i really wish i didn't feel the way i do about u. i can try and convince myself all i want but its not the truth. i know nothing is ever going to happen and we are only friends. you dont feel the same way. im trying my hardest to stop how i feel even if it might mean i need some distance from you. i love and miss you sm.

I know I deserve someone who won't treat me like a second choice but I was so ready to give us a try.

I was still in love with you after I ended it. I still have dreams about you. I hope you're doing well these days.

te odio pero te amo me estas haciendo mucho dano y ni siquiera yo puedo conmigo me duele que ni siquiera me pidas perdon o me lo allas dicho de una manera en la que no me doliera tanto me caga que n este contigo we neta ni 2 dias y ya andavas con alguien neta yo estuve para ti en tus dias tristes y me decias que ibas a estar para mi en mis dias mas feos y wey DONDE ESTASSS CUANDO MAS TE OCUPO???y te odio te odio te odio maldito soft boy me hiciste creer que todo iba a ser diferente y aqui es cuando me doy cuenta que la mayoria son iguales y TE ODIO gracias por sacarme un poquito de la realidad por unos minutos pero jodete ojala n te rompa y mires que yo siempre fui tu mejor opcion y me vengas rogando y va a pasar pq yo lo digo y lo declaro pero en fin i hate u pinche softboy

i don’t know If you still care about me or not, but i’d still die just to have one more day with you...

Aunque ya sé que lo nuestro no volverá a ser lo mismo, siempre vas a estar en mi corazón, y que te sigo queriendo igual que el primer día.

You made me feel such a way I scared myself. Exhilarating, intoxicating almost- leaving me yearning on that same feeling i’d never managed to match. It’s bittersweet really, I look for you in everyone- even myself. I have never met another soul with such depth and aspiration, and I guess it terrifies me. You see, people like you are like playing with fire, someone’s bound to get burned in the end. And I don’t want that to happen, not just yet. I’d rather wait a million years than throw it all away for nothing. I know our paths will cross again some day, and until that day you’ll reside in my mind and I’ll see you in everything. Thank you darling, I love you

u promised me moving halfway across the world wouldn't change anything... we never even said goodbye...

In case you’re wondering, this is what I feels like when it didn’t have to turn out like this; but you chose to let it.

J'ai juste l'impression d'être trop conne. Comment on peut profiter d'une gamine de 13 ans sans avoir son malheur sur la conscience. J'ai détruit la confiance que ma mère avait en moi à cause de toi, je me suis même fais du mal et je méritais pas ça bordel. J'étais tellement jeune, je voulais juste que les adultes me voient comme eux, comme quelqu'un avec qui ils pouvaient communiquer sans pour autant les prendre de haut. Je voulais peut-être un peu aussi que mes parents s'intéressent à moi. Et puis merde j'en ai marre de remettre ça sur ma faute, tu parlais tellement mal de moi, le pire là dedans c'est que moi innocente comme j'étais je pensais que tu m'aimais, que tu ferais tout pour moi. :') Je me trouve drôle maintenant, je sais pas comment j'ai pu penser ça de toi. Tu sais maintenant c'est compliqué, compliqué de me reconstruire tout en sachant ce qu'un con peut me faire si je reste pas trop sur mes gardes. Mais je fais avec comme t'as pu le voir je sors avec des garçons et à chaque fois j'espère avoir trouvé le bon mais dès que j'ai le dos tourné on me fait du mal donc j'arrête tout mais j'apprend jamais de mes erreurs et je recommence jusqu'à m'attacher à nouveau à quelqu'un et honnêtement c'est un cercle vicieux. Bon ok je veux bien dire que j'ai pas été totalement honnête avec certains et je m'en veux mais merde j'aime pas les gens qui me prennent pour une conne. Je crois avoir trouvé le bon aujourd'hui reste plus qu'à espérer :) Pour l'instant il m'a pas trop fait de mal à priori je réfléchis juste trop mais ça c'est pas nouveau. Il est toujours là pour moi mais je pense que si il savait que je suis encire vraiment cassée par ce que tu m'as fais il le prendrait assez mal. Tu sais que c'est à cause de toi la plupart du temps quand j'arrive pas à me concentrer en cours je me demande tout le temps ce que j'aurai pu faire pour que ce tu m'aies fais n'arrive pas et au final je trouve pas. Je sais pas si c'est parce que je le méritais ou parce que t'es qu'un con et que t'es né pour me faire du mal et bousiller ma vie :)

when i saw you for the first time... i thought i'm going to marry him or he's gonna be the one to break my heart.

I know I make you happy and you make me happy too. We aren’t right for eachother but I still love you all the same

sometimes i think to myself about how much i love you but then i remember love shouldn't feel the way you made me feel. i don't understand why you had to hurt me like that or why you lied to me or what made me less worthy of you then her.. you made me hate myself you went from being my yellow to my black but... i miss the idea of you i had in my head i wish i still was that girl before i met you but i don't even remember who I was all i know is that i was happy. but i know everything happens for a reason i just wish you would've told me you didn't love me when all i wanted was to love you.

I can’t get you off my mind and it doesn’t make sense because I barely know anything about you but I also feel like I annoy you...

you hurt me you took my childhood away the one thing i cherish is ruined because the actions you did.

12 hour drive and living in 2 different countries. i wish i could be with you rn and we could watch the city skyline. it was hard and it sucks how we cut each other out, but thank you for making me feel something again, even if it was just for a short while. maybe in the future, we can meet again?

