Unsent messages to C
From: ABC
To: C
Date: December 6, 2020, 11:58 pm UTC
thank you for reminding me of the person that i want to be, i wish i could stop you from doubting that you're enough
From: ABC
To: C
Date: December 6, 2020, 2:18 pm UTC
i hate that you make me feel so good and probably you're going to break my heart again. please don't tell me that night was a mistake, cause i can't take another loss
From: ABC
To: C
Date: December 6, 2020, 11:51 am UTC
the fact that you fell out of what we had and didn't tell me straight up when you knew i was already broken still hurts.
From: ABC
To: C
Date: December 6, 2020, 11:14 am UTC
Stop telling me I am beautiful, stop singing to me. You are in love with someone else... And I'm falling for you.
From: ABC
To: C
Date: December 6, 2020, 8:38 am UTC
i get excited going to school just because of you. although we only see each other in the hallways but those 3 seconds of my time is worth it. just seeing you is worth it.
From: ABC
To: C
Date: December 6, 2020, 3:51 am UTC
i think im gonna off myself and ur the only person that could talk me out of it. u donât give a shit tho cuz u donât know. u never will this isnât how i type
From: ABC
To: C
Date: December 6, 2020, 3:22 am UTC
i'd write something to you but it's not like there's anything to write about. you liked me years ago and sometimes i feel like i never stopped liking you and i'm scared writing this confirms something. it's not like i ever told anyone about you, maybe my friend but i don't know, i don't really remember. i think we would be good together though, when you slip between the cracks and i'm stuck thinking about you again. she's said it too you know, the girl i'm pretty sure you're in love with. she's my best friend but it bothers me how she could have you again but she's not really serious about it. or at least i feel like that based off of what she's said a few times. i don't even know you that well. i think you were my first crush and i've never really gotten over that. i thought i was over it. but now i'm back at school and i'm thinking about you. i'm not even sure i like you, i hope i don't. because i don't even know you, not properly. only in the fact that we've gone to school for years together. i think sometimes you represent a feeling, i like to romanticize and overthink things and you're perfect for that. i just hope you think about me sometimes and think i'm nice. i hope you think i'm pretty too.
From: ABC
To: C
Date: December 6, 2020, 2:03 am UTC
you moved on too fast. you didnât leave me any warning or time to prepare. please come back. i loved you so much. we had so much potential. i always see you now, but you never see me. i love you and iâm sorry. please come back.
From: ABC
To: C
Date: December 6, 2020, 1:53 am UTC
i donât really miss you anymore, i more just feel an overwhelming sense of disappointment. i gave you so many chances and you fucked them all up. i wish you would tell it like it is. why do you have to lie? is it from pride or just from being a bad person? donât go around saying you didnât love me, that i just couldnât bare to see you with her, that i was the problem. i wasnât. be a man and own your mistakes. seriously, i say that for your own good, because the guilt of everything is coated under the distraction of all the girls you have added to your collection, now who are tired and lifeless. i wish you could read everything iâve written you since we ended- itâs a lot. you are the focus of many poems and letters and paragraphs. but iâm writing them less and less. i still think about you but like i said, i donât miss you. i wouldnât want someone like you in my life. iâm glad you are gone. :) iâm just mad that it could have all been different. look at that, you made me mad! iâve felt anger now because of you. wow. this is yet another entry i have first addressed with colby but changed to c because i donât want to hurt your feelings or hear this much from me. i am a good person. that was one of the only things you were right about. you should have treated me like one! i saw the best in you even when i was the only person you didnât morph into what seemed shiny and new in front of. you showed me your worst and only your worst for weeks on end and i still saw the best and loved you. loved. i donât love you anymore. you donât even have a special place in my heart. you have a special place in the small small part of my gut that feels anger. that is where you lye. not up in my heart with people who have been good to me. i fell in love with the bare minimum and frankly, that messed me up. i have multiple guys being so so sweet to me and wanting to take me out but i still canât really accept real adoration and kindness from a boy. you engrained in me that i wasnât worthy of that. of course you didnât know what you were doing, but you did it. iâm getting better though. the further away from you, the closer i am to self love.
From: ABC
To: C
Date: December 5, 2020, 11:54 pm UTC
sorry I fucked up:/ and sorry you did too. i donât think i could ever forgive you but i hope youâre okay
From: ABC
To: C
Date: December 5, 2020, 10:29 pm UTC
i just want to know why i wasn't good enough. i tried so hard to be what u wanted and it wasn't enough.
From: ABC
To: C
Date: December 4, 2020, 9:29 pm UTC
es realmente hipĂłcrita que me hayas tratado como si fuera la Ășnica que cometiĂł un error e hizo sentir mal a la otra, no te odio, pero me odio a mĂ misma por seguir recordando tus palabras como una nueva inseguridad.
lamento que nos hayamos conocido.
