Unsent messages to A

Was it worth it? It seems that you didn't even care I was waiting for you, to give you all I could. You just preferred him.

you helped me when i was at my lowest, and maybe that is why i can not let go? you are the reason for me being here, alive and breathing, today and for that i am so unbelievably thankful. i wish you knew how much you and your words helped me. maybe i can not let go because you do not know how much you meant to me? maybe all i have to do is reach out and tell you everything, every single thing, that is on my mind. maybe then i will finally get peace?

sorry about your dog, you deserve better than what the world is putting you through. youre gonna be okay

i’ll always love u, i believe we are the right ppl at the wrong time, in another universe ik we did work out. i just know it.

this was the color of your sweatshirt i had. i didn’t take that off for 3 days after i got it. giving it back to you was the hardest thing i’ve ever done

Sometimes when i wake up i forget you left, then it hits me and all the pain comes back. I’ll always have a place for you in my heart and arms my love.

You really hurt me and my feelings and you didn't acknowledge the fact that I had struggled to say anything and you didn't acknowledge that I actually cared about you and you just cut me out without an explanation and didnt even give me a chance to explain my reason why I said no a why I didn't go out with you. You we're my best friend but you didn't trust me and constantly made me feel bad when I didn't share my problems with you. You caused so much anger and sadness in my life when we stopped talking, and you kept telling me that I changed even though I hadn't and you didnt give me a chance to say anything except you just made it awkward for everyone else. You also spread lies about me and told others things I had never or would do in my life. You knew that I had trust issues but you continued to push me by making share what I went through even though I wasn't comfortable and you made me feel bad when I shared my feelings with other people. I wish we could talk again and that we can be best friends again. I miss you and I constantly think about our time together. And hope that we can reconnect again

it's stupid cause it's been so long and i've been over you but on the days you come to mind i can't help but wish we never met. if i had the chance to go back in time i'd sit anywhere besides the back of the classroom beside you and make sure that this time around, you'd be one less mistake i've made.

Nunca te dije lo que sentía, y sí, tuve un crush contigo. No te lo dije porque tenía miedo a que me rechazaras que era lo más probable. Solo quiero decirte que no recuerdo bien el porqué las cosas terminaron así pero espero volver a tener esa linda amistad

ur not my first love but u were very important to me. i don’t understand why u left me did i do something wrong? i thought i meant more to u. u were my first and only real best friend and still almost 3 years later no one has been able to fill the hole u left in me. i’m lonely suffering everyday i have no one to share memories with, cry too, laugh with anymore. i know i should be over u by now but it’s hard when after you left it was just me by myself and i still have no one. i hope ur happy with the pain ur causing me and i hope ur happy and not lonely like me i hope i find someone better than u and someone who won’t leave me so quickly and easily. fuck you

I just wish that I was good enough for you. I just wish that you were in love w me the way that I am with you. I just wish you were able to treat me the way that i want and deserve. I wish I never had to think about ending our relationship but the truth is your constant uncertainty are making me feel uncertain. I don't know how much longer I can do this for. I just want to be loved the way I love and I want you to be there for me the way you were before. I just want everything to go back to the way it was. I miss you.

I miss you so much. everyday because of you i look in the mirror and wonder why i wasn't good enough, why you talked to me if you didn't mean it. I hate you so much for what you did to me, but its not your fault. It's mine. I should have seen it coming. No one that perfect would ever like me. No 6'2 brown hair, eye eyes, skater, jock would ever like me. I should have seen this coming. When your friends tried to worn me i didn't listen because i trusted you! because of you i can love someone the same. I have doubts about everything everyones says now because i don't have the ability to trust someone. You took a piece of me. A piece that i hope you take care of. I miss you everyday but i don't think i would ever take you back. After all the pain you caused you still don't care about me. You don't give me the time of day and Im tired of giving you chances when you could care less. This is my final goodbye.

Can't help but remember you everytime I listen to the band you showed me, can't help but still be in love with you

pensaba que te gustaba hablar conmigo al parecer soy tu pasa tiempos es divertido te preguntaras el k facil jugar conmigo ¿es divertido?

will your loved one caress you the way that i did?
I don’t need to know,i just want to make sure you’re okay.

i didnt bother confronting you about the other girls. The silence was my goodbye . i love you beautiful boy .

You know that we’re twin flames.
You say all these sweet and loving things to me and you do so much for me and you trust me, I can feel it, but I don’t know what to think or how to take them. Do you love me back? Do you want me? I know that you can’t tell me, because life won’t let us be together right now, but I just wish you would tell me how you feel about me. I don’t wanna get hurt again. Last time you hurt me so bad, I felt like I was dying, I don’t ever wanna feel that way again. I love you

I know we can’t be together, but I can’t help but wonder if you want me as much as I want you. I’m so in love with you

I'm sorry. I know now that I should have done more for you, but it's too late. I never meant to hurt you.

hope u don't see this, but do you even care. i care so much about you and i don't feel like you care about me...

i used to hear so many stories about you. i still do. the good and the bad. i hope you're different now. i hope you love and cherish them more than you did me.

you're supposed to be the person who loves and cares for me the most but why weren't you ever there for me? my whole entire life you were gone but you still wanted me present?

