Unsent messages to ALEX

We were really young but the times I spent with you were the happiest in my life I wish I could go back to that

I miss your touch. I miss your kisses. I miss the way you would hold me at night. I miss you. Why'd you leave me.

i don’t know if i love you, but i really like you. i enjoy our constant bickering at work and how supportive you are of me. you are one of a kind

i grew up with you years. I've seen you go through happy and sad times. little did i know how different you would be today.

I hope that you're okay, and I hope that I'll be okay. I can't hate you even if my trust issues now exist because of you. You played me for months, broke my heart and made me insecure. I don't miss you. I can't wait to meet someone who'll make me want to love again. I know that I'm worth it. I know that I'm smart, pretty, funny and I don't need you to believe in myself. It's been one year and I'll be okay.

when i got your message my heart skipped a beat. it's been 8 months and i have thought about you each day. i've loved you for forever and a day

i’d like to be with you again, hold your hand again, kiss you again. id like you to take me in your arms again.

I’m sorry I wasn’t good enough for you. Im sorry i wasn’t pretty or funny enough for you to like me. I wish we still talked.

I wish I’d been strong enough to walk away when I knew you weren’t strong enough to tell me you didn’t love me anymore.

listen, im kind of tired of trying to talk to you. I hate the fact that u always leave me on delivered, but what was the point of making me feel special?but still... i really miss you.

why did you have to traumatise me like that man. i struggle to do stuff with my own boyfriend now because of your actions

this isn't fair-i'm stuck having these horrifying nightmares about you-and you just got off scot-free.
fuck you alex

the nights i slept with red LEDs on dreaming about you. that deep nights, going personal and free w u, to find out it was fake.

i’m more in love with you than the first time we met, or the first time you said you loved me but i know you no longer feel the same :( i miss you

why can’t you just realise i’m not the girl people say i am and you say i am why can’t you realise i loved and trusted you fuck you i tried i really did but all you see is what you want to see

hey. i don't really know why im writing this. I'm not sure what I want to get out of this, but never the less, here I am. I always seem to end up here. I think it meant nothing, but something about you pulls me back in. I haven't liked anyone in a long time. I think I got tired of it back firing. It's so pretentious to be like ugh im damaged. but bro you know as well as I do that my life is fucked up. I'm afraid that if I let myself like you I'm just gonna end up hating myself again. I barely got through that last time. I can't do it again. I know you of all people would understand that. I don't know how you feel about me, but I'm hopeful. I hope something good comes out of this. please let something good come out of this.

Ojala ubieramos podido llegar a algo más que amigos pero no me comprendiste aún hago te deseo lo mejor ?

thanks for everything. thanks for being mine for a little while. i hope the next girl who has you stays with you and be there with her presence, her love, everything you and i couldn't have. Have a good one. I'll miss you.

You were there for me when i was in the deepest pain. I will never forget. I told you I wanted to use you straight to your face and you agreed. Thank you for numbing the pain :( Thank you for everything.

I wonder what life would be like if we were still dating. You broke up with me and I don't know why. You said you will love me forever but look where we are. As the days go by we talk less and it hurts. I feel like I'm loosing someone who understands me the most.

I was so in love with you that I gave you my everything it ruined my frienships and my relationships with my parents but yet I wanted to be with you looking at it now it was all wastefull and I should never had wasted any of my time you

hey,
I just want to be your person the person you think about at night laying in silence, I wanna be the one that makes your day. I can't wait to be your number 1. Who knows what you truly feel. I wanna make your heart melt. You're my favorite boy. I wanna be your best friend. I still wanna be your favorite girl. I can'T wait to be your number 1 Anyway, I love you.

the hardest part is accepting the fact that I'm not her, and never will be. I'm sorry I thought I meant more to you:/

Hey :) I hope you’re doing good. I’m so glad that I met you. You are and will always be my favourite person. I’m sorry that I didn’t put much affort in our relationship as you did. I’m sorry that I changed. I will always love you

I wasn't sure what you meant when you said it wouldn't work and that you were afraid to hurt me; I still don't. You deserve to know tho, I still love you.

