I wish I didn't ruin things between us. No matter how many times I apologize I know it will never change what I did. I just wish that we could be more, but I know that will never happen.

I didn't notice that you were my first love, but now I see you’re the last. It is even better. Thank you for wait until I realized it.

You were the one who begged me to try again. Why would you do that and then cheat on me the whole time

if i had asked you if we could be friends right after our break up, everything would be so different and i wouldn´t feeling all the pain i feel now

i dont understand what happened, all of you just left me right in 6th grade. everyone did, i had no friends and had to make new ones. i wished we wouldve stayed friends but that didn't happen i miss elementary school when we all used to hang out, what happened? why?

Remember when I promised to never stop loving you?. That wasn’t a lie I still love you with all my heart..

if harry styles didn’t tell us to treat people with kindness... man would you have seen my true colours

Sometimes I think I'm doing good but then I think about how much better I could be doing with you. You left me with no warning, no explanation, leaving me to wonder and beat myself over the fact I will never know why I lost you, my best friend. How could you be so okay without me?

lucas!! this is a fucking sign !! it’s me :( please come back into my life and hold me and let’s laugh and kiss :( i hope u see this and know it’s me !! :(

hey honeybear. I love you always even if we're apart. I will always choose you. Please come back to me

You always thought you were a little too good for me. You’re the reason why I don’t invite anyone over anymore. Not because I want you, but because you made me ashamed of who I am and what i grew up with.

i miss u sm i thought about u at the store and froze. it numbs my whole body and i have to wait a little while to start up again. my little heart will always have a lucas shaped hole in it.

i know we’ve had some problems before but we’ve gotten through all of that and i think that’s what makes us so perfect for each other (if that makes sense)... we’ve gone through so much together and i know we’ll get through even more! words cannot describe just how perfect of a person you are. i wish you could spend a day looking at yourself through my eyes, i’m sure you’ll realize just how in love i am with you :)

i like to lay in bed and look out the window and hope that one day you'll come back and we'll have our happy ending.

uh well I honestly wonder if you miss me do you miss talking to me or have you completely forgotten abt me it’s been a month I don’t know when we’ll talk again but I just wanna hear your voice again I’ve started to think abt you less and stuff but I still miss our late night convos you were a dick but also really nice it was complicated anyways like I was saying do you even think abt talking to me or do you ignore the things I say I know we don’t live near each other so it’s not like it’s that deep but still you probably already replaced me. nice.

i didn’t think about you at really today except for the past 30 minutes where i’ve been contemplating on texting you, but i won’t

I still think of you often. What you’re doing. Who you’re with. If you slept well. If you have had enough to eat or drink. If you’re happy. If you still think of me too. If you miss me. If you ever loved me. If you still do even though i know you don’t. I know i shouldn’t think of you as often as i do but i can’t help it. So much was left unsaid that leaves me wondering. I still think of what i did wrong. And why you left. But i’m learning to be okay with the latter. What’s done is done. It’s like smoke in the wind. It’ll never be the same. You’ll never be back in my arms again. As much as i hope for it but also hate you for it too. I hate that i hate you. But it’s better that way i think, hurts less.

u told me not to wait for u but here i am still waiting, comparing every person i meet to the person i thought you were..

i’m so sorry i couldn’t be enough for you, i really tried i promise it’s crazy to wonder that you may feel relief now that we don’t talk anymore and that hurts so bad

dude it’s like u only talk to me when you’re in that kinda mood and i just fall for it everytime because i think your mistreatment is what i deserve and i just wanna be good enough for you all the time instead of some...

You still are my love. Thank you for giving me the world in any possible way. you never fail to make me the happiest girl ever. You showed me what a true relationship is and i'm so happy with you. I love you bubba

Did you know that I pined for you for years. People laughed at me but I did it because I loved you. Even after all these years, why do you still have a piece of my heart, please give it back. I don't want you to have it anymore.

Thanks for being such an asshole-piece of shit. It really helped me get over you. I can finally confidently say I no longer love you. you were an important part of my life for those 18 months, but I'm so glad you're not part anymore.

