I hate you, but at the same time want you in my life. I know we both are with new people, but I will always hold a special place in my heart for you.

You had me in pain for a while, but I'm still so in love with you and I forgive you, though it may still hurt me.

You broke me, I believed you liked me back but instead you got with another girl and ghosted me. Thank you for teaching me about people not being as they appear.

Everyone told me I deserve better and I know I do but I also know that not talking to you breaks my heart

Everyone told me I deserve better and I know I do but I also know that not talking to you breaks my heart

Creo que explicar los sentimientos que tiene alguien por su amor es algo complejo, siempre me ha gustado escribir; pero hay veces que no he plasmado todo como para satisfacerme. Creo que el amor es algo subjetivo, y cada uno tiene sus lenguajes del amor. Pero sé que el mío es a través de letras, aunque me cueste. Nunca llegué a pensar que tú me harías sentir tanto. Dudo que lo leas, y si así lo es igualmente no me responderías, porque siempre fuiste muy reservado con tus sentimientos, y frío.

Supe de mis sentimientos por ti cuando nos distanciamos. En verdad espero que todo te vaya bien, quiero que seas feliz. A veces me siento confusa en si dejarte ir o no, en todo caso seguiría estando feliz, porque mientras tú lo seas me da igual si estás con otro alguien.

I wish I had the guts to tell you how much I love you, knowing we feel the same but too scared to tell each other.

EU DEVIA ESTAR APAIXONADA POR VOCÊ MAS NÃO ESTOU. SINTO MUITO! GOSTARIA QUE SOUBESSE DISSO. ESPERO NÃO PARTIR SEU CORAÇÃO!

I’m sorry how things turned out, you were my best friend. I still love you dude. I just wish we could start over :(

you dont understand how much i miss you. When you died you took a piece of me that i'll never get back i just hope you look after it. I'll be with you soon little man I hope you're having fun up there with Col and everyone else no-ones ever gonna replace you and i still cry when I think of you. I hope i'm doing you proud Lucas I love you forever

Me abias pedido que sea tu novia en 6to grado y siempre quise decirte que si pero tenia miedo y solo quiero que sepas que te quiero y que algún dia encontraras a la persona ideal, con tu alma gemela (o algo asi :v) con la persona que quieras pasar el resto de tu vida y cuando la encuentres nunca la sueltes (quiero decir que nunca la dejes no que no la sueltes literalmente xd) amala cada segundo, y sobre todas las cosas jamas dejes que ella este triste :'D

you’re genuinely the best person i’ve ever met hahah, it really sucks that we cant talk right now, but hopefully ill see you soon. me and angel are planning on heading to the skatepark to check up on you this Saturday . i love you :)

i should’ve just stayed at home . you treat me like that night didn’t happen anyway. i can’t look at the stars the same.

i'm probably gonna keep submitting to this for a while lol
i really miss you- ik its only been around two weeks since we last talked, but im pretty sure this is the longest ive gone without hearing from you,.,.,.
:|

n e ways

ily :)

I wish you would have told me to move on because you had someone else instead of leading me on a begging me to put myself in uncommon situations with you.

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im fvcking in love with you lmao






anyways

if you can find a way to contact me, please do.


lol

i really like you your the only guy who is funny in my school and has good humor you also are really cool.

i really like you your the only guy who is funny in my school and has good humor you also are really cool.

