Unsent messages to E

How do i know were not just in the part of the movie where everyone is waiting for us to get back together?

I don't know why my mind keeps replaying moments had with you. I wish we could just talk everything through but instead you won't even answer my text. You made a promise, why can't you follow through with it.

You like her music now, you don't listen to the music you used to hear with me anymore .It feels awful

jebem ti mater :)
kako si me samo brzo zaboravio a ja mislila ima nečeg izmedju nas. Kako sam samo naivna.

remember when i wouldn't stop talking about frogs to you? and you drew me a picture of them? i still have that picture.

i miss you. i miss telling you about my days and my life and you eagerly listening. i wanted to help you, i could've. but in the end, you chose yourself over me, so i hope you're doing better. all i ever wanted was for you to be happy.

How could you tell me that you were in love with me, but then tell me you fell out of love two days later.

Hi, i want to say that you really hurt me. But i still seem to care about you no matter what. I hope you know what you did, and you somehow, still care about me.

i’m glad you just wanted to be my friends bc life would have been hard without you as a friend by my side

Please just move on before you get hurt. I don’t want to hurt you but I just can’t feel anything idk what to do.

everyone says you're bad for me and I know you are. but I still want you and I know you want me back. stop being a pussy

your the first girl ive evr loved. It hurts to know you wont be the last because you dont even acknowladge me.

i loved you with my all hearth and you fuckin play with me I waited 3 years for you but you didn't give a fuvk and dated other girls I hate u but love you at the same time u jerk

i wish i didnt break up with u but i just wanted what was best for u even tough it didnt seem like it.

I know we both fucked up. We are both older and more mature. Give me another chance. Could we at least talk about it maybe? We haven't in years.

Phew, there is s a lot of shit to say. I loved you with my whole body for the first time and you gave almost nothing back. You weren't enough for me and I tried so hard to convince myself you were. All you had to do was try a little.

I miss you so much I wish you hadn't left, but I trusted you with my body and you took advantage so I guess it's for the better.

i wish i hadn’t loved you so hard. then maybe it wouldn’t have hurt so much when you stopped loving me back.

why are things going so slow? is it normal, is this how a "real" relationship works? are we actually in love? why don't we show affection more often.. i think it's my fault; i don't understand romance.

I'm so sorry this happened. I'm so worried about you. I didn't mean for any of this to happen, I just hope you're ok :/

Hey, I’ve liked you for a very long time, like most of my life and idk if it’s love or just me having a long ass crush for u but I really do like you. Maybe if we actually hung out we could be closer friends since you haven’t seen me in a long time. I really miss you e. I miss you calling me by my nickname. I miss you teasing me. I miss our casual talks. I miss
you and I think I maybe love you...

you will never know how much you mean to me. you are the stars and the moon you are my whole world. i miss you

you were my first love, my everything. you made me wake up happy and fall asleep happy. the first breakup was my fault. she made me do it. and i wish i didn't cause i feel like that was the downfall of our relationship. we got back together after i realized your the one for me. my soulmate. but then summer hit after 6th grade. we were off and on all summer. we were finally of before 7th grade. we went to orientation and i saw you standing there. we took a look at eachother and i looked away quick. i couldn't bare to look at you. my love. my only. the one that hurt me. but then you text me after orientation. you told me i looked beautiful. that you missed me. and we got back together. we were dating for a couple months and.. you left me. out of nowhere. you said you caught feelings for her. it broke me. she was my bestfriend and you just left me for her. it broke my heart. i couldn't stop thinking of you for the next few months. then you text me. you told me you still had feelings for me. that you wanted to get back together. we were talking for a couple days and then you just... ghosted me. i can't tell you how much all this hurt me. and you didn't even care. the sad part is that two years later, you are still on my mind sometimes and i hate it. but the thing is, you could text me right now and say you want me back and i would go back to you. i will never give up on us even though you already did. i still love you e. i wish you would come back.
love, the one you broke.

I know you tried to cheat you scummy f*ck. I already didn't care about you but now I fucking hate you. Ahaha

i hope you know how much pain youve put me though. why would you keep that from me? i miss you my friend.

what happened...where did it go wrong. hope your doing okay and I hope you finally believe inyourself. realize that your smart and are capable of anything. I know you want to succeed for you mom, but succeed for yourself to. as much as I hate you for what you did, I still love you. im here if you ever need anything or just need someone to talk to. I regret not being there for you when uu needed someone to talk to. I loved the way you prioritized me, but I couldn't do that for you. I was scared but I realized what I lost. I miss your laugh, smile, jokes, and hugs. I have so much to say to you but we can never converse. I miss you the way you looked at me and would tell everything will be okay. I feel as if your the only person ill ever love, and I hate it. you would always support me and thats what made us close. we experienced similar childhoods so we understand each other. thats whats rare between us , finding someone who attempts to understand us. I wanted you to open up to me so bad. all I wanted was you to confide in me. we had this fascination of being married and having a family. I hate marriage and somehow I wanted it with you. you made me smile on my worst days. I made you laugh when you wanted to end it all. one question though, did you cheat this whole time? if so why didn't you tell me. I hate it that I cheated to but I feel as if we both know we did. we had hope for us somehow and I want to know why. I thought I was changing you . you were changing me you made me trust someone which was you.i thought you were different but who knows.

