i'm so selfish but all i ever wanted was you to love me. not like that, but we could run around and fuck around. but you have better friends now, so i'll leave you be.

I hate that I think about you every day and you don’t think about me at all. I hate that you made me think I ever had a chance with you. I hate that you told me you liked me but you didn’t know if you actually wanted anything with me. I hate it because I would never do that to you. I give you so many chances and every time you break my heart. I hate that I can’t stop myself from forgiving you just incase you have finally changed. I guess I just hate that I don’t hate you and I don’t think I ever will.

oh shit bro it’s almost our three months I’m glad my body is so petite and frail imagine having two children to the one moron

i fell out of love. ik that we decided to be friends but i just don't know how to talk to you anymore. it's not the same

hi, today i thought about you only because i’m talking to a new guy that i want to feel something for you, but he’s not you and so i can’t

i could just be having a good day and i think of your smile and the way you would look at me during ft that would make me blush, and my stomach drops and i’m hurt all over again

I liked you more than I've ever liked anyone before. But you fucked it up and u fucked me up. But in the moments before it all went wrong, you made me happier than I ever had been. Our last night together my best friend told me that was the happiest she had ever seen me. That's how I'd like to remember you in that moment but I can't stop thinking about why you would ever switch up on me the way you did.

I hated how you controled me, how you could make me cry without using word, how my disire for your attention grew and grew. I was on a leash and you didn't even noticed it...

you gave me the worst heartbreak and we didn’t even date. have fun ?racism and homophobia is an illness and i hope you get worse you fuck

i always loved you, i never told you but i always did and i think i always will. you’re perfect. you’re talented, you’re smart, you’re funny and you’re the first guy who i ever really considered my best friend. i miss you more than anything but i know you don’t miss me. i really wish i would’ve just kissed you on one of those train rides. who knows maybe if i did things would be different right now.

i just like you too much to risk telling you and hearing you say you don’t feel the same . i just want to remember that night for how it was . nothing happened but i was happy .

I've liked you for a long time now and I don't understand why you don't like me back even after flirting with me for so many years :)

I hate you... so much... you break my heart and my confidence. I loved you but you don't. go fuck yourself. What you did you me... I still blame myself.

you're my first love. i wish i could tell you how much you truly mean to me. our memories will last a life time. thank you for always making me smile. i'll love you forever. even if you don't know, i'll tell you one day i promise.

i miss you. i broke up with you because you treated me so bad. you stopped caring about me and it broke me i love you

Me gustas demasiado pero no se si estoy preparada para una relacion y no quiero que pierdas el tiempo conmigo cuando tienes a muchisimas chicas detrás

We were only friends really for a couple months. I’ve always felt this connection with you. I know it’s over now and you have someone else but I’ll always think of you

I really did love you yanno? im sorry things came between us. I know youll never talk to me again but I still havent stopped thinking about you. How many months has it been? I miss you.

i miss you, i wish you never left. you left me broken for months. i trusted you, told you everything. you where all i wanted, i looked for your notification. i told my mum who you were and i dont tell her who any of my friends are. why, why did you leave. you could have stayed for me. you think its all ok but i cant do it. i started cutting because of you. i cried everyday. i didnt want to keep living because you meant so much to me. i just want to know if you ever think of me still and if you regret leaving or if you ever read through our messages. because i sure do and whenever i listen to NF it kills me inside and i will breakdown crying because you introduced me to him. i just wanted you back. im broken because of you. i just needed you to stay. why me? why become so close to me and then just up and leave like i was nothing. you act like everything is fine and im here drowning in my own head alone and cold. im not ok. i have accepted the fact that i havent been ok for a few years but you know, im still alive and thats what matters right. everything has gone to shit, i feel like im in a living hell that everyday is the same but i cant get help, no one sees my struggling to stay alive and they all come to me saying they want to die and i write paragraphs for them and will do anything to keep them alive but im just drowning in my own head i feel like i cant breath.fuck. all i want is to be happy again, i miss trusting people and being happy. at this point i would do anything to be happy again. i wish i never wasted my birthday candle wishes on something stupid, i should have wished for happiness. all everyone ever says is "i understand" "i get it" like NO you dont get it, you arent in my position, i have been through so much. i have had enough its just a chore waking up everyday. i just want someone to notice and help me. please :/
i do miss you tho, everyday

you mean alot to me like you literally dont understand. every time i see you, its like im complete. though you cant see my smile because we have to wear masks, its there, always when we're together. i need you in my life. you give me a purpose so please dont leave.

its been a long time but i still search for your face in a crowd, hoping to get just a glimpse of what home used to be.

