Unsent messages to E
From: ABC
To: E
Date: January 1, 2021, 9:20 pm UTC
i love you i’ve always loved you and it’s this love that consumes me and i just don’t know how to tell you
From: ABC
To: E
Date: January 1, 2021, 7:57 am UTC
I still listen to your voice messages when I miss you. I miss you so much. I hate that I can only tell you how I feel through the title of the playlist I made you. I'm so sorry. Please come back. I love you more then anything
From: ABC
To: E
Date: December 31, 2020, 7:14 am UTC
Why do you pretend everything is how it used to be...when all you’ve done is put a bandaid on a bullet wound?
From: ABC
To: E
Date: December 30, 2020, 1:41 pm UTC
The day I gave away the stuffed animal that you gave me — that’s when I knew I was starting to let everything go.
From: ABC
To: E
Date: December 29, 2020, 3:17 pm UTC
i know this might not mean a lot to you or it might be cringe but i’m so happy i became friends with you it’s honestly one of my best decisions you’ve helped me so much and you’re the nicest person ever and i wish i could help your problems and fix them ik i’m not the best with advice and i hate what you go through but i’ll always be here for you and i’ll never leave okayy you’re my bestest friend and i wouldn’t ask for anyone better tysm for everything ily
From: ABC
To: E
Date: December 29, 2020, 2:03 am UTC
I really love you but you leaving me for a boy and making more time for him rather then your bestfriend really hurts. Someday u will understand
From: ABC
To: E
Date: December 28, 2020, 9:18 am UTC
honestly you wont even look my way twice which hurts really bad eden. im just your hobby that you come back to every couple weeks. worst part is that i look forward to it. why wont you just say something.
From: ABC
To: E
Date: December 28, 2020, 12:18 am UTC
I gave you so much of myself I didn’t know who I was for a long time after, I still don’t regret a thing
From: ABC
To: E
Date: December 26, 2020, 3:12 am UTC
I still think about how I had your Christmas present all planned out, but you left me before we even reached December. I was going to drop it off at your house but I decided not to. I have to let go.
From: ABC
To: E
Date: December 25, 2020, 9:55 pm UTC
I had never thought that one day I will write to you anonymous messages instead of talking directly with you
From: ABC
To: E
Date: December 25, 2020, 2:24 am UTC
I ran away but I still find myself thinking about it
I loved you but for you I was just an one night stand...
From: ABC
To: E
Date: December 24, 2020, 5:49 pm UTC
I miss you and I know you don't miss me but I don't even think you're the same you that I miss so whatever
From: ABC
To: E
Date: December 24, 2020, 2:39 am UTC
I really try, I try to get you out of my mind, as much as I repeat that you are not mine, my heart understands otherwise
From: ABC
To: E
Date: December 24, 2020, 1:40 am UTC
Timing never makes sense but honestly I wish our time was different because you were the right person
From: ABC
To: E
Date: December 23, 2020, 11:26 pm UTC
you showed me how to love myself and know my worth and ig it just wasnt the right time for us but i hope one day we talk again
From: ABC
To: E
Date: December 23, 2020, 6:13 pm UTC
I was my best self around you and I'm sorry for being so scared. Things have not been easy since we ended. I hope life is being kind to you. You are such a shining light. I love you always.
From: ABC
To: E
Date: December 23, 2020, 5:06 pm UTC
Conditioned, moulded by you to be your perfect girl. Behaviours stamped out of me. Now I am this way, I don’t remember what I was before.
but it was never enough for you to stay
From: ABC
To: E
Date: December 22, 2020, 11:39 pm UTC
I would’ve done anything for u. Sadly, u wouldn’t have done the same. Hope ur happy with her now, i miss u more than u know. pls come back.
From: ABC
To: E
Date: December 22, 2020, 5:51 pm UTC
i miss the old you. our friendship is falling apart. honestly you are being toxic towards me and getting so obsessed with your own world of money and self absorption you have no time to listen to me. it’s like you just don’t care. i want us both to be happy again. if anyone who even sees this can relate, i hope u feel better soon. x
From: ABC
To: E
Date: December 22, 2020, 6:44 am UTC
why did you have to try to reach out to me again? now i can’t stop thinking about you. i can’t sleep. i just want to turn off my mind.
