Unsent messages to S

we were never together but I find myself missing every moment I spent with you as if we were dating at the time

i told my dad about u. i guess i should’ve known. i miss u still. i really hope ur doing ok. i was better with you.

i know nothing happened, and we were young, but every few months, i think "what would life be like now, as friends, more?"

Nunca quise alejarme asi. Te quería volver a ver algun dia pero lo que hiciste después hizo que terminara el poco amor por vos que me quedaba. Vales la pena pero ya no espero un futuro con vos

You're the first person I truly love. The fact that you'll leave sonner or later breaks me into pieces. Take care of me baka

i want to fall in love again cuz it gave me a reason to stay. i think thats what i miss. its not ur fault

you make it all worth it. i just wish i knew if you ever think of me of more than your bestfriend too.

i stopped talking to you because u made me so happy but so sad. i needed time to find other people who made me happy. and a break from the sadness you always seemed to give me. its not ur fault im sorry

i honestly hope that you're happy without me. because i am so much happier without you. prick. i hate you forever.

I did not do things for you, I did them because of you. You never failed to inspire the best version of myself and I'm sad you're gone. Who's gonna be my muse?

i'm not gonna be clicheic. i knew we weren't gonna last forever. but i had hope. i remember us on a date, at our secret spot, me explaining to you the 3 types of love and you saying this is the "forever" one. oh how wrong we were. we were children. but someplace in my heart i thought and hoped we would make it work. somehow. and we didn't and that's fine. so here's to all our next loves

I was very surprised when you confessed your feelings for me, i wish i could feel the same way but I have a girlfriend.

When we first me I considered you just some weird and shy new guy in a new class. Little did I know that you would be come one of the biggest parts of my little life ever. I was so fucking stupid back then omg. I ignored all of the little signs and flirts you gave me when we were becoming friends. All of my friends and even my parents pointed that out that they thought you liked me. Later to find out you did, and I would end up falling for you as well. I am so sorry that ignored everything and made you feel friend-zoned. At first I thought of you as just a friend but I had no idea I would fall for you at the same time as you were trying to get over me. If I could go back to the past and fix this I would (trust me I would). But then again, I don't know if I would want to. Although we totally could have dated if we wanted to back then, if something would have happened to us, our friendship would have been gone. I love you and care about you so much, I don't want to lose you. I'm scared to tell you now but I do still like you, and I have been trying to get over you for the past couple of months. I think that's why I caught feelings. I didn't want to fall for my guy best friend but it happened. I still love you as a friend I miss you so much. If you are reading this some how, please just know I love you so much, and I never wanted to end up like this. All I need is to know one thing. Do you still like me? Do you think there is a chance that we could get together? Maybe not now, but ever? And if not, please just let me down easy. You don't even know how much you and our friendship means to me, all I want in the world is to know we will stay best friends and everything will be okay.
Love you best friend. Brooke

Lieve S,
We zijn super goede vrienden je kan wel beste vrienden zeggen toen we elkaar nog maar een half jaar kende na onze lange scheiding van elkaar wil ik meer dan alleen vrienden maar ben bang dat onze vriendschap dan ten koste gaat als het fout gaat toch wil ik dat je dit weet...

“falling out of love” with someone is something i never believed in. but then soon turned into a reality as watching you fall out of love with me, a little bit more every single day, hurts like no other pain. 111, 444

I can't tell if my pillow smells like you anymore. I can't enjoy myself without wishing you were here. You'd love the city lit up for Christmas. I can't stop. I should stop. I love you. Goodnight.

I thought if I broke my boundaries for you that you would finally want me but that’s not true and it never will be:/

I know you would never think of me that way, especially because of everything and that you like someone else, but Ive kinda always wished that you did because for some odd reason, ive always had this feeling about you

im so sorry im this way , i cant help it at all. i wanted us to wrok so badly but it didnt. i dont want you but i do. idk. i dont think i can find better ever. but i also didnt think that when i was with her. idk man. life fucking sucks. everything. fucking.sucks.

fuck off fuck off fuck off fuck off fuck off fuck off fuck off fuck off fuck off fuck off fuck off fuck off

I fucking hate you. You left me without reason and you never wanted to fucking try to fix what you broke.

i really thought we might have worked out. for once i thought someone would like me back as much as i liked them. hurts to see u move on but at least ur happy right

I loved you, I really did but now you’ve just made me cry so much and you have made me loose all happiness I may have because of your selfish actions. When is anything ever about me? You never ask me how I’m doing. It’s always about you and you will say things that trigger me and make it seem like it’s my fault that your doing this to yourself. I need to break up with you for my mental health but if I break up with you your mental health will go down. I don’t know what to do as I only ever care about your happiness and you never care about mine. You know nothing about me, because you never ask. I wish I could break up with you. I wish it wouldn’t make you sad, like when I tried to before and you said the worst things, I couldn’t breathe I cried so much, this is all my fault though. I shouldn’t of got with you in the first place. I’m sorry. I truly did love you but you’ve gone too far. When that person asked me out I considered it. Not because I liked her but because she was the only person who was interested in me that actually made me feel happy, unlike you which made me feel empty. I don’t know if you noticed but whenever I’m with you it’s hard to hug you, I can’t look you in the eye. It’s obvious I’m uncomfortable and you don’t even notice. Because when have you ever cared about me. I wish you were happy so that I would be happy. But even when you text me saying that you love me, the guilt, the pressure the memories come to me and I cry. I don’t want to have to live with you. I’m sorry I’m so selfish and I know you want me. And thats why I could never say this to you, I tried once and that was the worst time ever. Please just move on. Please find someone else. Please move on. Go find someone that would treat you better. Go find someone that isn’t sad when you talk to them. Go find someone that doesn’t break down when every time your with them. Go find someone that loves you. I’m sorry I wish it didn’t end like this.

