Unsent messages to ALEX

I get sentimental sometimes, sorry if the letter was weird. I hope you burned it. I’ll leave you alone now.

i told u i could never get over u and i never knew why u left. we promised that we would never leave, i guess we both lied.

I hope you know how wrong what you did to me is... just because I’m unconscious doesn’t mean you can have your way with me

Al, you’ve changed so much but for some reason i still have a little bit of hope you’ll come back.. i know you won’t but it makes me feel better. i’ll never forget everything you told me about yourself. like your favorite food is lobster or your favorite color is red. you were my everything. but you left. i’ve accepted it now. it just sucks because i thought we were meant to be...

thank you for helping me step out of my comfort zone. i know i can always rely on you. and i so love going to parties with u and we need to go to mooooreeee

I want you. I want you to raise my kids, marry me and love me. Just and only you. You’re perfect. Everything from your smile to your manners. I am so in love with you.

Dude, ever since I saw u I knew u were it. I love everything about you. Your hair, smile, laugh, goofiness. I am so in love with you. I don’t want anyone else. Only you.

You were my summer love, time passed and you kept going. I, I'm still trapped in July. Can't seem to forget you even though I have someone by my side

i still believe it’s you. i know you told me not to but i will because i believe in us. it’s right person wrong time.

I wish we stayed friends. I don’t think I will ever not love you. You will always mean the world to me even though we weren’t meant for each other. Don’t ever forget any of that.

you’re always on my mind. i miss talking to you. i wish i could just reach out, but i’m not sure if you’d want me to.

You made me feel something I’ve never felt before and now you’ve left I have this empty void that needs to be filled

I'm sorry if I ever hurt you.
I keep trying to write more but Idk what to say. U are an amazing guy, and there is some girl out there who is going to treat you so much better than I did. U deserve the world Alex and I'm sorry I couldn't give you that.

I love you in ways you would never imagine me to. You're on my mind all the time. I have to let go. I need to let go. I'm waiting on something that I know will never happen. You brought me out of my dark place and I thank you for that. You're the reason I'm still here. You mean the world to me, and you always will. I have to let go.

Sometimes I wish that I could have what we had again; I wish that we could love the way we loved again. I find myself hoping that someday we'll find our ways back to each other and we'll have the life that we had always envisioned and then I find myself wondering do he even think of me like that anymore? Did he move on and replace what we had with someone new? I sometimes feel that all the love that I could ever have was given to you and I don't regret that at all because If I had to pick someone that I loved years from now it would still be you, you will always be my person. As long as my heart beats I will love you with all of it. xoxo "your person"

I always have you on mind, I get so happy when I see you sc. Even though it wasnt that deep of a talk, you asked questions thats nobody has ever asked. And if things don't work out with us. I thank you for that. And p.s I always try to do what makes me happy.

dear alex, i miss you more than you’ll ever know. I don’t know how you did it, but you were my BEST friend and my boyfriend. I just want you back in my life again, i’ll take whatever i can get. you are unlike anyone i’ve ever met. We each wanted different things, i’m sorry i couldn’t put out like you wanted. I would’ve done anything for you. It took me 2 months to realize it, but i love you alexander. I hope one day God will put us in eachothers lives, and we’ll get married, have kids, live on a farm house, and you’ll raise our little boy named scooter to be a respectful young man. but if none of that happens, thank you for being in my life and teaching me lessons :)

I thought I’d marry you. I’m happy I don’t need you anymore but it feels as though a flame was put out. A part of me wishes I still loved you.

to my first and last lover, i love you and you have no idea how much you make me happy, my forever love I love you

It's been just over a month, though we werent super close the pictures in my phone still make me cry. The thought of what your bestfriend feels breaks my heart, but we know you went out happy, living the life you always dreamed

Even though I met you years ago. I still remember looking back watching you play baseball and thinking that’s him, that’s the one

I'm sorry for causing another fight tonight when I was just trying to mess around :( ur an angel and I cant wait to see u soon

i miss you. a lot. i wish my family let me be with you. i hope the next girl you meets gives you the world. i love you.