From: ABC
To: E
Date: December 22, 2020, 6:42 am UTC
i hate that i miss you. i hate that i can’t stop thinking about you. i hate that i might not ever be fully over you. i hate how i overlook the bad. i hate how i get attached so easily. i hate how i secretly hope that you still reach out even though i said i needed time.
From: ABC
To: E
Date: December 22, 2020, 5:12 am UTC
You still fucking piss me off. Abandoning your friends for a boy when he was teh cause of most of your problems. I tried being a good friend to you but all you did was lie and ignore us, and for what?
From: ABC
To: E
Date: December 21, 2020, 6:39 am UTC
i still think about you almost every day. i wish you knew the person i am today. i don’t think I’ll ever get over you. i hope you’re well.
From: ABC
To: E
Date: December 20, 2020, 2:23 am UTC
I think of you every night. I miss you. I just want to be in call with you like the old days and talk about the most random things like we use to.
From: ABC
To: E
Date: December 19, 2020, 10:18 pm UTC
i loved you once very much, and perhaps i still do. i used to want to hold your cheek against mine and your hand too. i would have died for you. twice if you'd said please. you helped me grow, too. watered me and cheered my little leaves on as i stretched towards you, the sun. and maybe i was in love. you aren't as magic anymore. it doesn't feel as magic when you message me, and i swear sometimes we walk in silence. that never used to happen. i can't seem to remember how you smell, or the feeling i got when i first realised how handsome you were. pointing out pastries in a cafe window. but some things can't last forever. and it aches to think that i used to write that i loved you eternally because it was true then and perhaps just as so now. what hurts is that i hoped i didn't and i really want to ask you to leave, although maybe i wish you wouldn't.
From: ABC
To: E
Date: December 19, 2020, 7:48 am UTC
We don’t know if we’ll last forever but I know that I want you in my life forever and I never want to lose you.
From: ABC
To: E
Date: December 19, 2020, 5:14 am UTC
I will wait for you, because that's what people do when they fall. but. I wish I knew if waiting is the right thing.
From: ABC
To: E
Date: December 18, 2020, 10:32 am UTC
never knew I could fall for someone as much as I did you. I hope we cross each others path again more than anything because i'm selfish. Someday you'll realize how much I loved you, maybe i'll be there, maybe I would've gotten tired of waiting.
From: ABC
To: E
Date: December 17, 2020, 11:48 pm UTC
I have so much love for you and I dont understand why it had to happen to me if nothing happens in the end.
From: ABC
To: E
Date: December 16, 2020, 9:34 pm UTC
I knew you were the one the second you threatened to choke out our ceramics teacher under your breath
From: ABC
To: E
Date: December 15, 2020, 7:08 pm UTC
why did you give up on us so easily? was everything a lie? do you miss me like I miss you? and maybe the most important question, did you ever think twice about how much pain you would put me through? Did you realise how many months it would take me to be okay with the fact you left, or didn’t it even cross your mind?
From: ABC
To: E
Date: December 15, 2020, 5:27 pm UTC
You broke me. I hate you for what you did. I hate that I would still take you back even if you came back..
From: ABC
To: E
Date: December 15, 2020, 3:15 pm UTC
I miss spending time with you, I miss looking into your eyes and kissing you deeply. I miss your laugh and the way your heart was beating faster when I was close to you.I hope you miss me too.
From: ABC
To: E
Date: December 14, 2020, 10:40 pm UTC
hi!!!!!!!! hi hi hi hi
i made one for u so STOP saying theres none here
i love u lots! ur my fav friend ever and i love hanging out with u
you deserve way more then what ppl treat u and u are so much more special than u realise. i genuinely don't think I've ever met someone that I've been so similar to before
u are so kindhearted and amazing i could write way more about u but just know u mean so much 2 me
From: ABC
To: E
Date: December 14, 2020, 10:31 pm UTC
I'm scared im gonna loose you soon.. I'm sorry i can't help you more. I'm really trying but im bearly holding myself together. But i really hope you will stay even a lil longer. I don't wanna loose my only best friend. I have only you...But i will never hate you for leaving me. I will hate myself for not being able to do more for you..