I loved you, I really did but now you’ve just made me cry so much and you have made me loose all happiness I may have because of your selfish actions. When is anything ever about me? You never ask me how I’m doing. It’s always about you and you will say things that trigger me and make it seem like it’s my fault that your doing this to yourself. I need to break up with you for my mental health but if I break up with you your mental health will go down. I don’t know what to do as I only ever care about your happiness and you never care about mine. You know nothing about me, because you never ask. I wish I could break up with you. I wish it wouldn’t make you sad, like when I tried to before and you said the worst things, I couldn’t breathe I cried so much, this is all my fault though. I shouldn’t of got with you in the first place. I’m sorry. I truly did love you but you’ve gone too far. When that person asked me out I considered it. Not because I liked her but because she was the only person who was interested in me that actually made me feel happy, unlike you which made me feel empty. I don’t know if you noticed but whenever I’m with you it’s hard to hug you, I can’t look you in the eye. It’s obvious I’m uncomfortable and you don’t even notice. Because when have you ever cared about me. I wish you were happy so that I would be happy. But even when you text me saying that you love me, the guilt, the pressure the memories come to me and I cry. I don’t want to have to live with you. I’m sorry I’m so selfish and I know you want me. And thats why I could never say this to you, I tried once and that was the worst time ever. Please just move on. Please find someone else. Please move on. Go find someone that would treat you better. Go find someone that isn’t sad when you talk to them. Go find someone that doesn’t break down when every time your with them. Go find someone that loves you. I’m sorry I wish it didn’t end like this.

I just want to let u know that i love u so freakin much and i just cant handle the fact that u choose him over me . Like he hurts u all the time and i could give u so much love , i could understand all types of things and makes u feel happy all the time . I am so scared to tell u about my feelings but i DO love u , i know it for a long time i just couldnt admit it to u. There is something between us , some sparkle. All these kisses, smiles, hugs, compliments, deep talks, and gesture, it has to mean something , there’s No way it didnt mean anything to u. I can just staring at ur ocean eyes all the time, playin with ur hair and touching ur face. U make me feel special, like noone else , i really cant love someone else, i cant forget about u.

You hurt me so bad, i can't love someone anymore because i'm too scared of what could happen and it's destroying me.

You hurt me so bad, i can't love someone anymore because i'm too scared of what could happen and it's destroying me.

memories from ´us´ starts playing in my head. Everything around me disappears. Time stops. I catch my breath. Once again I have to remind myself. You were never mine.

the night u told me u loved her , will always traumatise me. i still cry most nights over u , i’m tired.

the only thing that gets me through the day is knowing that i'm going to see you. I wish that i had been brave enough to tell you that i wanted to be more then just friends

i still think you’re my one, i don’t know if you ever thought of me like that properly. I was always so much more invested, i still am - i just know, deep down. i hope you do you just can’t recognise it yet

you played with my feelings. you made me become a person i hated. i’m only just recovering after 2 years. what you said to me hurt.

i’m happy that i’m no longer in love with you but some part in me still wishes you would love me back

S. you were the first girl I have ever truly loved, but unfortunately I fell in love with the idea of you that I created in my head- deep down I know, as much as you platonically love me and my company, you will never date anyone seriously, not even thinking about another girl like me-you only like the attention for so long ; I know because you like chasing people, and once they give you what you wanted to obtain from them, you leave. forever. Even then, every time I cup your face with my hands, every time I give you a "friendly" kiss on the cheek before saying goodbye, every time I watch you smile at me, still, I want to be with you.

i fucking hate you. i fucking hate you so much, so much, you dont even know. thanks for ruining everything completely. thank you for ruining my life. thank you for ruining the first ever relationship i ever had. you dont even realize how toxic you were, you dont even realize how much you hurt me. hope you are treating your new gf right. fuck you. fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you

I love you and I am so scared that you will stop loving me because I feel like I couldn't live without you

i love u but i am unworthy of ur love. i hope u find someone who treats u the way u should be treated. i’m sorry i said no.

I´ve loved you for so many years,and you still don´t know it.I know if I told you,you would left me.Now you have a Girlfriend.It hurts,but i accept it.I will accept,that you are not a part of my future.I will let go.I love you.Goodbye

i miss you in hurts to be replaced without you realising . i loved u and i cant tell if that’s still the case or i just miss you. can we go back to texting 5 hours a day. ur gorgeous

You hurt me, you hurt me bad. But when I think of you, I don't think about the bad things, I think about the good. I still cry every time you cross my mind. It's sad that things turned out the way they did.

Ich vermisse dich.
Ich vermisse uns.
Bitte, ich kann nicht noch mal ohne dich leben ich schaff das nicht. Bitte komm zurück

Everyone always leaves— you were supposed to keep fighting, you were supposed to stay.
-Forever yours, L

i was screaming i loved you but you were so vacant
i didn't expect love to hurt
or at least, i thought i could take it

We weren't meant to be together, that doesn't change the fact that I loved you a lot and you couldn't notice it :(

I've been tracking your flight for the past 4 hours and I'm in tears that this is the closest I'll be to you

you were a coward and played me so wrong and now you come back like nothing happened playing games again. Fuck you, it's too late

you will always be my first love even though we didn’t make it very far. you’ve taught me to love myself and how to be happy thank you. i love you

first person i ever really loved i wish things could back to the way they were but unfortunately they won’t, i miss u

I never understood us. you make it seem like there is potential and then cop out a day later. I just wish I understood you more.

I miss you so fucking much... but I know you don’t feel the same way. I ruined what we had and I’m sorry