love you but as a friend now and i’m so thankful to still be able to be in your life.
From: ABC
To: A
Date: December 5, 2020, 12:51 am UTC
Hola, quiero que sepas que fuiste mi primer amor y que también eres la primer persona que de verdad me gusta como no tienes una idea y se que en algún momento nos tendremos que separar pero quiero que siempre te amaré y que fuiste mi primer amor de verdad. Te deseo lo mejor y espero que sea feliz con quien estes y por favor dile de mi parte que te trate como lo mereces por que tu te mereces el mundo el cual tristemente yo no te pude dar...
From: ABC
To: A
Date: December 4, 2020, 9:46 pm UTC
I tell you I’m going to sleep so I don’t have to message you. I feel so trapped and I don’t want to be with you anymore. I regret my decisions of forgiving you multiple times. I was so foolish...
From: ABC
To: A
Date: December 4, 2020, 7:43 pm UTC
not a first love, just a friendship. you are my best friend, although i am probaly not yours. you are the only person i feel comfortable talking to about my life. thank you for never giving up on me. i pray that even though we are going to be seperated soon that our friendship lasts because i cant see myself without you. i love you so so so much forever and always
From: ABC
To: A
Date: December 4, 2020, 9:53 am UTC
It’s easy going out drowning myself in tequila shots with two or more whiskeys in my hands with the hopes that I’d ether see you or forget you.
But I wouldn’t this time around.
From: ABC
To: A
Date: December 4, 2020, 9:51 am UTC
i love you more than you'll ever know. im just not sure if you love me back. i feel like i try too hard but i dont know if its me trying to hard or you not trying at all
From: ABC
To: A
Date: December 4, 2020, 8:26 am UTC
Hola perdón cómo actué en nuestra última pelea No fue mi intención ponerme si sólo por eso simplemente una estimaste consistente en ti y te conté tantas cosas y que al final pensaras que todo lo que te dije fue una mentira mi sentir mal pensé que si me creías y que me voy apoyabas
Pero creo que no fue así me siento culpable por nuestra ruptura Siento que fue mi culpa por cómo me ponía cuando me enojaba No era mi intención ponerme así solo que nunca te dabas cuenta de cuanto me lastimabas deje de comer para tener esa cinturita y nunca te importo me hiciste sentir tan mal con mi cuerpo pero nunca te dije nada perdón por no tener el cuerpo de una actriz porno enserio perdón la última vez que salimos y deje que me tocaras me sentí tan incomoda tan mal tu pensaste que eso me gusto y me calente pero fue todo lo contrario me hizo recordar cuando alguien me tocó y me puso mal pero no te dije nada para que no te enojaras y fueras feliz y no me dejarás pero de nada sirvió me dolió ver que me cambiaste tan rápido pensé que aun me extrañabas como lo hacía yo me dolió la forma en que terminamos no me pudiste ni terminar bien? Solo un mejor como amigos va? Esperaba algo mejor pero bueno ya ni modo enserio te ame pero creo que no fue mutuo te deseo lo mejor de todo el puto mundo por que eres mucho vales mucho y mereces lo mejor de feliz y perdón si algún día te hice sentir mal me siento tan culpable pienso que todo fue mi
Culpa bueno adiós cuídate te amo siempre lo are cumplí mi promesa y yo no te deje aún te amo..
From: ABC
To: A
Date: December 4, 2020, 8:13 am UTC
I feel very happy with you, but sometimes I feel like you don't want anything anymore, but I can't leave you:(
From: ABC
To: A
Date: December 4, 2020, 3:38 am UTC
you treat me terribly. iv'e non-stop talked to guys and they always end up shitty. thanks for adding to the collection. when i finally leave you, i hope you realize the mistake you made, because buddy, im WAY out of your league. i treated you so well. what did i ever do to deserve this. lol. your a dry texter too. but i cant help to look at the good things. i can be a big optimist on people sometimes, sadly. this is why its s hard to let go. maybe its the daddy issues idk man.
From: ABC
To: A
Date: December 3, 2020, 10:36 pm UTC
do you believe in being in love platonically? We both know I’m not capable of loving you the way she does, but god I love you. This is the colour of your smile.
From: ABC
To: A
Date: December 3, 2020, 9:41 pm UTC
I'm sorry that I had to leave you. It was the best for me. I don't want you to think you did something wrong when you didn't.
From: ABC
To: A
Date: December 3, 2020, 8:36 pm UTC
I think of you on the daily. pink was your jumper colour. I miss you like crazy. I need u more than ever.