Something about you still sparks my heart rate. You probably moved on after such a long time, but I still love you.

i never noticed or recognized it until now but you sexualized me so much like we still aren’t kids or something

u made me feel something i never felt before, what we had, whatever u want to call that wasn't much... but it mean't a lot to me and i don't know why. but u moved on. i haven't. i will one day, but u will always own a piece of my heart. there's something about u. but im getting tired of waiting for u. waiting for u to like me back or snap me, or give me a hug when i see u. i've watched u love other girls, and yet i don't believe our chapter is over. it was over a long time ago and a part of me wants to staple in more pages to keep writing, another part of me knows that we are out ink. i miss u everyday... last year u were the first boy to ask me to dance, my first kiss, my first everything. our conversations were dumb and stupid. but we were both different people then. a maybe just maybe u think of me at the same time i think of u. it's taken me a while to pin point the reasons i can't let u go, but i figured that out. the way ur mean to everyone but me, the way u smile melts my heart, and when i look into ur stupid eyes i don't want to look away. maybe the chapter is over... but what if the ur in the next? what if the next chapter is us again, but better, the storm lifts and everyone can come out of the homes, what if we aren't really over. i got attached to u and i will wait for u. while i wait i might talk to other people, kiss other people, but it will always come back to u. i don't want to have to let u go, so please, tell me u feel the same. tell me u want to spend the rest of ur life with me, only me. kiss me in the rain or in the middle of the skate park in front of ur friends. facetime me whenever u can, call me just to hear my voice. screenshot my snaps so on the nights we don't see each other, u can give me a kiss goodnight. do all the things i'd do if u still loved me. if u ever did love me, or that was a lie. i lost u a long time ago, but u will never ever lose me. i know i have to move on, and that i'm just a friend to u, but it breaks my heart that i might have to let u go one day. whatever happens, i love u.

you were my first love i'm sorry i hurt you i'd do anything just to have you back i'm sorry i love you

im sorry im hurting u right now and i hope there will be a time for us when we're older. i feel myself falling for u too but i just need some time. either way i'll love u always.

you hurt me more than either of us thought was possible. you were my love, my best friend, but deep down you were a malicious boy who never cared for me. I miss you despite the fact that you tore my heart into pieces, but that just goes to show how much I loved you and how little you did.

You knew what you were doing and still didn't care enough to think about my feelings. You ruined us and man, I really fucking hate you for that.

thank you for teaching me what i deserve by showing me what that isn't. i learned a very tough lesson and i hope you learned from it too. i hope one day that you get better, but in the meantime i will heal myself. i won't let myself be afraid of the hallway.

i will always love you. do you still eat cereal with every meal? do you and your mom still have breakfast for dinner every wednesday? god i miss her. but not as much as i miss you.

ive never met anyone as supportive and understanding as you are. you are so amazing inside and out, it makes me fall for you even more, day by day. i appreciate you so much loser (:

i’ve never met anyone as kind hearted and supporting as you are. it like everyday i fall for you even more. thank you for everything loser (:

You were the worst possible first love a person could have, I hate you for destroying my mental health.

i wish you wouldve told me earlier. i really loved you, and i thought after five months you loved me too. i thought i deserved better then to get broken up with at a bus stop, 2 minutes before it left.

I dont want to be 'just friends'. I'm still in love with you. I miss being with you. Of course I said we could be friends. That's because I can't lose you. But I'm in love with you still.

No sé que me faltó para hacerte feliz mi amor, talvez ella era mejor lo entiendo. Siempre lo entendí pero estoy segura que no te va a alcanzar el amor que yo te daba al lado de ella, no porque me crea mas. Si no que no recibes tanto amor las dos veces. Ella solo te usa

you've left and it's my fault. i broke your trust. and now i'm alone. i'm so sorry. will you ever forgive me? i love you

Thank you for showing me that not all love should be unconditional, you hurt me but it made me stronger

hey , we're strangers now and i miss you so much that i wish i should kill myself right now just to see you from above

hey lol me again, i miss you. you’ll always have a special place in my heart but you broke me and it’s best we say goodbye

It’s been years, but you were my first love. I’m sorry I was so angry, we were young and stupid and for all the wrong you did, I made mistakes too. Maybe one day we’ll talk again. I’d like that. If not, I hope you finish that book. I hope you see Tibet

I like you but not in that way im sorry ive only known you for not even 2 months and i honestly think im bisexual- not to lie out of all the places you could have confessed, you did it on among us in a private server. I will keep the screenshots for proof that it did happen. Also, I'm ugly asf. if your falling for me you better get your standards up. no hard feelings tho

i’ve never felt this way abt someone. i think it’s love. my friends think im obsessed. but it’s love, isnt it?

im fully dependent on u for happiness. if we dont end up together, ill never see love the same way again.

I wish I could tell you everything. Just everything I need to tell you. But I’m it would ruin everything.

i wish i had the courage to tell you i loved you before we drifted apart. it's been almost two years and you still cross my mind

i really like you and i hope you like me too. i’ve tried to move on so many times but i cant. you won’t see this lol but yup

I really wish that I understood what it is I want from you. Your an amazing person and I know that one day you would make a great boyfriend even husband but it isn't to me. Your my best friend and sometimes I wish I never even meant you. I spent my whole life waiting for you and now that I have you I've come to realize that I don't know what I was waiting for? I have everything and more that I wanted and could ever get from you. Your really good to me but sometimes you get under my skin and really make me uncomfortable or something. Idk... It's confusing but the one thing I do know is amongst all of my bottled up and unknown feelings I don't want you in the way you want me. I don't want anything more than a friendship and the thought of you askiung me out scared me. I might come off as a "I really like you and want to be with you" but truth be told I don't I don't wanna be with you other than a friendship and I know how bad t would hurt you top hear. I'm sorry? I'm sorry that I opened a door just to slam it right back in your face...

i try not to talk to you anymore, for my own good. but i still look for you in everyone i meet.
i miss you a lot.

hi lucas, i really wanna reach out to you. i miss you. everything reminds me of you. i hope you're doing well.