hey. i don't really know why im writing this. I'm not sure what I want to get out of this, but never the less, here I am. I always seem to end up here. I think it meant nothing, but something about you pulls me back in. I haven't liked anyone in a long time. I think I got tired of it back firing. It's so pretentious to be like ugh im damaged. but bro you know as well as I do that my life is fucked up. I'm afraid that if I let myself like you I'm just gonna end up hating myself again. I barely got through that last time. I can't do it again. I know you of all people would understand that. I don't know how you feel about me, but I'm hopeful. I hope something good comes out of this. please let something good come out of this.