Unsent messages to E
From: ABC
To: E
Date: September 25, 2020, 8:08 pm UTC
I know it hurts you imagining me being with someone else fuck, I know it drives you insane. On the daily, I can say I feel the same when you use another body that isn’t mine.
From: ABC
To: E
Date: September 25, 2020, 3:20 pm UTC
Why am I acting like this, oh right because it’s what you do and I try to be like you I’m so obsessed cryface bullsht
From: ABC
To: E
Date: September 25, 2020, 3:11 pm UTC
Which clinically insane psychopath will be in my yard tonight it’s a guessing game but I’m suggesting the one that starts with B just the same as the night before
— “aw she thinks it’s __, cute“
From: ABC
To: E
Date: September 25, 2020, 3:04 pm UTC
I’m dealing with two literal clinical insane psychopaths and a child that thinks she can sit in my yard for some odd reason ?
From: ABC
To: E
Date: September 25, 2020, 2:49 pm UTC
You had always called me a manipulative bitch but I guess we both know that’s all you are surrounded by.
From: ABC
To: E
Date: September 25, 2020, 2:39 pm UTC
I’m grateful for the way you protected me.. ahah everyone is right you are a piece of ?, opps bless my language
From: ABC
To: E
Date: September 25, 2020, 2:18 pm UTC
I’d say it would suck but truth is that you sucked the last of my soul out so I’m currently not feeling much
From: ABC
To: E
Date: September 23, 2020, 10:00 pm UTC
”How in the world would you know all these private things about me?”- ”A”.
”Ughhh, I’m going to kill her.” -”Wait, you know A??”
From: ABC
To: E
Date: September 23, 2020, 2:41 pm UTC
I have literally no idea what is going on here. But I know that I love you. Can you just make this easy?
From: ABC
To: E
Date: September 23, 2020, 5:24 am UTC
Your parents used to get me gifts for my birthday. I’ll be 18 soon and in some ways it’s crazy you won’t be there for it
From: ABC
To: E
Date: September 22, 2020, 5:59 pm UTC
you were the only person i spoke to on the phone in the hospital that made me feel understood in my darkest moments. i will always wait for the day that you could be mine and be the one for me. i am so deeply in love with you, and admire you more than anyone i’ve ever known. be mine.
From: ABC
To: E
Date: September 21, 2020, 9:44 pm UTC
sorry i snap sometimes and im sorry i pushed you away. You still cross my mind when i listen to fool. I love you.
From: ABC
To: E
Date: September 21, 2020, 8:57 pm UTC
Sometimes when i think of you i feel sick, sometimes i dont. I guess I still love you no matter what.
From: ABC
To: E
Date: September 21, 2020, 8:55 pm UTC
i thought we was gonna be dancing around the kitchen at 2 in the morning listen to music and baking cookies but you don't even feel the same i need to let you go but you always end up back into my life:
From: ABC
To: E
Date: September 21, 2020, 2:34 am UTC
I love you with my entire heart and I know you love me. But I’m scared if you find out who I really am, that love won’t be enough...
From: ABC
To: E
Date: September 20, 2020, 7:15 am UTC
I think were so scared to become strangers that the day were not happy anymore, our fear will be the only thing holding on. I want there to be more between us than fear. We deserve so much more.
From: ABC
To: E
Date: September 19, 2020, 4:15 pm UTC
I should’ve known that you and her were together while you and i were. i wonder if you two sit in the bed the same way we did.
From: ABC
To: E
Date: September 18, 2020, 3:51 pm UTC
you aren't my first love, you're one of my first best friends. you only come back when I want to leave. Once I come back you leave and move on. I want out of this friendship because this isn't healthy for me and I need to move on. But I still care about you and don't want to hurt you but it can't go on like this. You hurt me without noticing and you're shredding me apart.
From: ABC
To: E
Date: September 17, 2020, 11:34 pm UTC
today was the first time I read an unsent project post, without thinking of you... but of someone else. I felt happy.
From: ABC
To: E
Date: September 17, 2020, 6:28 pm UTC
I can't believe it's been 5 years. You're my soulmate. I know we will find a way back to each other. I love you
From: ABC
To: E
Date: September 17, 2020, 5:45 pm UTC
I knew right from the start that whatever we had was going to end. it was like waiting for my favorite ice cream to melt.
From: ABC
To: E
Date: September 17, 2020, 5:33 pm UTC
I told you i wasn't going to leave you and you should've trusted me. now i don't know how to talk to you.
From: ABC
To: E
Date: September 17, 2020, 6:35 am UTC
I should've told you how i really felt but i was too scared to be honest. You're the best thing that has happened to me.
From: ABC
To: E
Date: September 17, 2020, 6:31 am UTC
I was too overwhelmed with everything that i impulsively ran away. I know that was dumb thing to do. i'm sorry.
From: ABC
To: E
Date: September 17, 2020, 6:25 am UTC
I know i suck at expressing my feelings. just know that you're the only person i wanna spend the rest of my life with.
