I try to find many posts on here with my intial but a lot of them end up being ones with hateful comments towards their person.

I then sink into my own thoughts and wonder if one of them are from you.

I'm nobody special after all, I have no talents, I don't think I was suppose to be born but still ended up premature.

Me being born made my mother believe in empty promises which all lead to the situation im in now.

My mother could have had a chance to redeem herself if only she never met that piece of shit.

She already has a son who fucked his life already and i'm not bout to go down that path.

I want to live a life where I can pay back my wasted living years by giving my mother her wishes.

2 years ago I was going to hand you 6 front and back hand written letters but instead burned them, you wanna know why? because I didn't want to look weird giving them to you out of nowhere. Even if I did give them to you, you still wouldn't have been able to understand me.

If I do kill myself one day, I wonder what your reaction would be. Probably just a blank expression and you'd move on with your life quickly,why? Because to you I'd just be someone you used to know lol.

Idk what i'm even saying at this point, i'm tired of trying to figure out what kind of person I was to you.

I don't understand why I think about you every day.

I just wanna dissapear and be a dog in my next life so I can wag my tail all day and have nothing to worry about.