Unsent messages to ALEX

the first person i ever told i loved, was there for me when i was at a low. I hope you achieve the best and maybe one day we will be something.

i remember when i first saw you i started looking everywhere just to find your socials & i couldn’t but then one day i was looking through my requests on insta& i saw this account with your name & there was nothing to go off of that made it to be you but something told me that it was you it’s crazy because it was you and ever since that day i just knew it was fate bringing us together. i’m in love with you alex i know i left the last time we spoke i was just scared to admit that for the first time i was truly in love with someone

i remember when i first saw you i started looking everywhere just to find your socials & i couldn’t but then one day i was looking through my requests on insta& i saw this account with your name & there was nothing to go off of that made it to be you but something told me that it was you it’s crazy because it was you and ever since that day i just knew it was fate bringing us together. i’m in love with you alex i know i left the last time we spoke i was just scared to admit that for the first time i was truly in love with someone

You both created and destroyed my concept of love. Who was I to give you such power?never forget me...

when you appear in my dreams i know i'm not awake, and i cling on that bit harder... it's been 4 years

i dont know what to do without you, everyday feels empty. all i wanted was to get to you in person so we could start our lives together, i wanted to help you become the amazing man i know you are. and hell, even though it scared me so, you were the one i wanted to marry one day.

When you said you couldnt move to me, i immediately made the plans to get a ring and move to you. But you broke up with me the night i was going to tell you.

This is the longest we’ve ever been apart. The only time we weren’t apart was to sleep:( I miss you, you probably don’t. I love you and you’ll always have a special place in my heart but I think that I have to try atleast to push you down and try to let you go I just can’t keep feeling like this. You were my other half, my best friend. Thankyou for always being there for me. I think it’s time to move on now though no matter how much I don’t want to..

you ghosted me with no explanation and it still hurts. it hurts that the first guy who ever liked me couldn't stand me after a month. no matter how hard i try to pretend i'm not bothered by it, it still hurt to see you so happy from a distance today. i still imagine what it would've been like if we were dating and you would take me out instead of always asking to "chill" at your house. i'm glad i never accepted those invitations and had much higher standards for how a guy should treat me. but i can't help but ask, what did i do wrong?

i did everything for you. i put my life on hold to make things work with you. and you up and left. leaving me in the dark.

I will always love you, you were my greatest love. My heart will always belong to you no matter who I love after ...it will always be you Alex.

i miss when u lived next door and would drive me home and we’d have hour long conversations i miss u come back

You can be so insensitive of my feelings but I can’t help feeling anything but love for you no matter how much you hurt me. I’ve never loved anyone more than I love you..

i wish you knew how much i liked you and for you to of stayed, i wish i knew what i did wrong, i wish it wasn’t just a saturday i was relevant to you, i did care about you and still do, i wish you gave me that chance

i wish you knew how much i liked you and for you to of stayed, i wish i knew what i did wrong, i wish it wasn’t just a saturday i was relevant to you, i did care about you and still do, i wish you gave me that chance

thank u for teaching me so many things, and giving me the opportunity to know what love is even if i wasn’t what you were searching for.

you’re the best hugger i know. i’m looking forward to holding you again, i hope it wasn’t the last time we met...

i never loved you but i just wanted to say thank you. you saved my life and i wish i could tell you this. you're encouragement and general motivating attitude is so kind. you notice things no one else notices. no one would care if i left, only you. im staying because of you. i want you in every step of my life because no one has ever cared about me before, but it doesn't work like that. so thank you and as much as i hate this, good bye.

i hope you know that you completely broke me. why couldn't you just tell me how you really felt. every tie i got the courage to leave i got pushed right back it where i started. i haven't been able to form any feeling since and when you randomly pop back up out of no where it makes me cold.

you will forever have my heart. Maybe later on, we will meet again and get that house together like we promised.

You hurt me real fucking bad. I used to tell my parents that i would take a bullet for you. You weren’t worth that pain

you’re the most immature bitch i know. you fucked me up in so many ways possible. i hope you eat shit you racist, homophobic piece of literal fucking garbage.

idk who i am or what i want. i’m sorry i didn’t realize it before i started dating you. i love you but relationships suck

Your mixed signals where the worst but they kept me exited. I knew you liked me too but I was scared I’m sorry I was cold to you. You liked me but I was not ready. just know that you are a great guy

8 years together. 3 girls you told me not to worry about. I forgave you for all 3. But the 4th one, I had to walk away for good. Goodbye.

I don't know if I should be sorry or not. I never knew if i liked you. You did like me first. You made me confused because afterward you said that you never liked me. Your friends did say differently. You wanted to be my boyfriend but i was just confused at this point.

i believed you when you said you had feelings for me...little did i know that it was all just a stupid prank

I don’t hate you. No matter how hard I try. No matter how much you fucked me over. Part of me still wants to be your friend for some fucked up reason.

