Unsent messages to LUCAS

hey! i really wanna talk to you more and by more i mean like almost all day and maybe even all night but uh idk how you feel and i don’t want to bother you. we stopped talking for a couple weeks and i was trying my hardest to stop thinking abt you and one day i did.. then you messaged me. i love you.

You never deserved me. I hope you change I miss talking to you. You are an awful person and I never understood why I still want you. Maybe it's for the best to let go of you.

ah,,, en realidad nunca sentí algo por ti, me daba mucha pena seguir rechazandote y sé que estuvo mal, pero era para hacerte feliz...

hey, is your sisters favourite movie still cinderella? tell your mom i miss her breakfasts. but not more than i miss you, i’m so uncontrollably in love with you. it’s you who i’m supposed to be with. no one can convince me differently. i’ll see you in a different lifetime loser

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anyways

if you can find a way to contact me, please do.


lol

i'm probably gonna keep submitting to this for a while lol
i really miss you- ik its only been around two weeks since we last talked, but im pretty sure this is the longest ive gone without hearing from you,.,.,.
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n e ways

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you’re genuinely the best person i’ve ever met hahah, it really sucks that we cant talk right now, but hopefully ill see you soon. me and angel are planning on heading to the skatepark to check up on you this Saturday . i love you :)

I hate you, but at the same time want you in my life. I know we both are with new people, but I will always hold a special place in my heart for you.

Me gustas demasiado pero no se si estoy preparada para una relacion y no quiero que pierdas el tiempo conmigo cuando tienes a muchisimas chicas detrás

I've liked you for a long time now and I don't understand why you don't like me back even after flirting with me for so many years :)

im so happy we broke up. we didnt do shit. and ur ugly. you cheated on me. i know it. lolll. kiss my bum.

Why did you ask to see me after a whole year has gone by? Tell me you messed up and that you want me for real this time... or else I’m not seeing you. I won’t put myself through this again.

I love you so much. I love your dark brown hair and your green eyes. I love the way you hold me when Im feeling down. I love the way you love me. Ive never met anyone like you. You mean everything to me. Even if we we break up one day it will always be you. I will always want you Haha

todavía mantengo mi palabra y te sigo esperando, a pesar de que me dijiste que me alejará y que vi que ya estás buscando a alguien más; nunca te lo dije pero eres mi primer amor y espero que algún día podamos volver a intentarlo para poder decirte todas esas cosas que no me atreví, te quiero y te extraño demasiado

all i wanted was you, but now you’ve changed so much that i don’t even want to talk to you. only so my last memories of you can be the lucas i learned to love

I always hope I will see you again. Ive always thought u were cool but I never said shit. you seem happy so im glad! anyways, adios amigo

I had a dream the other night you forgave me. I’m sorry I hurt you so bad that forgiveness isn’t a possibility.

Thank you for showing me what love felt like, even if it wasn't mutual. Although I may never know why you broke my heart, know that I only carry good memories of you. Be yourself, cause there's no one like you.

estoy 100% segura q tu fuiste y serás el amor de mi vida, aunque ya no estemos juntos. perdón por haber cambiado y no haber luchado por nuestra relación :(( cuanto quisiera poder intentarlo de nuevo :( te amo mucho

I've loved you so much, so fast... But you didn't love me back as much as I ever did. Have a good life with her. I'm done.

i wonder what you wrote on that letter. it would be so easy for me to just check.
we'll find out in a few years.

we hung out yesterday. i forgot how easily we connect, how natural you are.
you are still what i want.

I think I will always be in love with him.

It's the kind of love where, I wish it was me that got to watch him smoke cigarettes in the cold.

Or hold his hand while we walked in the rain.

But I'm okay if it's not. I'm okay seeing re-plays of you in my mind.

I'm okay reliving the memory of you singing Arctic Monkeys, with that look on your face.

That look.

That look that made me forget everything.

That made me feel like I was sinking.

That look that made me realise I'd love you forever and that I was screwed.

Just as long as he is loved fearlessly, I am okay loving him from afar.

I miss you, I wish I could tell you. Be happy, because you are incredible.

I don't exactly know how you feel about me, I know you like me as a friend, but I know how I feel about you, I love you, I love your energy and your imperfections, I know you don't have to be perfect, but you'll do for me, again, I love you, even though love may be a very strong word

why do you hate me? why wouldnt you give me a chance, sure im not your "beautiful dream girl" but it hurts seeing other girls hurt you. i know i could have treated you better.

I wish I had the guts to tell you how much I love you, knowing we feel the same but too scared to tell each other.

Creo que explicar los sentimientos que tiene alguien por su amor es algo complejo, siempre me ha gustado escribir; pero hay veces que no he plasmado todo como para satisfacerme. Creo que el amor es algo subjetivo, y cada uno tiene sus lenguajes del amor. Pero sé que el mío es a través de letras, aunque me cueste. Nunca llegué a pensar que tú me harías sentir tanto. Dudo que lo leas, y si así lo es igualmente no me responderías, porque siempre fuiste muy reservado con tus sentimientos, y frío.

Supe de mis sentimientos por ti cuando nos distanciamos. En verdad espero que todo te vaya bien, quiero que seas feliz. A veces me siento confusa en si dejarte ir o no, en todo caso seguiría estando feliz, porque mientras tú lo seas me da igual si estás con otro alguien.

