thanks for helping me enjoy my own company surrounded by the little things I wanted to enjoy with you

i wish you knew how much i liked you and for you to of stayed, i wish i knew what i did wrong, i wish it wasn’t just a saturday i was relevant to you, i did care about you and still do, i wish you gave me that chance

i wish you knew how much i liked you and for you to of stayed, i wish i knew what i did wrong, i wish it wasn’t just a saturday i was relevant to you, i did care about you and still do, i wish you gave me that chance

You can be so insensitive of my feelings but I can’t help feeling anything but love for you no matter how much you hurt me. I’ve never loved anyone more than I love you..

I know it’s too late but I just wish you could hear me out because one I miss you and two I messed up and I’m at least trying to make things right so please can you just head me out. I wanna make things right or at least try to if you listen.

you left me when i needed you. you broke me more then anything. but i still miss you so much bubs... come back please. i love you so much and i can’t do life without you

You were my first love and I will never forget all the feelings you made me feel including the bad ones and the good ones

Alex... I love you. I haven't told you yet. I think I'm afraid of becoming too attached. You're moving away soon. 726 miles. I don't know what I'll do with myself without you by my side. You're my soulmate, my ride or die. I didn't know loving someone could be so easy. I know we make each other so happy. You complete me. I want to spend my whole life by your side.

i still wonder if it was just the wrong time, or if we truly weren’t made for each other. the thing is, i’ve come back to you countless times. and every time, i’ve hurt you. instead of fixing it, i just ran away. every single time. but you never doubted me for second. even when i doubted you. but love, comes in many different ways. and well, we both have different ideas of it. unfortunately, all i can do, is say sorry

i wish you knew. i wish you knew how much pain you caused me. i wish you knew how much i missed you and how i would do anything for you even after you hurt me. i wish you knew i’m still in love with you. after everything.

Okay look I’m sorry I really fucking am and I was gonna tell you but you found out and I know sorry isn’t gonna do anything. But I really am. But the one thing I wanna know is how’d you find out because imma be honest here I really was gonna tell both of you. Another thing I swear on my mother’s life that it was just you two. I don’t know why I did this or let it go on for this long and I won’t ever be able to forgive myself. And I’m pretty sure you won’t either but we go to the same school so we’re gonna see each other in the same class and if it goes back to being in person then we’ll see each other in the hallway and I don’t want it to be awkward and I don’t wanna live with the fact that I fucked up with someone who I actually liked so please at least try to forgive me one day and if not then that’s fine too cuz I’ve gotten used to living with the fact that I did this and I can’t take it back. But I really do wanna how you found out

Howdy, it’s been a while huh? I miss talking to you. I miss that more than anything. I wish you would talk to me. I have so much left to say.

Do you think about me? Or does your brother just distract you and make you happy cuz I’m not okay I’m in pain everyday. I think about you everyday. I think about the conversation we had especially the late night ones cuz those mean something to me. I can’t get over you not this fast. If you do think about me then what do you think about? Do you think about how much I messed up or do you think about all the good things? I really wanna know

You hurt me and it hurt more that you couldn't see how it affected me. It wasn't complicated. I wish you would admit you just didn't want to be seen with me.

i miss when u lived next door and would drive me home and we’d have hour long conversations i miss u come back

i miss you. a lot. i wish my family let me be with you. i hope the next girl you meets gives you the world. i love you.

I will always love you, you were my greatest love. My heart will always belong to you no matter who I love after ...it will always be you Alex.

I'm sorry for causing another fight tonight when I was just trying to mess around :( ur an angel and I cant wait to see u soon

you deserve more. but so do i. there’s no way this would work. i love you. i hate you. love you. for always.

i did everything for you. i put my life on hold to make things work with you. and you up and left. leaving me in the dark.

you ghosted me with no explanation and it still hurts. it hurts that the first guy who ever liked me couldn't stand me after a month. no matter how hard i try to pretend i'm not bothered by it, it still hurt to see you so happy from a distance today. i still imagine what it would've been like if we were dating and you would take me out instead of always asking to "chill" at your house. i'm glad i never accepted those invitations and had much higher standards for how a guy should treat me. but i can't help but ask, what did i do wrong?

i like u.... n i want u to notice me more, i wonder if u feel the same.. ig well just have to find out :]

ur very appealing, i don’t wanna like u, but i can’t stop myself from thinking about u. i wish i could say this to u. but i hope ur okay.