From: ABC
To: C
Date: December 4, 2020, 8:51 pm UTC
Mientras te desnudabas en el cuarto, sabĂa que todo iba a acabar. Me lamento de no haber dicho que te amaba.
From: ABC
To: C
Date: December 4, 2020, 6:42 pm UTC
You threw me away like garbage, why did I love you so much? I was so devote, why did you leave me here?
From: ABC
To: C
Date: December 4, 2020, 3:04 pm UTC
¿Por qué no dijiste antes que no me amabas?
AĂșn siento en lo profundo de mi que te amo... a pesar de que te fuiste hace casi 5 años.
From: ABC
To: C
Date: December 4, 2020, 1:36 pm UTC
you are the first person i have ever felt this way about. i think about you all the time, and i hope you think about me.
From: ABC
To: C
Date: December 4, 2020, 4:27 am UTC
i will not sit here and bash you because i do still love,you were my first love and still will forever have my heart but you were not perfect you lied to me,cheated on me,gave me really bad anxiety whenever someone calls because i don't know if there cussing me out or simply just calling me,you caused me so much much trauma out of the whole relationship you made me feel wanted then slowly made me feel useless and yes you might've matured now the little boy you use to be really messed me up i use to tell you everything about me then you turned around and used it against me. Before i met you i was not the best in life but you messed me up now i have commitment issues and trust issues with myself and other people,every time you call and get excited thinking its you telling me you want to be with me but it's never that and i know it will never be that but you know a girl can dream right :(
From: ABC
To: C
Date: December 4, 2020, 4:15 am UTC
for the rest of my life ill wonder where you are and what you are doing and what could have been everyday. i hope we meet again one day
From: ABC
To: C
Date: December 4, 2020, 1:57 am UTC
Were u just using me back then when i tried to support you but failed miserably and ruined our friendsship
From: ABC
To: C
Date: December 3, 2020, 11:05 pm UTC
you loved wearing my bracelets & told me to bring more when i saw you again. i wear extra bracelets incase you come back.
From: ABC
To: C
Date: December 3, 2020, 1:37 pm UTC
a snap memory came through today.. you were holding me and we were laughing. there was an innocence in my eyes iâve lost.
From: ABC
To: C
Date: December 3, 2020, 6:53 am UTC
iâm talking to someone new, and i really like them, but i wish in a strange way i could tell you about him as if we were friends again:(
From: ABC
To: C
Date: December 3, 2020, 3:54 am UTC
i tried to think of the nickname you called me all while we dated. the one you used for my contact name? i cant remember it anymore...
From: ABC
To: C
Date: December 2, 2020, 6:03 pm UTC
You're the darkness within me begging to crawl out and hurt everyone. You never knew what I was going through, and I'm thankful you didn't. Because if you did, you'd be haunted too.
From: ABC
To: C
Date: December 1, 2020, 9:16 pm UTC
You saw me and I knew that you would live in my heart forever. Those golden eyes never lie. I hope our memories warm your heart as they do mine.
From: ABC
To: C
Date: December 1, 2020, 7:06 pm UTC
I almost broke up with you when you told me you loved me, because I was scared I could never love you back.
From: ABC
To: C
Date: December 1, 2020, 4:30 pm UTC
After much consideration Iâve realized I have nothing else Iâd want to say to you. Healing feels better than you ever did.
From: ABC
To: C
Date: December 1, 2020, 7:32 am UTC
you'll come back so we can have the future we always spoke about. i know you will. till then, be safe my love.
From: ABC
To: C
Date: December 1, 2020, 4:27 am UTC
I wish you would just tell me how you feel. I'm in love with you but not knowing how you feel is really killing me
From: ABC
To: C
Date: November 30, 2020, 9:06 pm UTC
because the world keeps turning, I know one day weâll see each other again. Iâm looking forward to it.
From: ABC
To: C
Date: November 30, 2020, 2:26 pm UTC
iâm still waiting for you. i have a feeling our story wasnât supposed to end like that. i am waiting for the day we reunite and i can be in your arms again.
From: ABC
To: C
Date: November 30, 2020, 7:25 am UTC
lo siento si no fui suficiente, de verdad querĂa que fuĂ©ramos algo, tal vez fue mi edad o no sĂ©, de verdad te quise aunque no te conocĂ, no solo quiero ser tu amiga pero creo que las cosas serĂĄn mejor asĂ
hicimos muchas cosas pero no sé si me arrepiento por que siento que solo jugaste conmigo
en fin, ojalå nunca olvides que si me necesitas ahà estaré
From: ABC
To: C
Date: November 30, 2020, 5:44 am UTC
every once & a while i write one of these to u. i know uâll never see it bc i donât use ur name, but itâs nice to at least have what i want to say to u put somewhere other than in my head. i canât stop thinking about u. itâs almost annoying. i havenât spoken to u in so long, i hate it. ur favorite color is becoming one of mine. i mean, iâve liked that color before i met u, but itâs closer to the top of my list than it used to be. i wonder how u are doing. are u happy? i hope so. i wish i could just tell u my feelings without telling u. i guess this is what this is for right?
