i love you so much and i wish i had told you how i felt when i still had the chance. all i will say is that i'm glad that we're still friends and i want you to be happy, but please don't be with her, she'll break you and even she doesn't realize it, so please... not her

Maybe I pretend not to feel anything special for you during the day, but as the dark falls, you’re all I need.

you were the best thing to ever happen to me, but the worst thing you did was convince me you could handle my bpd. only to leave when i showed signs of it. i will always miss you and feel guilty but i will always despise the way you left.

I dream about u sometimes. that u finally message me after all this time. that ur sorry about everything. and then I wake up.

fuck you for making me love you when you never loved me. you hurt me more then you know when you said you didn’t know why you got back with me, you don’t deserve me and some how i still love you.

Why didn’t you fight for me? Were you just indifferent to being with me? Are you still in different or do you miss me too?

Hey, I miss you. I miss our conversations, our hangouts, our thoughts together but what I miss the most is your golden heart. I know you're going through a lot and I hope you feel better. You would never hurt me and I would never hurt you. I simply want you to be happy even if that means pushing me out of your life to solve your problems, I get it. Just know I'll be here for you and that I truly love and adore you... :)

You knew me when I was bad, you helped me, I loved you. What happened to us? and our promises?
Well that doesn't matter, I'll always love you....

i’m scared of how time goes so fast, i know it cause i count every single day since you walked out of my life and i still remember that night when i couldn’t be happier.

I’ve been thinking, if we got back together it’d be forever unless you ended things. I’d marry you and I’d have your children. I would love you and grow with you and never leave you. You’d have my heart and my forever. I hope you can forgive me and trust me after I broke up with you and broke your heart. The breakup allowed me to grow in the way I needed to. Now I feel like we’d be stronger than ever if we got back together. I was selfish and stupid. Please give me another chance. Please just have coffee with me and see me again. I miss you.

i've probably sent you hundreds of these, but the site crashes every time i search your name. i guess you'll never know.

i never loved you or anything. but i still kind of miss having you around even a year after we’ve broken up.

So I guess that's it, huh? Just take care of yourself. I'm still rooting for you even if you hate me.

Maybe it's beacuse you were older that I look back and it feels wrong. I really hope that you actually meant what you said and that I wasn't just a naive innocent girl being used :((

I've met someone. He's really great and treats me well and I want to tell you about him. I'm becoming myself again and I wish you could see that.

the fireworks they talk about in the movies when you kiss someone? I thought it was bullshit. until I met you.

i fucking hate you for what you did to me but the truth is that I still fall asleep thinking about you

i miss our deep talks at 1am, your the only person i felt like i could really open up to, i remember u comforting me in the middle of one of my breakdowns, probably the most vulnerable someone ever seen me. so thank you for being there for me, it means a lot. i dont care if you dont miss me, i just wanted you to know :)

we have been through a lot, but you only saw me as your ex's classmate even though I knew you before her

i don’t care how bad you were for me or how shit you made me feel i loved you and i still do everyday and you made me think you felt the same and now all i do i miss you.

fuck you for using me like that. fuck you. i should’ve known. time for me to date ur best friend. xoxo

You ask for honesty, yet I always catch you lying to me. Lying about small stupid stuff. Why lie and not just tell me the truth? It’s not that big of a deal.

You really dont and probably will never know the dent you left in my soul for you... I loved you with everything i had

Im so sorry for everything. i hurt you and thats clear, but when i was with you i began to look both ways before crossing the road. i began to take shorter showers and i didn't cry into my pillow at night. and for a second i thought i had you again, but then you left. like always. and now im all alone.
youre back now, but for how long? why does everything have to have a deadline with us? i would do anything for you dude, id let a wasp sting me and we both know they're my biggest fear. even though your mom hates me i would still put in the effort. i was gonna buy her a christmas present dude. i loved you so much and i still do and im pretty sure i wont ever stop loving you. youre gonna be the guy i tell my kids about and when someone asks what love is ill think back to you.
yet im so angry at you. you made all your friends hate me, everyone thinks so lowly of me because of you. you made it so i couldnt sleep at night and so i hurt myself again just because all you wanted was sex. it hurt me man, and youve changed now yet i still have that fear in the back of my head that you havent and its driving me crazy. i want to hate you, i try to pick up every detail so i can be angry at you. it makes it easier, it makes it so its your fault and not mine and then maybe i can stop hurting but in reality we both know that it wont just stop. its never over with us, i never want it to be over. you can hurt me a million more times. i dont care. so long as its you hurting me i dont care.
your hoodie was red. thats why this card is.
i love you dude. im sorry i wasnt good enough. i hope one day i can be the girl you want.
see you in another life burrito child :)

do you still listen to the playlist i made you? have i ruined any of your favorite songs like you did for me?

You ruined me. I'm afraid of men because of you. I can't open up emotionally because you corrupted that too. Not to mnetion you ruined my only safe place, my home. Screw you

The worst part is I don't even know you, we were young, we've changed so much. I didn't really knew you then, so I don't know a thing of who you are now. You somehow saw me grow through my socials, not me, I haven't a clue of what you do now. Sometimes I think maybe you became all I hate in people. How does it even make sense to spend my days thinking about someone I don't know, knowing that there's a lot of chances we would hate each other now ? Make it make sense

This is why i didn't want to put my all into you! bc i knew that it wasn't going to last but you made me both happy and sad. You were difficult but i didn't give up on you, you did and i can't stay if you won't help yourself or let me help.

you ignore me for hours on end but reply instantly to girls and constantly tweet about them. i’m only your best friend when it suits you.

