i'm so sorry. i'm so incredibly sorry. this guilt i feel is so great. it's so heavy. i wish i could tell you how sorry i am for leaving without an explanation, but i can't find the words to. it seems as if you were always meant to be a part of my life, a definite one, one that would last forever. but i picked others over you, others who not only at the time but later on hurt me. your smile and hugs will forever mean the world to me. hopefully i can build up the courage to tell you how sorry i am. and maybe even ask for one of your fenomenal hugs. ilabu.