Even though you never felt the same, I will always be there for you. No matter what happens, I will always care about you.

Just because I wouldn't sleep with you after the first month, you cheated. Why? why her? did you finally get what you wanted? you came back too, i missed you so much and then you came back and i learned what kind of person you were. my friends saw me at my lowest point, and so did my parents. you didn't just break my heart you broke theres. but i should've known. i love you forever E...

you pinky promised me you would stay and you said you weren't like the rest, huh i guess you lied. sad.

You never wanted to improve yourself for me, no matter what we were going through, but right when it ends, you change yourself in every single way for her...

why did u leave me? did i drive u away? i miss u so much. u were supposed to stay. i was supposed to take care of u. now u act like nothing happened. like u didn't do what u did. u call on my bday every year and u make it hard for me to love or hate you.

do i hate you or is it that i love you so badly it makes me wanna punch you. you left so long ago yet you're still in every tear i cry, every song i sing and every dream i dream.

Hey I just wanted you to know I'm still heartbroken. I love you as a friend well now, but how could you? You promised me you would pick me. Everyone always picks my best friend. Why am I always a second choice to you eyden
xoxo fuck yourself

i wish you could of understood what i was going through when we were together so i could have cared for you and myself more. i wish we were still together but sometimes it hard to look after others when you dont know how to look after yourself. im sorry for breaking you, but i do that to everyone and everything. How is a broken things meant to repair something they damaged.

My love for you can fade but never leave my heart, I always promised you that and I never break promises especially when it came to you. But I knew u wouldn't keep urs I'm sorry I wasn't the short skinny girls u flirted with during our relationship.

You never knew how much i cried bc i knew telling you my feelings about what you did wrong would make you leave me.

i know people get mad at people for leaving, but i had to. you weren’t healthy for me. i’m still waiting on you to keep your promise about changing. i’m only still waiting because you’re proving it. you broke my heart, yet mended it every time.

we are best friends. i really like you but i know i’m not for you even though we flirt sometimes and you say you miss me and want to cuddle me & called me hot, i know you don’t truly want me...

Every part of me wants to forgive you...but every time I think about what you did to me, I start to hate you again.

I think I'm over you but sometimes I catch myself laughing at a joke you once made. I miss you, why wasn't I enough?

I wish I could tell you how much I hate you. I can't blame anyone but myself. You took so much from me including my happiness and self love. I can't look at myself anymore without feeling your skin against mine. I wish you would've listened when I said no and stop. I wish I never fell for you.

I still know that you love your sister more than anything on this earth and you wouldn't do anything to hurt her and you admit it but I know it

Sad to say I miss you, I hoped we would've lasted but we both know that wouldn't have happened. It sucks when we make random eye contact, I wish we could just be friends but you obviously didn't want that or else we'd be friends right now. Purple was both of our favorite color and now when I see it I always think of you. I really do wish we could genuinely be back in each other lives because no matter how crappy you treated me I still really do care about you. I'd never admit that to you though because I know you would manipulate me and make me feel like crap all over again. Part of me still has love for you but the other part of me hates that the love for you is still there. You used me but since you never got what you wanted you just left. I do know that you lost a bad b ;)

u know i really loved you like so much it really hurt when u left i acted like i didn't care but i did i cried myself to sleep every night i miss you so much and i with you would come back.

I'm sorry that I left. Just because I was going through something mentally doesn't mean you deserved to be treated like shit. You will always have a place in my heart, please forgive me.

I’m going to mess it up some day i just know it. Maybe it’s the overthinking getting to me but. Sometimes i feel that my feelings are stronger than yours and it hurts me

today i have decided to let you go. i know that you will remember our memories for the both of us. thank you.

there are just certain songs that will always sting to listen to. it doesn't even matter if i know you don't know it, sometimes just the feeling a song gives me makes me think of you. i miss you so much, i hope you are happy

We met in 1st grade and I can still remember when I saw you for the very first time. I think about you everyday...

you taught me what it meant to love by showing all the things love isnt, and all the things it has the potential to be. im never gonna forget you bub