From: ABC
To: E
Date: December 14, 2020, 6:12 pm UTC
We both knew it,but we never said it. I’m sorry i left,I didn’t want to. I was selfish. I love and miss you more than anything.
From: ABC
To: E
Date: December 14, 2020, 5:23 pm UTC
i love you more than anything else in this world . everything is so so so hard without you . im so so so so lucky to have you in my life . every second that im away from you feels like straight up hell LOL . im sorry that im bad at showing it sometimes ,, but you mean everything to me . you make me laugh and smile more than anyone else could . youre so patient and you never make me feel stupid . and you make me feel like im worth more than my body:,)) . i love you so much !!!!!! forever and ever !!!!!!
From: ABC
To: E
Date: December 14, 2020, 5:11 pm UTC
I got a butterfly tattoo on the day we met. We talked about chaos theory for hours. I hope you are well
From: ABC
To: E
Date: December 14, 2020, 2:11 pm UTC
You have no idea how much I dream about us, crave us, and pretend that there is an us... when you only want me for my body.
From: ABC
To: E
Date: December 14, 2020, 2:11 am UTC
you promised me you would stay, you left and took the last amount of happiness i had left. i still love you despite being told i’m supposed to hate you and that i should’ve moved on. we used to stay up talking all night, i ruined my sleeping pattern for you and now while you’re sound asleep, i’m awake wondering where i messed up. you saved me though, you’re one of the biggest reasons that i’ll be celebrating my birthday next week. i know you’re gone for good now and as much as i want you back i’ll let the universe take control now. you said we’re soulmates we just can’t be together right now so, let’s rely on the future, okay? we’re right person wrong time.. we’ll find eachother again.
i love you 3000.
From: ABC
To: E
Date: December 14, 2020, 1:36 am UTC
late night drives just remind me of wasted times with you. you turned a good memory into a forgotten regret.
From: ABC
To: E
Date: December 13, 2020, 9:56 pm UTC
I hope one day you’ll come back and ask me if I still want you. I will say yes because I missed you so much. So much..
From: ABC
To: E
Date: December 13, 2020, 9:55 pm UTC
I loved your brown eyes so much. Now I can’t see you anymore but that’s okay. You gave me up. As always.
From: ABC
To: E
Date: December 13, 2020, 9:53 pm UTC
It was my fault.I should be honest about my feelings but I was afraid that one day you will leave like everyone else
From: ABC
To: E
Date: December 13, 2020, 7:25 am UTC
I'm sorry for not being more. I'm trying, but this is always the last thing on my mind. I know things will probably end soon but I don't think I'm going to do anything about it. I'm sorry for not trying more, you deserve someone you makes an attempt. I'm just not that person. And I'm sorry for not being able to say 'I love you' in a way beyond platonic, even though you haven't said it either. Love seems so strong and I don't know if I can feel strongly about anything honestly. I'm sorry we only get the more important information secondhand from friends and I'm sorry that it's always just a bit off, I know it makes everything more confusing. Maybe that's why it feels alright to leave, I feel like I don't know anything in the first place. I guess I should've talked to you about this, though, instead of putting it here.
From: ABC
To: E
Date: December 13, 2020, 5:32 am UTC
How can I describe you? I've never met someone like you until now... you are so perfect I crumble beneath you, my knees growing heavier at your smile... oh. my. God. that heavenly sight brings me peace... when I am around you all of my pain goes away... just the thought of you brings me warmth. flawless is how I would describe you
From: ABC
To: E
Date: December 12, 2020, 11:07 pm UTC
The moment i realized that i was falling for you is the exact same moment i started falling for myself. You make me feel something i have never felt before.
From: ABC
To: E
Date: December 12, 2020, 11:04 pm UTC
I just want to tell you how much you mean to me. You have no idea how much i care about you and you will never know.
From: ABC
To: E
Date: December 12, 2020, 10:51 pm UTC
you introduced me into music, and when i used listen to that one playlist i used to think of you. now i think about what could of been us. imy and ily.
From: ABC
To: E
Date: December 12, 2020, 10:29 pm UTC
i think you’d either be proud of who i am now or maybe you’d hate me, even more than it already feels like. I did love you, a part of me still does and always will but I just can’t run back when i know you’re gonna hurt me again :(
