Unsent messages to A
From: ABC
To: A
Date: September 29, 2020, 6:54 pm UTC
Thank you for everything. I still wish you texted me back though. As much as I want to hate you, I can't. Your name is still my favorite one to say
From: ABC
To: A
Date: September 29, 2020, 5:51 am UTC
āOur songā is nothing but music to me now. It used to be our future, our laughs, our dreams, but now itās just another sappy love song from the 50s.
From: ABC
To: A
Date: September 29, 2020, 5:43 am UTC
Itās crazy that I was finally able to recover from my ED of 5 years once you left. I was too busy being gaslit to realize that you were promoting it.
From: ABC
To: A
Date: September 29, 2020, 3:16 am UTC
Why is it that we can talk about any topic in the world but we canāt talk about whatās happening with us?
From: ABC
To: A
Date: September 29, 2020, 12:31 am UTC
I keep a screenshot of your message in my ārecently deletedā. Itās been years and I still think about how you said you loved my eyes.
From: ABC
To: A
Date: September 28, 2020, 7:09 pm UTC
I knew what it meant i just wanted a reason to talk to you. (P.S. I saw your test scores. Iām smarter)
From: ABC
To: A
Date: September 28, 2020, 7:01 pm UTC
I let you in more in a month than i did other people in years. I guess plenty of room to come in means plenty of room to leave too
From: ABC
To: A
Date: September 28, 2020, 5:09 pm UTC
I loved you and you lost me. But now Iām stronger alone, so thank you for breaking me so I could build myself back up.
From: ABC
To: A
Date: September 28, 2020, 6:11 am UTC
you would always take such good care of me, thank you. you really really cared about me didn't you? right?
From: ABC
To: A
Date: September 28, 2020, 3:52 am UTC
guess thatās it, itās over. forever. 0 future. love you 3000. youāll always have a special spot in my heart. xoxo, R
From: ABC
To: A
Date: September 28, 2020, 2:41 am UTC
you were my soulmate and still are, but i was never yours and i never will be, i hope you find happiness
From: ABC
To: A
Date: September 28, 2020, 12:40 am UTC
i cant understand for a single second on why we arenāt together. i know you keep thinking of the complications like me being far far away. but its not... i just. idk. im suffering. i cant breathe anymore. and i dont want to. so i wont. i love u forevever. i wish u the best in life always and you made me the happiest human in the world. u made me feel like i could do anything in life even if i failed i could get back up again. im sorry. im just not strong enough to sit and wonder everyday if youll be mine again. it hurts yoo much. im tired of missing my mom. im exhausted all the time. i apologize for this beforehand. i love u. goodbye. find that someone you lovw and dont ever let them go. forever isnt promised.
From: ABC
To: A
Date: September 27, 2020, 11:48 pm UTC
She isn't my 'second choice', you just manipulated me into thinking that you were the first. It's her, it always was her, and it'll always be her.
From: ABC
To: A
Date: September 27, 2020, 9:09 pm UTC
i told u to stop. i loved u too much to say anything when u didnāt. after all i wanted you. itās my fault.
From: ABC
To: A
Date: September 27, 2020, 8:33 pm UTC
I never met anyone like you. I never been in love the way I'm in love with you. I can't help smiling thinking about you. Y O U
From: ABC
To: A
Date: September 27, 2020, 5:28 pm UTC
why wasnāt i enough for you? why did you always make me feel like i didnāt deserve you? why am i STILL not good enough for you?
From: ABC
To: A
Date: September 27, 2020, 3:37 pm UTC
Iām sorry Iām such a piece of shit. Iām sorry I made you stop loving me. Iām sorry Iām not what you want anymore. Iām sorry all I do is let you down. I promise that Iām gonna get better. I promise that Iām gonna be what you want, and be someone you want to love. Just please. Whatever you do. Donāt leave me. Donāt give up on me, on this. Please...
From: ABC
To: A
Date: September 27, 2020, 9:53 am UTC
I was blind to how you felt about me until everyone else opened my eyes. But itās too late, I let you slip through my fingers.
From: ABC
To: A
Date: September 27, 2020, 4:37 am UTC
i love you. goodnight beautiful.
p.s. i would probably die from embarrassment if you ever saw these but i want you to know it's all true.
From: ABC
To: A
Date: September 26, 2020, 7:25 pm UTC
Sorry I broke up with you, I was too scared you would. Now I regret and I would give anything to have you back ... with a broken heart your ex
From: ABC
To: A
Date: September 26, 2020, 5:05 pm UTC
every time i feel myself start to slip into an attack, i put on your pajama pants so when i curl up its like youre with me.
From: ABC
To: A
Date: September 26, 2020, 12:33 am UTC
the kids we were once were are no more; i don't want to dig up our tree and retrieve our seeds, i'd like the accompany you in love's shade.
From: ABC
To: A
Date: September 25, 2020, 9:01 am UTC
I donāt think Iām the right A for you but I am someone whoās name does start with A, i also practice the craft. Darling you donāt need to go to all those efforts to manifest someone into your life, you need to let it go to the universe then when you least expect it youāll get what you need. I know itās hard believe me but please donāt hurt yourself over it
From: ABC
To: A
Date: September 25, 2020, 8:52 am UTC
I carved your name into my skin during a manifestation...If it doesnāt work I give up on the craft..And us. I love you so much.
