Si tú estabas dispuesto a esperar por mí lo que hiciera falta, yo te esperaré toda la vida si es necesario

Fue una tontería pensar que de verdad alguien me podía preferir a mí por encima de a cualquier otra persona

Me rompió en mil pedazos que me dijeras cosas tan bonitas el día que me dejaste
Nunca te voy a dejar de querer

i put too many expectations on us and that's on me. but honestly we're so much better as friends and that's all that matters.

the piece of you i carry with me everyday is irreplaceable. we’ve grown in such different ways, in opposite directions and yet after all these years we’re still one of the same. the fact that someone can love me the way you have keeps me going even when nothing else does. i’m really proud to know someone like you.

I wish we still talked. I miss you. Some nights I lay awake and I swear you are beside me. You aren't.Call me.

I thought we truly had something. I also thought you cared. I guess I was wrong about a lot of things.

i cared more about you then i did myself. i will always love you until the day that i die even if you don't feel the same.

I’m sorry for not giving us a fair chance, and if I could I would repeat us a 100 times again just to feel alive again.

i can’t stop thinking, “what if things had been different?” but the only thing that needed to be different was us

You promised me you’d never leave, but you did only a week later. Would you have stayed if you didn’t meet her?

please don’t give up on us again , I know i’m difficult to handle but i’m trying to better myself for you. I promise to be better, i love you and i always will.

i’m really sorry i left like i did, nothing i said was a lie and i hope you find someone who deserves the amount of love you can give. i never did

you tripped me, i fell, selfishly
not taking u down with me
i wasn’t scared of the fall
i was scared when realized i didn’t know if you were going to help me up or walk away.

It’s getting bad again I just don’t know how to tell you because I don’t want to change but I also don’t want to lose you over this

ive finally let go. its over. im done. i love you but ive learned to love myself more. you had 4 years and thats it, youve lost your chance.

everday my mind tries to convice i no longer love u. i wish it was that easy. im sorry i hurt i truly never meant to

hey.. me again. things are getting harder everyday. i just want to know that youre happy. i know we had too much pain to care for each other. you hurt me. im traumatized. idk what to do anymore because i feel like i need to talk to you or be with you the pain goes away. idk. im tired of everything.

you’ll always be the most special person to me. you know that, right? in some way you’ll always have a piece of my heart.

I just wish things were different and you didn´t cheat on me with my best friend while I was in the same f.cking place

‪i wonder. if i broke your heart. or if it was so far away that i couldn’t have reached it if i tried. ‬i guess now i’ll never know.

Why? You were my brother now all you are is the reason I’m scared to intimidate with anyone. I was 6.

I miss you. Like always. Tonight though I’m thinking about how I wish you had come visit me. I wish you’d have met my family. I wish I could’ve had my perfect weekend with you. If you come back it’s going to be hard to trust you. But what would really help is if you came to visit me. That would show me that you’re in it for the long term this time. I miss you poohbear.

the past 7 months might've been a lie to you but they felt so real to me. fuck you for making me feel special then leaving.

i saw a post that reminded me of our friendship. its been a couple of years now, but i still think about you. kinda embarrassing, i know. i guess that goes to show how much you meant to me. i might have loved you then without realizing it, but i valued our friendship more than anything. miss you loser.

I don't know why I still think abt you. I don't like that I do. I hated you. But I still wish we were on better terms.

I miss our friendship, I understand why you cut everyone off but I really hope you were serious when you said that we’d be friends again one day. I miss how we’d joke around and talk every day, I’m sorry I became such an ass after I dated him, I’ve changed now, I promise. I’d welcome you back with open arms if you decide to come back.

i blocked you on everything but your number. i know you wouldn’t. but just in case. i’ll always be waiting by the phone for you.

i love you forever and more than you think i do, and i’ll always wait for you. i’m yours forever and until eternity, my love ?

Im sorry I didn't make it time. I couldn't run fast enough. you jumped and all I could do was watch your body be carried out of the lake. if only I had run a little faster

i wish i was still with you. i miss getting your hugs. i miss holding your hand at competitions. i miss dancing in the dark upstairs as if my parents weren't downstairs. i miss you.