From: ABC
To: C
Date: November 30, 2020, 5:36 am UTC
please reach out to me. i miss you. :( u made me so happy. i felt so comfortable with u. i want us to be friends at least
From: ABC
To: C
Date: November 30, 2020, 3:58 am UTC
me acuerdo que no podia salir de mi casa sin mis audifonos porque si no me los llevaba no iba a poder escuchar musica contigo
From: ABC
To: C
Date: November 30, 2020, 3:28 am UTC
Im sorry I hurt u. I didn't know how to handle my mess and ended things to prevent hurting u. It made things worse.
From: ABC
To: C
Date: November 30, 2020, 2:29 am UTC
iâm over u now so i wasnât gonna say anything else but ur fucking insane oh my god! learning a lot about u rn.. i knew u were bad but not this bad. never have i met such a cruel cruel liar like i can not comprehend how someone can live with themselves when they do the worst things to the people they supposedly love? if you gave me the chance i would fucking slap you as hard as i could. you are manipulative as fuck and your head is so far up your own ass you canât see that you gaslight so much you gaslight YOURSELF. get help colby i mean goodness fucking gracious! i donât rly think i could look you in the eyes without throwing up so unfortunately i canât say all of this to you in person! if i could i would. fuck you. i donât care about you any fucking more and you took way too much time of my life but i wonât spend any more stressing about getting it back. just gotta move forward. forgetting you and anything good you did now.
From: ABC
To: C
Date: November 30, 2020, 2:25 am UTC
iâm over u now so i wasnât gonna say anything else but ur fucking insane oh my god! learning a lot about u rn.. i knew u were bad but not this bad. never have i met such a cruel cruel liar like i can not comprehend how someone can live with themselves when they do the worst things to the people they supposedly love? if you gave me the chance i would fucking slap you as hard as i could. you are manipulative as fuck and your head is so far up your own ass you canât see that you gaslight so much you gaslight YOURSELF. get help colby i mean goodness fucking gracious! i donât rly think i could look you in the eyes without throwing up so unfortunately i canât say all of this to you in person! if i could i would. fuck you. i donât care about you any fucking more and you took way too much time of my life but i wonât spend any more stressing about getting it back. just gotta move forward. forgetting you and anything good you did now.
From: ABC
To: C
Date: November 30, 2020, 12:46 am UTC
I hate the fact that I could have you back with one text. I hate it because I know we arenât right for each other.
From: ABC
To: C
Date: November 27, 2020, 4:38 am UTC
I havenât spoken to you in more than a month & I miss you. i hope you havenât forgetton about me :(
From: ABC
To: C
Date: November 26, 2020, 10:15 pm UTC
I wanna be your boyfriend. I want something more than this casual stuff. I just want you to feel the same as I do.
From: ABC
To: C
Date: November 26, 2020, 7:07 pm UTC
In few days, we will know each others for a year. I used to think we will celebrate it, now I wonder if it will even cross your mind
From: ABC
To: C
Date: November 26, 2020, 3:15 am UTC
every night i wonder if she came back into ur life u would forget about me. loving u gets really hard.
From: ABC
To: C
Date: November 26, 2020, 3:10 am UTC
im in love with you- i wish you wouldve kissed me today because i could feel it deep in my heart that there was something there. id never felt it. but in that moment i did.
From: ABC
To: C
Date: November 25, 2020, 8:40 pm UTC
I hope you are having such a good time there in Malaga, I hope that you have already found someone and that she is already caring about you, and making you a better person, and that she makes you believe in yourself, more than I did.
I miss you. N
From: ABC
To: C
Date: November 25, 2020, 8:23 pm UTC
Creo que es hora de cerrar ciclos, fue especial ᧠me descubrà gracias α ti, pero las cosas no se dieron.
From: ABC
To: C
Date: November 25, 2020, 4:25 pm UTC
TW// sh you have officially broke me so much i wake up with a aching heart and cuts on my wrist. i loved you.you did this to me, why ?
From: ABC
To: C
Date: November 25, 2020, 11:22 am UTC
I would like to talk like we used to do but is to late to repare what you made me feel. I hope U are good and your brother too.
From: ABC
To: C
Date: November 25, 2020, 11:17 am UTC
No se coincide dos veces con la misma persona y si es asĂ es por que el destino nos quiere decir algo.
From: ABC
To: C
Date: November 25, 2020, 10:15 am UTC
december. i know you felt it too. i've run out of tears for you. months later. i'm happy for you. december is almost here again already, huh.
