Unsent messages to ALEX

Thank you for showing me the ways I don't want to be loved. I know you tried your best. I hope you can better yourself for the next girl.

I think about you sometimes. I was going to respond to that DM I was just late. then it was to late. sorry there's so much we didn't say.

I still wonder why you kept lying and telling me you dont want to hurt me but still ended up hurting me in the worst way

it is to late for u to realize what u lost. now i am happy and i just want to stop fighting myself for u. pls let me live my life w/o u

I dont remember falling in love with you. I just remember holding your hand and realizing how much its gonna hurt when i would have to let it go .
But only if i knew it was gonna be the last time i held you
I wouldnt have lettin go .

hey mamas ily i miss the old days ngl but uh here we are :standing_person: but anyways if u find this uh, hey :weary:

ur very appealing, i don’t wanna like u, but i can’t stop myself from thinking about u. i wish i could say this to u. but i hope ur okay.

i like u.... n i want u to notice me more, i wonder if u feel the same.. ig well just have to find out :]

Do you think about me? Or does your brother just distract you and make you happy cuz I’m not okay I’m in pain everyday. I think about you everyday. I think about the conversation we had especially the late night ones cuz those mean something to me. I can’t get over you not this fast. If you do think about me then what do you think about? Do you think about how much I messed up or do you think about all the good things? I really wanna know

Okay look I’m sorry I really fucking am and I was gonna tell you but you found out and I know sorry isn’t gonna do anything. But I really am. But the one thing I wanna know is how’d you find out because imma be honest here I really was gonna tell both of you. Another thing I swear on my mother’s life that it was just you two. I don’t know why I did this or let it go on for this long and I won’t ever be able to forgive myself. And I’m pretty sure you won’t either but we go to the same school so we’re gonna see each other in the same class and if it goes back to being in person then we’ll see each other in the hallway and I don’t want it to be awkward and I don’t wanna live with the fact that I fucked up with someone who I actually liked so please at least try to forgive me one day and if not then that’s fine too cuz I’ve gotten used to living with the fact that I did this and I can’t take it back. But I really do wanna how you found out

I know it’s too late but I just wish you could hear me out because one I miss you and two I messed up and I’m at least trying to make things right so please can you just head me out. I wanna make things right or at least try to if you listen.

I don’t know what happened. Was I too busy? Are you even still alive? I think about you every now and again and I always straight up just feel regret. I’m sorry if I hurt you or maybe we just fell apart im so sorry . Will you see this? Will you ever think of me again? Or will I be a faded memory in the corner of your mind, will I be a distant dream,another life.

its been 3 years but i still think about the time we sat in the cold and looked at the stars. i hope ur still good at cod

I hate that you told me I meant nothing to you. All those words you spoke before were lies you said. How could you do that to me? How? What did I do wrong? How come you never let me fix things? I cared about you. So much.

you never knew i liked you, or i never told you, but i really did. you have this way of lighting up whatever room your in, and i wish you well.

i love you but im over you. thanks for teaching me that i shouldn’t be treated like shit. please take care.

I can't express how much you've hurt me. Despite my flaws I tried my best to be there for you and to help you and you shut me out. Sad to see that I was only temporary until you got a bf. I miss the times we had and I am so sad it ended. I hope you're having a great life...

Thank you so much for being my friend, I got feelings for you but I think it's better if we stay like this, I don't want our friendship to end, I'm scared you don't feel the same.

So here we go again... I still feel guilty, i thought i could do more but i couldnt, you cheated and i feel like i wont be enough for anyone, not even myself... And i dont know how to move on because i cant forgive me neither the fact that you already fall in love and are what i always wanted to have... I cant do it anymore, i really need to move on but i dont know how.

i love u so much it hurts but i dont think u know what love is and that hurts more. i want to be the one to show u how pure it is to be loved. please let me love you

Grow up. We can’t all stay here waiting for you to notice your flaws. They are pushing people away. Makes me feel like leaving but I won’t do that to you. But you need to notice. Don’t know what color can throw you off from knowing who sent this :/

The odds of existing are slim, so the odds of you and I existing at the same time is almost impossible and I think that’s beautiful. Maybe the universe does work in my favor after all because I got the chance to get to know you

I miss the days/nights we talked and our obscure inside jokes. You moved on long ago yet I still think of you.

you were my light. you were the only thing bringing me joy. you completed me which made me dependent on you. but you weren’t dependent on me. in fact, i was just a chapter of your long long book. even as you were talking to me, you still had your other girls on the side. i was not enough for you, yet you made me feel special so i ignored it. it was my biggest mistake. i wish i could let go, i wish i could live without you but you’re my happiness and my sadness at the same time. but i will try. i’ll try to forget you.