Howdy, it’s been a while huh? I miss talking to you. I miss that more than anything. I wish you would talk to me. I have so much left to say.

i wish you knew. i wish you knew how much pain you caused me. i wish you knew how much i missed you and how i would do anything for you even after you hurt me. i wish you knew i’m still in love with you. after everything.

i still wonder if it was just the wrong time, or if we truly weren’t made for each other. the thing is, i’ve come back to you countless times. and every time, i’ve hurt you. instead of fixing it, i just ran away. every single time. but you never doubted me for second. even when i doubted you. but love, comes in many different ways. and well, we both have different ideas of it. unfortunately, all i can do, is say sorry

Alex... I love you. I haven't told you yet. I think I'm afraid of becoming too attached. You're moving away soon. 726 miles. I don't know what I'll do with myself without you by my side. You're my soulmate, my ride or die. I didn't know loving someone could be so easy. I know we make each other so happy. You complete me. I want to spend my whole life by your side.

You were my first love and I will never forget all the feelings you made me feel including the bad ones and the good ones

you were the first person that i trusted the first to be let in the one that i trusted with everything and no you are gone.

I miss you everyday. You left me like it was easy, like it was nothing. And yet, I wake up every morning missing your smile, your laugh, your lips, your everything.

my ex best friend, i did nothing but good for you, and you left me behind for my ex. guess what? you're both my exes now. i don't miss either of you.

Right person, wrong time. You were so sweet and loving, I am sorry I wasn't my best. We will meet again someday.

hello to my first love. you were my first everything and I will always always love you. you truly are a blessing and I miss our hugs and cuddles everyday but I know we are friends now and I don't want to mess that up too

If u see this. I love you. I miss you. You were never 2nd. I just tried not to get hurt. Even packing today. He broke my foot bones. It’s not you. It’s him. Please.

i think about you everyday and still hope you come home to me- but i think i messed that up for us and i’m sorry

You were my first love and my first heartbreak i loved u sm and u didn’t even know i was so scared i just wanted to thank u for all u did for me i love u but i’m glad i’ve moved on

Take me back to the day we were watching white chicks at 2 in the morning, and eating chips. Enjoying each other’s company and laughing. I looked at you and was so in love, I never wanted that moment to end. I felt so loved by you.

i’m in love with you and i pray every single night that one day we will get married and have 2 kids and 2 dogs just like what you said.

Hey love, i’m sorry i never told you but i cheated on you, i will feel guilty about it every time i think about you till the day i die

It kills me to know you don’t wanna hear from me anymore but I miss you so much and I can’t tell u ever because Ik it would confuse you and I can’t do that too you but just know I love you too much to ruin your happiness ???

I’m so sorry things ended the way they did, I miss you so damn much. It hurts to know things won’t be the same ever. I will always love you. I always wonder how you are and ask people for you because I still care. I wish I could hug you and tell you that I need you as my bestfriend. Ik we didn’t work as a couple but your friendship is what I need. Alex, my first love I will forever carry you in my heart and know that no matter what happens I will always be here to give u my friendship and help u with anything. Ik you must hate me but I don’t hate you in fact I have so much love for you and one day I hope you can love me the way I love you. Te quiero mucho y siempre será así ?. I hope you achieve your dreams and know your capable doing so much more than you think. I hope you get everything you wanted in life. This is good bye for now but I hope one day I’m the future we can meet again??

I'm excited to see u, i don't know how u will react, but i really miss u, and i want u to miss me back

I love you and I always will. I long the day that I can talk to you again, even though you’re only a few seats away.

10 years on & I still can't listen to the songs we used to listen to... I still look for you in every other man I meet.. nobody is you!

You don’t feel the same as you did back then, but i do. I’ll always be ready to try again, if you ever want to.

fuck you, i hate you i really do, i tried and then you stopped i saw the way you looked at her. that hurt me.

When I say “love ya, bud.” I really mean it. I love you with all my heart, and I will keep loving you. Even if you will never see me the same.

There’s something about you. So talented, so beautiful, so special. I can’t hide it anymore. I love you. I love you so much it hurts. Es doloroso. Es muy doloroso.

I thought you would be the one. The time we spent together was perfect and there’s nothing you could do to make me hate you. I wish you knew how you look in my eyes.

you’re not my favourite colour anymore. you’re no longer one of the primary colours in my mind. you’re a secondary, if anything. my name is socks now, btw. i feel like you’d find that funny