Dear lucas,
If you ever see this I have always been in love with you. I just wish you would see it and not run from love all the time.

maybe if not for the fact we hadn't quite grown into the kind people who knew how to love it would have been better

i miss you alot but ik you aren't the one for me and you need to learn to treat a lady properly before anything else.

i know u hate me, and that ur angry. i would never hurt u on purpose. all the times me and layla talked about u she brought u up first, i simply added my side. that doesn't make what i said about u right and i know that and im sorry. but u hold grudges and i dont know why. u stay angry for no reason. i know our friendship is over, even though i wish is wasn't. but when u said it didn't matter if we were friends or not i knew u had stopped fighting for us a long time ago, i wasn't ready to accept that. ur different now, idk why or who changed u but u arent who u were a couple months ago. whatever happened to change u is none of my business. we probably wont ever be as close as we were in august or september, and i get that. but just know after everything, i will never love someone the way i loved u, i will never care for someone the way i care for u. ill miss u, for as long as i can. u will always mean a lot to me, even in a couple years when u can barely remember my name, i will always know yours. it hurts me to accept that we no longer have anything and i wish i could go back and change things, but whats done is done. life happens, people drift, and i guess for a while i hoped we would be those friends in our 30's talking about when we were young but its fine. i get it. i love u forever, lucas.

I’ve opened my heart for the first time ,and then what ? you made me close it again but now, full of pain

We still talk sometimes, but other days it’s like I don’t exist. We don’t have enough of a consistant enough friendship to have a real relationship but I wish we did.

I can't even express how perfect being with you makes me feel. I am terrified that I won't feel that way with anybody else.

Hi you are the first guy i have ever truly loved and still do. You may not know of my dark past but you saved me from making a horrible decision. Just talking to you raises my mood and when you compliment me my self esteem sky rockets. I know im a clingy girlfriend its just that losing you would totally crush me. I need to. You are the reason i am still here today. I wish I could send this to you but it would just make me seem pathetic. I want to talk to you and tell you all my troubles but i would hate to be a burden. I dont want to put my bad thoughts on you and ruin your day. As my boyfriend i am not your biggest focus i need to stop wanting you to text me back immediately and let you live your life. From my point of view you have a perfect life with great friends and being really smart. Im surprised you picked me out of so many other girls. I dont even look that pretty, im on the chubbier side, i have hairy arms and legs and always look like a wreck. I love you so much and much more than you realize. I hope we will stay together for many more years to come and hopefully after that. You complete me and i dont know what I would do without you. Anyone who reads this I would like to say this man is the first out of many to make me feel special and even though we’ve only been dating for 9 months i want it to never end.

i look through the ones with your name and i’d bet everything i own that she’s writing these to you as well.

My first love, we met when we were young and grew apart when we got older. when I sent you that text I wished I would have said "let's wait a Lil bit longer until we can become a thing". I wish I didn't let you go so fast and that I didn't push u away. I hope you know I didn't call it off because I was bored, or tired. I did it because we were so young!!! The last text you sent me was "I will always miss you." has that changed? I get it we go through changes and we meet new ppl, but just know I can never forget about you. ever. recently we have talked but u didn't seem into it, tbh it hurt a little. what seems to be your new girlfriend, she is very pretty. she is so so so lucky she know present you :) I wish I knew the present you too. but I only know the past. I wonder how much you have changed, I know I have. I am more reserved tbh, a little less outgoing. Anyway, I miss you so much I think about you when I read fanfic AND IT SUCKS. if that not love then what is. my favorite memories with you was when we went to this art museum in LA. First, you were playing with this random-ass baby on the train and my heart was so swollen, it hurt like heck to smile. :) then you bought me Argentina chocolate even tho I didn't like it and you still offered to buy me another. we stood side by side with each other the whole time. You can never fail to make me laugh. ughhhhhh I miss you so much. i don't know how much I dream of you and what we could have been. please come back to me when your ready, I will always be here. always.

I'm still not sure whether I love you as just a friend, and it kills me inside. You've been my best friend for forever, so I guess that would make it awkward? I know it sounds weird, but I still can't decide whether you're just like a brother to me, or whether I REALLY do love you. I'm sorry. We never even got a chance to try. I don't think you're the one for me though. As much as I try to convince myself you are, you aren't. You're selfish, have a HORRIBLE style, have horrible friends, and just aren't my type of person? I don't even think you're my first love. I've never loved, and that's a hole in my heart that needs to be filled

