Unsent messages to ALEX
From: ABC
To: Alex
Date: November 11, 2020, 3:32 am UTC
You had scars on your knuckles, you were always so rough but you were gentle with me, if only you were gentle with my feelings
From: ABC
To: Alex
Date: November 11, 2020, 3:29 am UTC
Sometimes when I pass by your house a part of me wishes that i was back on that couch right next to you
From: ABC
To: Alex
Date: November 10, 2020, 9:34 am UTC
i'm sorry i was such an awful friend, if i never did any of those things would you still be here? i still think about you.
From: ABC
To: Alex
Date: November 10, 2020, 3:07 am UTC
i wish you stopped smoking. youve hurt me so much and ive forgiven you but its so hard to forget. its hard to forget the trust issues you gave me from kissing her. i still cry about it. i love you
From: ABC
To: Alex
Date: November 10, 2020, 2:37 am UTC
Lo siento, no te puedo pedir que me perdones, serĂa injusto. Nunca fue mi intenciĂłn hacerte daño, yo sĂłlo era una niña tonta que no sabĂa nada del amor, hice lo que creĂ que era necesario. TenĂa que dejarte ir, tengo que dejarte ir, tĂş ya me has soltado y yo aĂşn sigo creyendo que a veces piensas en mĂ.
From: ABC
To: Alex
Date: November 10, 2020, 12:49 am UTC
I learned a lot from you. Thanks for teaching me how to love and I am so sorry for breaking you in the end. Thank you for being my first love.
From: ABC
To: Alex
Date: November 10, 2020, 12:46 am UTC
i used to stay up all night writing these to you. this is the last one. i can’t believe i fucking trusted you
From: ABC
To: Alex
Date: November 9, 2020, 8:53 pm UTC
I fucking hate your guts. I wish you never came into my life. learn how to not be a fucking bitch and maybe someone will gaf about you
From: ABC
To: Alex
Date: November 9, 2020, 7:31 pm UTC
hey, i just wanted to let you know that i miss you. its been a real long time since I've heard from you, i hope youre doing okay. im sorry for not saying anything, i was scared. id do anything to go back and change it. i love you a.
From: ABC
To: Alex
Date: November 9, 2020, 4:22 pm UTC
These meds clear my head. I was so blinded by riptides of emotions that now only come in slow and steady waves.. and yet, the thought of you comes in the daylight now, not at the break of dusk and in the dark of night.
I know you thrive now in the light of a new moon, but from afar I'll be sending you the warmth of the light of day. Take care ma belle.
From: ABC
To: Alex
Date: November 9, 2020, 2:13 am UTC
you dropped her for me. that’s a big move. we should just be friends, not force something that’s not there. i don’t wanna lead you on, but i don’t wanna drop you rn either. i’m so sorry. you’re perfect, just maybe not for me
From: ABC
To: Alex
Date: November 9, 2020, 12:28 am UTC
the minute your brother described you i knew that i would want a chance with you, but you didn’t put any effort into the relationship and that’s what i would have wanted so i knew it wasn’t gonna work.
From: ABC
To: Alex
Date: November 8, 2020, 8:48 pm UTC
i really wish that you would have put the same effort into the relationship as i did, i really liked you and i thought it could maybe work out like even to just be friends . it just really sucks that you just had to be a such a douche.
From: ABC
To: Alex
Date: November 8, 2020, 7:32 pm UTC
It’s hard being strangers again. My life is falling apart, and the only one i want to see is u. Ily, even though u hate me.
From: ABC
To: Alex
Date: November 8, 2020, 6:52 am UTC
its jake. you havent heard from me in a while. i miss us and what we had. i wish you didnt treat me like that. i keep dreaming of you. please message me. please. i am still in love with you but im too weak and i know its a bad idea. but youre my yukki
From: ABC
To: Alex
Date: November 8, 2020, 4:44 am UTC
Nobody has ever been as patient with me as you are. I love you to the moon and back and I can't wait to marry your stubborn, annoying ass. You should already know who this is if you get to read this after watching story and by the color pink lol
From: ABC
To: Alex
Date: November 7, 2020, 5:41 pm UTC
I love you, Alex. I'm sorry I don't say it anymore but I am even more sorry you haven't realized it. I haven't said it in 6 months, the last time was on your birthday card.