Remember when you did my eyeliner and your face was achingly close to mine? I always wanted to kiss you then.

i'm still in love with you, i think i always will be...but it's different now i can't love you it will only hurt me more.

You hurt me worse than I could've imagined. I'm better without you but it's hard cause I thought you were perfect.

Think I found a message from you on here today and I can’t express how sorry I am it didn’t work out. You are amazing and I was the luckiest girl in the world when I got to spend time with you. I know there is someone out there that can give you what I can’t and you’ll be so happy with them. Thank you for all of it.

I think we both knew, we stayed up late talking about music and how i loved that one band. I kept thinking about you every single night after that, it gave me butterflies. I should of told you how i felt. But i didn’t and was too late.

I miss you more than ever. Now you have a girlfriend, I know that you never fell in love with me the way i fell in love with you.
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cant tell if i want you back or want to never hear from you again. cant tell whether i miss or hate you. cant honestly distinguish any feelins i have towards you now. hope you're doing better & its been easier for you.

wish i could dance with you one last time .. or answer the phone to hear you tell me all your crazy stories i never got sick of .. wish you still wanted me.

there hasn't been a day where i haven't thought of you, or missed what we had, i have so many mixed emotions right now, i can't decide if we were really meant to be or if you were just another chapter in my life. and im scared i won't find anyone else, and that no one will ever love me like you did. I'm scared that im never gonna move on, but you weren't right for me , or maybe you were, most of our relationship is now becoming a blur, all the hurt and most of the good, but there are still little things that remind me of you. even though our beginning was perfect, our end left me hurt and lost. I don't know how to feel or what to do, but there's no way something wasn't off with us. and i cant help but wonder if you felt that way too. sometimes i just sit here and think about how you're feeling, and if you feel the same way as me. Or if you're relieved that everything went down the way they did. Because you've changed and that's been the hardest pill to swallow. I want to be happy and i want to get over you, but so much of the hurt i felt has been blurred out that now i think everything was my fault. and what you said stuck with me. Maybe i should've stayed and given you another chance, but at the end of the day we wanted different things and we are different people. hopefully one day we both move on and find better.

maybe I was to caught up in a dream to think I had a chance against her.

-and it hurts cause I still think about u

i don't know why you mean so much to me, at this point i am just hurting myself. i couldn't have been the only one who felt that connection, right? i guess i'll never know...

And everytime when I'll see a dinosaur I will think of you. RawR.
From November 'till our time expires. Even if it already did, you were the reason of my childish smile. I already said it, but when you first "stole" my first kiss you also stole a part of my heart.

I wasnt in love with you, God knows i didnt love you but u made me see colours for the first time, u were making my world red then blue, But u always kept calling her At your most vulnerable..u chose her and i chose u.

in case i overthink things, and never say it in person, in this very moment, i am in love with you alexander.

i’m so sorry about everything, i was too immature and didn’t want you to deal with it. if i learnt to communicate our story might be different. who knows?

I'm sorry for everything that happened. I miss you everyday. Hope we meet again in either in heaven or the next life

Hey
do you remember me?
I know i loved you and sometimes i think im still not over you.
But it hurts even more, that we are no longer friends, just because i started to distance from you.
I wanted to tell you that i am sorry and i would give anything to go back to when we were friends

The distance between us is killing me, I miss you so much. Please tell me you love me, just so I know.

god I wish I could have the courage to tell you how much you hurt me... but I don't, because I'm a coward, but honestly... FUCK YOU!

you were so coward to not to tell me you will disappear. im so in love with you, but now i need to move on

You knew I had a thing for you. So instead of asking me to see where I was at with it, you avoided seeing me until you met someone better.
At any point did yoh consider how I would feel?

I had absolutely no issues keeping it strictly friends with benefits.
Why then did you feel the need to keep more on the table, when you had zero intentions of that?

i still miss u after all this time, everytime i get a notification i wish it's u. i wish we can try again

You always said there was a possibility of going further.
But once you found someone better, you said that that chance of going further was never there.
Have my feelings been a joke this whole time?

You miscommunicate, lead on, and speak in half truths for months. All good. No harm, no foul.
I write one wrong message out of concern, and lacking context due to the half truths. How did I become the ass?

I knew how you like your coffee black, how you prefer the summer over the cold winter.

I knew how you like to stay up at night, go to the rooftop and see the stars in the dark night sky.

I knew the movies you like to watch, the things you love in life.

I knew what you value and who you care about.

I really wanted to know that, I am the one you see yourself with until the end.
Sadly, I didn't get the answer I wanted.

I like to think that you see me the way i see you, or it it purely the fact that i was so deprived of love at such a young age, that i constantly get your kindness confused with passion. Or do you like me. Do you see me the way i see. More than a friend. Or am i being disillusioned by my unstable mind yet again. I will always love you -and that is the problem.

I love the way you laugh, and how you make me laugh. The side glances and little smiles. I love it all.