estoy 100% segura q tu fuiste y serás el amor de mi vida, aunque ya no estemos juntos. perdón por haber cambiado y no haber luchado por nuestra relación :(( cuanto quisiera poder intentarlo de nuevo :( te amo mucho

You never deserved me. I hope you change I miss talking to you. You are an awful person and I never understood why I still want you. Maybe it's for the best to let go of you.

I don’t know why i’m doing this. We were never a real thing but it hurts so much we might as well have been. Childhood sweethearts. Liked each other since we were both around 7 and even with all the embarrassing moments and the tears we never stopped. I went years and years without talking to you after that big change but even without your texts or calls or talks, i still found myself thinking about you every day. What’s even crazier was when i would find you looking at me as well and as soon as you were caught you would turn away quickly and look down at the floor like you’d always do when you were embarrassed. We went years and years being awkward with one another until that one day you saved me. you saved me from escaping this place that we call earth and saved me from missing out on the lovely events we then got to experience. it wasn’t an easy ride but it was all worth it. every second of it. but that’s the thing. all good things come to an end. as soon as i was happy. felt loved. you were taken from me, right in my arms.the last words you spoke were the words you spoke to me on the first day we met when we were only 5. “you’ll be okay”. yes i still remember. it was a very embarrassing moment for me to say the least but you stepped in and helped me, like my guardian angel. i guess you were also my guardian angel, helping me through all tough obstacles. you always appeared at the right time too. it’s funny because if you were with me right now, you would make fun of me at the state i am in so i am going to stop writing now before i drown in my own tears even though there are so many more things i could write. i hope you are happy. wherever you are. ‘you’ll be okay’. yours always, ‘Lulu’ . (still dislike the nickname btw)

you taught me how to love someone so deeply just to destroy me. i hope you’re happy with your new girl.

i miss you. you hurt me so much, and i hurt you too, but i cant stop myself from feeling like this. were both doing better, but imagine if we were doing better together.

you’re perfect. i love you so much. i just don’t know how to tell you, or if i should. you mean the world to me.

why did you wish me a good christmas? and a happy new year? i know we both made mistakes but in the end youre the one who left me. do you know that when you reach out it hurts me?

even if i never show it, even if our paths go into different directions i will always love you. always.

Uma vez eu ouvi que pessoas confusas machucam pessoas boas. Eu não queria. Mas me desculpa por ser a pessoa confusa.

They said it would get easier. It hasn't. All of the memories I find of us keep pulling me back. I always think about how much happier I would be if I could just have one night back in my basement. It's so hard for me to not reach out and tell you out of fear you won't care and don't still want the things I do. But damn I fucking miss you. so does the cat

hey! i really wanna talk to you more and by more i mean like almost all day and maybe even all night but uh idk how you feel and i don’t want to bother you. we stopped talking for a couple weeks and i was trying my hardest to stop thinking abt you and one day i did.. then you messaged me. i love you.

i still think of you sometimes. Sad you still chose her though... I guess we were not meant to be. Its okay though, still wish you the best. Hope one day we will see each other again ... until then, farewell.

Thank you for showing me what love felt like, even if it wasn't mutual. Although I may never know why you broke my heart, know that I only carry good memories of you. Be yourself, cause there's no one like you.

green was your favourite colour amongst other things. I can still remember you telling me that your favourite facial feature about me was my nose. I never understood it. I wish I took more time into understanding our love instead of fighting it.