From: ABC
To: Alex
Date: November 7, 2020, 4:06 pm UTC
Estoy enamorada de una versiĂłn de ti que ya no existe ÂżComo has podido tratarme con tanta indiferencia? TĂş no eras asĂ.
From: ABC
To: Alex
Date: November 7, 2020, 7:51 am UTC
Why do I feel like your the one. How does that even make since. For 6 months now you have been the very thought I think about in the morning and the last one I think about at night. I really hope its you that I end up with.
From: ABC
To: Alex
Date: November 7, 2020, 7:20 am UTC
I love you and thank you! You’ve been the only guy in my life to treat me with love and respect and I appreciate that
From: ABC
To: Alex
Date: November 7, 2020, 3:52 am UTC
you can't say i never cared. i gave you light when you had dark. yet you still treated me like you did.
From: ABC
To: Alex
Date: November 6, 2020, 5:00 pm UTC
i still love you and you know that. i wish there was something i could do to get you back. fuck you. i love you.
From: ABC
To: Alex
Date: November 6, 2020, 3:20 pm UTC
Why when I I think that I’m over u, u come and destroy my fucking world without even saying sorry for the past
From: ABC
To: Alex
Date: November 6, 2020, 3:19 pm UTC
Why when I I think that I’m over u, u come and destroy my fucking world without even saying sorry for the past
From: ABC
To: Alex
Date: November 6, 2020, 5:13 am UTC
Me gustaste... Más de lo que me gustarĂa admitir, te di mi corazĂłn sin pensarlo, al principio lo cuidaste y lo alimentaste de más amor y despuĂ©s no te importo nada y lo hiciste pedazos en frente de mi cara. Te espere demasiado, me preocupe por ti todas las noches y cada vez que volvĂas con tu tĂpico "Hola" se me iba el enojo y volvĂa a quererte. Ahora se que no valĂas las horas de tortura por saber como estabas, por que me respondieras un mensaje y mucho menos las lagrimas que tire por ti, si te interesa aun intento sanar mi corazĂłn, si me preguntan por ti lo primero que sale es que espero que estĂ©s bien, pero en el fondo quiero decir que espero que te encuentres una persona que te haga sentir como tu me hiciste sentir a mi lo bueno y lo malo.
From: ABC
To: Alex
Date: November 5, 2020, 8:13 pm UTC
Being surrounded by bad friends was easier with you there to make me better. Now you’re gone, I’m just totally drowning in loneliness.
jess
From: ABC
To: Alex
Date: November 5, 2020, 5:44 pm UTC
You are my best friend and I love you so much. You're my favourite person in the world and you mean so much to me! xoxo
From: ABC
To: Alex
Date: November 5, 2020, 5:29 pm UTC
Hold on. We all want you here. We all need you here. I was asked to do this. We all care that you are here and we want you to stay if you can. We won’t be mad if you can’t, but know that we all love you, and we won’t blame whatever choice you make
From: ABC
To: Alex
Date: November 4, 2020, 9:58 pm UTC
I secretly pretend to not pay attention to you when actually you’re all I can think about when you’re near me.
From: ABC
To: Alex
Date: November 4, 2020, 5:09 pm UTC
im not your first, but you are mine. and i will always be in love with you, unfortunately no matter what
From: ABC
To: Alex
Date: November 4, 2020, 10:30 am UTC
I think I was in love with a version of you I’d created in my head. It wasn’t you that broke my heart it was them.