Sometimes you act like you care and sometimes i mean nothing to you. Please desace if you want me in your life or not

Im not over you, im over it. I miss you so so so much but youre not mine to miss anymore. Im afraid to move on because if you tell me you still like me i dont know if i would be able to say no. Please come back to me.
I miss you:(

I miss you. I should have broken up with J for you. I think about you every day, and I'll never have another experience like I had with you.

i completely understood and i know you won’t like me back, i just miss what we had, i’m not trying to flirt with you, if i say i want to play minecraft is because i want to play fucking minecraft.

but also i kinda hope you mean it when i said you were going to kiss me. lol fuck u

i wish i could tell you how perfect you are. your eyes, your face, your smile, your laugh, the little dance you do when you're excited. i wish i could tell you how stronly inlove with you i am. I don't know if you'll ever find these or read them. i can't get the night we spent together out of my head. the laughs we shared, the stories we shared. we were so vulnerable with eachother. seeing your guards come down softens me. i never knew you trusted me like that. I can't get anything you do out of my head. your voice never leaves my thoughts. i wish you knew how i felt. i wish you knew how much i cared about you. but I'm a coward. I'm a fool. I can't tell you this to your face. not now; not until it's too late to say anything. i just wish i could hold you in my arms, once and for all.

I just want to take the time back again when we started talking and feel the way that I used to:( ig it’s never gonna happen and I’ll be fine yk cuz I deserve it and this makes me feel like a pussy cuz it’s not something I should do but I’m really in love w you and that’s what makes it hard.The way that I just wanna text you again but I shouldn’t cuz I learned my lesson the last time.Alex,you mean so much to me and I wish you were mine and it hurts looking at our texts and looking at your stories and seeing all the girls you talk to and yk u talking about that one girl u like...I never wished this much to be someone else and u to show me the interest that u show everyone else besides me.I love you Alex even though you don’t feel the same way.I keep texting In here thinking that you’ll see this but the chances are very low and idk why I’m doing this cuz u don’t even give a fuck for me even if you see it.But have fun w them ig.

Hey Alex ik you won’t see this but I’m still in love w you even though you moved on after like a day after talking to me I still think about you and Im crying while texting this I just got so attached to you that idk what to do anymore like I just want you to be mine and u to just show some interest again but why is it so hardd?! Why can’t I just forget about you just like u did for me..I really wanted to leave you in the past and forget about you so I can start a New Year better than ever but I couldn’t I just cried all the time and I still do and I can’t imagine we are strangers again...do u remember when U said that I’m yours forever and ever?? Why did you lie so hard on that one...do u remember when u showed me how you looked like and u creased your shoes and you was like call me mr.crease?and then u was like my mirror is so dirty and I told u how to clean it and you did it?? I got more but I don’t wanna seem too annoying haha but the little things u did kept me alive and now just the thought of you makes me wanna die..I hope someone else makes you happy the way that I did idk maybe I didn’t cuz I think U played me all the time buttt godd I’m so in love w you that you don’t even know Alex..but ig in another life we’ll be together or maybe just strangers again..Goodbye I love you Alex and I miss you alottt please come back okay ??

If you told your mum what you did that one night she wouldn’t look at you the same, i know because neither did i

i’m still with you but sometimes i wish i could get away because you make me upset. i want to tell you but i just can’t

We kissed a few times even thought you were straight and we stopped being friends because I stood up against our other friends but I still love you and I miss our late night cuddles and being around each other

I'm so sorry, but I also love being your friend I hope you find unimaginable happiness and I want you to know how special you are

I miss you everyday it really does hurt but I do hope your doing well and living the best like you can miss you :(

why did you leave me, I loved you, you proved my point that everyone picks her over me, don’t pretend to care about me now... I can’t stop thinking about you, what did I do wrong alex...

I never told you I liked you but you chose her anyways so I don’t matter to you, but I still love you

It seems funny now that the way we showed that we lived eachother was by acting like we hated eachother.

Maybe one day we can finish our story. Do all the things we planned to do and all the things we promised. I hope one day we can be each other’s person again. You changed my life, things are hard without you. I wish I could’ve made you stay longer. Thank you for the best memories. In a parallel universe, our forever won’t end :(

Hey I just wanted to say I'm sorry. I got scared and didn't know what to do. You were so good to me. I hope you can forgive me some time.

what you did was really shitty, and the worse fact of the matter is i’d still love you no matter what you do.

As much as I wanted something to happen between us, nothing happened. I found my worth,and I’m moving on without u

i really like you. as much i am rooting for you to get another girlfriend deep down i know that im secretly hoping it would be me. just kinda sad because i know you dont like me back but i am happy for the girls that get to date you. im scared of rejection, so i would never tell you

I really did like you. But now I realize you’re such an asshole. I was so blinded and didn’t see how toxic you are.

i didn’t treat you right,, my mental health wasn’t great at that time but now all i want is a hug from you even though you hate me now. i’m sorry

hi. i don’t really know what to say but i think it’s safe to say that hopefully in another life time we’ll make it work. there’s nothing special about you whatsoever but i like the way you made me feel. i guess you were my “first love”. i hope we will be friends. i don’t think it could ever work again, but you’ll always be a very special person to me. thanks. “in another life time, loser”.

hi alex, i made you look up this website so u could read this, expose me idc. i miss being really close to you.. i miss when we had a close relationship but its shitty now, anyways love you. c:

I wish I could tell you without ruining what we already have. Im scared that if I do, everything will change

your hair has the most beautiful shade of orange i have ever seen. i fell in love with the fact that your eyes seem to change colors every day. i wish i had the guts to say “i love you”