i never loved you but i just wanted to say thank you. you saved my life and i wish i could tell you this. you're encouragement and general motivating attitude is so kind. you notice things no one else notices. no one would care if i left, only you. im staying because of you. i want you in every step of my life because no one has ever cared about me before, but it doesn't work like that. so thank you and as much as i hate this, good bye.