Unsent messages to S

When I left, a part of me stayed with you. I love her more than I loved you but she's the reason I can't move on.

Creo que nunca fui totalmente consciente del daño que me hacías, debi para cuando tuve la oportunidad, pero no lo hice, no pare. Se que tengo una gran herida que sanar, y se que algún dia dejara de salir tanta sangre. Espero algún día encontrarme bien, se que estas heridas llevan tiempo, amor propio y paciencia. Seré un ser libre. Te perdoné desde el día en que me dejaste, por que somos personas que cometemos errores, y no podía obligarte a sentir lo mismo que yo.
Te tendré en mi corazón, como un error del cual aprendí.

You made me realize love isn’t how the fairytales claimed.
You ruined the only thing that gave me hope.

you changed. for the worst, not the better, but i hope one day you learn how to fix that broken piece of you. i still worry sometimes if you're good.

you hurt me, so i hurt you back. and i don’t feel bad. you are everywhere and i wish you weren’t. you asked for more than i could give. and i can’t feel sorry for not being enough.

I think i'll forever be inlove with everything about you, never stop being your unique beautiful self.

i really wish i could go back and the last year with you instead of her. and who said love has to be romantic? you are my soulmate

i’m sorry that i couldn’t tell you how i felt about who i was before it was too late. i’m sorry i left you

I know you'll never read this because you or no longer here but I'm sorry for seeming like I never cared. I didn't even cry at your funeral. But I miss you more then anyone else knows. Your husband moved on pretty quick and has a girlfriend now I think, everybody got kind mad at him for it. I still have though boots you bought for me when I was about nine. I will never give them away haha. Anyways love you and miss you forever.

Para ti, que me dedicaste tu tiempo y cariño. Lamento que lo nuestro no funcionara, pero... Gracias. Gracias por estar ahí para mi, gracias por ayudarme cuando tuve crisis, gracias por incluso ayudarme económicamente cuando no era necesario, le pido al cielo que te mande esa persona adecuada, una persona que te quiera y te ame. Por que yo solo pude verte como un amigo, me dolía que no entendieras, no era por ti, simplemente no fui capaz de superar mis problemas, no fui capaz de alejarme de esa oscuridad cuando tu estuviste conmigo y no podía seguir contaminando te. Eres un chico que merece algo mejor, tus metas y las mías son muy diferentes. Te quiero. Pero no de la misma forma que tu, Lo siento. Mi corazón está sano ahora, no te preocupes, te recordaré como un buen chico sin importar algunas cosas que nunca me hicieron sentir cómoda. Pero no es tu culpa, no lo sabías. Cuidate. Y te deseo lo mejor. Te dejo en libertad de amar y ser amado ♡

I remember the way we would work together and me doing all the work, but I still enjoyed it because it was with you. I wish you would have looked at me like you did her.

I remember the way we would work together and me doing all the work, but I still enjoyed it because it was with you. I wish you would have looked at me like you did her.

i love you. it’s been almost two years and i still love you. i have to let you go. i know you’re never coming back.

Nunca terminare de entender la necesidad de causarme tanto daño, pero donde estés, espero que la vida te llene de mil cosas, que nunca dejes de soñar en grande, que algún día pueda verte feliz en la cima, como siempre lo quisiste y que a pesar que muy posiblemente no podré estar allí, me alegrare siempre, mi prioridad fue siempre verte feliz, y aunque te valió madres lo que yo podía sentir, quiero que sepas que nada ha cambiado, que aún me falta tu risa, tus besos, tus abrazos, que a veces me quema el pensar que no te puedo contar lo que me pasa o que no voy a tener tu mensaje al final del día, pero la verdad, es lo mejor que puedo hacer por mi misma, no podía soportar un dolor más causado por ti, hoy y siempre te voy a amar y te voy a recordar cómo mis mejores días?

I need to tell you that i’ve been in love with you since we were 16. You’ve been unavailable since we were 16. I don’t think there will be time when I do not love the idea of you and me

i didn't stop loving u, i was just going through burnout and got confused. i'm so sorry, i miss u, i love u. R

I don't think you were my first love but you were the first person I opened myself up to and that counts for everything

i still believe at “right boy at the wrong time” but i guess this one is different, maybe in another life love you loser :)

Maybe the time wasn't right or maybe we weren't "right" at the time, but I wish that for you I wasn't just another girl.

it's been weeks but i still sit up at night and wonder what it would be like if the distance hadn't stopped us. i miss you.

once after i had a nightmare, u told me that ‘thick socks scare away bad dreams’, and i wear them till this day

I miss the way your cologne smelled. I miss when youd hold my hand while driving. Maybe someday we'll be ok for eachother

you should've convinced them to still send you here. we're still soulmates. distance doesn't change that. you do.