i think after all this time i can’t lead myself to believe that you feel the same about me when it’s so blatantly obvious that you don’t. i don’t know what it is with hope . it seems to be something positive but for me it just seems to hurt more and more you know? you see i know you’ll never look at this and i do know that but that little piece of hope it’s so overwhelming and i still think that fate would just mean you will. even if you do , you won’t know it’s from me. every notification. every time someone (who would have no reason to) says my name with exitedly .... i just hope it’s about you . it never is . you’ve never texted me before so why would you now . so stupid . i’m so stupid . how can i care about someone that i know so little about ? have i just filled in the blanks ?ive seen someone funny and decided they’re the only person who gets my humour . seen someone slightly shy and reflected my self onto them . i just feel like you notice things i notice too. i see so much and it’s so blatant - things people do or say ,i see straight through it all and understand their thought processes (or at least think i do) . apart from you - only you . i just don’t get you at all and that’s part of why i’ve liked you so long . i can’t figure you out lucas and i just want to . so bad . i don’t know why .
i’m in a bad place - really deep shit . i keep hoping you’ll notice , not that it would make a difference as you would never reach out to me. but i was talking to my friend about it sort of (writing in notes ,main points i didn’t want you do know in case you over heard . not about you btw as that would be too sus) and then she would sort of reassure me out loud and we’d talk about it . that was a bad day anyway . but then you turned around , just for a second and looked at me . dumb shit like that i just hold onto for hope lucas. not me changing the topic for hope again ffs . i think i just need something in my life to change for the better and some of it just can’t ya know . some of its inevitable but if there’s the slightest bit of hope in you ever liking me back i will latch onto that .i’m sorry ? apologising for that seems wrong but also it’s a lot of pressure i guess . no pressure seriously, one day i’ll be ok - i know it, with or without someone else (preferably with , of course) but until then . ahhh you aren’t gonna read it i’m just gonna say it ; the night we hung out was such a good time and i know you were ‘drunk’ (mmm questionable whether you were really as drunk as you made out to be) but i don’t know it hurts me to think if you’ve even thought about it since it happened and it was just like nothing to you and hurts me more to think you might think back and regret it (nothing happened so i don’t know what you’d regret besides spending time with me ... ffs if you regret spending time with me that’s shitty) but yeh it just seemed like you didn’t want to leave i mean your friend was practically begging and if i know you even slightly i just feel like ur the sort of person to call it a night and go home but you didn’t ... you just stayed with me ?probably because it was only you and me talking and the other two were off somewhere else and maybe you just stayed because you felt bad , either way i was glad you did . was being the main word because SHIT the amount of debating and overthinking i’ve done based off of that night hurts . 5months later still just fucking hurt over it cause after that night you never really spoke to me again and it’s not as though i didn’t reach out. i mean now i think about it it’s obvious - you realised i liked you and felt bad leading me on anymore so you just pissed off and you haven’t had the opportunity to turn me down properly as i refuse to say anything about my feelings and you can’t just assume i like you . wow uhhh. and when i was upset you probably turned round and felt bad as you know that it’s partially about you but again, you can’t assume . jesus christ i’m either a genius or overthinking (or both ) and with that fucking revelation of sorts i’m done writing this .... bye lmao

it’s hard right now for me. i wanna talk to you so bad even though you hurt me but i suppose that’s my fault. it’s so weird that all you know is this insecure side of me that i trusted only you with because i’ve always shown everyone else this false confidence and that i’m self-assured but i showed you my insecure side and in the end, you used that to hurt me. for me, showing someone my insecurities is a love language since i never do that, it was my feminine side that you crushed. so now i know, i can’t show that to anyone again and i’ll learn to accept that. however i am fully sure that you did not deserve me because you made me question my worth with you treating me good for a few days then being distant for the next few days. you can’t have me for my good days and not my bad too. you didn’t deserve me at all

you were so boring and i tried hard to create and hold the conversation. i started to question if i was the problem and i told you that time and time again and why i felt like that, it was from your actions. then, you told me i wasn’t the problem and that you would change. in the end, it was my fault for “being insecure” maybe if you didn’t act like such a dick then i wouldn’t have, you gave me reasons to be insecure and that, that is not my fault.

how did i let myself succumb to you, i’m glad that i allowed myself to let someone in, but at the the same time i wish i never did and i don’t want to again

why do you hate me? why wouldnt you give me a chance, sure im not your "beautiful dream girl" but it hurts seeing other girls hurt you. i know i could have treated you better.

I don't exactly know how you feel about me, I know you like me as a friend, but I know how I feel about you, I love you, I love your energy and your imperfections, I know you don't have to be perfect, but you'll do for me, again, I love you, even though love may be a very strong word

fuck you I fucking hate you for the first time in like 3 years I started to actually like someone I started to truly care for someone but you fucking ruined it youre a dick why do you gotta do that why did you have to stop, stop trying, stop talking just stopped everything.

You pulled me out of my depressive state and put me back into it, ik i shouldn’t keep wanting what hurts me most but i do. i want you. I want you to want me back and love me how you used to. everything was going so well, why’d u break my heart? Everything was going how you wanted it, so why’d you end it? I have so many questions yet the most important one that’s been on my mind is why wasn’t i enough to settle with, to be with, to have around? I was so good to you. I was there when you needed me, i was there just to be there, i was so kind and caring to you, i loved you more than any other girl could, yet that amount of love and comfort wasn’t enough for you ig, i only want the best for you, forever and always, i hope you make up your indecisive mind on what you want, i hope you know i’ll always be there if you need me. i’m one txt away and id drop it all for you if you ever want me back even tho ik i shouldn’t want what only hurts me in the end. This hurts so bad writing, the tears flowing from my eyes onto your hoodie that i still have, i hug it tight wenever i miss you tho most at hard times. this hurts me rn so bad, i love you Luke. I love everything about you. I love your blonde hair, i love you stupid eye glare when you’d look back at me, i love your smile, i love your laugh, i love you taste, i love you bluish greenish colored eyes, i love your touch, i love everything you do, I love you.