From: ABC
To: A
Date: December 3, 2020, 8:26 pm UTC
when ı heard your name ı feel butterflys by only your name i liked you maybe you liked me to wish ı was knew this my fake bestfriend
From: ABC
To: A
Date: December 3, 2020, 8:24 pm UTC
keşke sana söyleseydim seni sevdiğimi belki şansımız olurdu şuan da hiç konuşmuyoruz ve bu beni bitiriyor kimseden hoşlanamıyorum hala sana aşığım
From: ABC
To: A
Date: December 3, 2020, 6:51 pm UTC
Sigo aquí pensando todo lo que pasamos juntos, me dolió todo lo que pasó y no se si pueda volver a encontrar el amor alguien que verdaderamente me haga sentir segura, que no le importe mi físico y me ame como soy, que esté conmigo en las buenas y en las malas, y mientras esa persona llegué seguiré disfrutando de mi vida y esperar a esa persona tan especial que hará que cambie mi vida como en la de las películas.
Ojalá.
From: ABC
To: A
Date: December 3, 2020, 6:40 pm UTC
Aunque se que no iba a durar tanto, gracias por todos esos momentos y creo que ya es hora de dejarte ir y comenzar una nueva vida espero y seas muy feliz
From: ABC
To: A
Date: December 3, 2020, 6:41 am UTC
It’s been almost 2.5 years since we said goodbye. can I possibly still love you like I think I do? It’ll always be you...
From: ABC
To: A
Date: December 3, 2020, 2:27 am UTC
I love you. I FUCKING LOVE YOU and I wish I didn’t because then it wouldn’t hurt seeing you with someone else
From: ABC
To: A
Date: December 2, 2020, 9:19 pm UTC
It's not the fact that you left me for her that hurt, it's that when it didnt work out you never came back.
From: ABC
To: A
Date: December 2, 2020, 7:13 pm UTC
you disappeared over 2 weeks ago, i never got to tell you how i felt about you. but you wouldnt care, im nothing to you. but its okay. i just wish i could relive the one moment i was with you, you being by my side and touched hands. looking back i never thought i would obsess over this 10 minute moment. the last touch was your right hand giving me something that i lost, something that helped me cope and something that helped me forget about everything and something that gave me euphoria. i hope youre okay, i wonder when youll come back. ill be depressed all throughout december knowing youre not in this city anymore.
From: ABC
To: A
Date: December 2, 2020, 1:03 pm UTC
it took years for me to move on, while u stuck around and played with my heart. it feels so good to be over u
From: ABC
To: A
Date: December 2, 2020, 8:26 am UTC
I try to find many posts on here with my intial but a lot of them end up being ones with hateful comments towards their person.
I then sink into my own thoughts and wonder if one of them are from you.
I'm nobody special after all, I have no talents, I don't think I was suppose to be born but still ended up premature.
Me being born made my mother believe in empty promises which all lead to the situation im in now.
My mother could have had a chance to redeem herself if only she never met that piece of shit.
She already has a son who fucked his life already and i'm not bout to go down that path.
I want to live a life where I can pay back my wasted living years by giving my mother her wishes.
2 years ago I was going to hand you 6 front and back hand written letters but instead burned them, you wanna know why? because I didn't want to look weird giving them to you out of nowhere. Even if I did give them to you, you still wouldn't have been able to understand me.
If I do kill myself one day, I wonder what your reaction would be. Probably just a blank expression and you'd move on with your life quickly,why? Because to you I'd just be someone you used to know lol.
Idk what i'm even saying at this point, i'm tired of trying to figure out what kind of person I was to you.
I don't understand why I think about you every day.
I just wanna dissapear and be a dog in my next life so I can wag my tail all day and have nothing to worry about.
From: ABC
To: A
Date: December 2, 2020, 8:14 am UTC
You’re not any better with those words “I hate you for cheating on me, specially with her”. He certainly did cheat, not with consent though. You have to relook your priorities.
From: ABC
To: A
Date: December 2, 2020, 4:48 am UTC
i fell in love with the person that you were, you changed and suddenly we were strangers. I could tell you felt the same, what happened? what changed you?
From: ABC
To: A
Date: December 2, 2020, 3:51 am UTC
Please, I'm crying, I'm begging you to come back to me. I'm a wreck I need you. Please don't give up on me.
From: ABC
To: A
Date: December 2, 2020, 1:38 am UTC
honestly, i hate you for calling yourself a feminist, but when the assaulter happens to be the boy you like, it's definitely my fault right? i would say fuck you but honestly do not even care as much because i do not miss what we had. we both were not right for each other and that's okay, but don't get the story twisted. i cant even go into public without my pepper spray anymore in crippling fear of what could happen even in my own vicinity. but i wish you the best because after all, i was never one to hold grudges as deeply as you. i hope you do well but in saying that, stop talking about me.
