Unsent Messages

there hasn't been a day where i haven't thought of you, or missed what we had, i have so many mixed emotions right now, i can't decide if we were really meant to be or if you were just another chapter in my life. and im scared i won't find anyone else, and that no one will ever love me like you did. I'm scared that im never gonna move on, but you weren't right for me , or maybe you were, most of our relationship is now becoming a blur, all the hurt and most of the good, but there are still little things that remind me of you. even though our beginning was perfect, our end left me hurt and lost. I don't know how to feel or what to do, but there's no way something wasn't off with us. and i cant help but wonder if you felt that way too. sometimes i just sit here and think about how you're feeling, and if you feel the same way as me. Or if you're relieved that everything went down the way they did. Because you've changed and that's been the hardest pill to swallow. I want to be happy and i want to get over you, but so much of the hurt i felt has been blurred out that now i think everything was my fault. and what you said stuck with me. Maybe i should've stayed and given you another chance, but at the end of the day we wanted different things and we are different people. hopefully one day we both move on and find better.