Unsent messages to LUCAS

I try to hide my smile whenever I’m see you as I don’t want you to think I’m obsessed. But my heart leaps whenever I see you

Te mereces a alguien mejor que esa persona que ni te valora y es más tóxica que una central nuclear solo se enamoró de ti porque le prestaste atencion, por la desesperación de que su crush le odiaba ella se obsesiono contigo.

hi you probably don't like me and that's fine but i just want you to know that i very much like you and i cant contain it anymore you just make my heart melt with you smile and i hope you can consider me as someone you can trust and potentially a girlfriend i love you very much and ye have a good day

That 4th of July was the best day of my life. It was like a dream that’s the first time I’ve actually felt alive in awhile.

lol I like you but I feel like you don’t want to put in the effort and that makes me sad also cut your eyebrows please and you’ll be ten times hotter not that you arnt right now or anything but just saying for the future you know lots of love xx

hey, i know you said i could always talk to you when i'm not doing good. i'm really not doing good. i need help.

Look I genuinely don't know why I like your bitchass but I do. I just wish you would look at me instead of her. Our timing has been so bad and we can never get it right, but one day I really hope we will. You're one of my best friends and I love talking to you all the time and being together would be amazing because I truly think we could work. I just wish you felt the same again.

You pulled me out of my depressive state and put me back into it, ik i shouldn’t keep wanting what hurts me most but i do. i want you. I want you to want me back and love me how you used to. everything was going so well, why’d u break my heart? Everything was going how you wanted it, so why’d you end it? I have so many questions yet the most important one that’s been on my mind is why wasn’t i enough to settle with, to be with, to have around? I was so good to you. I was there when you needed me, i was there just to be there, i was so kind and caring to you, i loved you more than any other girl could, yet that amount of love and comfort wasn’t enough for you ig, i only want the best for you, forever and always, i hope you make up your indecisive mind on what you want, i hope you know i’ll always be there if you need me. i’m one txt away and id drop it all for you if you ever want me back even tho ik i shouldn’t want what only hurts me in the end. This hurts so bad writing, the tears flowing from my eyes onto your hoodie that i still have, i hug it tight wenever i miss you tho most at hard times. this hurts me rn so bad, i love you Luke. I love everything about you. I love your blonde hair, i love you stupid eye glare when you’d look back at me, i love your smile, i love your laugh, i love you taste, i love you bluish greenish colored eyes, i love your touch, i love everything you do, I love you.

fuck you I fucking hate you for the first time in like 3 years I started to actually like someone I started to truly care for someone but you fucking ruined it youre a dick why do you gotta do that why did you have to stop, stop trying, stop talking just stopped everything.

Me abias pedido que sea tu novia en 6to grado y siempre quise decirte que si pero tenia miedo y solo quiero que sepas que te quiero y que algún dia encontraras a la persona ideal, con tu alma gemela (o algo asi :v) con la persona que quieras pasar el resto de tu vida y cuando la encuentres nunca la sueltes (quiero decir que nunca la dejes no que no la sueltes literalmente xd) amala cada segundo, y sobre todas las cosas jamas dejes que ella este triste :'D

You broke me, I believed you liked me back but instead you got with another girl and ghosted me. Thank you for teaching me about people not being as they appear.

hi lucas, i really wanna reach out to you. i miss you. everything reminds me of you. i hope you're doing well.

i try not to talk to you anymore, for my own good. but i still look for you in everyone i meet.
i miss you a lot.

I really wish that I understood what it is I want from you. Your an amazing person and I know that one day you would make a great boyfriend even husband but it isn't to me. Your my best friend and sometimes I wish I never even meant you. I spent my whole life waiting for you and now that I have you I've come to realize that I don't know what I was waiting for? I have everything and more that I wanted and could ever get from you. Your really good to me but sometimes you get under my skin and really make me uncomfortable or something. Idk... It's confusing but the one thing I do know is amongst all of my bottled up and unknown feelings I don't want you in the way you want me. I don't want anything more than a friendship and the thought of you askiung me out scared me. I might come off as a "I really like you and want to be with you" but truth be told I don't I don't wanna be with you other than a friendship and I know how bad t would hurt you top hear. I'm sorry? I'm sorry that I opened a door just to slam it right back in your face...

I like you but not in that way im sorry ive only known you for not even 2 months and i honestly think im bisexual- not to lie out of all the places you could have confessed, you did it on among us in a private server. I will keep the screenshots for proof that it did happen. Also, I'm ugly asf. if your falling for me you better get your standards up. no hard feelings tho

You don't see the good in you that I see. You have always been the one for me I just wish you realized that sooner.

