If you find this hi lucas Mal...I wish you weren't so afraid of not being enough. I wish we could have been something but now we don't really talk. Its okay I know you like her you don't have to tell me I know. I wish you would love me like I love you. You made me get help when I didn't want it but I needed it but now you won't get help when you need it most. I love you forever and always as you always said.