Hey Alex, I always thought you were really cute during practice! I never have the courage to talk to you since I’m shy, but I notice you always stare, so I was hoping we can hang out sometime :)

Sometimes I wish I asked you out and dated you. I wished it wasn't too late for me to finally love you the way I thought of.

i love you, like a lot, and it hurts that you like another boy :(
but i cant understand because you give me signs of something else, i cant figure you out at all :(
i’ll always be here for you and i love you

You're not my first love, but I come to tell you that every time you kiss me I stay still because I don't know how to respond, I'm sorry

i miss you. but i've finally accepted that you don't need me anymore and it's ok. i hope you are happy with her, and i hope she gives you what i never could. i love you weirdo. goodbye.

You were the first boy to give me those crazy butterflies. I haven't felt them since. I hope you're okay

I care abt you too much as a friend and I can never tell you how I feel after what you said to me that day. But I really care for you and I like you Alex
I really do..

i still think about u sometimes. although, what we had wasn't real happiness, it's better than how i feel now. i want it back sometimes.

Freshman year i always knew we had a connection. But I knew that only because I smoke, that you wouldn't want to be in a relationship with me. You're very different from guys that go to our school, and that's what I love most about you. You're very truthfully to yourself and would never please someone else. You have such a warm heart, and I love they way you look out for me. But I know you do that from being a friend to me. Which sucks but I have to get over it. You have seen me at my worst and I am very comfortable around you. I love being myself with you, and I love that you accept who I am even though I don't make the smartest decisions. Being around you just puts a smile on my face. I love joking around with you knowing you won't take it up the ass. It's a different type of love that I have for you, but I know we'll always just be friends. No matter what kind if relationship we have I'm glad I get to call you an amazing friend.

the love i feel for you will never grow out of me, but i can’t keep doing this with you. i want to be able to live without you and be happy.

I held you close to my heart. Yes, it did hurt when you left me for her. But it hurt even more when you told me how much better she was than me.

When Everyday felt Like A Choice
More Than Just Knowing That's When I Stopped Loving you But That Doesn't Mean I Have Stopped Thinking About It But Also It's A Big Chain That I Still Can't Tell If it's gone

I should have said something when you kissed me. I should have told you I had been waiting for that for so long and that’s all I wanted. But I was too scared. I’m sorry I hurt you and I need you to know that you really did mean so much to me then and now. It’s just that I’m still scared.

why did you lead me on? you made me feel loved and wanted. you chose people who hurt you instead of me.

I don’t know if my decision of leaving you was right, I still dream with you every night, I hope u doing alright man.

As much as I want to give up on you I can't. You're everywhere and everything around me reminds me of you bubs, I hate it. I love you so much that I hate you. You broke me completely and then showed up again when you saw I had put myself back together. I want you to be better and I've tried to make you better an help you realize you won't be young forever. I want you to be the one. The one I see first thing in the morning. The one I'm not afraid to be myself around. The one that I'll spend my days with until my last breathe. I fucking love you so much that I absolutely hate you

I've had mixed feelings about you for months now..but I'm glad ur happy with your girlfriend, it's like every time I had the perfect chance it slipped out of my hands just be happy for me okay?

I love you but I’m tired of you hurting me. I wish you would’ve appreciated me and loved me. I will always love you and I hope life treats you amazing. despite all the damage you have caused me I will always be there for you.

i wish things ended differently, i will always carry a part of your heart with me. ill always love you man

I miss you even though you went to a state that 1,070.5 miles away from me and unadded me from everything

you're bad for me. i know it. you want to be sexually active and i don't. but we bonded so well. we were talking and laughing as if we knew each other for years, but we just met. i haven't seen you in two weeks. i hope to see you again.

I miss you. I don't know where we went wrong, but between the here and there I miss you because you shined like glitter. I mean maybe we were broken like glass, but damn would I let you cut my hands.

I'm sorry I couldn't fulfill your needs, ig you needed to go be with someone else. just know I did love you.

we're still together but it's just not the same. i'm working up the courage to do what's best for us both and end things but i just don't want to lose those happy memories. you just aren't putting the effort in anymore. we rarely talk. you're not going anywhere in life rn. i will always love you and want to see you be successful in this world but i have to focus on myself. it's not healthy for me to get annoyed every time we talk.

I’ll always love you. Well I think I will. I didn’t know what love even was, I don’t think I do now. But you get the point