From: ABC
To: A
Date: September 25, 2020, 7:23 am UTC
12 hour drive and living in 2 different countries. i wish i could be with you rn and we could watch the city skyline. it was hard and it sucks how we cut each other out, but thank you for making me feel something again, even if it was just for a short while. maybe in the future, we can meet again?
From: ABC
To: A
Date: September 25, 2020, 1:54 am UTC
when i saw you for the first time... i thought i'm going to marry him or he's gonna be the one to break my heart.
From: ABC
To: A
Date: September 24, 2020, 2:18 pm UTC
u promised me moving halfway across the world wouldn't change anything... we never even said goodbye...
From: ABC
To: A
Date: September 23, 2020, 7:17 pm UTC
u lied countless times somehow I always managed to find a place to forgive you idrk if that was love but I never rlly did that for anyone else so...
From: ABC
To: A
Date: September 23, 2020, 5:17 pm UTC
i hate that i like you so much. you make my numb heart feel things and to be honest it scares me so much. always forever.
From: ABC
To: A
Date: September 23, 2020, 6:11 am UTC
come back to me only if you want me as your lover. i cannot be your friend, i can definitely not be your diary.
i'm still waiting.
-forever yours.
E
From: ABC
To: A
Date: September 23, 2020, 1:02 am UTC
im sorry im so protective. you're the first person i really love and i don't want to lose you to her.
From: ABC
To: A
Date: September 22, 2020, 12:33 pm UTC
it's not much but when i text you a soft good morning text and only get a simple "hi" back, it hurts.
From: ABC
To: A
Date: September 22, 2020, 12:12 pm UTC
youāll never understand how much it hurt me when u didnāt show up to the airport. i shouldāve never believed u
From: ABC
To: A
Date: September 20, 2020, 12:40 pm UTC
I wish I could un meet you, not because I regret all those memories, I treasure them. But, it would hurt so much less. E x
From: ABC
To: A
Date: September 20, 2020, 12:38 pm UTC
Iāve still got your hoodie in the back of my car, it smells like you. Its been two months and Iām still not ready to let you go.
From: ABC
To: A
Date: September 20, 2020, 3:23 am UTC
Did you have to fuck her while I was dying from lung failure, My lungs already refused to work now my heart
From: ABC
To: A
Date: September 19, 2020, 5:25 am UTC
lol we are finally talking again but for some reason this still hurts. one of my friends like you and it hurts but i have to support her. i know you like her too so please just tell me already that you do so i can stop getting my hopes up about us being together forever.
From: ABC
To: A
Date: September 18, 2020, 10:00 pm UTC
It hurts so fucking much how you made me believe in soulmates just for me to see that you are not mine
How I wish you chose me
From: ABC
To: A
Date: September 18, 2020, 9:58 pm UTC
Thank you for destroying me and everything we made together
I thought our friendship was stronger than some guy you met this year
From: ABC
To: A
Date: September 18, 2020, 8:57 pm UTC
Itās fine Ik your dropping me for another best friend but itās oki guess thanks tho for being there for me always and forever. ily .
From: ABC
To: A
Date: September 18, 2020, 7:22 pm UTC
Sometimes when it rains, I think about what it would be like to kiss you, but then I think of your boyfriend and how happy you are together and decide I can't be that selfish.
Love,
the best friend that you don't know likes girls
From: ABC
To: A
Date: September 18, 2020, 6:34 pm UTC
even after all of the times youve hurt me
its still you
its never not gonna be you
even if i keep getting hurt
From: ABC
To: A
Date: September 18, 2020, 2:20 am UTC
You went back to them after constantly saying you hated them and you wouldn't go back. For the sixth time. I lost you again.
From: ABC
To: A
Date: September 17, 2020, 10:38 pm UTC
Why don't you raise the child that I'm yet to remember? It was all you. I don't understand. I'm not prepared for anything like that. why oh why
From: ABC
To: A
Date: September 17, 2020, 9:33 pm UTC
I still look through the views of my story hoping to see your name just so I know you still think about me at least sometimes...
From: ABC
To: A
Date: September 17, 2020, 6:34 pm UTC
I used to cry to āthe one that got awayā it used to be about my absent dad, but now Iām plagued by you
From: ABC
To: A
Date: September 17, 2020, 2:33 pm UTC
I love you so much even after you tore me apart. I keep feeling you next to me in my bed and my throat closes up. I miss when I didnāt know you loved her.
From: ABC
To: A
Date: September 17, 2020, 12:44 am UTC
we had so many great memories, but i wish we never grew apart. why don't you talk to me anymore? i feel like we threw away our years together. you made me feel like everything was my fault, like i was always in the wrong. truly, i just needed someone to talk to and you weren't there for me like i was for you. i don't feel loved by you like i used to. but it's fine now i guess. not that i wish we never met, but i wish i never let myself get so close to you. the times we had will never be time wasted, just memories that i wish i could relive. hope you're doing well right now
From: ABC
To: A
Date: September 16, 2020, 11:48 pm UTC
You used to relax every muscle in my body just by being near. Now just the thought of you makes my neck hurt.
From: ABC
To: A
Date: September 16, 2020, 6:26 am UTC
i hate we had the same music taste bc now i can never listen to my favorite songs without thinking about u again .