You broke my heart, but i still love you. You will never know how many times you saved my life. I genuinely wish you the best and i hope you find peace.. i love you

your messages make me so happy. i was in a dark place but since we started talking i’ve been the happiest and felt the most loved in my life. i can’t imagine having to let you go. i wish we could take it further but i’m too scared to commit and ask you :/

i am always wondering what you are up to and how your life is going, but i refuse to ask because i dont want you to know that i still care

I don’t think I’ll ever be able to stop loving you in a way you don’t love me. I wish you would’ve tried

something about you just is so genuine and u just feel safe and i feel really comfortable around u i genuinely trust you which is weird bc i dont trust alot of people but you are someone that i just love to be around like yeah ur cringy but it’s adorable and i mean i do make fun of u alot but thats just how i am its like my way of complimenting you? idk but um u just are so swag and i think its freaking stoopid that u make me smile at ur dumb texts like an idiot but i know u just like my body at least the parts of my body i allow you to see u ignore me for days on end and only text me back when its convenient for you and its almost always “ok” or “lol” and im not sure if u actually like me for me or my “sexy ass body” im really fucked bc ur my favorite person right now and u won’t answer me or talk to me and it’s driving me
crazy

I had a dream the other night you forgave me. I’m sorry I hurt you so bad that forgiveness isn’t a possibility.

you have someone new now and we haven’t spoken in nearly a year. i wish I didn’t tell you that you can’t be in my life anymore so many things are happening for me that i just wish i could tell you about. my dreams are coming true and i can’t tell you about them anymore. i hope she brings you so much happiness because that’s the only thing getting me through losing you to someone else.

I still hate you

you're the one who taught me what love was, how amazing it can be but also how it can kill you slowly. After everything we've been through, i never thought i could love you as much as i do right now. you're the person i've cried the most for, i gave you all i was and you just broke my soul into millions of pieces and the worst is that you didn't even seem to care about it. am i stupid for trusting you one more time? maybe i am, i dont really know. all my friends said that this was not a good idea, that i was going to end heartbroken one more time. and that could happen, but if it does i already know how to get over you and believe me when i say that if you hurt me one more time i'll completly forget about you, you will just be a part of my past that i have to learn from and a mistake i cannot repeat again. call me crazy but i still believe in us, i believe in a future together and doing all the things one day we said we would do. tell me you belive in it too, promise me to fight for us one more time. you are a good boy who has done bad choices. i'm not gonna just forgive you like nothing, i'm gonna help you learn from your mistakes so you won't make them again. and if finally this doesn't work out, i just wish happiness for you, you are such a wonderful boy and i know you'll find that person that makes you happy, the one you can be just yourself and forget about all the worries. I hope you find the crazyness i have and you need, i'll find the calm i'm missing. but not gonna lie i hope the person who makes you feel like that is me.

it’s weird that we’re talking to again but i do know that i’m keeping my distance since i can never trust you again

does your sister still love cinderella? does your brother still love the marvel movies? does your mom hug her the way she used to hug me? i’m happy you’re happy

Te odio por ser un cagon de mierda , pero me hubiera gustado intentar algo , pero aveces pienso en vos y te extraño ?

i wish you the absolute best. you deserve it. i love you forever. as always i’m proud of you. you're amazing. i know you’re going to do great things. don’t stress out too much. if you need anything i’m here. goodbye lucas

No supe manejar la situación. No fui lo que esperabas. A veces pienso en que hubiera pasado si yo te hubiese dicho que te amaba también. Solo tenía mucho miedo de sentir eso.

yesterday was a good day since we’ve stopped or let alone started talking months ago. i barely thought about you except for when it came night time and the memories came like a wave.

IM OVER YOU I REALLY AM AND IM GOING INTO A NEW CHAPTER THANK YOU FOR TEACHING ME THINGS ILL CARRY FOREVER

we met when we were 15, and now were about to be 19. isnt that crazy? living seperate lives, who wouldve thought.

do u even think of me still? Do u remember me? Because i still remember you and i think of u occasionally. I always wonder what it couldve been. but it never was. you chose her. you loved her. not me. even though im sure you liked me like i liked you. but hey, we were just kids. wasnt love but u were the first guy i actually liked. i think i was the first too. welp, hope i see you one day again.

i don’t know if you’ll ever see this but if you do, i just wanted to say i’m sorry one last time. i would sell my soul just to go back and redo everything and do it the right way. hopefully u find peace while moving on. ur my whole world and more luke, i’ll never be able to move on after u. love you f&a.