From: ABC
To: E
Date: September 17, 2020, 12:51 am UTC
Writing this feels weird, but seeing you again made me miss you. I want to go back to before I messed up everything, but you deserve better. Please promise me that you'll find happiness. I will always love you. I'm sorry
From: ABC
To: E
Date: September 16, 2020, 3:21 am UTC
idk what happened with us, you're very hot and cold. I miss you so much but I know you'll come back soon... you always do
From: ABC
To: E
Date: September 15, 2020, 12:55 am UTC
My heart still races every time I see your name. I hate you but I can't imagine my life without you in it. Come back.
From: ABC
To: E
Date: September 15, 2020, 12:50 am UTC
I still wonder why our bond broke... where did we go wrong after that one night. I miss you more everyday.
From: ABC
To: E
Date: September 14, 2020, 5:59 pm UTC
You are my Soulmate. My other half, the one i belong to.The only human that understands me & the only one i wanna be with. I realized it to late. sorry
From: ABC
To: E
Date: September 14, 2020, 3:25 am UTC
I was doing great, until the song you dedicated to me started playing and it remind me how I truly believed every word.
From: ABC
To: E
Date: September 13, 2020, 11:31 pm UTC
this is brown because it reminds me of your eyes and my hair after you ruffle it playfully and your paintings that you refused to believe were beautiful. it reminds me of the hot chocolate that you drank as you looked me dead in the eyes and smiled and it reminds me of how much i love you and how much of a dork you are
....
let me kiss you. just once.
From: ABC
To: E
Date: September 13, 2020, 9:57 pm UTC
our memories will last a lifetime. i’ll always love you, you’re family to me. i never meant to hurt you and i wish i could take all the pain away.
From: ABC
To: E
Date: September 13, 2020, 8:16 pm UTC
you did the right thing, and i am sorry. i just hate that all of a sudden you act like you were the only one in pain. you're free now, but i never will be. i'll miss you
From: ABC
To: E
Date: September 13, 2020, 1:04 am UTC
I love you. Not platonically, I should have told you when I had the chance. I just wish I had said yes in that bar.
From: ABC
To: E
Date: September 12, 2020, 7:52 pm UTC
Please stop spam calling me everyday. You know this so what I wanted, so why can’t you fucking respect that.
From: ABC
To: E
Date: September 12, 2020, 9:57 am UTC
I don't know how to deal with this. I can't take it. My heart can't cope with this change of reality. I'm so lost. I think I saw someone losing it, dealing with just a small chunk of what I'm waking up to. I'm almost tempted to make the whole thing go away again.
From: ABC
To: E
Date: September 11, 2020, 7:05 pm UTC
I still see you in every star, I still feel what it was like lying with you on our little spot. Because even though you hurt me, you're still the only thing I want in this world. The only thing keeping me here
From: ABC
To: E
Date: September 11, 2020, 2:32 pm UTC
It still hurts to think that you just disappeared on me like that. You were the first person to make me feel alive. I hope you're out there. I hope you've gotten help. I'm sorry it couldn't be me. I'm sorry that I failed you. I'm better now. I'm loved.
From: ABC
To: E
Date: September 11, 2020, 7:18 am UTC
I search my name here every few days, reading through them to see if you could have written any. I save any that could be from you.
From: ABC
To: E
Date: September 11, 2020, 4:30 am UTC
You told me you cared about me to sleep with me and I slept with you hoping you would care about me. Didn’t work
From: ABC
To: E
Date: September 10, 2020, 10:02 pm UTC
Wished we could have lived in the same city.... Instead we live a thousand miles away from one another....
From: ABC
To: E
Date: September 10, 2020, 6:26 pm UTC
Mierda, me estoy hablando con una española y utiliza las mismas expresiones que vos usabas. Me dan ganas de llorar.
From: ABC
To: E
Date: September 10, 2020, 5:25 pm UTC
I visit you in my dreams and it’s warm. But then I wake up and life is cold again. Why can’t I move on? Why does it always come back to you?
From: ABC
To: E
Date: September 10, 2020, 9:45 am UTC
i dreamt of you last night. I hadn’t thought of you in a while and to see you in my dreams last night just made me realize that maybe i’m not doing as well as i thought. Maybe I’m not over you. I still love you. I think I always will...
From: ABC
To: E
Date: September 10, 2020, 9:09 am UTC
i think about u everytime, and i cant stop it. ive never felt something like this before. u’r different...
From: ABC
To: E
Date: September 10, 2020, 5:55 am UTC
i won't ever get the same love from you again
and i guess that's okay.
it just wasn't the right time for it.
From: ABC
To: E
Date: September 10, 2020, 1:35 am UTC
i remember leaving the first date thinking that there was something special about us. i spent each car journey home from those next dates knowing it. come back for me, won't you?
From: ABC
To: E
Date: September 10, 2020, 1:03 am UTC
I wish I could talk to you more. I know you'll never like me like that, and I don't care. I just like being with you.
From: ABC
To: E
Date: September 9, 2020, 1:12 am UTC
I wish you can feel what it's like...hearing you fuck her every night after you say you still love me.
