Unsent messages to MARIN

it has been 9 months and i still think about you every single day. i could never forget you.

i think i will always love you no matter what. i’m sorry.

I still think about the haunted houses we went to and how hard I fell in love with you then.

I love being a weirdo with you. I know I don't say it enough, but I love you more than anything

Things ended badly between us, I will never hate you. You showed me how life could be amazing

You are the only one who can make me laugh like that<3

I hope you could stand by me when everything crumbles over.

we haven't talked in a while, but you're still the only person I feel safe with. I love you.

you make me want to live. out of all the things goin on, ur the best person that happened to me.

I love that you’re in my life, even if we’re just friends :)

id run thru hurricanes just to be with u again but for now we can wait, right? I luv you honeypie <3

I’m gonna really miss you but I wish you didn’t lie to me
Ily Mar
Ur my Gwen to my Miles

Is it too late to make up? I hope not

I think I love you

I still wear your t-shirt every single night as pijama

I want to apologize for what I did years ago. It haunts me to this day

I hope you talk to me again, I know its not my fault and you need to be alone but I miss my bsf

I wish words could describe how much your friendship means to me.

I really hope we can reconnect. sooner rather than later. please.

you’ll always stay a page in my book

you are the best person I know. I hate that we’re not talking. I hope we can be friends someday

i’m sorry for the way i treated you. but i really do love you.

ive never felt pure love for anyone else but you

Bad things happen but you have survived 100% of your hardest days. You will survive this.

I’m sorry for everything please forgive me. I love u so much it hurts

i love you so so much <3333

i dont know why but i still think about you, even though we havent talked for months. i dont know what went wrong. a little part of me always hopes youll contact me again someday.

i think what hurt me the most is that we went from talking everyday for hours, to never. You were like a part of my daily routine, and now every day without you feels wrong, incomplete.

every time you leave, a part of me dies from the hope that we would finally have worked after all this time.

You don't know how bad I wish we would have worked. I wasn't looking for anyone, and you came into my life and drastically changed. What hurts most is that I saw you as more than a friend, someone I could trust, confide in and feel utterly and completely safe with, yet now we walk past each other as if we were strangers, strangers who knew a lot about each other. I don't think you comprehend the amount of happiness I felt when speaking to you. I would jump to the ceiling when I got a silly snap from you. Now I stare at my phone waiting for a 'hi'. Its been 5 months, I still miss you Marin

Hi,
I know you probably won’t see this, but the idea of there being a slight chance of you seeing this makes me want to write to you. Marin if you see this I want you to know how much I miss talking to you. I must admit on some occasions, I have to actually stop myself from texting you because I know how much it would hurt me. We stopped talking because I perhaps knew our « thing » was going nowhere. I mean you were literally my neighbour, yet we had never once spoken irl. I tried being honest with myself, so I let go. Now that I think about it we should probably have talked it out, but it’s hard. I think you’re the only guy that I actually liked past the platonic attraction. You had a good personality, a good heart and most importantly the best music taste ;). I just wish we could have met, just once. However I live by this rule; if they wanted to they would’ve. I know, maybe you might have been shy but we’d been talking for like 6 months. It was an insatiable situation. In any case you were going to boarding school, I was staying in London, there was no point, we were going to go our separate ways, and no matter how I feel/felt about you, I have to accept that. I think this goes without saying, I miss you, so much, even just talking to you everyday, it made me feel okay, happy perhaps. You’ll know this is about you once you’ve read this far, so, if you are reading this, text me. I might not reply immediately but I want you to know that I do miss you, no matter what happened. I miss you.
Your neighbour

If I had known how this would end I would never have dreamed of even finishing our first conversation. You broke my heart and I don’t think I’ll ever get over you, yet I wish I could. I wish I could hate you, but I can’t. Ever since I met you, I can’t stop thinking about you. Not a day passes without me thinking about you. And what hurts the most is knowing that you haven’t thought twice about me since we parted.