You had me in pain for a while, but I'm still so in love with you and I forgive you, though it may still hurt me.

still miss u
I’m so sorry
I know you’re happy now, maybe found someone new, but i still miss u so much and i think about u everyday
Te amo zito
Desculpa ser assim

Te ame tanto que ahora me duele, te ame tanto que te puse en cima de mi para hacerte feliz y poder ser tu amiga y no pensarte todas las noches antes de dormir pensando que podriamos tener algo sin afectarnos, te amaba tanto que no fui capaz de entender que tu no sentias lo mismo, eras mi mejor amigo y se supone que me cuidarias pero no lo hiciste, hiciste todo lo contrario.
No se si sigo enamorada de ti, no se si quiero seguir sintiendolo, no se como sentirme cunado te miro por que claramente ya no siento lo de antes, espero que lo entiendas.
Con amor, M.

Hey there ! Lucas, my first true love... who broke my heart. At first time, did you know that you made me cry all the tears I has in my little body ? For the first time in my life I wanted to die because of someone. Then, my friends were here for me, then my friends helped me a lot, and it's only thanks to them that I am here alive. However, what you did is unfogetable; in a bad way of course, but also in a good way because nox thanks to you I am stronger , thanks to you I grew-up a lot, thanks to you I had a hudge glow-up. I am just so sorry for you because you didn't change a thing about you... You're still this little asshole I was with... I loved you more than everything. Now, I love myself more than everything. So thank you for this experience. I'm not thinking about you anymore.

I wouldn't wash my hoodie for the longest time because it smelled like you. The sad thing is that I doubt you remember that it was even this colour.

La vérité n'est pas compliqué à dire. Si seulement tu avais expliqué ce qu'il n'allait pas on aurait pas rompu. Mais maintenant quand j'y pense, j'ai rencontrée une personne formidable qui me fait vivre et vibrer, qui me fait exister. Je pense donc que tu n'etais qu'une phase et qu'on devait se séparer afin que je rencontre cette fameuse personne avec qui je me sens moi-même. Je ne te cache pas que cette coupure brutale m'a affecté et cause encore des effets sur moi en ce moment, je ne te cache p

hey, its been a while. hope your doing well. i see you around school sometimes and we make awkward eye contact but to be honest i miss you. you were a great guy and i wish that could have happend when we were both more mature. i truthfully did love you.

I can't even express how perfect being with you makes me feel. I am terrified that I won't feel that way with anybody else.

I’ve opened my heart for the first time ,and then what ? you made me close it again but now, full of pain

maybe if not for the fact we hadn't quite grown into the kind people who knew how to love it would have been better

you've left and it's my fault. i broke your trust. and now i'm alone. i'm so sorry. will you ever forgive me? i love you

i will always love you. do you still eat cereal with every meal? do you and your mom still have breakfast for dinner every wednesday? god i miss her. but not as much as i miss you.

im sorry im hurting u right now and i hope there will be a time for us when we're older. i feel myself falling for u too but i just need some time. either way i'll love u always.

u made me feel something i never felt before, what we had, whatever u want to call that wasn't much... but it mean't a lot to me and i don't know why. but u moved on. i haven't. i will one day, but u will always own a piece of my heart. there's something about u. but im getting tired of waiting for u. waiting for u to like me back or snap me, or give me a hug when i see u. i've watched u love other girls, and yet i don't believe our chapter is over. it was over a long time ago and a part of me wants to staple in more pages to keep writing, another part of me knows that we are out ink. i miss u everyday... last year u were the first boy to ask me to dance, my first kiss, my first everything. our conversations were dumb and stupid. but we were both different people then. a maybe just maybe u think of me at the same time i think of u. it's taken me a while to pin point the reasons i can't let u go, but i figured that out. the way ur mean to everyone but me, the way u smile melts my heart, and when i look into ur stupid eyes i don't want to look away. maybe the chapter is over... but what if the ur in the next? what if the next chapter is us again, but better, the storm lifts and everyone can come out of the homes, what if we aren't really over. i got attached to u and i will wait for u. while i wait i might talk to other people, kiss other people, but it will always come back to u. i don't want to have to let u go, so please, tell me u feel the same. tell me u want to spend the rest of ur life with me, only me. kiss me in the rain or in the middle of the skate park in front of ur friends. facetime me whenever u can, call me just to hear my voice. screenshot my snaps so on the nights we don't see each other, u can give me a kiss goodnight. do all the things i'd do if u still loved me. if u ever did love me, or that was a lie. i lost u a long time ago, but u will never ever lose me. i know i have to move on, and that i'm just a friend to u, but it breaks my heart that i might have to let u go one day. whatever happens, i love u.

its been a long time but i still search for your face in a crowd, hoping to get just a glimpse of what home used to be.

I really did love you yanno? im sorry things came between us. I know youll never talk to me again but I still havent stopped thinking about you. How many months has it been? I miss you.

I hate you... so much... you break my heart and my confidence. I loved you but you don't. go fuck yourself. What you did you me... I still blame myself.

i always loved you, i never told you but i always did and i think i always will. you’re perfect. you’re talented, you’re smart, you’re funny and you’re the first guy who i ever really considered my best friend. i miss you more than anything but i know you don’t miss me. i really wish i would’ve just kissed you on one of those train rides. who knows maybe if i did things would be different right now.

I hated how you controled me, how you could make me cry without using word, how my disire for your attention grew and grew. I was on a leash and you didn't even noticed it...

i fell out of love. ik that we decided to be friends but i just don't know how to talk to you anymore. it's not the same

sometimes i still think about if we actually would've worked out. and it pains me to think that you are happier with her

I know you wont ever see this but im sorry for ruining things between us. I hope life treats you good. I miss you.

That 4th of July was the best night of my life. It felt like a dream. We did fireworks together. I love you and miss the little things like that.