From: ABC
To: Alex
Date: November 4, 2020, 10:17 am UTC
It’s really difficult trying to carry on here without you, I miss you. I know you don’t miss me though
From: ABC
To: Alex
Date: November 3, 2020, 5:58 pm UTC
I’m still in love with you. I want to be better for you. And even if you’ve moved on, I’ll come back.
From: ABC
To: Alex
Date: November 3, 2020, 5:58 pm UTC
I’m still in love with you. I want to be better for you. And even if you’ve moved on, I’ll come back.
From: ABC
To: Alex
Date: November 3, 2020, 2:58 am UTC
I told you how much I loved to cuddle, so you made aspirations with me and then left before we got the chance.
From: ABC
To: Alex
Date: November 3, 2020, 1:28 am UTC
Its all ridiculous and I won't put up with it. Running away sounds so reasonable and wanted. All I want to do.
From: ABC
To: Alex
Date: November 3, 2020, 12:11 am UTC
Just because you’ve removed yourself from me, doesn’t mean I have removed myself from you, I miss you AS
From: ABC
To: Alex
Date: November 2, 2020, 10:33 pm UTC
I didn’t love you in the way most here did. I loved you as a friend, and it hurt me every time you told me you were leaving me behind, but i had to smile and laugh it off. I knew eventually the day would come when you were gone from this world, i just couldn’t bear to think it. This is in black because although some people have connotations of violence with it, it always felt so peaceful to me, and i know it did to you You’re valid Alex. Ellie is dead.
From: ABC
To: Alex
Date: October 30, 2020, 4:00 pm UTC
you tripped me, i fell, selfishly
not taking u down with me
i wasn’t scared of the fall
i was scared when realized i didn’t know if you were going to help me up or walk away.
From: ABC
To: Alex
Date: October 30, 2020, 10:05 am UTC
please don’t give up on us again , I know i’m difficult to handle but i’m trying to better myself for you. I promise to be better, i love you and i always will.
From: ABC
To: Alex
Date: October 30, 2020, 2:03 am UTC
I’m sorry for not giving us a fair chance, and if I could I would repeat us a 100 times again just to feel alive again.
From: ABC
To: Alex
Date: October 29, 2020, 11:04 pm UTC
the piece of you i carry with me everyday is irreplaceable. we’ve grown in such different ways, in opposite directions and yet after all these years we’re still one of the same. the fact that someone can love me the way you have keeps me going even when nothing else does. i’m really proud to know someone like you.
From: ABC
To: Alex
Date: October 29, 2020, 6:58 pm UTC
there was always something i loved about you. you just made me feel so special when no one else could.
From: ABC
To: Alex
Date: October 29, 2020, 5:39 pm UTC
You wasted my time, money, love, good mental state, all for nothing. Over the stupidest shit. Over her. Them. For what? I meant nothing to you.
From: ABC
To: Alex
Date: October 29, 2020, 4:10 am UTC
hi alex. if this reaches you, i hope you know it’s me. i miss you, but you only told me you loved me when you were high. do you actually love me?
From: ABC
To: Alex
Date: October 29, 2020, 12:23 am UTC
Even after all the hurt you put me through, I still think of you everyday. I still love you. I always will.
From: ABC
To: Alex
Date: October 28, 2020, 5:57 pm UTC
You ask for honesty, yet I always catch you lying to me. Lying about small stupid stuff. Why lie and not just tell me the truth? It’s not that big of a deal.
From: ABC
To: Alex
Date: October 27, 2020, 7:30 pm UTC
Maybe I pretend not to feel anything special for you during the day, but as the dark falls, you’re all I need.
From: ABC
To: Alex
Date: October 26, 2020, 8:29 pm UTC
you're waiting for the right time to be with me but why can't we just go for it if we love each other?
From: ABC
To: Alex
Date: October 26, 2020, 7:14 pm UTC
You don't deserve me. I deserve better than you. I deserve someone that cares about me, not a selfish emotionless piece of crap. Fuck you. xoxo