Sometimes I think I'm not the person for you. You go through so much, and sometimes I feel being there for you isn't enough.. But for now, I'm going to stick with you until the end.

I don’t know who I am anymore perhaps I never did perhaps I am a thousand different people with all one thing in common love for u love for your smile love for your eyes that make me question everything when u glance at me but I’m a girl and it’s a phase and I’m only doing it for attention from boys yet my heart does not beat as fast for them like it does when u come walking towards me and I don’t get up a hour before school to top up my nail polish for them cause godforbid you see a chipped nail as flick the pages of my novel sat next to you in English .your so comfortably yourself all I want to do is join I feel stupid for loving you but I will still get up tommrow morning at 7 am while your getting a lie in to cover my imperfections as I do not see any in you I want your big blue eyes to notice me

i know you miss me ..... i see you watching me all the time .... do u think you're being secretive because you're not, its so obvious. why won't you just talk to me .

i hate that i miss u so much even after all these years. and every month i think about the promises u made and didn't keep

it hurts

i wish you could love me the way i love you, you are my everything, you are the only one i want and it hurts so much to know that i can never have you

you changed my life. i never felt what i feel with you. i don't know what it is. but know i love you.

I see your name everywhere.

It's insane.

At first I thought I'm going crazy, then I thought maybe this is a sign, then I thought maybe it's a cruel reminder.

Now I'm not sure what it means.

It's like your haunting me and I'm slowly learning to make my peace with it.

I wonder if I haunt you the same, I hope I do.

I know you used me, but we had really good times together. I hope you find a way to treat people better.

i hope you've healed and grown as a person, and i hope you find someone to treat right. without violence.

i knew you were playing me but i held onto the pain and shame if it meant having and holding you a little longer.

every time you'd talk about soulmates, my heart would quiver because that's what it felt like with you. you are the first and only person i can picture a future with. despite this, i know you probably don't feel the same. still wish you'd find your happiness, with or without me.

I feel as if I have more than one of me .. but when I am talking to you,, I feel like one. I’m one person when I talk to you. Don’t go.

In the process of saving you, I’m killing my soul. I don’t know how much longer I can last, but I know that you need me. I won’t abandon you, even if it kills me.

De verdad me dolió tanto despertarme y recibir mensajes tan crueles y no me dejaste darte una explicación ni confiaste en mi

I thought we would never fall apart,guess it was just my imagination. u had other plans in your mind, i had others.

I thought we would never fall apart,guess it was just my imagination. u had other plans in your mind, i had others.

I miss you. It was never just friends... and now being friends kills me everyday when I see you at work.

I wish we weren’t so different. I wish I could go back in time. I wish I could let you go.
I still love you

I'm surrounded by people who love me and i can't find it in my heart to love anyone back because im still stuck on you

We could not be in yes because we did not have the courage to say again
But even so, not being together formally, those moments and those laughs and they still continue but no longer with the same feeling as before, now we are friends, everything is left in the past and now we are good friends, even though we were in that mode for 2 years but it was the best

With you I felt like everything was possible. I wasn't embarrased of us, I just was afraid of what other people would think. I'm sorry about that

I was always there, but you never saw me, I was interested and you don't care, you only cared about her, nothing more than her, maybe I was just the stupid girl who was excited about someone that wasn't worth it, there were countless times you hurt me, just fuck you.

Desde el día en que me di cuenta como eras me enamoré de ti, me encantaba que me mandaras fotos de ti haciendo lo que sea, y cuando me pedías un besito moría de amor, jamás pensé que me dejarías de hablar y que estuvieras con otra chica, eso .e dolió mucho, sentía que moriría, muchas noches me preguntaba "¿qué está mal en mi?" Pero nunca había respuesta, me sigues gustando demasiado que si vuelves te acepto con todo el amor que tengo para darte. Siempre en mi corazón, de M

tired of hooking up with strangers to forget the thought of you and still have you haunt my head every second

I think it will always be you..I just wish I could talk to you one last time and get everything off my chest, I miss you & I love you always remember that, okay?

i loved u. now all i see is the top of ur forehead in streaks. no more glances of ur beautiful smile, i loved u truly, till we meet again

You will probably never read this. I wish that I could take all your sorrow anxiety and attacks go away. Wish you fall asleep peacefully everyday??