From: ABC
To: A
Date: December 2, 2020, 12:01 am UTC
I miss you more than I thought humanly possible, not texting you every single day is so hard; I hate that ur not in my life anymore...
From: ABC
To: A
Date: December 1, 2020, 11:16 pm UTC
I don't want to leave you I want to stay with you forever I don't care if we can't stay with each other I just want to grow up happy with you, I wish I could've been the one, I wish I could've stayed, im so sorry and I wish I could talk to you again but your gone you're somewhere else living your life and I miss you so much I wish things could been different
From: ABC
To: A
Date: December 1, 2020, 7:59 pm UTC
I hate how bad you hurt me. I hate how bad I was hurting and how little you cared. I envied you for being so indifferent to it all. You brought me so much emotional torment at your own expense, so you could go be carefree.
From: ABC
To: A
Date: December 1, 2020, 5:34 am UTC
Ya casi un año desde que nos conocemos y todavia siento los nervios que senti ese dia y esa emoción de por fin verte
From: ABC
To: A
Date: December 1, 2020, 3:26 am UTC
I hate that I cant express my feelings to you. I love the vibe we have together. I love that we can make a boring situation fun. I love how sweet you are to me. We may not speak all the time but I am slowly falling in love with you little by little.
From: ABC
To: A
Date: November 30, 2020, 10:04 pm UTC
your touch feels like home. you look at me like i’m the only person you’ve ever seen...with eyes this shade on blue. i want to kiss you so bad...but i’m scared you’ll run away.
From: ABC
To: A
Date: November 30, 2020, 9:53 pm UTC
today would’ve been our anniversary. i miss you so much it tears me apart. we almost made it baby. i love u.
From: ABC
To: A
Date: November 30, 2020, 8:19 pm UTC
I'm sorry for hurting you. Thank you for making me feel something when no one else could. I love you.
From: ABC
To: A
Date: November 30, 2020, 5:52 pm UTC
People said I would wake up one day and be over you. It’s been over 3 years, I just wake up more in love.
From: ABC
To: A
Date: November 30, 2020, 5:25 am UTC
Today I got a haircut, not too short tho. My hair got too much to take care of and it was frizzy and dry so I decided to make things easier.
Cutting things off sure makes life easier.......I’m not sure if you prefer short or long hair, oh well.
Cutting hair doesn’t mean my life gets a fresh start, it just feels different and even sadder.
Around 3 AM there’s going to be some sort of eclipse outside, but I’ll probably be asleep by then.
If you’re awake....can you watch it for me?
That’s all I ask for, it’s not like you’re going to read this letter but since we’re in the same timezone, maybe just maybe you’ll go outside and look at the moon.
Every now and then I’ll write letters to you for a while until I get my life together again....if that happens. When I do stop writing them, it will mean either three things
1. I got lazy
2. I forgot you
3. Neither
It feels nice to vent here...it’s my little space where letters keep flowing from different people so you’ll never know it’s me...hehe.
From: ABC
To: A
Date: November 29, 2020, 9:33 pm UTC
i'd rather die than ever see you sad. you deserve so much happiness and i'm going to do whatever it takes to give you that happiness
From: ABC
To: A
Date: November 27, 2020, 3:38 am UTC
last year at this time i had to leave the table to cry bc i was still heartbroken over u. this year my new gf and i’m more in love than ive ever been. i’m so happy u dumped me
From: ABC
To: A
Date: November 26, 2020, 9:17 pm UTC
everything reminds me of u
literally everything
i’m sorry we are in this situation now
i love u with my whole heart
From: ABC
To: A
Date: November 26, 2020, 9:10 pm UTC
i hope u come back before it’s too late
i love u with my whole heart, but i can’t wait forever
i’m sorry
From: ABC
To: A
Date: November 26, 2020, 10:26 am UTC
i think at one point i genuinely liked you back. but i have a problem with trying to always cater to everyone’s needs and it’s exhausting. they all told me to not go for you, so i didn’t. i feel stupid for it bc i miss our facetimes but i’m scared we’ll hurt each other because i feel like you’ve already moved on. or maybe you just go for what’s available.
From: ABC
To: A
Date: November 26, 2020, 5:33 am UTC
I hate that I think about you from time to time. You absolutely wrecked my perception of dating permanently.
From: ABC
To: A
Date: November 26, 2020, 5:20 am UTC
I never saw a relationship other than friendship but i hoped everynight that you would eventually like me more than just a friend.
From: ABC
To: A
Date: November 26, 2020, 4:11 am UTC
I’m still waiting for the day I meet another guy I like more than I liked you. I’m sorry I never told you the truth, I couldn’t handle the rejection.