you've changed a lot. when we're alone, it's u but i can see it. i dont like it, maybe this'll help me move on finally.

i am going to miss you so much. you meant so much to me, but it’s time to let you go. I never got to say it but: i loveD you

Sometimes I still think about you but most importantly i hate you, not for the fucked up shit you did, but for getting me to love you

god do i wish you never hurt me and just told me what i was doing wrong in the first place. i obviously won’t show that you’ve hurt me because i won’t allow you that satisfaction but maybe if i did you would realize

Aún me sigo preguntando que es lo que no te atraía lo suficiente de mí. Todavía tengo muchas preguntas, pero la más importante es. ¿Realmente sentiste algo por mí o simplemente fui un objeto al que querías tener primero que otros para sentir tu hombría aún más fuerte?

You look at me and joke around with me all the time I don’t know when I caught feelings for you but I know your too popular and don’t like me back so yeah

I like you a lot. You mean a lot to me. It pains me to know you disregard me in such ways, but I will always have a place in my heart for you. My arms are open for when you are ready to like me again.

i regret everything. i regret telling you things and trusting you when you can’t even hold a promise that you’d be there when i need you. we had so much in common and we had a genuine and real connection.... i’m angry at the outcome but what did i expect? ur first love will always have ur heart.

i don’t understand. I thought we where gonna be friends. But now your playing games and I don’t even know what team your on or that I’m playing. Fuck I miss you.

You fucking traumatized me three times over and I still feel this way. I'm ashamed that I ever was with you. Yet sometimes I wonder how things would've went if everything was a little bit different.

I love you more then anything. I would give you the whole world. It hurts to see you not care about me at all when you’re then only thing I care about.

i wish you didnt move. i wish i told you how much i like you before you left. you made me so happy, it wont be the same without you :(

I deserve the truth and an apology. You didn't break up with me because of lock down. It doesn't make sense to me why ti would be that, i don't understand what went wrong or what i did wrong. You were so happy when we went for dinner for your birthday and you were so happy when i last saw you, or at least it seemed that way. What it feels like to me is that you didn't have feelings for me anymore and you didn't know how to tell me or felt too guilty to tell me. Which is probably why you did it over text, so you didn't have to face me. No one should be broken up with over a phone screen, it's unfair and quite frankly heartless. I just want the truth and then i'll never bother you again and you'll never have to hear from me again. I promise. I just want to move on and forget about this. I wish i could talk to you about this but i have a panic attack when i try to. I just don't understand why you wouldn't tell me the truth. I have been nothing but honest with you since we met, i actually think it would hurt less if you had told me the truth, and to my face. But now i'm just guessing and i don't think i'll ever have the courage to ask you why. The sad part is that i would have done anything for you, if you had just asked. I know i shouldn't have held you on a pedestal like that but i really liked you, and i thought you did too. I mean, no one has ever looked at me the way you did. But i guess i was wrong.

I wish we had a real chance. I wish i could be in your arms again. I wish for so much but mostly I wish that you find what you’re looking for at college. Miss you despite having no reason to.

it’s been 11 months and 10 days since you left. you treated me like shit but i would do anything to have you back.

bruh i could pull up all this old stuff you’ve said to me and embarrass you in the worst way possible that you won’t recover from. but i won’t :)

i think I started to like you. but I know it would be better off if I left you alone I’m sorry for being like this I know you aren’t you going to see this since you don’t go on these type of things but thank you for always making me smile you truly make me happier. thank you bro.

hi loser, i kinda hope you see this but at the same time I hope you don’t, I made this ur favourite colour...I wish you cared enough to learn abt the stuff I like the things that make me happy but only I care about that stuff for you I wish you truly cared if I was okay I wish we would talk again but I guess it’s all my fault I shouldn’t have ruined our friendship I’m sorry.