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I HATE THAT I LOVE U!! I hate that even when I don't want to think of u I do. I hate that u will never feel the same. I HATE THAT I LOVE U SOOO MUCH. I HATE THAT I CANT EXPLAIN WHY I DO! I HATE THAT MY EVERY CONSUMING THOUGHT IS ABT U. I HATE THAT U CAN CHANGE MY MOOD. I HATE THAT U CAN MAKE MY DAY SIMPLY BY TEXTING. I HATE THAT U CAN DESTROY MY DAY BY NOT REPLYING. I HATE THAT I CANT GET OVER U. I HATE THAT I CANT JUST FORGET ABT U. I HATE THAT U DONT CARE ABT ME. I HATE THAT UR ALWAYS SALTY. I HATE THAT EVEN WITH ALL THE MESSED UP SHIT U DO TO ME, I STILL LOVE U. WTF IS WRONG WITH ME. I WANNA HATE U. I WANT TO FORGET U. I WANT TO BE ABLE TO SAY ..... "WHO IS HE? IDK WHO THAT IS? OH YEAH, HIM AND I WERE FRIENDS IG" BUT GUESS WHAT?! I CANT!!!! I CANT!! WHYYYY? TELL ME WHY U DID THIS! WHY DO ALWAYS LIE TO ME!! IM TIRED! IM SO TIRED OF THIS CONSTANT FEELING! I WANNA BE DONE WITH THIS! BUT IDK HOW TO ;(