Háblame de tus gatos todo el día si queres, amo ver que te emociones con las cosas que amas, quiero que seas así cuando hables de mi...

hey mamas ily i miss the old days ngl but uh here we are :standing_person: but anyways if u find this uh, hey :weary:

Yes Im fat Yes I'm ugly Yes I'm poor but you don't have to said stuff like that. You don't have to bully me EVERYDAY. Yes I do cut myself so what? I just want the pain to go away I just want to be loved by someone.

This is the longest we’ve ever been apart. The only time we weren’t apart was to sleep:( I miss you, you probably don’t. I love you and you’ll always have a special place in my heart but I think that I have to try atleast to push you down and try to let you go I just can’t keep feeling like this. You were my other half, my best friend. Thankyou for always being there for me. I think it’s time to move on now though no matter how much I don’t want to..

When you said you couldnt move to me, i immediately made the plans to get a ring and move to you. But you broke up with me the night i was going to tell you.

i dont know what to do without you, everyday feels empty. all i wanted was to get to you in person so we could start our lives together, i wanted to help you become the amazing man i know you are. and hell, even though it scared me so, you were the one i wanted to marry one day.

How could u steal my first real feelings for someone, you just manipulated me. Ur bloody 21 I’m bloody so young

Even though I met you years ago. I still remember looking back watching you play baseball and thinking that’s him, that’s the one

last night i had a panic attack and the only reason it stopped was because i held the necklaces you gave me

Chiar dacă nu am fost foarte mult timp impreuna vreau sa știi ca ai însemnat si însemni enorm pentru mine, sper ca intr o zi sa știi ce ai de făcut și poate atunci o sa ne întâlnim și îmi vei spune ca vrei sa reluam tot ce am avut de la capăt. Îmi e dor de tine, îmi e dor de tot ce simteam când eram cu tine chiar dacă viata a ales ca tu sa alegi alt drum. Vreau sa ți spun ca nu știam cum sa mi aleg cuvintele de fata cu tine, dar învățasem sa te iubesc mai mult decât ma iubisem pe mine. Ai fost și esti primul la care ma gandesc când pun capul pe perna și încerc sa adorm. Te iubesc, alex rămas bun

It's been just over a month, though we werent super close the pictures in my phone still make me cry. The thought of what your bestfriend feels breaks my heart, but we know you went out happy, living the life you always dreamed

I loved you for six years and i think you knew it the last time we saw each other, it will probably never come out of my mouth thta i love you but i hope you are well.

Fuck you fuck you 500 times over and over again I fucking hate you i’m trying so hard to stay you make it so difficult so fuck you

when you appear in my dreams i know i'm not awake, and i cling on that bit harder... it's been 4 years

i've written like 10 of these already.
i love you and i miss you.
i don't understand why you ignore me.
i guess thats whats best for both of us.

you'll never realize how much i love you. i love everything about you.. id do anything to have you back. you're the love of my life. until we meet again, loser❤️

When you came into my life I smiled more then I did in years, but ever since you left I cry whenever I see your name

I knew you lied about everything. To think you loved me was the biggest mistake of my life. I hope every time you see her, you remember she’s the reason you lost me forever.

to my first and last lover, i love you and you have no idea how much you make me happy, my forever love I love you

I dont remember falling in love with you. I just remember holding your hand and realizing how much its gonna hurt when i would have to let it go .
But only if i knew it was gonna be the last time i held you
I wouldnt have lettin go .

your hair has the most beautiful shade of orange i have ever seen. i fell in love with the fact that your eyes seem to change colors every day. i wish i had the guts to say “i love you”

i love u more than anything but you’re tearing me apart. im sorry i cant be here anymore. im so tired.

I thought I’d marry you. I’m happy I don’t need you anymore but it feels as though a flame was put out. A part of me wishes I still loved you.

dear alex, i miss you more than you’ll ever know. I don’t know how you did it, but you were my BEST friend and my boyfriend. I just want you back in my life again, i’ll take whatever i can get. you are unlike anyone i’ve ever met. We each wanted different things, i’m sorry i couldn’t put out like you wanted. I would’ve done anything for you. It took me 2 months to realize it, but i love you alexander. I hope one day God will put us in eachothers lives, and we’ll get married, have kids, live on a farm house, and you’ll raise our little boy named scooter to be a respectful young man. but if none of that happens, thank you for being in my life and teaching me lessons :)

i think i fell out of love 'cause you didnt care much about me
So i guess bye... im not interested anymore

You both created and destroyed my concept of love. Who was I to give you such power?never forget me...

I wish I could tell you without ruining what we already have. Im scared that if I do, everything will change