If you find this hi lucas Mal...I wish you weren't so afraid of not being enough. I wish we could have been something but now we don't really talk. Its okay I know you like her you don't have to tell me I know. I wish you would love me like I love you. You made me get help when I didn't want it but I needed it but now you won't get help when you need it most. I love you forever and always as you always said.

i miss you. thank you for everything. i hope you are doing okay. i know youre moved on already. i hope youre happy without me now. i wonder if im still on your mind, or if i ever even cross your mind. i wonder if anything reminds you of me. i wonder if you wish to go back in time and change what you did. i wonder if you wish you would have tried harder. you left me broken. im trying to cope with it all, its pretty hard. its been two months since we ended, still feels like yesterday. idk how much longer i can handle this. but if your okay and happy, then so am i. i miss you.

You have been on my mind lately more than usual. I hope all is well with you and your family. I don't know why I can't let go, we didn't even know each but I feel connected to you. Maybe we'll reconnect again in this life or the next but for me, please be happy. P.S. Sorry for letting go so easily

i wish you fought for me. after everything you've done to me i would still chose you every time but you wouldn't even chose me the time that mattered most.

it’s hard to hate you, i wish i could hate you. i wish never liked you in the first place. but i did and i think i still do. i’ll always be there for you no matter how much pain it causes me. i wish you would have noticed me and how much i loved you. but you just looked away like i was nothing. i cried for months over you. you sent me mixed signals and now we’re friends and we pretend all of it never happened. but every time i see your stupidly cute i’m reminded of it. i love your smile and your voice and the way we tease each other. i can tell when you’re sad and i can tell when you’re happy. i love when you play your guitar. and when you had girl problems i was the one helping you no matter how much it hurt but i just wanted you to be happy. why couldn’t you be happy with me?

i wish you would have given me a chance. i know i’m not the prettiest but i would’ve done my best to make you happy. i’m glad we’re friends, but a little piece of me still loves you more than a friend, and it hurts.

I'm still not sure whether I love you as just a friend, and it kills me inside. You've been my best friend for forever, so I guess that would make it awkward? I know it sounds weird, but I still can't decide whether you're just like a brother to me, or whether I REALLY do love you. I'm sorry. We never even got a chance to try. I don't think you're the one for me though. As much as I try to convince myself you are, you aren't. You're selfish, have a HORRIBLE style, have horrible friends, and just aren't my type of person? I don't even think you're my first love. I've never loved, and that's a hole in my heart that needs to be filled

My first love, we met when we were young and grew apart when we got older. when I sent you that text I wished I would have said "let's wait a Lil bit longer until we can become a thing". I wish I didn't let you go so fast and that I didn't push u away. I hope you know I didn't call it off because I was bored, or tired. I did it because we were so young!!! The last text you sent me was "I will always miss you." has that changed? I get it we go through changes and we meet new ppl, but just know I can never forget about you. ever. recently we have talked but u didn't seem into it, tbh it hurt a little. what seems to be your new girlfriend, she is very pretty. she is so so so lucky she know present you :) I wish I knew the present you too. but I only know the past. I wonder how much you have changed, I know I have. I am more reserved tbh, a little less outgoing. Anyway, I miss you so much I think about you when I read fanfic AND IT SUCKS. if that not love then what is. my favorite memories with you was when we went to this art museum in LA. First, you were playing with this random-ass baby on the train and my heart was so swollen, it hurt like heck to smile. :) then you bought me Argentina chocolate even tho I didn't like it and you still offered to buy me another. we stood side by side with each other the whole time. You can never fail to make me laugh. ughhhhhh I miss you so much. i don't know how much I dream of you and what we could have been. please come back to me when your ready, I will always be here. always.

Hi you are the first guy i have ever truly loved and still do. You may not know of my dark past but you saved me from making a horrible decision. Just talking to you raises my mood and when you compliment me my self esteem sky rockets. I know im a clingy girlfriend its just that losing you would totally crush me. I need to. You are the reason i am still here today. I wish I could send this to you but it would just make me seem pathetic. I want to talk to you and tell you all my troubles but i would hate to be a burden. I dont want to put my bad thoughts on you and ruin your day. As my boyfriend i am not your biggest focus i need to stop wanting you to text me back immediately and let you live your life. From my point of view you have a perfect life with great friends and being really smart. Im surprised you picked me out of so many other girls. I dont even look that pretty, im on the chubbier side, i have hairy arms and legs and always look like a wreck. I love you so much and much more than you realize. I hope we will stay together for many more years to come and hopefully after that. You complete me and i dont know what I would do without you. Anyone who reads this I would like to say this man is the first out of many to make me feel special and even though we’ve only been dating for 9 months i want it to never end.

i miss you alot but ik you aren't the one for me and you need to learn to treat a lady properly before anything else.