I made a promise to myself that I’d never forget how special it was; it hurts to know that with every month that passes, clusters of our past slips further and further away from me. To move forward to a future without you in it is painful but I know it’s what you want. I pray for your happiness even if that means I don’t get to be a part of it. I wish you the best, always. I’ll see you in another life twatbag

nunca pude decirte que estoy completamente atraída hacia vos y creo que nunca lo hare no se si tengo la valentía de hacerlo.
lamento el 2020 porque ese año no pude verte como solía hacerlo, se que nunca vamos a estar juntos pero sos una parte de mi ahora, puede que te enamores encuentres a alguien y yo tambien pero siempre vas a estar en mi porque me acostumbre tanto a quererte durante tanto tiempo, a quererte de lejos porque nunca fuimos algo, ni siquiera amigos, me acostumbre que ya ahora sos algo mio. ojalá pueda decirte todo lo que me hiciste sentir sin ser nada. me acuerdo de cada mirada, cada toque, cada broma, me acuerdo de todo. lucas en otro universo nosotros estamos juntos, pero lamentablemente en este no y es en este en el que me toca solo imaginarte al lado mio. ya no estoy triste, ya no lloro porque ya pude entender, a veces la persona que queres no te corresponde y duele pero esta bien, asi es la vida.
espero que tengas una buena al lado de quien sea o solo y espero algún dia cruzarte y decirte que me gustaste toda la secundaria que te escribía cartas de amor que te dedicaba canciones y que hasta dia de hoy sigo imaginandonos juntos porque es lo unico que me queda.
te quiere, Cande.

Hi, me again. I hope one day you read this and realize who it is. I love you. Thank you for making me the happiest I’ve ever been. I wish one day you’ll realize how much I love you and will come back to me. I love you forever and I miss you stupid :)

hey, its been a while. hope your doing well. i see you around school sometimes and we make awkward eye contact but to be honest i miss you. you were a great guy and i wish that could have happend when we were both more mature. i truthfully did love you.

the rain is my favorite and you know that, but only because i think of you while hoping it’s raining where you are and somehow that will make us just a bit closer

La vérité n'est pas compliqué à dire. Si seulement tu avais expliqué ce qu'il n'allait pas on aurait pas rompu. Mais maintenant quand j'y pense, j'ai rencontrée une personne formidable qui me fait vivre et vibrer, qui me fait exister. Je pense donc que tu n'etais qu'une phase et qu'on devait se séparer afin que je rencontre cette fameuse personne avec qui je me sens moi-même. Je ne te cache pas que cette coupure brutale m'a affecté et cause encore des effets sur moi en ce moment, je ne te cache p

you r*ped me, told me “we’re just friends, i don’t have feelings for you” and started dating someone the week after.

you r*ped me, told me “we’re just friends, i don’t have feelings for you” and started dating someone the week after.

despite the distance, i still felt like you were here all the time. i love you more than you’ll ever know.

do,,, do you wanna roam the mountain forests, discovering new mushrooms? do you wanna traverse the rivers, wading up to our knees in freezing water? do you wanna run through large fields where no one can see us? don't worry, i won't leave your side this time. i love you lucas baby

sometimes i wonder what could've been if i'd just pushed my pride aside. or what would've happened if you'd just shown up at my door with flowers and some boba asking to get back together rather than begging over text. there have been so many times when i've wanted to text you but it's been 8 months since we broke up and i think ur finally happy. and im not. and it sucks here without u. i miss you so much.

i wish you would have given me a chance. i know i’m not the prettiest but i would’ve done my best to make you happy. i’m glad we’re friends, but a little piece of me still loves you more than a friend, and it hurts.

it’s hard to hate you, i wish i could hate you. i wish never liked you in the first place. but i did and i think i still do. i’ll always be there for you no matter how much pain it causes me. i wish you would have noticed me and how much i loved you. but you just looked away like i was nothing. i cried for months over you. you sent me mixed signals and now we’re friends and we pretend all of it never happened. but every time i see your stupidly cute i’m reminded of it. i love your smile and your voice and the way we tease each other. i can tell when you’re sad and i can tell when you’re happy. i love when you play your guitar. and when you had girl problems i was the one helping you no matter how much it hurt but i just wanted you to be happy. why couldn’t you be happy with me?

I wouldn't wash my hoodie for the longest time because it smelled like you. The sad thing is that I doubt you remember that it was even this colour.

My heart aches knowing the promise ring you gave me will never be my wedding ring. i still love you lucas

Everyone tells me to move on but you were and will always be the love of my life no matter how much time goes by.