I miss you. I miss everything about you, the good, the bad and even the ugly. I miss you calling me that stupid nickname 'cheeto', I miss the way you would smile when we facetimed, I miss the way you held me tight when you knew I wasn't okay. But what happened? We went from 'I love you' to 'I don't want you anymore' literally overnight. I wish I could go back, do it better, be better for you but I can't. You kept me here, you were the reason I held on for so long and I'm forever grateful for that. Sometimes I look at your spotify and you have this one playlist 'let it out' and I swear some of those sad breakup love songs are there for me to see but I don't want to have to text you and beg for you back again. I couldn't handle the pain of breaking my heart yet again. I love you Alex, I will never break that promise in the way you did. If you need me you know I'll always be here for you to come back to. I love you loser x

Und auch wenn ich gar kein Recht dazu habe, tut es mir immer weh, wenn du über andere Mädchen schreibst. Dabei hättest du so sehr jemanden verdient, mit dem du nicht mehr einsam bist. Das schlimmste ist zu wissen, dass ich es niemals sein werde.

Und auch wenn ich gar kein Recht dazu habe, tut es mir immer weh, wenn du über andere Mädchen schreibst. Dabei hättest du so sehr jemanden verdient, mit dem du nicht mehr einsam bist. Das schlimmste ist zu wissen, dass ich es niemals sein werde.

i honestly dont know why i feel this way. i wish i could see u and hug u sososo hard. but ik u probably dont feel the same way and im just a girl u use for nudes but i cant help myself. every time i see ur name pop on my screen my mood lightens up. u make me feel like the like the most amazing and perfect person alive. i love u but fuck u

i honestly dont know why i feel this way. i wish i could see u and hug u sososo hard. but ik u probably dont feel the same way and im just a girl u use for nudes but i cant help myself. every time i see ur name pop on my screen my mood lightens up. i love u but fuck u

i honestly dont know why i feel this way. i wish i could see u and hug u sososo hard. but ik u probably dont feel the same way and im just a girl u use for nudes but i cant help myself. every time i see ur name pop on my screen my mood lightens up. i love u but fuck u

I really don’t know what I did wrong. I guess you just needed me for sex and when you didn’t get it you dipped and moved on to the next girl. I treated you like a fucking king and all i got left with was months of heartbreak and depression . Fuck you Alex you stupid fucking fuckboy! Learn how to hide your toke next time too??

My feelings for you haven’t changed but the way I see you has. From my boyfriend to best friend, how could I ever stop loving you?

My feelings for you haven't changed but the way I see you has, from boyfriend to best friend. How could I ever not love you...

you’ve made me give up on love, you’ve made me realize love is just a losing game. but, i hope youre doing good at least with her. stay happy.

I should’ve known you were just using me all this time. Hope you’re happy with yourself because you broke me.

I'm so sorry I hurt you in the end, even though you hurt me first over and over again. I wish things ended differently because now I blame myself everyday when I know deep down it wasn't just me who ruined us.

i loved you. why did you decide to love me back when i could’ve been happy. you know i have a soft spot for you

Do you realize that the only reason I'm shy around you is because I'm nervous you wont like me if I say something stupid.

you won’t see this but just know i think about you everyday. we can’t be friends anymore and honestly that breaks my heart to think abt it :( i miss you so much and you were always the highlight of my day. i hope we find each other again soon bc it’s killing me knowing we aren’t friends anymore.

this isn't your real name but the other one didn't have any submissions. i just wanted to tell you that i really fucking like you and i wish i could say it to your face. you're such a beautiful soul and i literally constantly daydream about being with you. you're so fucking gorgeous and cool as fuck and i just can't get over you. i just doubt you'd ever like me back. i hope you know you're loved.

On reflection I don’t think I ever loved you, I just loved the attention you gave me, I was too young to know what I felt. Thank you, for the experience.

Hey,I know you will never read this. What you have done to me was horrible and I can't let you do it again. I love you,but for the love of god. Get yourself together and message me again when you know you care.

Maybe i’m in love with you, i’m not sure you’ll ever know that though. I want to tell you but you haven’t changed ://

you were as kind as you were cruel, but a piece of me will always belong to you. miss you to the moon, for ever. yours always, purple.

I miss you. I keep texting you but I know im blocked. I hope your happy. I really hope your life worked out. I think you were my soulmate. I can never replace you but hopefully I can mend my heart.

I don't believe that i will have a chance with you. But if i do you i know that you'll make me the happiest.
Thank you, for teaching me not to do the same mistake again.