Dear lucas,
If you ever see this I have always been in love with you. I just wish you would see it and not run from love all the time.

You still are my love. Thank you for giving me the world in any possible way. you never fail to make me the happiest girl ever. You showed me what a true relationship is and i'm so happy with you. I love you bubba

hi loser, i kinda hope you see this but at the same time I hope you don’t, I made this ur favourite colour...I wish you cared enough to learn abt the stuff I like the things that make me happy but only I care about that stuff for you I wish you truly cared if I was okay I wish we would talk again but I guess it’s all my fault I shouldn’t have ruined our friendship I’m sorry.

i think I started to like you. but I know it would be better off if I left you alone I’m sorry for being like this I know you aren’t you going to see this since you don’t go on these type of things but thank you for always making me smile you truly make me happier. thank you bro.

You look at me and joke around with me all the time I don’t know when I caught feelings for you but I know your too popular and don’t like me back so yeah

Aún me sigo preguntando que es lo que no te atraía lo suficiente de mí. Todavía tengo muchas preguntas, pero la más importante es. ¿Realmente sentiste algo por mí o simplemente fui un objeto al que querías tener primero que otros para sentir tu hombría aún más fuerte?

No supe manejar la situación. No fui lo que esperabas. A veces pienso en que hubiera pasado si yo te hubiese dicho que te amaba también. Solo tenía mucho miedo de sentir eso.

Te odio por ser un cagon de mierda , pero me hubiera gustado intentar algo , pero aveces pienso en vos y te extraño ?

No sé que me faltó para hacerte feliz mi amor, talvez ella era mejor lo entiendo. Siempre lo entendí pero estoy segura que no te va a alcanzar el amor que yo te daba al lado de ella, no porque me crea mas. Si no que no recibes tanto amor las dos veces. Ella solo te usa

I dont want to be 'just friends'. I'm still in love with you. I miss being with you. Of course I said we could be friends. That's because I can't lose you. But I'm in love with you still.

You knew what you were doing and still didn't care enough to think about my feelings. You ruined us and man, I really fucking hate you for that.

you mean alot to me like you literally dont understand. every time i see you, its like im complete. though you cant see my smile because we have to wear masks, its there, always when we're together. i need you in my life. you give me a purpose so please dont leave.

you're my first love. i wish i could tell you how much you truly mean to me. our memories will last a life time. thank you for always making me smile. i'll love you forever. even if you don't know, i'll tell you one day i promise.

you gave me the worst heartbreak and we didn’t even date. have fun ?racism and homophobia is an illness and i hope you get worse you fuck

oh shit bro it’s almost our three months I’m glad my body is so petite and frail imagine having two children to the one moron

I hate that I think about you every day and you don’t think about me at all. I hate that you made me think I ever had a chance with you. I hate that you told me you liked me but you didn’t know if you actually wanted anything with me. I hate it because I would never do that to you. I give you so many chances and every time you break my heart. I hate that I can’t stop myself from forgiving you just incase you have finally changed. I guess I just hate that I don’t hate you and I don’t think I ever will.

i know falling for you was always going to hurt me in the end...i just didn’t think it was going to end so soon. i wish you knew how i felt about you, it would make everything so much easier. i just want you so badly, but i know that you can’t force happiness. i love you, and you’ll never know it...

You were my best friend & my first true love. When see u, I still wish we could try again. If you see this know, I’ll always love you.

I know i hold love for you, but when will it feel right. Maybe this time ill be able to see myself the way you do.

We still talk sometimes, but other days it’s like I don’t exist. We don’t have enough of a consistant enough friendship to have a real relationship but I wish we did.

hey honeybear. I love you always even if we're apart. I will always choose you. Please come back to me

i regret everything. i regret telling you things and trusting you when you can’t even hold a promise that you’d be there when i need you. we had so much in common and we had a genuine and real connection.... i’m angry at the outcome but what did i expect? ur first love will always have ur heart.

i am going to miss you so much. you meant so much to me, but it’s time to let you go. I never got to say it but: i loveD you

you have someone new now and we haven’t spoken in nearly a year. i wish I didn’t tell you that you can’t be in my life anymore so many things are happening for me that i just wish i could tell you about. my dreams are coming true and i can’t tell you about them anymore. i hope she brings you so much happiness because that’s the only thing getting me through losing you to someone else.

I still hate you