Unsent messages to E

I saw your last pictures. You looked radiant, and healthy. Idk if you truly are, but your arms and legs have no scars. I'm so proud of you.

Odio como yo quise terminar las cosas de una buena manera, siendo madura porque de verdad habías sido importante en mi vida y vos simplemente tenías que arruinarlo, una y otra vez, dejándome con la mala sensación a mi y vos siguiendo como si nada.

not a day goes by where i don’t think about you. it’s been months since we broke up, but i am still so infatuated with you. my heart still skips a beat every time i see your name in my notifications. i can’t stop thinking about everything i could have done for you. i can’t move on even though i know you’re happy, even though that’s all i want for you. i’ve found happiness without you, but it’s just not the same. i love you so much, and i think i always will because you never broke my heart. you made it full, in a way it never was before. you repaired every piece that was taken from me from the people i thought i loved before you. you showed me what true love felt like, and i’ll never be able to repay you for it. you’re everything i’ve ever wanted wrapped into one perfect person, and that’s why you’ll always my first choice. i waited too long to meet you, and didn’t even scratch the surface on all the things i wanted to accomplish with you. you’re the love of my life, it’s always been you. 

i miss you a lot and i don’t know how to say it. i’ve loved you since eighth grade. you have no idea. you probably don’t even like girls. i’m sorry.