I don't know if you're reading this somewhere but I really hope you are. Alex I really miss you. I'm never going to forget you. You're the closest thing I had to a relationship and I wouldn't change that for the world. People told me it was stupid to love you and although that could've been true, I did anyways. You left me alone in this bitch of an Earth and you expect me to be okay? You think I'm going to survive without you by my side? I finally felt loved when you told me that you liked me. I felt like I mattered to someone. I didn't care that I was just a rebound from my best friend. I didn't care because I had someone to love me and that was all I needed. But you left. You left me alone without even thinking about what I'd have to experience without you. I'm hanging on by a thread Alex and you left me alone. I miss you so much but I'm so mad at you for leaving me alone. Everytime I hear something that reminds me of you, I break down and I can't help but remembering you and the way you could always make me smile after the worst of days. I love you and I miss you Alex.

we're not dating but if we don't end up in this lifetime, I hope you know you meant everything to me

i cant even really describe what i have to say to you. fuck you. but also no, not fuck you. i don’t want you anymore but why can’t i stop thinking about you. you’re not who i thought you were. i guess i just wanted the person i made you up to be, not the person you are. but i feel like i do want the real you, but you’re also never what i imagined it would be like. no one else sees what i see in you. i’m trying to move on but i can’t. why? i hardly know you. why do i feel this way about you? what’s gonna happen next?

i still think about you randomly all the time for no reason, we only talk talked for a little bit, but the fact i don’t know why we stopped talking still stings

when you left, i understood the unique person who loves me completly and will do it ever is myself. Thank you love of my life.

It sucks to know I'm what you wanted but not what you needed. I'm sorry I ended things so abruptly but at the end of the day, it's better for both of us.

my friends tell me to block you, but your voice messages still being me comfort. even if it’s the same voice that said you had never loved me

i used to doodle hearts in my notes in high school when i thought of you. there’s pages and pages of them.

almost a year since i was last on here to write to you. except now im finally able to let go of you. i dont want to hold on anymore. i dont think of you anymore i havent in months but then i read an old note that reminded me i need to fully let go and now i can be happy without you always in the back of my mind. goodbye, i do not love you anymore

i wouldn’t say you were my first love but you were my first kiss. if i’m being honest you’re prolly one of the only guys i feel comfortable talking to and being completely open especially in our conversations. i don’t see us in a romantic relationship but i feel like i could always talk to you about anything. anyways go get those college girls you love lol

I was too much and you didn't understand. We weren't ready. I'm sorry. I will always be your safe space if you need me.

You really messed me up, I cant get the thought of you out of my head. But im second choice and always will be even though I cant accept it

I wish you tried harder. I wish you wanted me as I wanted you. I wish you saw the potential in you that I saw.

everyone tells me we are still in love after they see us with each other because ex's don't smile at each other the way we do.

im sorry for playing withy your feelings like that, i really am.i was just trying to figure out myself i didnt mean to hurt you in the process.

do you still think about me? do you still care about me? sometimes i wonder if i even want to let you go

Alex,
Ich kannte dich schon von früher, aber wir mochten uns nicht so gerne. Einige Jahre später jedoch haben wir zueinander gefunden. Wir haben angefangen jeden Tag zu schreiben und das fast jede freie Sekunde. Wir wollten uns unbedingt treffen, doch es gab die Ausgangssperre wegen corona. Ich habe mich bei dir geoutet und du dich dann bei mir auch. Dann hat es bei mir Klick gemacht. Ich liebe dich und das schon seit einer ganzen Weile. Als die Ausgangssperre endlich behoben wurde, konnten wir uns endlich treffen. Zu der Zeit war ich der glücklichste Mensch auf der Welt. Du hast mich zu einem besseren Menschen gemacht. Ich wurde selbstbewusster und du hast mich supported. Ich hatte das Gefühl du liebst mich auch... Aber im Gegenteil. Du hast dich so verändert, nachdem ich dir das gesagt habe. Ich hab alles zerstört. Es ist meine Schuld !

I love you. I wish so deeply I could be good enough. I wish I knew what was wrong with me. I’m sorry i’m not enough. I never am.

you were my bestfriend but things cant go back to that we both changed. i miss what we had besties forever. ill never forget about you like i promised. ever alex i love you so much ill do anything for you bestie. i hope you find your happiness.