I'm still constantly chasing those jitters I got when we pretended to be ghosts and blindly hugged under thrifted sheets

When I think of unrequited love I think of you. I think I poured so much energy into worrying about whether you liked me back I didn’t have any left over to realize you probably didnt. I loved you. And eventually I tried to turn that into hate because it’s easier. Then I tried to push you away like I do with everyone else I have feelings for. I’m sorry and I know that I’m finally I’m getting over you. I spent so long thinking about you and wondering about you and I can’t do it anymore. This is me letting you go and getting over it.

Look I genuinely don't know why I like your bitchass but I do. I just wish you would look at me instead of her. Our timing has been so bad and we can never get it right, but one day I really hope we will. You're one of my best friends and I love talking to you all the time and being together would be amazing because I truly think we could work. I just wish you felt the same again.

I am so scared to tell you how much you mean to me, how long do I have to wait? It has been 10 years already and I want to be with you and spend my life with you. Please send me a sign that you feel the same way, I know we are young but this feels as though it is meant to be.

We were meant to be , atleast we thought we were. you moved on so fast , while i was in pain , waiting for you to say you were sorry. but you never did , you told me you were glad u cheated and that i deserved it everytime and that if you cared you wouldn’t have to have cheated. i’m so sad :( but i’m glad ur happy , just feel better for me

You were not only my boyfriend, but you were also my teacher, my confidant and my true love.
be happy w her

I never knew what it felt like to truly love myself until I met you. You made me feel truly happy and whole. Thank you

Sometimes you made it hard for me to be me. You made me feel so little and weak. I'm glad we ended but doesn't mean I still don't miss you

i love you so fucking much i just wish you could love me back i miss you. i miss your lips pls come back i love you pls love me bqck

i fucking love you pls love me back for once i miss your lips your hands pls i miss you i fucking love you

hey, is your sisters favourite movie still cinderella? tell your mom i miss her breakfasts. but not more than i miss you, i’m so uncontrollably in love with you. it’s you who i’m supposed to be with. no one can convince me differently. i’ll see you in a different lifetime loser

I cant keep pretending i dont miss you. All though, I am much happier without you. I have found this most amazing relationship, and I wont let thoughts of you ruin that for me. I could go on forever about how badly you shattered my heart and left me with so much pain and trauma, but I wont waste it because I know you will never see this. As for now, I am moving on. I don't love you and I hope 2021 is the worst fucking year for you. Please get out of my head and out of my dreams.. I hate you lucas.. I hate you.

ah,,, en realidad nunca sentí algo por ti, me daba mucha pena seguir rechazandote y sé que estuvo mal, pero era para hacerte feliz...

I think I will always be in love with him.

It's the kind of love where, I wish it was me that got to watch him smoke cigarettes in the cold.

Or hold his hand while we walked in the rain.

But I'm okay if it's not. I'm okay seeing re-plays of you in my mind.

I'm okay reliving the memory of you singing Arctic Monkeys, with that look on your face.

That look.

That look that made me forget everything.

That made me feel like I was sinking.

That look that made me realise I'd love you forever and that I was screwed.

Just as long as he is loved fearlessly, I am okay loving him from afar.

I miss you, I wish I could tell you. Be happy, because you are incredible.

we hung out yesterday. i forgot how easily we connect, how natural you are.
you are still what i want.

i wonder what you wrote on that letter. it would be so easy for me to just check.
we'll find out in a few years.

You wasn't my first love. You was my first attachment. I've found my true love now. Thankyou for ending it.

you were my first love. i will never forget about all of the moments that we shared. you mean so much to me and have such a large impact on my life. i love you deep down, and i know that you feel the same about me. our timing was just off but i am so hopeful that we don't miss each other again. :-)

You don’t believe me when I tell you I love you but you don’t even believe in love at this age. We were too young back then I miss you.

it’s not like we don’t talk but today we didn’t and i would’ve done anything to hear your voice today or just watch you play video games and see you smile while you talk to your friends and give me a glance to know i’m still here. just today was so awful and i’d do anything literally anything to even get a text because i’m just so in love with you lucas

I never told you how I really felt about you. Idk I thought you felt the same and eventually we would end up together, but I guess I was wrong. Maybe in another life. Now I guess I finally need to move on. I'll always wonder what we could've been, and I'll always have a place for you.

I've loved you so much, so fast... But you didn't love me back as much as I ever did. Have a good life with her. I'm done.

i never knew how much i needed you until you weren’t mine anymore. i loved you and you threw that love away. we both knew how much we meant to each other and i hope we can have that again someday. even though it’s been 2 years, if you opened your arms-i would run to you without thinking. i hope you realise how much you mean to me. i will always come back to you. i will choose you over any guy. i still love you, i just hope you realise this before it’s too late.

I am glad you are happy and moving on. I hope you see this though, I can't wait to show my kids your birthday present for me. I won't forget it. thanks lucas