La verdad no fuiste mi primer amor pero junto con un par de personas me hiciste ver lo difícil que es la vida, llore muchas veces y no solo por ti sino por tus acciones y las de tus amigos intentando referirse a mi como un juego, cada vez que publico algo me siento juzgada porque vi unos chats en donde le decías a tus amigos que miren mis estados que era una exagerada etc... o cuando me invitaste a salir por pena. Andrew yo también quiero ser feliz.

I carved your name into my skin during a manifestation...If it doesn’t work I give up on the craft..And us. I love you so much.

I don’t think I’m the right A for you but I am someone who’s name does start with A, i also practice the craft. Darling you don’t need to go to all those efforts to manifest someone into your life, you need to let it go to the universe then when you least expect it you’ll get what you need. I know it’s hard believe me but please don’t hurt yourself over it

you are not the world, but you are everything that makes the world good. Without you, my life would still exist, but that’s all it would manage to do.

Hey,
I really, really want to get to know you, but I'm starting to doubt if you're even rlly out there...

Why do you say all these things that you don’t mean? I wish you would tell me how you actually feel about me. I‘m falling apart trying to decide whether to give you up or keep going.

I hate that we are so far apart from each other, we‘re soulmates - we both know that. But the worst part is that we can’t be together. I love you. Also, I get mad every time I‘m being called princess by someone and it isn’t you ):

I've liked you for the past three years. idk if u noticed but what can you do bc we don't talk a lot anymore. wish we did. ok bye.

i love you so much. i hope someday we can get back together, you really do mean the world to me. all i ask for you to come back someday.

you don't deserve the energy i'm giving you. you didn't even deserve my attention at the first place.

the kids we were once were are no more; i don't want to dig up our tree and retrieve our seeds, i'd like the accompany you in love's shade.

why are you this toxic but i can’t leave you? do i love you i dont even know. you break me just so much that i don’t actually want to do anything, i have no motivation. you never liked me, you sometimes say im like a medicine to you and i make you so happy and i comfort you but you dont even want to say that im your best friend. i want to leave you because you dont give a fuck about the person that broke me the most in the world, the person who made me want to k1ll myself, youre best friends with them. i cant even begin to tell you how broken i am over this. you probably were my first love and i will always have this weakness for you but i wish u were a good best friend.

why? how could you? i cant even express what im feeling. i still think of you every day. i still hurt every day. i hate you so much that i dont hate you at all. im so confused. why does it hurt so bad. how could you? i thought u cared about me. how could you be so selfish? i still fall every time i see you, how could i? how can you do this to me? i dont even understand myself anymore. i cant do anything anymore... i still care, how could i?

I’m convinced that we’d be perfect for each other if only we could see each other more than once every 3 years

im in love with you. maybe. idk. i broke up with my girlfriend because you kissed me. so theres that.

you were the first boy I trust after a long time but thanks to you I've learned I shouldn't trust boys.(but if u come up to me, I will trust you again cause ily)

you are not the world, but you are everything that makes the world good. Without you, my life would still exist, but that's all it would manage to do.

i miss you. i know i shouldnt because you cheated on me and i cant forgive you for that. looking back, i was so unhappy, breaking up again and again and again just to get back together, the untolerable pain you brought me. but i cant help but feel like i cant be someone without you. you were my first love and the one that hurt the most. everytime our mutual friends talk about you i cant help but feel hopeless. i hate you i really do but i dont love you, i dont know how i feel, i miss being around you even when people judged us or when you would text me goomorning texts or goodnight texts. of course ive had many other boyfriends after you that were alot better than you. but i cant help feeling interested in what you do now. but for all the pain and embarrassment you caused me, fuck you.

Waking up next to you was the best this that's happened to me in a long time. Now you're fine and this bed seems so big

Hey, I still think about us but I hate it. Loving you was a mistake but I still can’t get you out of my head.

It hurts that when u see me u act like u never knew me. Our families go on vacations together DON'T lie.

why would you say you love me and then fuck 2 other ppl? That really hurt me. you broke something in me ill never be able to fix regardless of what I do

yk your the only person i really fell in love with i never knew what it meant till i met you...but you believed their words over mine..even tho i don’t have you have anymore i’ll always love you...even tho i’ll never forgive you

hi.
i just wanted to say that i will not be waiting for you anymore. i waited for you too long, i am ready to let go now. im pretty sure you havent even thought about me. but idc, i spent all this time praying for you to text me, call me idk. man i would've died for you. it has been 3 years since we met, and you know what? i would still spend eternity waiting for you, cus my heart says that u are worth it.
and the fact that you havent even called me once just fucks it up more. you son of a bitch , i would have done everything for you. you have no idea how pissed i am at you. i ditched my valentine for you, i did everything for you. i tried so hard to be the one, and the best thing i have ever heard from you about me was " i realised, im sorry, i dont wanna loose a friend like you". man, i still have hope u gon text me or call me. pls do. i want to wait more, but i just cant. i love you, idc if its to late, i have always loved you , since the day we met. im so fucking in love with you. im sick of it, im sick of dreaming about you, thinking about you , im just so sick of it man. but im ready. ready to leave you behind.

Till we meet again my bestfriend, my first love, my x.

you make me laugh, you get my humor, you make me feel amazing about myself and i'll always love you for that

I have fallen for you, endlessly. Please reach out to me.

i miss you and your stupid unicorn stuffed animal .

I feel your touch still, am I going mad?

trying not to like u but can’t stop fr

you’re all i want and nothing more.

I'm sorry. I was scared back then.

i wish u knew how sorry i am

I know I could’ve loved you but you would not let me

i wish it could’ve been us