No matter how many times I say I’m okay with you being in the army, I always cry every day when you leave me for 6 months

Even after all the hurt you put me through, I still think of you everyday. I still love you. I always will.

you re my best friend and i hope it will stay like that forever even though we push others away for this

I don’t hate you, I could never hate you. this last time you hurt me so easily, did you even care about me? I miss you so fucking much it makes me angry

hi alex. if this reaches you, i hope you know it’s me. i miss you, but you only told me you loved me when you were high. do you actually love me?

the warmth of the sun on my skin reminds me of your touch & the shadows cast on my walls at sunset remind me that love i have for you will be there everyday.

hey, i'm sorry for what i did. we both hurt eachother. i tried but it didnt work. you meant alot to me. you were the only person i trusted with almost everything. i wish you told me. hope we can work it out in the future. just know i promised you id always be there to help. and i dont break promises. even though i cut us off i still miss you. and i dont know how your the one okay without me. it sucks seeing myself replaced but ill suck it up. it just hurts seeing you guys doing all the same things we did before. never thought i would miss you. its not that fair. its almost like they flaunt you to me. maybe im just imagining it but everytime i talk to them they talk about everything you guys do together which makes me feel worse. but im not gonna say anything cause they are the only friend i have. i dont know if i hate you or love you.

Do you tell him the same stuff you told me? About being the best partner you've ever had? About not wanting to lose him? About wanting him in your future? Does he know how fickle your love is?

look i’m just gonna copy and paste my notes lol, why did u leave. why did u stop texting me. why did u stop even reading my texts. why did u remove me from ur close friends. why did u stop checking up on me. why did you stop saying goodnight to me. i thought i meant something to u i thought we were friends. i rlly did i thought u cared abt me. i don’t know if i did anything but if i did i’m SO SORRY i’m sorry if i’ve EVER hurted u. please know i didn’t fucking mean to do it i love you i love you SO much. if u simply don’t wanna be friends with me then idk. i tried to be a good friend. i still do. i still send u good morning and goodnight texts every day. i still text u every single day like an idiot. knowing that u won’t reply. i wish u did. i miss every talk we had. i miss when u actually cared abt me and checked on me. i miss when u would say goodnight to me every night. i miss laughing at everything u said. i miss being someone important to u. i miss being in ur close friends. i miss when u would reply to everything i sent u. i miss when u would talk with me while being in class, it was always french class. i miss when u would tell me stuff abt ur life.
i miss when we would talk literally all the time except when i was in class. i miss when we stayed up late talking. i miss when u were the reason i was alive. i miss when u checked up on me and cared abt how i was. i miss when ur response to me being sad was a paragraph and not a “aw :(“ “eat ur mum” i miss when u actually knew abt me. i miss when i would tell u every detail abt my day. i miss waking up to ur texts. i miss everything. i miss u. i literally forgot what was like talking to u. i’m so sorry for not being enough for u. i wish i was and i promise u i tried. u even ignore my comments now and it seriously hurts so bad. it hurts so bad when i write u a fucking paragraph cause u hurt urself or u relapsed on ur ed and u just ignore it. it feels like u don’t even want me to care abt u anymore. and the worst part is that i don’t even know what i did. i thought u loved me. i feel so stupid.

oh god #### me already OOO WEE i love ur presence and i want you around me all the TIME OOO U MAKE ME FEEL SO COMFORTABLE AND WHOLE ! MY DREAMS ABOUT YOU ARE INSANE MY FEELINGS FOR YOU just keep GROWING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ALEX PLEASE WELCOME ME INTO YOUR WORLD PLEASE NEVER LEAVE

you know how I always asked why God put you back in my life I think it’s cause he knew I needed good memories with you and I think at the end of the day I needed you more than you needed me but you’re happy now and I will always love you but I gotta remember cowgirls don’t cry

Realmente, te deseo lo mejor. Todavía te extraño, pero confío en que si se tiene que dar, se va a dar. Espero que estés bien :(

Secret: I have loved you my whole life, I've just been too scared to tell you because its always the wrong time with us.

hey lol. i doubt you’ll see this and i’m too scared to actually admit this to myself and to you in person but i think i’m in love with you.

You wasted my time, money, love, good mental state, all for nothing. Over the stupidest shit. Over her. Them. For what? I meant nothing to you.

Two things you've said to me will always stick. Asking me "what song is stuck in your head" instead of "what are you thinking about" and "Im not obligated to talk to you"

there was always something i loved about you. you just made me feel so special when no one else could.

I miss you. Do you still think about me the way I still think about you? You've hurt me and yet I still wish we were talking.

You’re a twat for ghosting me. Why say you want to still be friends and then disappear? It’s fucking mean. I liked you :(

Hey... how are you doing? How are classes? I still care about you even though I feel like you forgot about me.

I still don't know why we broke up.
You was scared about I can hurt you, but finally was you who broke me.